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Bella POV

When I woke up I rolled over and noticed that Jacob was staring at me.

"What?" I asked blushing, smiling and pulling the sheets up to cover my naked body.

"You did it again." he said with a bitter tone.

I knew what he meant, but I didn't want to admit to it. I had a dream about the meadow again, I must of said his name again. It was embarrassing, I hated myself, I couldn't get over the one person who hurt me the most.

"Did what?.. Sorry I didn't mean to sleep in, let me just go put some clothes on and I'll start breakfast. How's pancakes, bacon and scrambled eggs sound?" I was trying to change the subject, bring food up yeah that will work!-He's a wolf for crying out loud, he eats every five minutes. I swung my legs over the edge and stood not turning around, not looking at my own husband, afraid to look, to hear the truth.

"No Bella you were talking again...about him. Why do you do that, are you not happy?- Bella he, he left you, or have you forgotten? He didn't care about you, none of them do. Its been six years Bella, they aren't coming back. God I hope they don't come back either Bella!"

He grabbed my wrist and I noticed he was shaking, great we were suppose to spend the day together, kid free and its already ruined.

"Jake I'm, I'm sorry. You know I'm happy, I love you and I love the kids, I love the pack even. I'm just stressed, finals are coming up soon, I feel like I'm never going to graduate, I'm the only 24 year old still in my classes. Plus its been six years since Ed- since he, since they left. I just miss, well I miss Alice and Esme and Carlisle and Emmett." And Edward, don't forget Edward Bella, never forget Edward.

"Alice was my best friend, my sister. I never got to even say goodbye." I said trying not to cry. Big fat tears welled up in my eyes giving me away. God I didn't want to cry, I didn't want to think about him, I didn't want to make this about him. Its always, about him.

"Bella , don't cry! I don't get it, they were bloodsuckers! Leeches! They wanted to suck you dry! And you cry over them! Bella I don't want to hear you saying his name again. He's gone, I'm here. You have me, the kids, the pack. I just don't understand...God get over him." he said even more bitterly.

He's right he doesn't understand. Its not like i'm trying to hold on, and its not like its one, two, three puff my feelings are gone! I've been trying for six whole years. I would always love Edward, until the day I die.

"I know, I know Jake, I'm sorry. You're right they aren't coming back. I'm sorry....now what do you want for breakfast?" I said wiping away the tears and faking a smile.

"Blueberry pancakes, sausage, bacon, and some sunny side up eggs with toast." He said pulling me back down on his lap and kissing me. "But only if you do it naked.", he said with a smirk. I couldn't help but laugh. One more kiss and I got up and put on some shorts and a tank top and went to start breakfast.

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After Jake wolfed down a dozen eggs a whole loaf of bread, a packs each of meats and 8 pancakes he had to run down to La Push and do something's with the pack. And me?- I was stuck washing a mountain of dishes. Jake sure could eat, and it always made me feel like a stereotypically house wife. Clean, cooking, kids, clean, cooking kids, and lets not forget the whole college thing I've been trying to accomplish in the last four years.

Lets just say six years ago I didn't see myself in this position at all. After Ed- he left ( I refuse to speak his name) I had nothing, I had no one and that's when I saw Jake in a different light. After he told me about how the Cullen's being there turned him into a wolf, he imprinted on me. We started dating and one year later I found out I was pregnant, so Jake and I got married and the twins soon followed. Charlie was angry but he was happy that I was happy with Jake rather then happy with Edward. If only he knew that Edward couldn't get me pregnant. So instead of going to college, getting married and having kids I was doing it kind of backwards. Pregnant, married, kids, attempting college. Don't get me wrong I love my babies. Elizabeth and Masen are my life. Jake would kill me if he knew I named them with him in mind.

Oh Edward, my heart started to ache and I realized I was washing the same fork for the last five minutes. That's when I saw it, out of the corner of my eye I saw the tree slightly shake.

A/N: I've gotten a lot of attention for this story, but only a couple of reviews and that kinda makes me sad L I don't wanna get all lame and tell you guys to review or else, but reviews will help me figure out what to fix and what to keep, this is my first fanfic and I don't wanna make it lame or boring or too risky. REVIEWS WILL HELP! Buttttt I want to let you guys know that I love that people are actually paying attention to my story that makes me happy.