A/N: this one goes out to letempspasse, for telling me that writing a lemon would make me feel better, it did. So yeah this is my first lemon.
Edward POV
Bella's stories shocked me but not as much as the fact that she was trying to seduce me. She lowered her head and her lips made contact with mine.
I was half aroused and half guilty. I've been dreaming of having a sexual relationship with Bella since day one, but I knew the only reason she wanted to do this so she could feel complete again.
I took Bella's face in my hands and broke the kiss. She was panting from lack of air. "Bella be reasonable. You're upset. Plus I could hurt you." I grabbed her around the waist and sat her down on the bed, putting space between us.
"Hurt me? Edward how could you hurt me? Edward I need this. I've waited seven years for this. Every day since the first day I've seen you, I've thought of this. Please Edward just give it a try. Are you scared? I mean I'll do everything, I don't mind being on top." She blushed the most brilliant red color.
I reached over the small space and ran my fingers across her cheek bones. The monster in me noticed the blood still staining her cheeks. Come on Eddie boy, sleep with her. She won't be in control, you could finally have her. Have her body and her bloody.
I couldn't think straight. I wasn't in control of my actions, the monster was in control. I had Bella on her back and her pajama bottom and top were on the floor without even thinking. I sat back up on my knees and stared down at my angel.
"What?" She asked me. Blushing still.
"I'm looking at your body." That was an understatement, I was memorized by her body, it was exquisite and my pants tightened in response.
Her eyes shifts to the left and she frowned, the blood rushing out of her face. She lifted her arms to cover her stomach. Now it was my turn to frown. What was she doing?
"I'm sorry that I don't have the same body I did six years ago, but I have had two kids. Maybe we should wait until tonight to do this." I saw tears welling up in her eyes. She thought I stopped because I was disappointed in her body?
I've only seen Bella's body on occasion when Alice forced her into a bikini when we would go swimming. She was correct though, her body wasn't the same body I saw seven years ago. Her creamy white thighs, hips and breast were filled out and more round.
Her stomach was still flat with an ever so slight bulge. I noticed a pucker of skin right above her underwear. It was a caesarean scar from when she had her children.
"Bella, your body is beautiful and I love it. I don't want to wait to make love with you. I want to right now." I took a deep and unnecessary breath, trying to think clear. I leaned my head down and kissed her lips.
Bella shifted her legs, spreading them apart, inviting me in. This time Bella broke the kiss. She closed her eyes and muttered for me to take my pants off.
Come on Eddie boy, the lil' lady gave you an order, you're one step closer to tasting her. The monster in me purred.
I sprung to my feet and throw myself across the room so my back was against the far wall. The monster in me growled in displeasure, scratching away inside my skull.
"I can't do this." I whispered to myself.
"I can't do this. I don't want to hurt you." I said loud enough for her to hear.
Bella sat up on covered herself with the blanket. She was still panting from the kiss. Her right hand went to her lips, that were swollen and red from the kiss. She dropped her head into her hands and started to cry.
"You. Don't. Want. Me" she said through the sobs breaking out of her chest. She had it backward. I wanted her more then anything in my life. I didn't want to hurt her.
I put one foot in front of the other until I was standing next to the bed. "Bella." I breathed. How could I make her understand I didn't want to hurt her.
She looked up at me through her teary eyes. I bent down and rubbed my thumb over her cheek trying to wipe the tears away. I grabbed her smooth legs and swung them over the edge of the bed. I got down on my knees and spread her legs, shuffling between them and resting my forehead on her breast.
I could smell the arousal between her legs and realized I had no fuckin clue at all what to do. I wanted this to be special, not Bella doing all the work because I was an 115 year old virgin.
"I don't even know what to do with you Bella. I don't know how to please you or how to touch even you. I want this to be special." I knew that if I could blush, my face would be bright red.
"Edward…I'll guide you through it. You'll be gentle and I know you won't hurt me. If you feel like you are losing control we can stop. I love you Edward and I want to be with you." She lifted my head so I was staring into her warm eyes.
I placed my hands on the bed and pushed him. If I lose control I'll stop, I will no hurt her. I kept chanting in my head. Without my knowledge, my fingers found the buttons of my pants and then my zipper. I felt the fabric gather at my feet and I stepped out of them.
Luckily I had on boxer, because my manhood was straining against the black fabric wanting to get out. Once again my hands betrayed me and I felt my boxers join my pants.
Bella looked shock when her gaze landed on my erection and she cleared her throat. Was that a good or bad sign?
"Well um…I…well…uh. WOW." She said flustered. I'll take that as a good sign. She got to her feet, grabbed my hand and pushed me down on the bed, letting my back hit the sheets.
She took a deep breath, closed her eyes. "Close your eyes." she told me to do. I did what I was told.
Bella POV
I couldn't believe this was actually happening. I kept my eyes closed as I yanked down my underwear. I took another breath, then another and finally got the courage to walk over to the bed.
When I opened my eyes, Edward was still on his back, eyes closed, with a full erection. His size stilled shocked me. Jake wasn't lacking in manhood, but Edward had a good three inches on him. I didn't even know if it would fit.
When my knees hit the mattress, I was so giddy I could of laughed. I felt like a horny catholic girl that was having sex for the first time. I lifted one leg and then the next and hovered over Edward's erection.
I took another deep breath and sat down. I felt the pain shoot through my stomach, but tried my hardest not to make a noise. I looked down at Edward, who's eyes burst open. "Are you ok?" I asked him.
He moaned and I took that as a yes.
I quickened my pace, ignoring the pain in my stomach. I stopped for a moment realizing that he wasn't wearing a condom.
"Hold on, I need to grab a condom." I told him, I learned my lesson the first time I had unprotected sex.
"No need love, I can't reproduce."
"Put your hands on my ass then." I told him. He was hesitant at first, then lifted his hands and squeezed my ass, guiding me to go up then down up then down.
The pain in my stomach melted and was replaced with jolts of pleasure shooting up my body. All I could feel was Edward's cold body off of me and the heat of passion licking at my stomach.
I dipped my head down and started to kiss Edward's collarbone.
"You are so beautiful Bella." He muttered into my hair.
He flipped me onto my back and started pounding into my wet core. I gasped out in pleasure and dug my nails into his back.
"Harder Edward, harder I won't break!" I pleaded. I was burning from the inside out. I didn't know how much longer I could hold out, but I wanted Edward to go first.
Edward quickened his rhythm, gripping onto the headboard. I watched Edward's face as he watched himself going in and out of my body.
I was close to the edge, that my knees started to weaken and I felt the walls of my core tighten around Edward's penis. I reached down to rub my clit, and I felt the jolts of pleasure run through my blood. With my free hand I grabbed a hold of Edward's disheveled hair and yanked him down to my neck.
"Bite my Edward." I instructed, knowing he wouldn't do it. Instead I felt his fangs run along my pusle. I panted heavily when my climax overtook me, and Edward's name escaped my lips.
With one more hard thrust, I felt Edward come inside me. He fell on my body and started into my eyes.
"So that's what I've been missing out on for the last seven years." he said smiling.
A/N: Ok so it was a little lemony. I didn't realize how weird it was to write a lemon, so don't hate me its my first one. Haha. Thanks for baring with me guys. My gram is in the hospital and not to be a downer but the doctor's don't give her much more time. Plus my charger died so I haven't been having the best luck yet. I'm going to see my favorite band bayside tomorrow and then back to school on Sunday so I don't know when I can update next. Please review guys. I just want you all to know I love you! Thanks so much!