Disclaimer: The Young Wizards series belongs to Diane Duane.
A/N: This may not make much sense. Blame the plot bunnies. The italics are one of the Powers.
There's been some kind of mistake. I don't want it. Take it back! I don't want it.
Yes you do.
No, I don't. There's too much pain, and suffering, and heartbreak… Sure, there's some fun stuff too, like the traveling and all the cool people you meet. And yeah, there are some things that words can't describe, in any language, even the Speech. Like the view from the moon, the feeling of power that comes with doing a spell, and the feeling you get when you read it. That feeling…it's wonderful. It's like you're the only person in the universe. Everything stops and the universe focuses on you. It's… amazing. And talking to plants and animals and rocks and having them answer is incredible. Magical.
But I could do without the monsters, the pain, the destruction, the danger, the heartbreak, the responsibility… it's too much! I can't take it. The magic is fun, but the rest…
The rest is what makes wizardry wizardry. Who am I kidding? It wouldn't be the same without the hard stuff, the sad stuff, and the scary stuff. Reading a spell in a hurry, when a second could mean the difference between life and death, is the ultimate high. And how could I live with myself, knowing that I contributed, even the tiniest bit, to speeding up entropy? How could I forgive myself for helping bring about the end of the universe that much sooner?
I couldn't. I can't. I want it. I want it!
We know. We were never going to take it from you.
Wizardry does not live in the unwilling heart, and I know why. Anyone who could seriously give this up, who could actually go through with it, doesn't deserve to be a wizard. We do what we do to because we have to, because we want to; not because the benefits outweigh the risks.