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Silent Suffering
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Chapter 3: I'll Never Understand Him
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I opened my bedroom door just far enough for me to poke my head out of and look each way down the hall. Nothing to the right and nothing to the left. Good. I didn't want to face Gaara after what had just happened. I pulled my door open the rest of the way and then closed the door lightly behind me and rested my forehead against my now closed door. 'What just happened? Why did he do that?' I asked myself.
Maybe this was Gaara's new way of torturing me with his presence. He would barge into my privet moments and do everything he did just ten minutes ago, only to smirk that damnable smirk of his and then walk away, leaving me sexually frustrated. Was that his new game? Maybe he thought our verbal fights we usually have don't hurt me enough, so he goes and makes me sexually frustrated and so very guilty.
Guilty. Why am I feeling guilty? Because I have a boyfriend, Naruto-kun, and yet for some stupid and idiotic reason - which I'm sure I'll never understand, no matter how hard I try - I enjoyed what Gaara was doing to me! Why couldn't I push Gaara away? I have Naruto-kun, isn't that enough? Sure, he isn't the best boyfriend and I'm pretty sure he has a hard time deciding which he loves more. Me or Ramon. But even though he has his faults, we have been together since high school and I don't want to just throw him away as though he means nothing to me, because he does something to me. Maybe Gaara is trying to get back at me for all the names I've called him in the past or maybe he just did it for fun...?
I sighed heavily. 'Why me?' I groaned mentally.
"Nice sleep?" Asked a male voice from behind me.
I jumped and gave a little "Eep!" noise and turned around, expecting it to be Gaara. Thankfully, I was wrong. "Sasuke-kun! Good morning! I had a great sleep, thank you! Did the Daddy-to-be have a nice sleep too?" I asked kindly, not wanting Sasuke-kun to ask what was wrong with me. I can't tell anyone about what just happened between Gaara and myself. Never.
Sasuke-kun had just been coming out of his and Ino-chan's room.
You see, the whole gang lives under one roof. We have a nice, big house. Big enough for us, anyway. We all have our own room along with a spacious kitchen, two living rooms, a game room, privet bathrooms in our bedrooms and a nice, big garden out the back with two rusty, old swings. We all pitch in and pay for our house, and we never have to buy our own food because Tsunade-sama doesn't mind us using her own food.
Tsunade-sama has been brought up in a rich family and her parents died a few years ago, giving all their money and precious possessions to their only daughter, Tsunade-sama. But, Tsunade-sama just wanted to live like a normal person, so she opened the shop that we all now work in and so the money was just laying around, so she suggested that she could use that money to buy us food whenever we needed it. At the time we were all very desperate and were barley keeping the house, so we jumped at the chance and ever since, she has always bought our food.
He smirked lazily at me and made a hand gesture for me to follow him down stairs. We walked side by side as he answered "Ino-chan's hormones are really getting to me. She woke up at about two in the morning crying her eyes out, although I never found out why. I held her for about two hours until she suddenly started screeching at me. I think she was screaming something about her looking fat to me and about me cheating on her.
I raised my eyebrows, but said nothing.
"Anyway, all I had to say was that I wasn't, then she was all happy and bubbly again and giggling at the littlest of things, like a funny shaped lamp! I don't think I can put up with much more of this." Sasuke-kun shook his head from side to side and chucked slightly. "Damn her hormones."
I giggled along with him as we reached the bottom of the stairs and started toward the kitchen door. He opened the door and held it open for me. I smiled. If it was one thing I really liked about Sasuke-kun, it was the fact that he could be such a gentleman when he wanted to be.
I thanked him and walked into the kitchen, still with a big smile on my face. Well, that was until I found out that Gaara was sitting down at the big, round, wooden table in the middle of the kitchen. I frowned. He was even sitting in the seat next to the one I always sit in. What are the odds?!
I decided to ignore Gaara as I sat down next to him, even though I could feel his intense gaze on me and only me. I put all my focus into hiding my blush that was dieing to make my face turn into a lovely scarlet colour. I was so focused that I didn't hear my name being called for the tenth time from my brunette haired friend, TenTen-chan. "Hinata!!" she shouted while waving her hand wildly in front of my face. I blinked and looked up at her.
"Finally, you're back to the land of the living!" TenTen-chan exclaimed while rolling her chocolate brown coloured eyes at me and resting her fists on her hips. I gave her an apologetic look, still noticing that Gaara was still staring at me. Doesn't he know its rude to stare?! "I'll ask you again. What do you want for breakfast?" she asked me while glancing over at Temari-nee-chan. It was Temari-nee-chans turn to cook today.
"I think I'll just have some cereal." I muttered out, not really hungry.
She nodded her head and walked over to Temari-nee-chan and told her what I wanted, then with a nod from her, TenTen-chan walked back over to the table and took her usual seat which was opposite Gaara.
I think she also noticed Gaaras intense gaze on me because she gave me a questioning look, but I just shrugged and thanked Temari-nee-chan when she placed my bowl of cereal in front of me. She smiled and went back to cooking as everyone else came down for breakfast and took their seats at the table, apart from Naruto-kun. I smiled. He always slept in, no matter who went to wake him up, even myself.
I shook my head and took hold of my spoon and scooped some cereal onto my spoon. As I was about to take a bite, I froze as I felt someones leg brush against my own. I looked around the table at everyone only to see everyone going on with their own business, so I decided that it was by mistake and went to open my mouth to put the spoon on my mouth, but before I could, I felt it again. This time I knew who it was because they were staring at me, once again, from the corner of their eye, smirking slightly at my obvious discomfort.
Gaara.
I suddenly lost my apatite and placed my spoon back in my bowl full of cereal. Why was it that just with a brush of his leg, it sent a bold of pleasurable lightening down my back? Am I going mad?
Soon he was rubbing his leg against my own, his smirk widening a little bit. He was either enjoying the feelings as much as myself, or he just loved messing with me again.
'No. I refuse to think that Gaara could like me this way. He must be doing this to get on my nerves. Yeah! That has to be it!' I reasoned with myself. With that thought in mind, I tried to push his leg away from my own, but I hadn't put enough force into the push so my leg just brushed with his own. He obviously must have taken this as a good sign because he got even more bolder and... and...
... He placed his right hand on my left thigh, making my eyes widen so much that I thought they were going to pop out of their sockets. My breath caught in my throat. What. The. Hell. Is. He. DOING?! My mind was screaming at me to slap his hand off from my thigh and scream out how much of a pervert I think he is in front of all our friends, but once again, something held me back. And I hated myself for it.
I sat there, frozen. And the worst part was that no one seemed to notice. They were all too engrossed in their food or their conversations to see that I was now extremely uncomfortable.
I saw from the corner of my lavender tinted eyes that Gaara was still staring at me from the corner of his jade coloured eyes. He now had a wide smirk on his face, satisfied with himself. He started making lazy patterns on my thigh, ever so slightly moving his hand up my leg at the same time. And I just sat there, disturbed with myself that I seemed to be liking this so much. Soon he was playing footsies with me again and this time I decided not to try and move it away, just encase he took it as another good sign and wanted to do something else. Something even more bold.
He started to stroke my thigh and I thanked Kami that the work clothes came with a long skirt and not a skimpy looking one. It is dark blue and stops just before my knees. I bit my lip and used all my will power to slap his hand away from where is was comfortably placed on my thigh. This just made him smirk - if possible - even bigger, almost making the smirk look like a lob-sided smile.
He seemed to think this was some sort of game because he then ran his fingers lightly, barley touching, up my leg, starting from my knee right up to my hip. I had to bite my bottom lip harder to keep the small moan in my throat and I don't even know how I contained the shiver of pleasure I felt.
I started to feel terrible, but before I could start feeling any guilt, there was a loud crash, making everyone stop what they were doing, even Gaara, and look up to the door of the kitchen, only to see a barley awake Naruto-kun stumble in, muttering curses under his breath that I can only imagine must be for Tsunade-sama. She had kept him back after we had had to listen to Tsunade-sama shouting and screaming at us for most of the night. I never got to ask him what she wanted because I had fallen asleep before he had gotten home.
"Naruto-kun!" I shouted happily, jumping up from my seat, making the hand on my thigh slip off. I was so relieved to see him. It meant getting away from Gaara and his teasing. I noticed that everyone but Gaara went back to what they were doing before they were interrupted. "What are you doing up so early? I can't remember the last time I saw you up so early." I teased.
Naruto-kun seemed to have woken up a little more now because he replied sarcastically "Oh, ha ha!" And bent down to give me a quick kiss on the lips. Surprisingly this earned a small - barley audible - growl to come from the kitchen table. Nauto-kun and myself turned around and saw Gaara glare heatedly at us, before turning away from us and started eating his breakfast. I blinked a few times before turning back to Naruto-kun and cocking an eyebrow at him. He just shrugged his shoulders before taking his usual seat next to mine. I sighed inwardly. At least Gaara won't try and feel me up again now that I had my boyfriend sitting next to me. Or at least I hope he wont try anything funny...
And he didn't. For the rest of breakfast, nothing exciting happened, and it soon came time for work.
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I hummed to myself as I walked around the small shop with a box full of different items. I walked over to one of the shelves and started placing the different items with the matching ones. I did this for about half an hour, going from different isles to place the items on the shelves, still humming to myself. At the moment, only Temari-nee-chan, Naruto-kun, Gaara and myself are working. The rest are either delivering items to the houses of the people who ordered them or are having a small break. I vaguely wondered when it was my turn for a break, then just shrugged inwardly and went back to work.
"Excuse me." Someone tapped me on my shoulder and I turned around, only to be face to face with an old lady.
"How may I help you?" I asked her politely while putting down the now almost empty box.
She nodded her head and smiled sweetly at me. "Would you mind being a dear and get that stuffed panda bear for me?" She asked me and pointed to where the stuffed panda bear was.
I frowned. It was in the top shelf and I knew that I wouldn't be able to reach it without a small ladder. I shook my head inwardly. The old lady may have picked the wrong person to do this job, but I wasn't backing down. It would be rude. Luckily for the both of us, I had seen a small three-stepped ladder just in the isle next to the one we were in right now. "Alright. I'll just go and get a step ladder then I'll get the panda bear for you." I said.
"Oh, you're such a good dear." I heard the small woman comment as I walked to the next isle to get the ladder. After I had gotten it and brought it back, the old lady was still standing in the exact same spot she was in when I had left, only she was looking up at the shelf where the stuffed panda was.
I placed the step ladder on the floor in front of the shelves and stepped onto the first step. When I had made it to the third and final one, I looked up, only to frown once again. The ladder wasn't tall enough to reach the last shelf where the panda was sitting, looking down at me and taunting me. I glared at the stupid panda bear, which looked a lot like Gaara seeming as he wears so much eyeliner, and stood on my tip-toes and stretched my arm out as far as I could and tried to reach for the panda bear. Key word tried. I still couldn't reach the damn thing!
I saw something move from the corner of my eye, but decided to ignore it. I was way too focused on the stupid panda bear that was still taunting me, saying I couldn't reach it because I was too weak, if that even made any sense. But I still took it as taunting and so I tried to stand even higher on my tip-toes. Still no use. 'I hate being short.' I thought grimly.
I saw something move once again from the corner of my eye, but again I decided to ignore it... Well, that was until "Eep!"
Two strong, muscular and slightly toned arms wrapped themselves tightly around my waist and lifted me up from the small ladder and set me back down on the ground. I blinked rapidly as I tried to make sense of what happened. The arms removed themselves from my waist and I turned around, only to see Gaara staring down at me with a blank face. I took a quick glance at the old woman to see that she was just as confused as myself. But, before I could shout at him for doing what he did, her turned to the ladder and started to climb the three small steps.
I saw him through disbelieving eyes as he reached up and got the small panda bear without even having to stretch. And that's when I noticed just how tall he was. He looked to be at least a head taller than myself. My mouth was hanging open slightly as I saw him descend from the ladder and kindly hand the old woman the small panda bear, giving the old woman a charming smirk while he was at it. The old woman said how thankful she was to him and how her grandchild was going to love the present, then wobbled off and left a smirking Gaara who was now staring intensely at me, and me, disbelieving and gobsmacked.
"Catching flies, little one?" He asked me smoothly.
I shut my mouth with an audible click and decided not to take the bait. I gave him a quick glare and then turned my back to him and walked over to the box with the different items in and started to, once again, place the items on the shelf where they belonged.
I didn't hear the shuffling of feet getting closer to me or the feel of someones presence behind me until their chest was lightly brushing my back every time they inhaled. I stiffened and closed my pale eyes and prayed to every Kami I knew that it wasn't who I thought it was. "What, no thank you?" The voice purred.
I guess the Gods didn't hear my very loud prayer.
I gritted my teeth and once again put the box down. When I had done that, I turned around and placed my fists on my hips and glared at the person before me. "Sabaku Gaara, for the love of Kami, grow up! You are twenty one and I am twenty. Don't you think that we should stop these childish games?" I vaguely wondered to myself why I was asking such a thing. I may as well just ask him to be my best friend, because it just sounded as though I wanted to make friends with him. But I don't. I only want a trues. This has gone on long enough now and it's time to be the bigger person and end the childish games.
But he just smirked down at me and I rolled my eyes at him. His face started to inch closer to mine all of a sudden until I felt, for the second time today, his hot breath against my ear. "You're right." He purred lowly so that only I could hear. I could barley keep the blush off my face. "Our fights are a bit... Childish. How about we make them more... Adult-like?" My eyes widened at what he meant and I couldn't keep the blush that covered every inch of my face.
He pulled back slightly and chuckled at the colour of my face before one of his hands tangled themselves in my hair. He pulled my face closer to his and I watched with wide eyes as his face got closer to mine and he closed his jade coloured eyes. For the life of me, no matter how much I wanted to stop him, I couldn't. I watched as our lips were so close that I could feel is hot breath mix with my own...
... And then it happened.
"Hinata-chan?!" Someone shouted, and from the loudness of the voice, they sounded close. Gaara now had his eyes open again and we started at each other for the longest time, still barley an inch apart from each other, before I heard footsteps getting louder and louder, heading toward us. I jumped away from Gaara just in time, because the person who called my name turned the corner. "Hinata-chan! There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you!" Naruto-kun shouted while running over to me and a glaring Gaara. He didn't seem to notice Gaara though because he ran straight to me and looked at me with a grim face.
"What's wrong?" I asked and tilted my head slightly in a questioning manner.
Naruto-kun sighed before explaining. "Remember yesterday when granny Tsunade asked me to stay behind after everyone else?" At my nod he continued. "Well, she told me that she wants me to go and deliver some things to the someone who lives in the Village Hidden in the Mist. I have to leave right now and I wont be back for about a week." He said sadly.
"A week! That's too long!" I protested, but by the look on his face I knew he had to go.
"I'll be back as soon as I can. I promise." He told me then kissed my lightly on the lips. Why was it that I didn't feel anything in that small kiss, yet when Gaara was about to kiss me I felt as though my knees were going to give out on me?
Naruto-kun left then, leaving me all alone, or so I thought. I had completely forgotten that Gaara was there and watching us. I sighed sadly. Naruto-kun was always the one to go on long deliveries. In fact, I should count this as being lucky, because sometimes Naruto-kun has to stay for two weeks, depending on how many people had ordered and what kind of items they bought from our shop. My train of thoughts was soon interrupted when two familiar toned arms wrapped themselves around my waist once again from behind. "Gaara, get off of me." I demanded. I was in no mood to play.
"I'll keep you company while you're boyfriend is away." He spat out "Boyfriend" and I had a sudden urge to ask why he hated Naruto-kun so much, but then thought better of it. Like he would actually tell me.
I pushed away from him and mumbled a "go away". But, of course that didn't work. He walked over to me until out faces were about an inch apart. "I cant wait for tonight, little one" He chuckled out before walking away and leaving me bewildered.
I will never understand that man.
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