A/N: Oh God, 3 days of full imagination and I didn't know how to begin it. Finally, on my English class, I wrote the beginning. I hope you like it as much as I do. There will be the replies in the end of this story.

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, Masashi Kishimoto owns it.

You're The Way I Feel

Chapter 4

The Hardest Thing I've Ever Do

The fate keeps them apart and they don't know how to do without the others. Every time they saw each other before, they only kept practice and prioritized their job. The man kept saying that he's not worthy for her and he didn't want her for not being free. The woman kept not being brave to say aloud her feelings. They didn't know how to be with the others. In fact, they've only been their selves with each other. They didn't know what it likes to be so far away with the others, like now.

Neji's walking through the forest. 'It's going to be a 3-day journey if there's no sand storm,' he scans around. He's trying to be focus but for him, it's still not the same without her. "Tenten, I miss you," he whispers and jumps to the trees.

"Leaving you is the hardest thing I've ever done in my 109 years"

Edward Cullen – New Moon

FLASHBACK

"Can I decline this mission? It's impossible for me to leave her," Neji said to the Hokage. Tsunade sighed, 'I know it's going to be like this,' she said to herself. "It's impossible too, Neji. I know it would be better to send Naruto, Kazekage's best friend, but, you don't do missions recently, and it's better for you to have solo long missions. It's your ninja's way to accept all things FOR YOUR OWN VILLAGE!" she yelled at him in her 4 last words. He only bowed his head, knowing that he couldn't beat Tsunade in her anger. 'Tenten, I won't be able to be apart from you, especially for 10 months like this.' That boy said in his breath.

When he walked to the door, Tsunade said, "I know it's hard for you to be so apart from your loved one, but I know she will understand it, especially a tough girl like her." Neji only nodded and closed the door. When the door's closed, Tsunade sighed and Shizune said, "It's hard for both of them and I know deep in your heart you don't want them to be like this, Tsunade-sama." Tsunade stared at the door and kept silent. That two women could only stared at the door sadly.

A 20-years-old man was walking to the apartment of a brunette woman that he's been so in love. He looked at the door, the same door he slept over before, and knocked slightly at that door. A brunette girl opened the door and said, "Neji? What was Tsunade saying?" The boy couldn't stay it and hugged that girl immediately. "Tenten, I'm going to do some solo mission for 10 months," he said to her. "Tenten, I don't know if I can do it, it's hurt inside, really hurt that it's going to kill me slowly," he hugged her more. "I'm fine, Neji, I'm not going anywhere, I'm staying here. When you're back, go to my apartment, 'kay?" she said, holding her tears. But, she couldn't hold one, a tear come down past her cheek. "It's going to be hard for both of us and I promise I will come back as soon as possible," he said and swept her tears. Their forehead met and they kissed in tears.

END OF FLASHBACK

"I can still smell your sweet body, I can still hear your laughter, and I can still see your smile, even we're a thousand miles apart"

"Tenten!" someone's approaches her from behind. "Sakura? What are you doing here?" that brunette girl looks behind confusedly and look at her pink-haired friend. "Just walking around, Ten. I heard you're going out with Neji, am I right?" Sakura grins and teases the woman in front of her. "Yes," Tenten tries to smile. "He's going on a solo long mission, right? It's really hard to be so far away with the one we really love. In fact, it's not going to be as simple as 'I'm fine, go ahead and I'll wait for you' like that. People don't know what it's like to keep all true emotions inside and faking smile," Sakura says while they're walking. She remembers how she be so in love with the Uchiha hatred man. "Now, I have Kakashi that I know won't leave me alone again, but sometimes that trauma's haunting me. I'm afraid to be alone again, to be betrayed, and feel no love inside," that pink-haired woman says to the brunette one. Tenten only smiles at her, a fake one, a hurt one.

Tenten arrives at her apartment. The apartment keep making her remember how he sat on that chair, how his sweet smell flowed in her apartment, and how they slept in that sofa. "Neji, it's going to be hard without you here, I can't stand to stay without you, and it's killing me slowly." She gets down on her knees and cries. "I'm not a tough girl, Neji, without you. I'm not myself without you by my side. Why does fate keep us apart after years of waiting?" she said crying.

"Thank you pillow, for lowering my screams and crying for him"

(Tenten POV)

What Sakura said is right; it's not going as simple as I said. It's not what people in sloppy romances said, "I'm staying, love you so much! You're going to be back!" In the end of that story, the man always comes back with no purpose, feels like the true love is so easy to get. It's so simple and unreal. What I've been feeling these days without him are empty. I'm so isolated from what I was and it's going to wake what I am deep inside. It's only been a few days and what I need is him, so exaggerated. I'm a tough and tomboy, it's very not me whether I cry and scream aloud. That's exactly what I do lately. I asked for missions and I got D-rank mission yesterday. Watching the kids, so simple mission, but, it brought back memories. I remember when a kid played his hair in the playground.

His fragrant hair flew in the air, oh Kami-sama, how I missed that sweet-smell gather in my nose. I don't know how to feel, it's not me when there's no him. That pain again, that pain when I gave up my feelings, is going to consume what I get now, overload my brain and make me crazy.

I scream in my dreams and have been having the same nightmare every night. A nightmare that he was taken from me, that he fought for saving Kazekage's life to nearly died, that he left me and his family killed him because he turns up one nose at their willing for marrying some pointless noblewoman. It's hurt, it's really hurt, to see him like that, even just in a dream.

You don't know how I take it, how he was so easily gone, left me here, with shattered hope and many cold lonely nights. My neighbors keep complaining about my loud screams but finally they understand my feelings. I'm not so brave to call his name because I know I will end up crying all day long. Sometimes my friends come to see whether I'm fine or not, but it's too exaggerated, okay? It's only 10 months of being apart, not that he ditches me or anything like that. That fear and pain is the source of everything, I think. They're going to consume my brain and telling me the wrong idea, not the right one.

His family. With their strict rules, I don't really hope that they will allow me to be with him. It's truly too high for me to achieve it. He's a genius prodigy, for God's sake! With their true bloodline flows in his veins, who am I for wanting to be with him forever ever after?

I know, there's a fear too deep inside his heart, how he still feels ashamed and guilty when he thinks I'm going to be a bunke like him, being so restricted. I know that when I look at his face, there's always that fear. That fear consumes him too. If the fate never makes us together again, what else will I do? I can't do it. I can't even think of anything worse than that. That family, how can I take it? My heart doesn't let me to do something I used to like. I miss sleep tight so much. Foods don't make me full again, drinks never make me relieved again, and sleeps never make me dream like I used to have.

"Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me, maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems, maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano, all I know is I love you too much"

Eminem ft. Rihanna – Love The Way You Lie

(Author POV)

An indigo-haired grown up girl walks up to the stairs. She scans around while brings a bucket of fruits. She looks at the door and knocks it. "Tenten-nee-san?" she calls her cousin's girlfriend, but no sound from inside. "Tenten-nee-san?" she calls her once again, a little louder but still no sound coming from inside. "Tenten-nee-san!" she yells a little and opens the door. Then she sees her cousin's girlfriend is lying unconscious on the floor. "Tenten-nee-san!" Hinata comes closer.

"I'd better to die than being so apart with you"

TO BE CONTINUED

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