A/N : Wow, it's been a long time since I updated this story last time. Sorry, really really sorry for the very late update! *bow head* I had been focusing in Fandom Naruto Indonesia, so I forgot to update this story of mine. How it's been readers? Oh yeah, for the late update, I felt really sorry and I decided to write one shot of NejiTen on English. I've written a one-shot but in Indonesian. Can you give me an advice for the story? The rating is T (as usual) but I'm confused with the genre. Please vote! I'll make the vote in my profile. Okay, here we go!
Disclaimer: Naruto is not mine, it is Masashi Kishimoto's
Warning: little bit OOC, don't like don't read, *hush hush* *kicked*
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You're The Way I Feel
Chapter 5
Join the Pain Inside
©kosukefan – brainproject
I keep searching for your presence in every place that I past. I keep hearing your soft and husky voice on my ears at night. I keep dreaming for you in every night I encounter to. How much seconds do I have to been through without you? The pain inside can't be endured again. I miss you too much..
Neji Hyuuga, I'm craving for your presence here.
(TENTEN POV)
"Tenten! Tenten!" I can feel someone is calling my name, but I don't want to wake up. I can't. I can't face the truth that he's not here with me. I want him to be there. It's so silly and selfish, right?
I open my eyes. I come to the field which full of flowers and big trees. "Do I finally come to Heaven?" I scan around and find no one to be asked where this is. The flowers are beautiful and I walk around the flowers. The breeze of wind is so wonderful and I never felt this peaceful before. I lean on the field while looking at the really blue sky
"Tenten, please wake up," I hear his voice from behind, demanding as always. "Neji?" I called his name, hope he will appear in front of me even just a while. There he is, standing gallantly, so strong and muscular with his long brown hair flow by the wind. "Tenten, wake up please, there are many people that love you, that care about you so much. They will be worried if you don't wake up soon," he says again.
"But Neji, I don't want to. I don't want to know that I will be wake up without you beside me," I start to cry. He just stands silent but his hands move to my back and he embraces me like no other tomorrow. "Tenten please, I don't want to look you near to death again, I love you Ten, really-really love you, please don't make me more worried," he says while drying my tears.
"Neji, I'm not a strong woman like everyone knows! I'm fragile and weak! I'm.." he pauses my words by kissing me on mouth. He's shutting his eyes really tightly, like holding tears. His mouth is still on mine. I never saw his pained face before, even when he's near death.
"You can see now, right Ten? I'm not a great man on Earth, too. I can be so delicate too, Ten, I want to show all of my emotions to you," he smiles and one tear come down from his eyes. "Now, wake up Tenten, we'll be meeting in months later," His silhouette is fading now and I'm feeling that I'm going to be fading too, "I'll meet you soon, love," he smiles again and disappear from the field.
I wake up with many sweats on my face. I looked around and detect the smell of medicine all around me. I cough again and see all around. I'm sitting on a bed with white cover and a cupboard beside me with a vase and a glass of water on it. There're 2 windows, all open, with white covers too. The door is in front of me, oak door.
'I'm on a hospital,' I sigh. It's been a long time since I last stayed on hospital. I grab the glass and drink it all. I've been thinking since when I'm unconscious. "Tenten-nee-chan? Are you awake yet?" someone calls me from the door. "Yes, I'm awake, just in," I say with my throaty voice. A cute face of my love's cousin comes to sight. She closes the door elegantly and walks to the side of the bed. "Do you need anything, nee-chan? You've been coma for 2 months," she says worried.
'Wow, 2 months? It's been a long time,' I think deep in mind. Yeah, but it was all my faults. I rarely ate since he left and I just trained for 7 hours each day. Cool, right? Really cool until I'm coma.
"The doctor said that it was because of your stomach is empty. You never ate since Neji-nii-san left, didn't you?" Hinata says while looking at the floor. I have a negative feeling after this. Looking at her emotions, I think that she's going to cry for worrying about me. I'm unreasonable for my action. I just nod slightly, can't thinking of anything else.
"Tenten-nee-chan, don't be like this," Hinata says. I look at her start-to-cry face. No words come from my mouth. "You were coma for 2 months and the doctor said that you didn't want to wake up when you're coma, it was based on your willing and it concerns your psychology. What would happen if Neji-nii-san knew? He would blame himself for everything. I d-don't want anything bad happens to both of you and your relationship. You two are like idols to me, how can I be happy when you two are hurt psychically?" she says sorrowful with thousands of tears in both of her cheek. I really can't say anything, especially when I see her sorrowful face.
'Neji, you're right. There's someone that cares deeply about me and our relationship,' I looked at the ceiling deeply, thinking when can I be happy together with him. Hinata still cries on the desk and I can't hurt her more than this. I hold her delicate body, "I won't do this again. This is the last time, I promise," I close my eyes; hope everything in less than 5 months again will be fine, I hope.
"I thank my God every time I remember you"
Philippians 1:3
I miss him again. It's my newest hobby and I can't stop doing that. Just thinking of his well-toned body beside me is holding me close. I can smell his strong scent spinning in my nose even I know he's not here with me. I keep searching him in every place I go, I miss him, really miss him until the pain can't be endured again. I just keep hoping that when I see the places with our memories, I find him there.
I know this love is going to irritated me more but I don't want to stop loving him and I can't, for now and the day I'm going to face. I live until this time; it's not that I'm the strongest or the most rigid woman on Earth. It's all because of Kami-sama's blessings and his presence in most of my life. Hyuuga Neji.
Hyuuga Neji. My boyfriend now, my long-time crush, and the one that make me cry and happy at the same time. Why? Because we love each other even we know for sure that we live in a very different world. However, I know that he never stops fighting for the right of our love, neither do I.
"Tenten..." The way he calls my name, the way his hoarse voice twisting on my ears. His voice is my most favorite music. His strong fragrant on my nose is the world to me. The world's sweetest fragrance is nothing compare to his smell. Kami-sama, I'm longing for him! But, there's nothing I can do now.
"Love is when someone leaves you and then you feel really lost"
Life on hospital is really boring. You can only eat, sleep, take a bath and daydreaming here. I wondered why some kids want to stay at hospital instead of studying in academy. I can't train here, not allowed specifically. Once I sneaked for training alone at night, Sakura saw me and dragged me to bed while giving me a speech about my condition and then she told Hinata. That cousin-of-my-boyfie gave me a long speech again. So troublesome, like what Shikamaru would say.
I missed training. My whole body feels really sore without that. It's all thanks to my love that always dragged me for 6-hours training once a day. When I first trained with Neji, I kept complaining inside, now? I'm going to be a training freak.
Well, Hinata, Lee, and Guy-sensei often visited me in this hospital room, Temari send me some letters to encourage me from Suna and gives me Neji's condition. I relax that he's fine and doesn't know anything about my bad condition. But somehow, I still miss the air outside. I can't go outside due to what doctor said about my condition. The doctor said that my condition isn't stabile. I can have emotional roller-coaster because of my feelings about losing him. I'm exaggerated? I'm only saying what that doctor said.
I miss my weapons. Most of them are on my scrolls and the others are hided in all side of my apartment. I would clean them if they were here. Where are they now? Well, after Hinata gave me that really long speech, she took all of my scrolls on me as a punishment for me that not caring about my condition. I'm so unlucky, right?
In the time like this, I can only think what Neji does in Suna. Is he happy there? I wondered how he will change in the next 4 months. I've dreamed about waiting for him in front of the gate of Konoha. I want to meet him again, but then, I have to wait patiently.
SKIP TIME
"Tenten-nee-chan, he's going to be in gate for the next minutes!" Hinata screams at me. I close my eyes and start to jump from one roof to another. Neji finally come back, after 10 months of being so lonely without him here.
"Come on Hinata, move fast!" I tell the younger girl, who is running on the street, and start to run fast and jump higher. I'm not going to miss the moment when he's finally back with his whole presence in the air near me. The gate of Konoha suddenly comes to my sight.
I jump down from the last roof and arrive first before Hinata. After a few seconds, Hinata come with her short breathing and looks really tired. I suddenly feel sorry that I asked her to move really fast because of my selfishness.
'Neji, we're going to meet soon,' I close my eyes and when I open it, I see his presence, his good-looking face, his well-toned body, his sweet scent all over the air near me. Time suddenly feels slower than it used to be. I run to him and the more I come closer, the more it feels so real. I miss him and now, I can feel him next to me again. It's like the dreams I've had for this 10 months.
"Tenten," he gives me his sweetest smile and holds me close when I'm near him. "I miss you, love. Tadaima," he says and holds me tighter. "Okaeri Neji-kun," I smile to him and rub his cheeks; it feels real, that he's here now and I'm not going to let him go just for a second. I looked at Hinata and she smiles to me, feels happy about the encounter I have with Neji. I smile back to her, thankful that she and Temari are the one that always support me in every struggle I have in these 10 months. I look at him again; he gives me his truest and sweetest smile in this world.
"Finally, we're together again," he gives me slight kiss on my right cheek. I can feel the blood flowing to my head. "You two are not going to be together again," a voice tells him from the side behind us. "What?" we say together and look at the side. Neji looked really shocked, neither do I, and he says,
"Hiashi-sama?"
"I don't care about what they say, I only want to be with you"
TO BE CONTINUED
A/N: Finally, this chapter is done! I'm really sorry for the skip time. I didn't have any idea for that scene; maybe I will replace this chapter once I really have the big and good idea for this chapter. I don't feel satisfied with this chapter and please give me some ideas for this chapter! I'm really in mind block, especially now I have the mid-term test, so I really can't concentrated to my writing T,T sorry all, really really sorry, especially for the late update!
And here the replies XS :
Midnight Insomniac : Hey again! XD the repeat I often do it on purpose for making the words can be more go into the heart of readers, but maybe it makes you all feel like de javu right? T_T For the grammatical errors, I'm trying to reduce it on this chapter. I live in a country that doesn't speak English as the national language, so there may be many grammatical errors, but I'm really trying to have less error. u.u How's this chapter? Your reviews always support me, thank you for keep reading from the chapter 1.
DarkAnonymous324 : hey thank you! Hope you like this one. I deserve more reviews? Thanks again! *become so shy* I'm sorry for the late update. Yosh! *feel spirited*
Tbeary of NH : Thank you for review. Your suggestions of flashbacks, I'm so sorry I can't give this on this chapter maybe on later chapter. As well you can read in this chapter, Tenten was unconscious because of not caring about her condition by not eating well and training more that she should train. That was my first idea to make the hospital scene first, but then the idea of this beginning suddenly comes. Hope you like this one.
That's all. Maybe the later chapter will come in one month or so, because I'm so busy on this year. I'm on my Senior Year of JHS. I'm so young, right? *kicked* If there's a few of you who can speak Indonesian or Indonesian people, I also write some fanfic in Fandom Naruto Indonesia!
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