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Chapter 20 – Should I Let You Go?

Alex groaned. He moved to the front door at the persistent wrapping. Not that it was actually persistent. Who ever was at the door had only knocked three times in the ten minutes it was taking him to get to the door, Izzie yelled out to him again "Alex! Door! Come on!" He groaned again and opened the door. A middle aged blonde woman with kind eyes looked at him.

"Good morning, you must be one of Meredith's house mates." She smiled warmly, "I'm Susan. Susan Grey, Meredith's step mother."

"Oh right yea, you were here the other week. Dinner."

She smiled, "Yes."

"Uhh… Meredith's still in bed, but uhh, you can wait in the kitchen… til she's finished."

Susan nodded and walked into the house, frowning slightly at Alex's choice of words, but soon realisation washed over her, as a loud moan floated through the house and she heard Meredith call out, "God, oh Addison, yes, yes!"

Alex sighed and Izzie yawned, "You'd think after last night they'd be too tired for morning sex." She said, as she turned around, "Oh!" she jumped as she saw Susan, "Hi, uhh…"

Susan smiled at Izzie's blushing face, "Susan." She said, holding out her hand,

"Izzie, uh, Izzie Stevens."

Susan nodded, "I bought groceries. I thought Meredith might… well you young doctors need to eat properly."

"Yeah." Izzie nodded awkwardly.

Another loud cry echoed through the house, Alex stood, "I'll help you bring them inside, Mrs. Grey." He said,

Izzie's eyes snapped up, "Me too."

Meredith sat in the clinic with Izzie looking over a chart, "Look Mere, all I'm saying is if you wanna," Her voice turned to a whisper, "have sex instead of sleeping that's fine, but can you please be quiet about it? Between you two and work I haven't slept properly since like… Since before you got together with Derek."

"Ew. Please Iz, don't remind me of that." Meredith laughed, she looked down at her chart and moved forward calling out, "Javier Rugero. Javier...uh...Rugero?" She sighed, "Can you pronounce this?"

Izzie tried to say it but the two interns were approached by a man and a woman, "Hi I'm Dr. Grey, are you Mr. Rugero?" Meredith asked,

"No uh, we're Dustin and Caroline Klein." Said Dustin, Izzie stared at them and he faced her, "Isobel… We're Hannah's parents. We're her...we're your daughter's parents."

Izzie swallowed, "Is Hannah ok?"

Caroline shook her head, tears falling down her face, "A few months ago she was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia."

Meredith turned to Izzie, "Iz…"

Izzie looked at her, "You have patients Mere."

Meredith nodded and gave Izzie's hand a small squeeze before moving off and calling out once more "Javier Rugero."

Addison smiled as she walked down the flyover, looking up she saw Alex and she quickened her step to walk with him, "Hey." She said to grab his attention, "I saw Ava. She looks terrific."

"Yeah, yeah she does. Sloan kicked it out." Alex agreed, though Addison could sense something different about him,

"Yeah, well, you had something to do with that too."

"Just doing my job."

"Jeez," Addison grinned, "you cannot take a compliment."

"I just...don't wanna get people thinking..."

"What? You're trying to build the perfect woman?" Addison laughed, not completely oblivious to Alex's awkwardness around her, but before she could comment on it a nurse walked to her calling out,

"Dr. Montgomery, the police just called. They're on their way over. They think they found Jane Doe's family." Addison turned and walked the other way, Alex following,

Later on in the day Meredith was walking through the halls of the hospital, trying to find Izzie and Bailey, but she became momentarily distracted as she caught sight of her gorgeous fiancée.

"Hey." Smiled Addie, moving to her,

"Hey."

Addie frowned, "You ok?"

"Horrible...I'm in a horrible mood. I yelled at Susan. I think I scared off my fake mummy forever."

"Oh..." Addison said sadly, "need cheering up?"

Meredith grinned, she knew what Addison was trying to do; they were standing within ten feet of an on call room, "No."

Addison pouted and reached up to brush some of Meredith hair behind her ear, "Me either. It's gonna be ok."

Meredith stepped closer and wrapped her arms around Addison, with a soft smile Addie hugged back. She heard Meredith sigh into her neck, "You think?"

"Yeah, Susan will be ok."

Meredith sighed and pulled back, "How about you? Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm ok, we found Ava's family, which is good, but Karev has been acting a bit odd about it."

Meredith frowned, "About Ava?"

"No. Well, partly, but he's been strange all week. Since her reconstructive surgery."

Meredith nodded, "Well, I have to go, sorry; Izzie has a thing I need to…" She trailed off, "I might be late home tonight."

"I might be able to forgive you." Addison said with a sigh, "Perhaps."

Meredith lent forward and kisses her softly, "I love you."

"Mm." Addison smiled, "I love you too," She whispered,

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

They kissed again, deeper this time, a romantic kiss that sent Meredith fluttering, when they pulled apart she gasped in the air with a smile, then moved closer to Addison and whispered against her ear, "Tonight."

Addison bit her lip softly and nodded, she quickly stole a short kiss before letting Meredith move off to find Izzie.

Meredith spent her time helping Izzie after that. She held her hand during the procedures and ran the tests, never taking her eyes from them; and she stood with her as they watched Hannah Klein.

"Why did you give up Mindy?"

Meredith looked away from Hannah and turned to face Izzie, who was still staring transfixed at the young girl with big brown eyes and a sweet smile. "What?" Meredith asked,

"Mindy. Why did you give her up?"

Meredith sighed, "I was… I was so tempted to keep her. Addison wanted me to keep her. She wanted us to be a family but I… I couldn't. I just I knew I couldn't. I loved Mindy, I love her, but I knew I wouldn't be able to raise a baby. I knew I wasn't ready."

"Yeah. I knew that too."

"This was all before Mindy was born." Meredith added, "Afterwards… I could barely look at her. My mind was just flooded with… with him, I couldn't."

Izzie reached out and took Meredith's hand, she squeezed it, "Did you name her?"

"No. Chris and Nate named her, Melinda Meredith Joseph."

"Sarah," Izzie whispered, "If I'd kept her I would have named her Sarah." Meredith smiled,

"I would have named Mindy, Ana… Anastasia."

Izzie turned to look at Meredith, "Thank you. For being here. For understanding."

Meredith squeezed Izzie's hand, "Thank you for letting me."

They stayed there for a while longer, standing in silence and watching Hannah Klein interact with her adopted parents.

"You keep looking at your watch."

"Huh?" Meredith asked, "Oh, It's nothing. Addie's just waiting at Joe's."

"Meredith… I'm fine, I can… Your shift is over, go. I'll be ok, just… page Bailey or something."

"Iz…"

"Go,"

Meredith looked at her for a moment and with a sigh she gave in. Twenty minutes later she was walking into Joe's to find Addison and the chief dancing, Addison caught sight of her and grinned, she said something to the chief and walked over giving Mere a soft kiss, "That was quicker then expected."

Meredith smiled, "Home?"

"Yea."

The couple made their way home and up the stairs, Meredith stripped off for a shower while Addison made ordered them some Thai food. They ate in front of the fire on the living room floor, flirting and kissing; Meredith dressed in only a rather revealing small silk robe of Addison's. They finished the food, or rather were distracted by desire and didn't notice the food go cold.

"We could put it in the microwave," Addison said as Meredith kissed along her jaw and neck,

"I think we should go to bed." Meredith whispered,

Addison gasped as Meredith's hand caressed her breast; mutely she nodded, sighing into Meredith ear, causing the blonde to grin.

Addison swallowed thickly, "That sounds like a good idea," She murmured with a smile,

Meredith kissed her again softly before standing up, the robe now open causing Addison's eyes to darken with desire and a soft moan to protrude from the back of her throat. Meredith held out a hand and Addison took it, slowly standing, moving closer to her fiancée. Meredith smiled and snaked her arms around Addison's neck as she felt her bare breasts rub against Addison's smooth clothing.

Addison kissed Meredith deeply before placing her hands on Mere's hips and turning her around, then walking the two of them through the empty house to the stairs.

Together they moved up to the bedroom and Meredith let the robe slide down her body and float to the floor, the smooth fabric pooling at her feet. Addison smiled and watched Mere settle on their bed, "You're beautiful Mere," She whispered, "so beautiful."

Meredith smiled devilishly, "We have much to celebrate tonight,"

Addison looked at her questioningly, "We do?" she asked as she moved to the bed and moved along it to Mere, propped on her knees,

Meredith pulled Addison down and their lips met softly, "We do." She murmured,

"And what are we celebrating exactly?" Addie asked with a soft smile,

"Well," Meredith said softly, her hands unbuttoning Addison's blouse far to slowly for the red head's liking, "I've been thinking," Meredith's small hands finished with the last button, and slipped under the shirt, moving up, pushing the blouse away and off Addison's shoulders,

"About," Addison moaned softly as Meredith unclasped her bra and pulled it away too,

"About us; our wedding; our future," Meredith let the breath of her words whisper of Addison's skin as she pressed soft kisses down her bare shoulder,

Addison's hands held Meredith so close, one buried in her mouse blonde hair, the other on the small of her back, her finger tips tracing the line of Mere's spine, softly Addison repeated Meredith's words, "Our future,"

Meredith smiled against Addie's skin, "I've been thinking about how happy I am when I'm with you. How even when I can only see you out of the corner of my eye, or talk to you over the phone I feel so much better."

"Oh Mere…"

"I'm not finished," grinned Mere, Addison smiled and kissed Meredith deeply, Mere moaned into the kiss and pulled back with a smirk, slightly out of breath she spoke, "Let me finish."

"Ok," Addison smiled, her hands running up and down Mere's sides.

"I've been thinking about Mindy, about you and Mindy, about when Mindy was born and how the hardest thing I've ever done was that day when I gave our daughter away." Meredith sighed and looked into Addison's sparkling blue eyes; she brushed a lock of her red hair back, "I've decided that we should… I would like it if we could… your friend in L.A., your fertility specialist friend. I want to go see her; I want to make an appointment with her." Meredith bit her lip, searching Addie's face, "I want to get you pregnant."

Addison's eyes glistened with crystal tears, "I-" she swallowed thickly, "I… oh Meredith." She pulled Meredith into her arms and held her tightly, ears running down her face, "Meredith, I- I-"

Meredith smiled and kissed the top of Addie's jaw line softly and whispered into Addie's ear, "I love you Addison, I love you so much."

Addison cried and pulled back; taking Meredith face in her hands she kissed her as deeply as she could, Meredith moaned and rolled them over, she quickly pulled off the rest of Addison's clothes before the two made love, both so caught up in each other they didn't notice when Izzie got home, and they fell almost immediately into sleep, just minutes before Alex stumbled into the house drunk at midnight.

Meredith woke after a few hours, the blankets were piled on the floor and Addison lay next to her breathing softly as she slept, a soft yellow glow dancing over her skin. Meredith looked to the door to find it open; the light was coming from the hall way.

Meredith heard the toilet flush a tap turn on for a minute before turning off again. She lay still, looking out to the bathroom door, her eyes now adjusted to the soft glow. Alex shuffled out of the bathroom, closing the door, and peered into her room. For a moment she thought he was looking at her, but soon, with a stab of rage, she realised he was looking at Addison.

Naked Addison.

"You have got to be kidding me," she hissed, she jumped up out of the bed and grabbed Alex by his old T-Shirt and slammed him against the closed bathroom door, it was only once she did this she realised that she was still naked,

"I have more important things to deal with than you." She hissed at him, "I have work problems and wedding problems, and family problems." He looked at her, she could tell he was drunk, or had been, Meredith found she didn't really care,

"You want to be a little bitch, that's fine. But I warned you about Addison, Alex, stop staring at her, stop flirting with her, just stop and stay out of my face." She hadn't realised her voice had turned to a yell, and she definitely hadn't noticed Addison coming out wrapped in her silk robe, or Izzie coming up the stairs covered in flour, "Pack your things Alex, cause you can get the hell out of my house!"

"Meredith!" Addison moved forward and pulled her from Alex, "Meredith, what are you doing?"

"She attacked me," Alex said,

Meredith glared and moved out of Addison arms, slapping Alex hard across the face, "Meredith!" exclaimed Izzie, "what the hell did you do that for?"

"He tried to kiss my fiancée!" Yelled Meredith, "he hasn't stopped freaking looking at her, he flirts with her, he talks to the patients about her, and he was just staring at her while she was asleep and naked!"

Addison turned red and she stared at Alex, "Get out."

"What?"

"Get out of the house Alex; you can get your things later, just get out."

"But where-"

"Do what they say Alex," Izzie said quietly, "You can uh… you can crash at George's."

Alex glared at them all and moved to his room, throwing some clothes into a back pack before he moved off calling over his shoulder, "Forget it, I'll sleep at the hospital."

Izzie looked after him, with a sigh, "Alex," she followed him down the stairs,

Addison turned to Meredith who was shaking, "Mere…" she whispered, "Meredith come here."

Meredith fell into Addison's arms, crying softly into her shoulder, "I'm sorry Addie, but he just, I asked him to back off but he was staring at you and I couldn't pretend he wasn't."

"Shh, it's okay Baby, I understand." Addison moved them into their room and shut the door before moving to the bed, she held Meredith the rest of the night, stroking her hair and talking to her softly about their future, about the baby they were going to have.

"Addison?" Meredith asked, speaking for the first time since Alex left,

"Yea Baby?"

"I… I really love you."

Addison smiled and pressed a soft kiss to Meredith's lips, "I know Meredith, but I love you more." Meredith laughed and settled, and soon the two fell into sleep.

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