this is for my twin, Kelly, and my "fiancee", Liv, even though she doesn't read on

Chapter 22- Maybe I'm An Angel

Addison frowned, "I'm sorry, George, I really am, but this isn't something to joke about."

"I'm not,"

"George. I'm your boss okay. Stop this."

"I'm sorry Dr. Montgomery but it's the truth." Alex told her,

"It is... Cristina's with her now, she's not saying anything though. She's in the waiting area, she's just sitting there," Izzie added,

Addison shook her head at the three interns, "Meredith wouldn't be so stupid, she… This is all she's ever wanted."

"I saw her." George spoke quietly, "She didn't even pick up her pencil."

Addison looked at them, she felt her eyes start to prick with tears, "Damn it." She moved passed them and moved through the hospital until she found Meredith sitting in a chair in the waiting area in the lobby, Cristina sitting next to her. She walked over,

"Yang," Cristina looked up, "Talk to the chief." Cristina nodded and moved off, Addison sat down,

"You wanna tell me what's wrong?"

Meredith looked at her, tears down her face, "I don't think I'm cut out for this."

Addison wiped Meredith's tears away and caressed her cheek, "For surgery?"

"For us." Meredith cried, "Addie I don't think I'm ready to have a baby. Work is so much and I barely saw Mindy when she was… I only really became available to her when you came back. I've missed so much. I never changed her diaper, or woke in the middle of the night to feed her, I didn't teach her to read or write or play catch, I wasn't at her first day of school, I wasn't at half her birthdays, I couldn't even look at her properly for years, I still can't. I'm not a good mother, I can't. Addie I'm not ready."

Addison jumped and blinked rapidly, she looked around the room in confusion, there was a click and the black room suddenly glowed yellow, Meredith looked at her worriedly from the other side of the bed,

"You ok?"

Addison looked at her, "I… yeah, yeah, I'm ok."

"What was the dream?" Meredith asked as she pulled Addison back down in a lying position, her arms wrapping around the red head.

"I think… I think you were breaking up with me."

Meredith looked at Addison and wiped away her tears, "Oh Addie."

"I'm ok, I'm fine, it was stupid."

"I love you."

"I know. I know you do but… Mere are you sure about L.A.? Are you sure you want to have kids now?"

Meredith frowned, "Tell me about the dream Addie,"

"No, it was stupid; you have your intern exam today, go to sleep."

"Addison."

Addie sighed and curled into Meredith, "You didn't do your test. You didn't fill it in, you were going to repeat your intern year and you told me you weren't ready. And you were crying, I was crying, and you were talking about Mindy and you were saying you weren't ready. It was… You were breaking my heart."

Meredith held Addison close, "I love you."

Addison nodded into her shoulder, "Meredith." She whimpered, "Meredith don't break me."

"I won't." Meredith kissed her softly, "I'll love you." Meredith rolled Addison over and gently and sweetly she made love to Addison,

George looked around, "Thanks Burke." He said, "This is exactly what I wanted."

Burke was George's best man. The two men, plus Alex, Mark and Derek, were sitting at a table in Joes for the rather plain bachelor night.

Burke smiled, "I thought so O'Malley,"

"Dude," Alex said, "I thought there would at least be one stripper."

Derek laughed, "You're higher then that aren't you O'Malley."

"Higher then you," smirked Mark, "I remember your bachelor party, dancing girls left right and centre,"

Derek gave him a look, "That's because I stupidly let you and Archer plan it."

"Don't forget Weiss and Sam." Mark grinned,

Derek sighed, but Burke just laughed, "Hey." He said,

Addison walked to the table, "Hey. This is what you paged me to? Your big bachelor party?"

"O'Malley wanted it like this," Mark said with an eye roll,

"Probably because unlike you, George is a good guy," Addison said,

Alex shrugged, "I don't see what's wrong about having a stripper at a bachelor party."

"Of course you don't." Derek muttered,

Mark snorted, and Addison smiled, "Oh like you didn't enjoy the naked buffet at your bachelor party Derek." Derek gave her a questioning look, "You told me all about it over the phone remember?"

Mark grinned, "I remember. Both sides were on speaker. Very interesting conversation."

"Is that why Amelia barely spoke to me at the wedding?"

"Well Derek, she was only young."

"Old enough."

Addison shrugged, "Wait," She said with a frown, "Why am I the only girl? What am I, the entertainment? I am not stripping."

Derek smirked now, "That's okay. We've seen it already."

"True." Mark said with a nod,

George and Alex looked away uncomfortably; Mark, Burke and Derek stared at them.

"So, when I moved in I may have found her in the shower." Alex said, avoiding Addison's eyes,

"O'Malley?" Asked Burke curiously,

"Uh, she and Meredith were uh... on the couch, they were uh, passed out," he stuttered

Addison smiled stiffly, "Fond memories," she said,

Meredith walked in, "Addie, jeez you said five minutes, we have a party to get to."

Addison nodded, "Yea, sorry."

Meredith looked at the five men and there beers, "No strippers? What happened to the Mark I know and love?"

"He was over ruled by the groom." Burke said, clapping George on the shoulder,

"Well then, I guess you'll have to make do with this, boys." And Meredith pulled Addison against her and kissed her deeply and passionately,

Mark and Alex wolf whistled and Burke laughed as O'Malley and Derek just stared,

Addison moaned but pulled away with sore lips, "Well… seems I am the entertainment after all."

Meredith laughed, "See you tomorrow guys."

The two ladies moved out of the bar and to their car, the headed home, ready to drink and enjoy Callie's bachelorette party.

"Wow." Said George after he recovered, "That was…"

"Hot." Said Alex, with a smirk,

"Really hot."

Burke laughed, "Shepherd, you ok?" He asked, Derek was still staring at the now empty space,

"I just…" Derek frowned, "I don't feel anything."

"What?" asked Alex, "Dude,"

"No, I mean… I'm over it. I've accepted it. My ex wife and my ex girlfriend are in love, are getting married, and I'm fine. I'm actually fine."

Mark grinned, "Good for you."

Derek smiled, "Ok, first round on me." He got up and walked to the bar, he ordered the five drinks and waited as Joes got them,

"Hi." Said a rather attractive woman, she had a sweet smile and sparkling brown eyes,

"Hi." He said with a smile,

"Can I buy you a drink?"

Derek chuckled, and looked her over with a grin, "How about I buy you one?"

Derek woke the next morning, he was naked and in his bed, there was the familiar sound of dripping rain on the roof and a warm body next to him.

"Hey," it was the woman from last night,

"Hey," he said, "good morning."

She smiled, "Lexie."

"What?"

"Lexie, it's my name. I don't think you got it last night."

"Oh," He chuckled, "I'm Derek."

Lexie grinned, "Can we do this again some time Derek?"

"Let me give you my number."

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