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Chapter 8 - Whore

~Sesshomaru~

He didn't know what to do. What to feel. With Shania, he was always numb, going day after day hidden behind a frozen mask. He watched the woman that made him made him crazy – the woman who made that mask he's worked over 200 years to perfect diminish into nothingness – the woman whose lips where smooth, and free, and comforting – walk away from him.

He sat on his bed for hours; just trying to understand what's wrong with him, what happened, analyzing his situation, because Sesshomaru – The Killing Perfection – has never been rejected by a girl, especially one he wasn't completely indifferent to.

He didn't even know what to think. Should he go after her? But he had a mate? He never really loved his mate. Did he love Kagome? Did he even know what love is? Sesshomaru had as many questions in his head, as there are stars in the sky. The biggest question of all – what should he do? Night fall came and went, and he sat and thought, and thought, and kept thinking. Around day break, Shania came in.

~Kagome in the Garden~

I need to get out. Yes! I must leave, I'm losing myself here! I, Kagome, wouldn't sleep with a married – well, mated – man! I would never be the OTHER WOMAN! No, this era is messing with me! It must be this stupid demon blood; it's fucking with my head! Why would somebody as gorgeously perfect as Sesshomaru ever consider me to be anything more than a fuck buddy? He's probably taken tons of women – err, youkai – to his chambers.

Kagome gets up determined, she decides she WILL get home, but realizes that she doesn't exactly know how to handle herself in this era.

A single woman, in Early Japan, yeah – that's just like a big sign for humans and demons to rape me. Maybe Inuyasha will help me.

She doesn't really want to go looking for Inuyasha in the castle, but remembered that Inuyasha liked to hang in trees a lot. She finally spotted the red haori, and she runs up to him smiling.

"Inuyasha!" she smiles, "Here boy!" *insert absurdly loud whistle here* "Inuyasha, I need a favor, come here!"

Inuyasha doesn't move, the only sign that he hears her is from a faint ear twitch.

"Inuyasha," she says more quietly, "Inuyasha, are you okay?" Kagome proceeds to climb up the tree, when she gets to the branch right above where he's sitting she hangs upside down, so that she's facing him.

"Inuyasha, are you okay?"

"You are a whore," he sneers, amber clashes with blue as Kagome stiffens, "I saw you with him, whore. I saw you throw yourself at him, I saw you stick your tongue down his throat, filthy, whore. Now get the fuck away from me."

She drops down from the branch, so she's on the same branch as Inuyasha. He closed his eyes again. Kagome doesn't even take a second to hone in her anger, she balls up her first and socks him right on the side of the face. Inuyasha crashes on the ground. For a while he doesn't move, and it finally registers into Kagome's head that she just punched, a demon, - or half demon, whatever. She inches back towards the trunk of the tree. When Inuyasha slowly gets off the ground, his eyes are red, his hair is bristled, going every which way. Inuyasha is out for blood.

Oh shit.

~Shania~

She looks at him seated upon their bed. Kami, she'll miss that bed, years and years she slept on it with no one to comfort her, sometimes she would wrap the covers around her and wish that it was her mate. It was pathetic.

-I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul, -

She took all the outfits she bought; thinking it would seduce him, just to spend another lonely night under the covers.


-My trust my money my time,
What more could you ask for in a man
Even when times were hard
I held out my arms and held you
Even accepted you though whatever weather-

She was always there, after every meeting, after every fight with his brother, thinking that he would confide in her, open up to her. But she was always the one he took his anger out on.


But now I'm feelin we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I got to let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall

The look emitted from her lilac eyes held a mixture of pain, guilt, and finally, resolve.


To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I got to start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything

Looking into his eyes, she could tell he didn't notice she was there. It was tragic. She was never there, not in his heart, not even in his thoughts, she was never enough.

-You don't even notice me-

Sesshomaru was, still frozen staring at the spot where Kagome left.