I know, I know. I said I'd update in a week and its been a little over two weeks but hey, its better than a month right? Next chapter I'll aim to update within 1 week. Enjoy!
Camille's POV
I wish I was another person so I could slap myself across the face. I can't believe I actually went through with that. I just broke up with Logan, the guy who cost me so much effort to get him to like me back. I finally got what I wanted and I was the one who ended it. But that's just it. It took me so long. I feel like I forced him to like me. Like he had no choice but to like me back. Like I had to convince him and he finally just settled for me. If it took him that long to give in to me, then maybe it's not real. I mean I know he thinks through everything he does like 20 times before he actually does anything but seriously, who takes that long if two people are meant to be together.
To me it seemed like I was the only one at the Palm Woods that really like him. So if I had forced him into our relationship, and his feelings weren't real, then once there's more girls that like him too, he'll realize that he doesn't actually like me and break up with me! And like they always say, it's better to be the dumper than the dumpee. But somehow, the look on Logan's face, his painful and pleading eyes didn't look fake. It looked sincere.
Currently, I was sitting in Jo's bedroom in her apartment, and we were both stuffing our faces with ice cream. Finally, after expressing my deepest thoughts and feelings about the whole situation, I looked up from my ice cream carton to see that Jo was still listening intently to every word I was saying. This is why she was the best friend I ever had. You know, besides the fact she was the person that initiated these feelings I had, which led to the dilemma I was in. But she apologized a million times for that, even though I forgave her the first time. I know she didn't mean for me to take it to drastic measures and dump Logan. Who would've expected me to do that. I didn't even expect it!
Despite it being a drastic decision, part of me felt like it was going to save me a lot of pain. I was pretty much convinced that something was going to happen on their tour to cause us to break up anyway, so doing it ahead of time, and doing it myself, would save me a lot of hassle. But another part of me, the bigger part of me, felt like a complete idiot for giving up the boy of my dreams who I fell in love with at first sight. You know, sometimes I think I might have a serious mental condition because most girls would've thought something like that through a lot. But nooo, not me. I had to go and make a snap decision that would probably change my life forever, and not for the better. What the heck was wrong with me?
Jo stuffed the last huge spoonful of ice cream in her mouth and dropped the spoon into the empty carton. Before she could say anything I asked
"If you were in my exact situation with Kendall and you just knew something was going to break you two up anyway, would you have done the same thing I did?"
"Camille, this is why I feel so bad!" she whined.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean nothing was going to happen. I was in such a crazy, paranoid mood that nigh. I have no doubt in my mind that you and Logan would've gotten through being apart during their tour with no problems like that whatsoever."
I felt even more sick to my stomach than I did before. If that was even possible. I had broken up with him for nothing.
"Please don't be mad at me Camille. You have every right to be though. This is totally my fault."
I tried to smile.
" It's ok Jo, its not your fault. It's mine. I have to learn to stop listening to you when you're in your panicky moods."
She laughed
"Yea that never ends well." She said.
I sighed.
" What am I supposed to do Jo? I cant just waltz up there and 'Oh, I changed my mind Logan, I don't want to break up with you anymore.' I ruined our relationship!"
"No you didn't Camille. Just go up there and explain the whole thing to Logan. He's very understanding."
"Ok you're right. And that helps relationships, right? Being open and expressing your feelings to one another!"
"Exactly! So go do that. I'll be here when you get back. And tell me every word that is spoken!"
"Will do." I assured her.
I headed to 2J, where I assumed Logan would be. I hoped he was there, not that I had to wait until tomorrow because by then I don't know if I'll have this confidence.
Kendall's POV
"Yes, I completely understand." I told Logan
I was sitting on the couch next to my friend who I found lying on the ground in Palm Woods Park and literally had to drag back to our apartment. Once I finally got him here he actually moved enough to get himself up onto the couch. He had just finished telling me his reasons for lying in the middle of the park in the dirt. At least I thought that was what he was telling me. He was lying on the couch with his face basically smashed into the seat so I honestly had no idea what he was saying to me. All I got out of it was
"I mmphghh and finally tried to mmphgghh but then umphrmphghh and now I mmmphphughhmmph."
I was trying to figure out on my own what might have happened today. I spent all day with Jo until a little while ago she got an emergency call from someone and said she needed to leave right away. Normally, that would've bugged me but I could tell by the look on her face that something serious had happened.
Wait a second. I remember Logan saying that he was going to hang out with Camille. Like I was doing with Jo.
Before I could think about it anymore, there was a knock on the door. I told Logan I would be right back, only to get another
"Mmphgh."
I headed over to the door, thinking it would be Jo and she was here to let me know what happened earlier but instead I opened the door to Camille.
She had a depressed/sad/worried/urgent/hopeful expression on her face. That girl was full of emotions and was good at showing them. Definitely a born actress.
"Camille please tell me that you know what's up with Logan because I cant get anything out of him that's actually understandable." I pleaded.
Her multi-expression face turned to plain guilt but before she could answer Logan had already shot up from the couch at the sound of her name. At this point, I think I've pretty my come to the conclusion that this has something to do with Camille.
"Camille please talk to me." Logan begged.
"I did come here to talk to you Logan. I am such an idiot. I don't know what I was thinking. I just got really worried that with you going on tour you would meet some other girl you like better than me and we would end up breaking up anyway so I figured that I would just get it over with before anything like that could happen and I would get hurt. I'm so sorry. I know I hurt you and I wouldn't blame you if you were mad at me. It was unfair of me to do that and not even talk to you about it." Camille rambled.
When she was finished she took a deep breath. Logan shook his head.
"That's what you think's going to happen? That's what you think of me? Camille how could you think that I would ever even look at another girl?" Logan said.
I could tell he was annoyed by this. Camille was his first real girlfriend. He was definitely not the type of guy to go after a bunch of girls at once. I think Camille picked up on his annoyance too. She looked even worse than she did when she first came in. Like her hope was shattered along with the partly hopeful look on her face.
"Do you not trust me?" Logan questioned. He looked more sad than he did angry that Camille would even think for a second that he would let anything like that happened.
"No, Logan, it's not that I don't trust you. It's just that -" Logan cut her off.
"Camille a relationship is nothing without trust. And you can't make up excuses. If you don't trust me enough to not cheat on you while I'm on tour than maybe this isn't going to work out after all."
Camille looked shocked.
"What! I never said that I thought you were going to cheat on me! I was just worried that you might start to have feelings for somebody besides me and we would end up breaking up! You're going to have tons of fan girls surrounding you. I'm not saying that you would let anything happen but you cant stop yourself from liking someone!" Camille said angrily. She was starting to raise her voice now.
This was getting bad. I know that I should do something to stop this but honestly, I still wasn't completely sure what "this" was. I was still a little fuzzy on what was going on and what they were arguing for. So I just started to back slowly out of the room to give them some privacy. I'd still be listening through the door of course.
"Well how do I know that wont happen to you? You could get an acting job and have a co-star that you would have to spend every day with! Or a new band would move into the Palm Woods and you would fall for him and forget about me! That stuff could easily happen but I didn't break up with you! Because I trust you!" Logan said back. I could tell he was upset but didn't want to raise his voice at Camille.
"I trust you too!" Camille practically shouted.
I cracked the door open so I could see what was happening too. Camille spun around and marched to the door. She opened it but before she left she turned back to Logan.
"Thanks for understanding! Have fun on your tour!" she said sarcastically.
With that she turned back around and stormed out of the apartment, slamming the door behind her.
"I will!" Logan said loudly, even though she was already gone. He headed to the bedroom we shared and slammed his door too.
I came out of the room I was hiding in and plopped down on the couch.
"I am so confused." I said to myself.
Good, bad, terrible? Tell me honestly. This actually wasn't how the chapter went the first time I wrote it. I didn't like the first version so I changed it to this. And I think I said this already but I know what main thing I want to happen in this story and their break-up isn't it. It's leading up to the main plot (or whatever you call it) of the story. So the story is still just getting started. I really hope its not really bad but still tell me what you think. I really would like reviews! : )