Chapter 5: Unbreaking Rules
Author: Snooglez
Disclaimer: I Don anything thing
Rating: Pg-13?
Parings: Must I! A/M, mild S/S, E/A… just read, you'll figure it out…
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Reality seemed forgotten, maybe even a figment of imagination as they delved deeper into their kissing haze. Marissa clung to Alex, fistfuls of her shirt in hand, welcoming her tongue in her mouth. It didn't matter if she was with Eva or not, at this point she didn't care. It was all about the pressurous strain that accompanied the burning need to just capture this woman's lips with her own. There had been two hard years of yearning, the sweet divide in time only to be relished at this very second.
And each took advantage of it.
That is until ears perked at the sound of a familiar bedroom door creak open.
Marissa body stiffened while Alex nearly leapt out of the embrace, motivated entirely to place a safe distance of 4 feet between them in fear of suspicion of their incident. Alex quickly ran a tongue across her lips, anything to rid the evidence of their kiss. Chests heaving, they turned toward the door to meet the eyes of Summer who had only poked her head in the doorway.
The small girl stepped fully into the doorway, carelessly munching on an orange object that could only be identified as a carrot stick. She narrowed her eyes at her victims as skeptically as possible, teeth resting on the tip of the vegetable before snapping it in half quite loudly.
They were up there by their lonesome a little… too quiet.
It wasn't the case though. Eva had sent Summer up to tell Alex that dinner would be ready in a few minutes. Her eyes tossed back and forth between the two, surveying the distinct 'oh shit' looks on their faces.
Alex began to play with a piece of cotton that stuck to her shirt out of sheer anxiety, not surprised that something of such unimportance could become a point of interest so fast. Anything to calm her nerves. It didn't help to hide the rosy pigment of her face though. The girl was blushing from head to toe.
It was a dead giveaway and Summer picked up on it instantaneously, a devilish grin surfacing on her lips.
"What were you guys doing?" She drawled out, taking another bite of her snack of choice.
"Talking." Marissa spoke hastily, cursing the her over eagerness to answer.
Summer looked at her and nodded. "Huh." Her brown eyes also examined the disheveled appearance of the two. They both saw Summer's eyes travel to their heads and began to hastily run fingers through their hair to straighten it out.
Summer laughed aloud, causing the them to glare at her.
"Ha ha Summer." Alex rolled her eyes. "Laugh it up all you will, but we weren't doing anything but talking." She added in quick defense knowing fully well this wasn't true.
Marissa glanced over at her accomplice, inwardly hoping Summer would buy Alex's serious tone as a hint she was actually telling the truth.
Summer threw her hands up, still not believing a word of it. "Okay. I'll stop, but…" She paused mid sentence as a smudge of pink caught her eye just below Alex's bottom lip.
She started grinning again, this time ear to ear. Marissa didn't like that at all, neither did Alex.
"Marissa, isn't that your Kiss Kiss pink lip gloss on Alex's face?" Summer pointed out smugly, blowing their case wide open.
Alex reached up to her face, finger tips traveling along the side of her mouth, stopping when she felt the sticky pink gloss stain her fingers.
"Fuck." She muttered helplessly, fear arising right after. "Look, Eva would kill me if she found out, plea-"
Summer placed a hand on her shoulder. "Are you kidding? I'd never do that Alex. I'm all for you guys getting back together… and as much as I hate to say it… It's all too cute!" She finished bringing them both into her arms so that it formed into a hug.
It was an awkward hug.
However Alex carelessly returned it, mind too busy grasping Summer's words of them getting back together. Marissa noted it too and shied away from Summer after a few seconds.
'Summer and her big mouth.'
When Alex let go, Marissa flashed her a bashful smile. Alex cleared her throat and started for the door.
"I guess I'd better get down stairs, Eva's probably waiting for me, eer something." The blonde said before brushing past Summer and walking out the bedroom.
Marissa waited until Alex was too far gone to hear her verbally assault her friend.
"Summer! Why'd you say that!" She blurted out, whisper gradually dissipating into whine.
Summer frowned. "What? What'd I say?" She asked not understanding her friend's frantic cry.
Marissa brought a hand up to her forehead in apparent frustration. "You said we were getting back together…"
Summer merely shrugged. "So?"
"I don't know if she wants to get back with me. We didn't talk that much about anything." Marissa spoke recalling the sweet incident. "She was talking to me, and then out of nowhere I'm in her arms and… we were kissing."
"Did she kiss you first?"
"Sort of. I mean I met her half way, I think."
"So she leaned in first, right?"
Marissa paused to remember. It was all just a blur now, a blur of lips and hands and tongue all neatly wrapped into a passionate web of something she couldn't put a finger on.
"You guys really need to talk, like, real soon… like tonight or something."
"Tonight?"
"Yeah, why not? I'll keep Eva company. You two go out on a walk or something. C'mon." Summer advised, grabbing her arm to head back downstairs.
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Lunch was over and the four had busily involved themselves in mild conversation.
Summer who felt right at home, had lazily laid herself on her back on carpeted floor, limbs carelessly sprawled about. Eva was in front of her cross legged, entertaining the smaller girl with the juiciest gossip she could conjure up. Summer was a foot deep in it, giggling like a crushing school girl as the familiar feeling of countless sleepovers she'd endured throughout adolescence washed over her.
The two occupants of the kitchen peered into the living room.
"Gross. Soon they'll be painting each other's fingernails." Alex whispered, shuddering at the thought of all the 'girlyness' that oozed from the occupants of the living room.
Marissa leant her shoulder playfully into hers. "What's wrong with that?"
They shared a laugh. Marissa thanked the gods there wasn't any burning awkwardness between them. Alex seemed more at ease than anything. It was at this time she decided to tell her what was up.
"Alex, we should talk…alone. You know as much as I do that we need to. It's kinda overdue." Marissa said softly.
Alex nodded. "We'll walk. That cool?"
"Sure."
With that they headed into the living room, interrupting Eva and Summer's little ho down.
"We're going out for a walk." Alex notified the pair.
Eva looked up from her current spot on the floor. "Okay, but don't be out too late, I'm sure your friend here doesn't wanna be held hostage for too long." Eva joked returning her vision back to the smaller girl in front of her.
"It's cool, she loves it." Marissa tossed back slyly, hidden meaning behind words. Summer picked up on it from the playful tone she'd used, narrowing her eyes.
"Totally not like that, you perv!" Summer shot back, embarrassed in front of her new friend.
Eva caught on and placed a hand on her shoulder in mock sympathy. "It's okay Summer, as cute as you are, straight girls are out of season." She assured with a soft pat.
Summer laughed with her uneasily. "Yeah, uh… right." She sputtered feeling entirely out of place at the moment.
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The sun was starting to set, and the night was slowly glazing over.
Alex and Marissa were walking the streets, neither summoning up enough courage to speak first.
Soon, Alex cracked under the pressure and broke the unfathomable silence between them.
"So uh, what you wanna talk about? Getting kinda tired of listening to the wind considering it has nothing to tell." She smiled in effort to break the ice.
It was a smile that Marissa had missed so dearly, watching the creases form on her beautiful face. She smiled back, ready to place everything she'd kept inside on display for her to see. It was hard enough to start off because she didn't know where to begin. There was so much to say.
Marissa stopped mid stride, causing Alex to come to an abrupt stop along with her. After a moment of silence Alex carefully leaned her slim frame against a nearby light pole, awaiting Marissa's response.
Marissa stepped closer, hands traveling to Alex's sides to capture her hands in her own.
Alex's piercing blue eyes watched as she skillfully intertwined each of their fingers, confirming the hold she had on her hands. She could feel her heart swell at the amorous gesture that Marissa had just emitted.
God knew how much she missed it.
Marissa threw her hesitation into the wind, opened her mouth to speak with words that could only come from the heart.
"Alex, I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like I don't need you because I do. My life's been hell since I left you. I'm so sorry I left you. I can't believe I let my mom scare me that badly. I can't believe I had sacrificed my own happiness, just to be at her side in that god awful house."
Alex stood there listening, her soul feeling the weight of Marissa's words. She watched the tears glaze Marissa's eyes and she preyed that they wouldn't fall, fearing she would start to cry also.
"You don't know how many days I'd sit in a dark corner of my room and think up how you'd make me laugh from the stupidest of things, like professional pinky wrestling."
Marissa chuckled through out her sadness at the memory of their pen painted pinkies, each colliding against each other for play dominance. Alex laughed along with her, freeing her hand to brush away the tears that had already fallen from Marissa's cheek.
"Or that time you tried to show me your 'pimp walk' and ran head first into that plate glass window at the gallery down town."
They both laughed simultaneously.
"Yeah, that one was just for you babe." Alex smiled, too into Marissa's speech to realize that tears had begun their journey down her own cheeks.
Marissa's smile gradually faded, she began again. "The way you'd stay up extra late for me after watching scary movies, just because I was too chicken shit too fall asleep first."
"I even miss all the times I'd get mad at you for calling me a dork because I actually liked those Hello Kitty slippers that Summer bought me for my birthday."
At this point Marissa was half laughing, half crying.
Alex nodded solemnly, her thumbs smoothing out Marissa's eyebrows. "I still think you're a dork too…" She said pulling the sobbing girl into a tight hug.
Marissa eagerly clung to her. "I still miss you, I need you with me. I need you to do all those stupid things again. Make me happy again Alex Kelly." She whispered into her ear. "I don't think I can be without you anymore. It hurts too much."
Alex held onto her tighter, silently allowing her own tears to fall freely after struggling to keep them from dropping.
"I missed you too Marissa." She pushed out finally. It needed to be said. Marissa had been waiting for her to say it for some time now.
Alex did miss her, the scar on her heart never failing to remind her of Marissa each day. But things were so different now, and what about Ryan?
"Do you love him?" She sniffled, turning her head to look Marissa in her eye, expecting her to look away, a telltale sign that would signify her guiltiness.
But she didn't.
"No. Why would I make such a fuss about you if I loved him?" Marissa asked touching her forehead against Alex's as she closed her tired eyes.
Alex was still unsure about why Marissa was with him though. It was written all over her face, and Marissa could sense it even if her eyes weren't open. She decided to explain, clearing up any vague thoughts Alex was having.
"After I broke up with you, I needed someone to help me get over you. I thought Ryan would do it, since he was my first and there was still a spark left between us. I still couldn't get over you Alex. I'd be lying to myself if I said I ever did."
Alex sighed, torn in between keeping her promise to herself and fulfilling Marissa's plea.
She brought a hand to her forehead in obvious frustration. It was a tad bit too late to kiss and make up when her lips didn't even belong to Marissa anymore. "Things are just so different now, it's hard." She tried to explain.
Marissa swallowed fearing Alex was backing out of something that she very well wanted her in.
"What's so hard about it?"
"Eva." Alex told her simply. "I'm not a cheater Marissa, you know that. I can't just fall back into what we had. It's what we had… not have. I can't jump into something with you when I'm with her."
It was Alex who looked away, not wanting to see the visible hurt make a home on Marissa's pretty features. There she was distancing herself from Marissa, mentally placing a barrier between them. It was just her way of dealing. She'd never be hurt like that again.
"Do you love her?" Marissa questioned softly ignoring the pain she was currently feeling, finger slipping under Alex's chin to return her head back to its previous position.
"I don't know." Alex mumbled. She didn't raise her eyes to meet Marissa's.
"Do you even love me?"
Alex couldn't believe she would say such a thing. "Yes. I've always loved you Marissa. I never stopped." She assured her, fingers encircling the edge of Marissa's ear, tucking the stray lock of hair back in place.
"Then… what's the problem?" She asked, not understanding the circumstances.
"Nothing."
"It's something Alex."
"I just think we should be friends, is all. I need to have time to think about all this. What you're suggesting is a big deal for me. You showed up out of nowhere and I don't know what to do. Give it time okay?"
Marissa nodded as Alex pressed her lips against her forehead. "I love you." She whispered before pulling away.
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"So how'd you meet Marissa?"
"We've pretty much been BFFs since infanthood. She crawled right into my crib and tried to rob me of my little monkey named Finkle. Nobody messed with Mr. Finkle so I smacked her over the head with my binky. She cried to no end, so I ended up sharing him with her. We've been joined at the hip ever since." Summer causally joked.
"Seriously?" Eva laughed eyes peeking up at Summer from her deck of cards.
"Nah. We met in like, 1st grade or something. We just got each other I guess. Then it blossomed a beautiful friendship. The end."
"I wish I had a friendship like you guys do. I could only wish me and Alex had something like that. She never tells me anything."
Summer's ears perked up. "Oh?"
"After she broke it off with my cousin Jodie, they became best buds. I don't get it. Alex is always over there yapping it away to that… thing. She tells her everything, and Jodie always wipes it right between my eyes every time I see her. She's such a brat!" Eva spat out, disturbingly shuffling the cards.
'Everything huh? I could totally benefit from this Jodie person.' Summer sat thinking how she could get information on Alex from Jodie.
"Sounds like you really love your cousin." Summer added, voice laced with much sarcasm.
"I know. I just can't stand her. Me and Kate don't even fight like we do." Eva's ramble trailed of into Spanish to the point where Summer didn't know what the hell she was saying.
In the midst of her verbal rampage, Summer's phone sprang to life nearly buzzing itself right of the coffee table.
Picking it up she glanced at the display screen on the face of the phone: CAPTAINOATS. It was Seth.
"Hold on okay?"
Eva nodded. "Yeah sure."
Summer flipped open the phone and held it to her ear.
"Seth?"
#Yeah babe. Where are you guys? You said you'd call. It's like… nine already.#
Summer cringed over the phone. She had completely forgotten.
"Sorry Seth it's my fault. Lost track of time."
#I'm okay. It's Ryan who's turned into psycho apeman… thing. He had something planned for Marissa.#
She arched an eyebrow and placed a free hand on her hip. "Oh yeah, like what?"
#I have no clue. I think a dinner or something. He called her phone earlier, but no one picked up. Where is she?#
Summer had to think quick. She couldn't trust Seth with the information that she originally planned to tell him. "Uh, she's out with a friend." She covered easily.
#A friend? What kind of friend keeps Marissa from answering her phone?#
"Shut it Cohen." She tossed out simply. "Look don't worry about it. I'll get her home, okay?"
Silence.
"SETH!" Summer screamed over the line.
She heard laughter over the phone… Seth's laughter.
#Oh baby, I just love it when you-#
Summer clicked the phone shut before he could finish.
"My boyfriend is such a loser." She huffed, taking her spot back by the table. "Now I see why girls date other girls. It's always men like Cohen shipping them away like cargo by the boat fulls." She finished, taking her hand of cards.
Eva grinned. "Thank you. That's what I've been telling my mom for years, but she never believes me."
The door opened, Marissa and Alex walking through it.
"Hey Coop, Seth just called. We have to leave."
Marissa frowned. "Why?"
"He has something planned for us." Summer said not wanting to say Ryan's name in front of Alex, fearing it would ruffle the feathers of what she and Marissa had already accomplished. Grabbing Marissa's arm, she lead her out.
Marissa turned to Alex, eyes lingering. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow then."
"Yeah."
"Bye Summer. I'll call you okay?" Eva threw in taking a side next to Alex, watching them both leave.
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NEXT CHAP:
Marissa confronts Ryan of their problems
Julie butts in
Summer goes on a search for Jodie…loathing what who she finds
Alex tells Eva who Marissa really is
AN: There with be some Sodie action in up coming chapters, to warn anyone who adores to new found couple. Me? I just can't get enough of those two. Oh and sorry for typos and misspelled crap, with that said…
face on keyboard I'm so tired, I think I go sleepy now. snores
Next chapter up soon. DONT FORGET TO R&R!
Much love,
-Snooglez