A/N: I promised Gabriel and TAAH DAAH! He's at the end of the chapter. And there's lots of thinky times in this chapter so sorry if it's a bit bland. Please please please review people. The hits are wonderful, but reviews would be even better :)

Chapter 5: Heaven Help Me

Sam escaped into the bathroom after his talk with Ashael. He shut the door and leaned on the sink, eyes shut and unwilling to look at his reflection. First he was overwhelmed with memories, and then…everything. The second her hand touched his, he just felt like exploding. Sam sucked in a breath and said to himself, "Angels and their damn mojo…"

If Dean would be around, he'd be laughing at him. Sam could practically hear his older brother making snide comments, saying things like 'Someone likes it a little on the fluffy side' and 'Damn it Sam, you really don't like normal chicks do you?'

He cursed under his breath and opened his eyes. His reflection showed his face was flushed, yet slightly red. There was even a small bead of sweat forming at his temple. Sam took in a breath and decided he needed another shower. An ice cold one due to how his skin felt. "That should help. A shower…"

Turning away from the sink, Sam turned on the shower and didn't bother to adjust the temperature. He let out a frustrated huff and stripped down carefully. His body was physically aching all over when he moved now. "What'd you do, Ash?" he whispered as he stepped under the cool running water.

It wasn't something she enjoyed doing, but Ashael tapped into Sam's thoughts once he left the room. She frowned. He was confused, stressed, and hurting. All she tried doing was make him feel better. The angel frowned and heard something of a chime before Castiel appeared in the room. She looked at him curiously. "Castiel, what are you doing here?"

"What's the matter with Sam?"

"He's… I tried making him feel better," she told her brother through a frown.

Castiel made his way over and sat beside her, leaning forward to keep her attention. "Ashael, sister, this isn't the way you do that. Humans are complex. You pushed emotions into Sam he wasn't ready to feel and caused them to differ."

The angel lowered her eyes and said, "My apologies."

"I don't forget that you are still new to this, but you need to be more careful. They have everyone watching both you and him right now. Be cautious of what you do."

Ashael straightened up and gave a nod. "I understand."

"Have you spoken with him about hunting yet?" Castiel asked.

"I did. He's not ready he said. But he wants to."

Letting out something similar to a sigh, Castiel laced his hands together. "You are to get him hunting within the next week. If not, another angel will be put in your place."

She went silent. Ashael didn't want another angel to do her job. She liked it and knew there was a bond forming between her and Sam. Another in her place wouldn't be acceptable.

His hand went to her arm and Castiel looked hopeful. "I have faith in you." She smiled a little at him and Castiel got up, only to disappear again.

Sam came out of the bathroom, still feeling sore all over as he made his way over to his bed and lay down. He didn't look at Ashael once. He just stared up at the boring off-colored ceiling and breathed, trying to keep himself calm.

It was like he'd been slapped in the face by a succubus. His dad told him about them when they hunted one. Sam wasn't included, of course. He sat home in the motel room while Dean and their dad dealt with it. But he remembered exactly what his dad said about them. 'They'll get you feeling good for a while, until they start taking. And once that happens, you're a goner.' Sam blinked a few times, trying to get his dad's voice from his mind.

Finally, Sam couldn't take it anymore. He got up and grabbed his jacket, heading for the door. "Where are you going?"

"Out. Can you just…not be here when I get back?" He didn't bother to turn and look at her, only because something just told him not to.

"Sam, I can't…"

He cut her off. "Ash, just this once. Don't be in here. Wait outside or in the next room or something."

She was quiet for a few seconds until she said, "I understand."

With a breath of relief, Sam left the room and started towards the bar down the road. He just hoped he didn't sound as pissed off as he thought he did. Ashael was the one person he saw day in and day out. Angering her would make things even more difficult.

As he approached the door to the bar, Sam cleared his head. He didn't need to think right now about any of it. All he needed was a drink and someone to help get his mind back on track. 'If only Dean could see me now…'

Night fell and Sam hadn't returned yet. Ashael did as he asked and took refuge on the roof where no one could see her. The angel just sat quietly watching the sky and thinking. She took to meditating, but the meditation turned into thinking hours ago. And her main topic of thought was her charge.

Sam had snapped at her before leaving. She knew it was deserved because of what she did, but he should be thankful to her that he was even alive. Ashael frowned and let out a breath, folding her hands together and resting her chin on them.

She sensed someone near her and sat up straight with a curious look on her face. "Hey sis. How's the babysitting going?"

"Gabriel," Ashael began as she turned, only to see her elder brother smirking her way, "I didn't expect to see you here."

"Yeah, well, I'm just passing through. Figured I would pop in and say hi. Seems like you're having lots of fun," he said.

She got up and faced him. "It's not."

Gabriel rolled his eyes, shaking his head. "After hanging around me I thought you'd understand sarcasm… Cas really rubbed off on you." He had his hands in his jacket pockets, giving her a shrug. "Where is Sammy boy anyways?"

"Out. I assume at the bar."

He frowned at her. "Cheer up. If you're down about what happened earlier, forget about it. Accidents happen. Plus, I think he'd rather be feeling that compared to nothing." Sighing, he glanced over to the side towards the ground and gave a chuckle. "Oh ho, looks like your boy's bringing a lady friend back. Except…"

"That's a demon." Her words came out in a low grumble.

"Have fun," he said before she disappeared.