Did I not say I would have another chapter up by the weekend?

Well, here it is, and it's a long one too :]

Thank you to everyone who read and reviewed!

Enjoy,

Chapter 4

The next three days were the longest days of my entire life.

I didn't talk to Bella at all either.

Why, pry tell?

Well, who the fuck knows. Maybe it is because I am the biggest pussy ever?

Of course, no one but me could ever know this, but I mean seriously. Can I get even more frazzled because of a silly girl?

I mean, sure, it could be possible…I had to smile.

"Dude, what's up?" Emmett nudged my arm as I stared at the brick wall of the cafeteria, smiling at nothing like a fricking pansy.

I blinked myself out of the daze, "Huh?"

"What is going on with you lately? You sure have been acting weird." He sort of rolled his eyes.

"Uh, you know," come on, think of a good excuse… Well, Emmett, I have been thinking about Bella Swan all week. Yep. And I can't wait for Rosalie's party because I can't wait to see Bella there… Yup, that would work like a charm, "I have been having massive headaches. I think I must be coming down with something."

I saw him and Rosalie exchange suspicious looks.

"So, you aren't going to come to the party then?" Rosalie asked, smiling deviously.

"What?" I was shocked.

"Well, you said you weren't feeling very well, and if you are sick at the party, you might get everyone else sick…" Rosalie was a smart one.

"You know? I think I am getting over it. The bug was a pretty mild one, so it came and went pretty quickly."

She looked at me skeptically.

The bell rang.

Finally.

I stood up and turned around so I could watch Bella.

She looked up in my direction, and smiled.

I smiled back.

I waved.

Her eyes flickered to me and she waved uncomfortably.

Rosalie walked by and whispered in my ear, "Smooth."

Shit.

Did I really just do that?

I waved to her because I thought she was waving to me?

What an idiot.

I groaned, walking out of the cafeteria.

The rest of the day passed by in slow motion, and I seemed to look at the clock every other minute.

Finally, at 4 o'clock, the bell rang and school was dismissed.

I made a beeline to my car, got in, threw it into reverse, and started to peel out of the parking lot.

Then she appeared.

I slammed on the breaks, hearing them squeal, and she looked up.

I saw fear cross her face and she dropped her books and put her hands on the hood of the car.

We both just sat there, staring.

Did I almost kill her?

Oh my fucking god.

I almost killed her.

I turned off the car and stepped out.

"Are-are you okay?" I shuddered, my hands shaking, my legs deciding they wanted to pretend to be sewing machines.

She let out a breath and looked at me, "Yeah. Yeah, I think I am fine."

She smiled.

Why the hell was she smiling?

What was funny about this?

She is laughing?

Why?!

She giggled, and suddenly everything was okay.

I ran my hand through my hair and let out a breath.

I started to laugh too.

I bent down to pick up her books, and I handed them to her.

"Thanks," she smiled slightly, still softly giggling.

"Yeah, I am really so sorry about that."

"It's okay, really, "she paused and touched my arm. I felt like I was being electrocuted, "Just promise that next time you decide to peel out of the school parking lot, I'm not around." She walked off, glancing at me one more time over her shoulder.

Shit.

One touch and I was already a goner. And this wasn't even a touch touch.

I arrived to the party about a half an hour after it had started.

Rosalie was sure a great hostess. She always threw the best parties, and everyone always came.

When I walked in the front door I was hit by a wave of bass thumping and loud chatter.

I stepped inside and glanced around.

I didn't see her.

But she could be anywhere in the house, and the house was packed full.

I climbed the first two steps on the staircase, scanning the room for the one face I wanted to see.

Someone clapped me on the back.

Emmett.

"Hey, so it's a great party huh?" He yelled over the loud music.

"Yeah," I yelled back.

"So, have you seen Bella?" Emmett yelled back to me.

Have I seen her? No. Did I want him to know I was looking for her? No.

"Who?" I yelled back, pretending not to know who he was talking about.

"Bella!"

"Bella Swan? No, I haven't seen her. She is coming?" I yelled back, trying to act very nonchalant.

But Emmett didn't hear me. He was looking over my shoulder, his eyes wide and his mouth hanging slightly ajar.

I followed his gaze to the front door.

In walked Bella.

She was dressed in a simple black dress, with black leggings.

She looked good. No. Not good. Great.

And behind her came Jacob.

Or that is at least who I assumed him to be.

I felt my eyes narrow.

Calm. Down.

He touched her lower back and whispered something in her ear; she laughed and said something back.

He grinned and looked around the main hallway, packed with half drunken teenagers.

He said something to her, she nodded, and he walked off to the kitchen.

Leaving her alone.

How I suddenly got the balls to even initiate talking to her, I will never know.

I guess seeing her with Jacob put a fire under my ass to get going and snatch her up.

Make her mine.

I walked down the two stairs and pushed my way towards her.

But someone pushed past me, with two plastic cups in hand.

Jacob.

He handed her one of the cups and she took a sip.
Her eyes met mine.

I felt like I was on fire.

She smiled timidly, her right eyebrow slightly rising.

Jacob said something to her, she nodded and he led the way to the dance floor.

Just as they walked into the living room, where Jay was DJ'ing it up, the song turned to a slow one.

You could be happy and I won't know,
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go,

Jacob took her cup and set it on the fireplace mantle.

He then slipped his hand around her waist and pulled her closer to him.

And all the things that I wished I had not said,
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head,

He said something into her ear, she smiled and nodded her head as they swayed together.

Is it too late to remind you how we were,
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur,

She wrapped her arms around his neck.

She played with his black hair, saying something.

Most of what I remember makes me sure,
I should have stopped you from walking out the door,

Suddenly they stopped swaying.

He pulled his phone out of his pocket and answered it.

You could be happy, I hope you are,
You made me happier than I'd been by far,

He said something in it and smiled at Bella.

He put his hand over the cell and said something to her.

He then said something back into the phone and hung up.

He gave her a hug, and walked outside.

Somehow everything I own smells of you.
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true,

I followed him outside to see where he was going.

I could still hear the music inside.

Do the things that you always wanted to,
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do,

I saw Jacob get into a truck, and back out of Rosalie's drive way.

I went back inside.

More than anything I want to see you, girl,
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world.

Bella was gone.

Where did she go?

The music switched from slow to upbeat and the living room suddenly seemed to breathe sex and alcohol.

Gah, the kids of Forks need to grow up.

I scanned the room for the one person I was looking for, but I did not see her.

I walked through the lower level of the house, searching, but I did not find her.

I walked upstairs and checked all of the rooms.

Empty.

I walked back downstairs and into the kitchen.

I saw the sliding glass door was slightly open, so I stepped outside.

I scanned the yard, not seeing anything.

I saw the big oak tree, the one that was always "base" when Rosalie, Emmett, and I would play tag.

I smiled and turned around to go back inside when I heard humming.

Or at least I thought it was humming.

I turned back around, hearing a new song come on.

Black dress with the tights underneath,

Bella.

She was humming along with the new song.

Ironic that she was wearing a black dress with tights underneath…

I walked towards the big old oak, and saw her sitting, slowly swinging back and fourth on the swing Rosalie's dad had built a hundred thousand years ago.

"Hey," I said quietly.

She gasped, and looked at me.

She let out a breath, and said, "Oh, you scared me," she smiled.

I smiled back, leaning against the big oak, "I really am sorry about this afternoon…I was uh, eager to leave school."

She giggled, "It is okay, it's not every day that you almost get hit by an Aston Martin."

I still can't believe she knows cars.

I smiled, "I really should have been more careful,"

"And I really should have looked both ways," she countered, "don't worry, I won't tell anyone." She grinned.

We didn't say anything for a while, and in our silence, I heard the song end.

She wants to touch me, woo hoo
She wants to love me, woo hoo
She'll never leave me, woo hoo woo hoo hoo hoo
Don't trust a ho
Never trust a ho
Won't trust a ho, a ho won't trust me

I decided to play it cool, and I asked, "So, who was that?"

"Who was who?" She looked at me, questioningly.

"The guy who was with you," I tried to sound casual.

"Oh, Jacob? Jacob Black? My dad and his dad are best friends, and when I used to come up here Jacob and I would hang out."

"Oh," I answered, "so, are you two, you know," I paused, waiting for her to answer. When she didn't I added, "an item?"

She laughed, "No, we are just friends. He is really the only person I knew when I first moved here."

She then gasped, taking me by surprise.

She jumped off the swing and twirled around, "Oh, I love this song!"

I heard piano play, and a woman's voice started singing,

Don't know how it is You looked at me,
And saw the person that I could be,

Bella looked at me and smiled.

I don't know what came over me.

Suddenly I was walking towards her,

Awakening my heart,
Breaking through the dark,
Suddenly Your grace,

My arms wrapped around her abdomin, her arms fell onto my shoulders.

Like sunlight burning at midnight

I felt electricity shoot through my body, I felt like I was buzzing.

Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful

We slowly danced under the oak tree.

Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful...

I slowly pulled back, so I could see her face.

She looked at me and smiled.

I leaned down, my heart racing.

I have been dreaming of kissing her luscious lips for days, and now, it was finally going to happen.

The distance was closing, and the moment before our lips touched…

She turned her face.

My lips brushed her cheek, and she pulled back.

"I – I'm sorry," She touched her cheek, her hand shaking. "I'm sorry," she said again.

What had just happened?

She then pulled out of my arms and took off running.

I just stood there, listening to the music.

What had I just done?

But even perfect days can end in rain...

Well well well. What has our little womanizer just done?

I know you are all very busy going to see Twilight...I didn't particularly like it as much as I was hoping...though I did go with pretty low expectations.

Anywho.

Here are the songs that I used in this chapter, in order:

"You Could Be Happy" by Snow Patrol

"Don't Trust Me" by 3OH!3 (does this song ring a bell? =])

"Beautiful, Beautiful" by Francesca Battistelli

xoxo~ greatterriblebeauty