She booked an appointment with her gynaecologist, whether she would have an abortion or not she still hadn't decided but what ever she chose to do she would need to see a doctor.
Santana's ( yup it's Santana) father himself was a doctor (though a cardiac specialist which is kind of different) so she had always had the best medical care free, something she was glad for now. Abortions cost money and it's not like Santana was rolling in cash after all the clothes and make-up and cinema tickets and everything that she needed to be the most popular kid in school. If that was shallow shoot her, she was bad ass she didn't give a shit.
Santana had, with the help of wiki answers found out as much as she needed to know about the medical procedure. Until about 9 weeks she could take two medicines and it would all be over within a couple of days. It would just be like a natural early pregnancy miscarriage. After that it would be more difficult and she would have to have her uterus sucked or something disgusting. Santana really hoped it wouldn't come to that.
She still felt in shock about it all. She was terrified about what would happen if anyone found out. Or if the OB/YGN wouldn't do the abortion. She didn't think that she would be able to show her face at school, the fallen pregnant ex-head cheerleader.
Her appointment was booked for Thursday after school. She didn't have cheerio practise because Coach Sylvester was in New Mexico giving a talk about the advantages of corporal punishment to a bunch of freaky psycho's. She would be cutting glee a bit tight but it's not like Mr. Shue would even notice she wasn't there. What Santana hated most of all about herself and situation was that she was all alone. She was such a bitch to people, no one cared about her, no one loved her. She had no one except Brittany. Brittany, the dumbest girl in McKinley |High, even if she was her best amazing friend. The fetus's father had been a stupid mistake, she knew more then anyone that she shouldn't have slept with him, that he didn't feel anything for her. The only person Santana could have relied upon was Quinn, whom she had estranged when she was in exactly the same situation months earlier. Santana despised herself for the way she had treated her ex-friend. So Quinn had needed taking down a peg or two and she wasn't popular any more. Friends didn't mess about with each other like that. She was screwed.
The next day at glee Santana had a song to sing. Sitting on a stool at the front of the practise room she let the music wash over her.
When all is lost to you inside
When all the darkness takes the light
The ritual warning has begun
And now you tear away from everyone
Disconnected so alone yeah
Severed ties from all you know
Isolation
Brings you to the end
Until you love again, oh
Isolation
If you could only see
What will come to be
Yeah
Justify you waste away
You dare to dream but still you're too afraid
And now you're broken and deceived
Lost to live this cruel reality
You're disconnected so alone
Severed ties from all you know
Isolation
Brings you to the end
Until you love again, oh
Isolation
If you could only see
What will come to be
Yeah
Maybe you'll stand
Maybe you'll give and break to find another way
And make things better
Maybe you'll find
A life you can live and learn to love along the way
And make things better
And make things better
Isolation
Brings you to the end
Until you love again, oh
Isolation
If you could only see
What will come to be
Yeah
Isolation
Brings you to the end
Until you love again
Isolation
If you could only see
What will come to be
You're disconnected so alone
What will come to be?
You're disconnected so alone
Well they hadn't expected that.
Ps. The song is Isolation by Altar Bridges. I'm trying to do kind of strange songs. :) Again, please, please give me ideas in the reveiws. Tell me if you wan Santana to have an abortion or keep the baby and who you want the father to be.