Disclaimer: i definately DO NOT own twilight or any of its charaters. I am just not so original.

Russian Roulette

Edward POV

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I'm sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I'm terrified but I'm not leaving
Know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger - Rihanna

''Alice! How long am I suppose to follow you to your stupid fucking crazy shopping spree?! I swear to fucking god Alice if you don't let me go fast I will tell Jasper about all your antics!'' I threatened her.

My fucking sister was crazy; she has been dragging my ass in these shitty shops for what seems like an hour now.

It has been nothing but pure torture.

Added to the fact that I had to comment on each of the shirt, pant, skirt, dress, belts, purse and even a fucking necklace she tried on. And actually fucking tell her if she looked cute, hot and fucking sexy!

I mean come the fuck on! How the hell am i suppose to know if my sister looks any of those things!

Sure bring some other bitch and I will gladly tell you if she looks sexy, whether her tits are big or not, or if her pussy is fuckable or not just by how she looks.

But when it comes to your fucking sister, who cares if she is adopted sister or not the concept remains the same.

She rolled her eyes at me and said, ''Edward stop throwing tantrums like an over grown lil' girl... ''

'' Alice I can just walk out right now and you can find some one else who will willingly tell you how fuckable you look in those different shitty dresses.'' i said while fuming at her and giving her a very pointed glare.

She wasn't even faced a little bit by what I said and instead of apologizing or some shit that I expected her to do while I threatened her she just bounced towards a new shirt and squealed in excitement and exclaimed '' ah Edward! This is the perfect shirt for that perfect skirt! I will totally own him by the next time we meet! I bet he ll be undressing me with those fucking beautiful eyes of his!''

''Too much info Alice. Like I said you are trying to seduce one of my friends but please spare me all the fucking details. And I swear to fucking god Alice you say one more word about how you fucking seduced him and then made him all frustrated by acting indifferent I will fucking puke in all these precious bags of yours.'' i threatened her in a low a fierce growl.

Holly. Shit. Eating. Fuck.

The look on her face fucking screamed that I had just crossed the line.

'' Edward now shut the hell up and listen to me you ass!'' she screeched. '' I have been trying to distract your mind and you are just coming out like nobody's business and insulting my precious clothes! I will definitely not have that!'' she said in a furious voice. ''And let me answer your other threats, you want to leave than leave, I bet there'll be a lot others who will happily oblige to my request and they will even fuck me and tell me how fuckable I look.'' she said in a calm and low voice and resumed inspecting other clothes.

I clenched my teeth and clenched my hands into fists so tightly that you could fucking see the bones through my skin.

She knew she was fucking right!

If I was going to still accompany her no matter what, doesn't mean I have to enjoy the whole thing. I decided to answer her inquiries with just the occasional 'hmmms' and that's it.

I know I was being hard on the poor kid, she was doing all this for me, but I still didn't ask her to drag my fucking ass in a mall. a mall would be the last place I would want to go and even then I was standing in one of the malls right now.

Technically speaking I am actually the one who is adopted not Alice. I was fucking ten when my great aunt and uncle, whom I now call mom and dad, adopted me, actually that was when they signed the official papers, and they were already taking care of me since I was born. So of course they are even more fucking close to me than my real fucking parents.

My fucking mom and dada were killed in a car accident, not any fucking car accident, but a fucking drunk car accident and also managed to take a pedestrian with them. I sneered the last thought in my head.

To actually look at every thing, like really look at every thing, you will know that i was not ever close to them. In fact I only mourned for a day for the loss of my parents and was very happy when I came to know that I'll be living with my favorite aunt and uncle.

Only they and of course Alice knows how the thought of my parents disturbs me.

And since my dad and my foster dad were partners in a business, half of the business's responsibility automatically was mine but Carlisle handled it himself very efficiently all of those fucking years. And now i am twenty fucking five and Carlisle has been constantly annoying me to climb up the ladder and be his partner in crime since I turned twenty.

I have been giving him excuses like I am not responsible enough or I am not mature enough or I just want to have fun but I know it isn't working one day or the other I would have to take that step no matter what. I owe Carlisle just too much, hell I owe the whole lot of them a lot. I had a sneaking fucking feeling that the day isn't far away.

I am starting repay Carlisle by doing him favor that he had asked me, even though it was the last thing I expected from him, because this favor will just tangle up my whole life in to a desperate jumble of threads. But what the fuck, I'll do it if it means I am repaying Carlisle in any fucking way.

But that still didn't mean I didn't throw a fucking tantrum.

Alice noticed the thoughtful and remorse expression on my face and swiftly understood what i might have been thinking of.

That's just how we both are; we understood each other really well. We didn't need words to know what the other was going through.

And that is one more thing that I have to repay her for.

Alice swiftly stood up on her toes, even then she was no where close to my face, understanding what she wanted to do I ducked my head down, she kissed my cheek softly and said, '' Edward don't worry every thing will be okay, in fact, it'll be just great and you know I am always right. If I didn't know that do you think I would have let mom and dad do what they are doing?'' she comforted me not really seeking an answer for the question.

That is one more thing. Alice is never in a million years wrong.

Alice turned around and started going around the store with me following behind her with already my hands full of her fucking shopping bags.

After about two more torturous hour of shopping and me commenting or literally sulking she actually me a break.

''Edward if you are really tired you can wait out here for me while I shop inside because i just know I am going to take long.'' Alice said with a wicked grin and excitement in her eyes.

I instantly got suspicious she was definitely on something, but i was just feeling very exhausted so I let it drop.

''Sure Alice. I'll be waiting here.'' I said.

She bounced inside the store with her purse in the other hand.

I sighed in relief and walked across the shop to sit on a bench.

Oof. My knees cranked when I sat. Shit. That was a relief. I didn't know my legs were so damn tired.

i had hardly sat for ten minutes in tranquility when my fucking sister messaged me. I internally groaned. i knew she must be calling me inside.

I slowly took out my black berry and opened the message. My eyes practically fell out and my breathing picked up when I read her message.

Alice: i ll b shoppin wid angella one of bella's frnd n bella doesnt wanna shop wid us cuz she is tired so i sent her out to u. U both can stay 2gether while we shop bye. 3 u.

I hated her so much in that second. She knew we both could never talk like two adults, fuck adults we can't even look at each other with out sneering.

I hate fucking Isabella Marie swan.

I hate her even more because I don't have a rational reason to fucking hate her.

I hate her even more and more because she is the only bitch whom i have lusted after for so fucking long even when I didn't want to. Usually it is very easy for me once i find attractive either i fuck her or I don't and move on.

But this girl was fucking different and I hate here even more and more and more because of it.

And the worst part is she doesn't even find me a fucking bit attractive.

She gives the impression of fucking forbidden fruit and I want to fucking eat her up just because of that. She just looks so fucking fuckable and has this aura around her of innocence and prohibition that i just want to corrupt it.

Though i know there is no way she is sill a virgin, oh hell she herself has told me she is not.

I wanted her to be a fucking virgin because i wanted to be the one to corrupt her, to pop that delicious cherry of hers.

Edward: sure Alice.

I messaged Alice back. Any way I wasn't in the mood to bicker with her. I would just ignore her.

The odd thing about her was that I oddly respected her and that one emotion that I never feel for bitches' well of course except for mom and Alice.

I sat there looking at the exit of the shop where Alice said she will come from.

After actually waiting for fucking fifteen minutes I figured out she might have sneaked out from some other exit after she hated me exactly the same way as me actually she hated me a lot more than I did.

Just as I was about message Alice she came out.

My breath hitched just looking at her. And Mr. Edward Jr came at its full attention. I groaned. Just fucking great why can't she just sneak away.

She was looking at her feet very intently as if trying to figure out something. She took a deep breath and pulled her up and looked around with a frown, probably looking for me. Actually I had a lot of fun annoying me. Her anger just turned me on even more...

Uggh. That made Mr. Edward even more attentive.

She didn't see me and a triumphant smile broke across her face, she took out her cell phone and she started texting someone probably Alice.

I just wanted to annoy her even if it was the last time.

I got up picked up all the bags and walked towards her. She didn't see me so I cleared my throat to gain her attention. Normally I would have said 'it fucking stink in here, must be the piece of shit standing front of me' while in fact I would be think to drink he in just by smelling her because she smells so fucking good.

That seemed to gain her attention she slowly looked at me through her lashes and that made my breath hitch and of course my erection was straining against my jeans.

I adjusted my jeans as stealthily as I can manage.

She looked really shocked at seeing me.

She was looking just so beautiful in those clothes. Her blue shirt looked like water against her snow white skin and her skinny jeans practically showed me the shape of her fucking legs. Her full lips were glossy pink… delicious. I wanted to know if she tastes like the way she smells. Just delicious.

She was a fucking forbidden strawberry for me. That was just fucking inviting me to take a bite.

We kind of stood there staring at each other. I was bracing myself for the comments that will hit me with full force.

But oddly it never came.

We stood there staring each other like fucking idiots for like another ten minutes at the least.

She broke the silence and our fucking staring, well not fucking staring, but you get what I mean. I was so fucking surprised that she didn't say any thing like ' what pervert' or 'fuck off asshole' or even 'stop looking at me bitch face', but instead of all of that she said, "ummm… hi I thought you went away."

That shocked the hell out of me.

I explained what I was doing or rather where I was because I really can't tell her that I was lusting after her and hating her at the same time.

I don't what shocked her and I kind of started to panic, maybe I haven't thought the last part in my head, maybe I have said that out loud. But I was so damn sure that I haven't, because I am always so careful of what I do and say, whatever I do is never without purpose or an accident. But I am not so entirely sure right now because since the first time I have laid my eyes on her everything seems to fuck up. I have to control my self a lot and even then I just fuck up.

Suddenly a look of remorse, regret and sorrow crossed her face; she swiftly looked down at her feet and replied.

I was just confused by her actions. I mean, come on, first she looks at me like I have done or said something that was so fucking wrong then she looks all repentant and as if she knows she is going to die in a matter of hours.

The look on her face made my heart twist in a very painful way.

We made our way to my car in comfortable silence all the while she just stared intently at her feet.

I kept stealing glances at her and she just looked very vulnerable as if she will just break down. I was really worried about her and wanted to know what was so fucking bothering her so that I could go and fix it up for her and see that easy smile back on her fucking lips.

i saw her smile and shake her head slightly as if to say 'some things never change' when we reached our car. I didn't know what caused that action but I was happy none the less to see her smile back.

We put the shopping bags in my trunk and I asked what she wanted to eat. We made our way back to the food court and ordered our food. We were about to have an argument about who pays the bill in front of the fucking cashier who was fucking ogling her and I wanted to fucking punch the guy in his face, stretch his jaw apart and break it.

I, of course, wanted to give an impression that Bella was taken and also wanted to make a point to her leaned in closer towards her and said in a low voice, "So? I don't let any girl pay for food when I am with them, so now you keep quite and don't make scene there is along queue of people waiting behind us to order their food and I don't really want get beaten by all of them." That was a lie. I actually never paid for a bitch, only, except for my mom and Alice. But like I said my Bella was different.

My Bella.

Come the fuck on.

What the hell is happening to me?

I should straighten my thoughts. I am going to get married soon.

My comment made her to shut up. I stood straight and gave my credit card to the cashier and glared at him.

The odd thing was Bella never took notice of the looks he was giving her or the fact that he was fucking undressing her with is eyes, that made me want to kiss her right there and then.

I walked us to a table and sat there in comfortable silence both in deep thought.

I thought about what ever has happened in the last few weeks.

After a few minutes a got up and brought our food back, but not before giving the cashier a furious gaze and whispering in a low threatening growl, "you ever look at my girl like that I will squeeze your eyeballs out and rip your jaw apart and I am not just saying that." that made his eyes pop out with terror and gulp down his saliva.

I made my way back to our table and placed the tray down.

We both sat in silence and ate our burgers.

My mind drifted back to the events that had turned my world upside down.

Carlisle and Esme have been acting really frustrated and anxious, like they were walking on shreds of glasses around me or as if they were waiting for the ticking bomb to explode. And I think that fucking ticking bomb some how me, but that idea just kept nagging me, why the hell will I explode? Okay I agree, my temper is fucking a lot. But what would tick me off was just fucking out of my mind. Alice's usual cheeriness was all but gone. If Alice is ever, not bouncing about something, or nothing in particular, that can possibly only mean one thing and that is, a huge fucking tornado was on its way, and the atmosphere in the house was just like the fucking strong winds that blows before the real tornado actually comes.

I was really pissed at every one. And wanted to release my fucking anger.

I called up my best buds, jasper and Emmett, to go out with me. Even they had sensed all the fucking vibes coming from them. Sheesh

All of us met at a restaurant and went in to grab some thing to eat.

All the waitresses kept checking us out. Emmett obviously knew, even if he checked any bitch out, Rosalie will claw his eyes out and rip his balls off.

And jasper was hung up on Alice, and that fucking bastard had made me promise to not even accidently mention this to any one and if I do he will spill some of my damn secrets. We both knew I would not give a damn to those entire secret shit. I maybe a womanizer, heart breaker, pervert but never a promise breaker. He knew his secret was pretty much very safe with me. But he is just a fucking idiot like that.

My fucking sister had also made me do the same thing. They both are just pieces of shit, if they would only let me tell them they fucking already share their feelings, they could save each other such fucking seducing and charming the other shit.

Jasper doesn't have eyes for any one else except for Alice. And in a way I was fucking glad about it. Because there was no fucking chance in hell or even heaven that I will let him fuck with my fucking baby sis, even if she is just five years younger than me.

So that just left me to ogle every bitch's tits.

And that is exactly what I did.

Hey, who was I to push away willing tits and pussy.

I, of course, got bored with the show and wanted some action. And our waitress just seemed really very horny.

I bid Emmett and jasper bye. They knew what I'll be doing next, just rolled their eyes and smirked at me. Usually they would get really disappointed and give me really stern looks but they knew not to fuck with me now, as it is, I was already very pissed.

And it definitely wasn't my fault I was just panties dropping sexy.

They knew I wasn't ever going to change, well, except for Alice. She thought, or more specifically, believed, I will change one day. Like totally alternate from a womanizer to a bitch's puppy.

That scared the shit out of me, because Alice was always right.

But then again she is only human. She can't always be right.

The waitress was looking at me from the counter and was leaning on it, flashing me and every one else her tits and the tattooed rose on her right boob.

I smirked at her and moved my index finger back and forth, silently telling her to follow me. I got up and walked out of the restaurant knowing fucking well she was following me.

I didn't even glance back once and just kept walking until we reached a dark ally. I stopped abruptly, making her bump into me.

She groped my ass and tried to say in a sexy voice which amusedly sounded as if some one was strangling a cat. '' Hey handsome. You look very eager to fuck me. I know I am just irresistible.''

I laughed out loud at that absurd comment.

But I couldn't of course. The bitch took it as an invitation and started grabbing on my erection.

I roughly pushed her against the wall; I didn't have time for all the stupid tease games she wanted to play.

I swiftly turned around and pushed her against the wall. I ripped opened her fucking uniform-barely-there-dress and pushed her panty down and surely her panties were dripping wet. I smirked and said, ''looks like you are the one who wants me and are a too little over eager bitch.'' I finished in a husky voice.

She swiftly unbuttoned my jeans and pushed both my boxers and jeans down in one quick move. Fuck, I realized this bitch wasn't going to be any where tight; she just was fucked a lot.

Any way I just plunged into her and caught her off guard. She wanted to waste time with kissing and shit where as I just wanted a quick fuck and release all my tension. She screamed in pleasure at the contact. Fuck, every bitch only screamed in ecstasy, I was starting to lose faith in finding a moaner. My buds and I had a bet to find a moaner and till now none of us had crossed a path of one.

More like I haven't found one yet since Emmett and jasper aren't even fucking anyone else and jasper isn't fucking any one at all.

I started thrusting in and out of her in swift and rough movements. And fuck, she was just not tight.

The bitch was hot and surely did know how to get fucked but was still not the best. I just wanted a release, and as fast as possible, I started thrusting in and out of her faster and pinched her nipple to make her cum first. I had a silent rule to never come before the girl that will just mean that I was too easy.

She started kissing my neck and I was thoroughly repulsed by the action.

I pinched her nipple harder and with the other hand pinched her clit. She threw her head back swiftly and hit her head pretty hard, I smirked at that. Her walls started clenching on me and she screamed loudly and came undone.

I had a difficult time in coming while she had already ridden through her daze filled orgasm. I pinched her nipples and rubbed her clit and in response she screamed and moved violently against me.

At last, at last, I felt the pressure building in my belly. I clutched her hair and immediately regretted my action. Her hair was so greasy; it felt as if she hadn't taken a shower since a very long time. I groaned both in disgust and pleasure while I rode through my orgasm and she heaved beneath me.

As soon as I was done I swiftly pulled my cock out of her damn lose pussy and pulled my boxers and jeans up in another swift movement and buttoned them up. She just kept heaving against the wall. See I am a really good fucker like that, bitches at least take thirty minutes to regain themselves. I leaned in close to her ear and whispered, ''I didn't enjoy a single moment you are just too used bitch.'' and with that i walked away towards my car.

I drove up to Carlisle's house. Alice had come from Europe for god only knows what reason. Actually I think she has already finished her studies but she wanted to stay there for a while, and her move to suddenly fly to New York was fucking alarming. She only fucking tells me she was just missing us, but I didn't believe her for a split second. i ignored her any way, if she wanted to tell me any thing she will do it herself.

I parked my car in the garage and went inside. Carlisle, Esme and Alice were sitting on a couch deep in intense conversation.

I plopped down next to Alice on a couch. As soon as they saw me, all of them shut their mouths up and that pissed the hell out of me. I raised my eyebrows at them and said, '' Will you guys just tell me already what the fuck is wrong, because i cant stand all these vibes that you all pass.'' I finished in a really pissed voice.

Carlisle took a deep breath and said, ''Edward you have to calm down for this conversation.'' that pissed me off even more but none the less i took a deep breath to calm myself.

''Son, one of the friends of mine is in a really difficult situation and he has done a lot for me over the past. He has asked me to do him a big favor, which involves you.'' that didn't sound like a big deal to me; I relaxed immensely after hearing that.

''That is not such a big deal, its just a damn favor. You all were acting as if some one was going to die.'' I said in a mocking tone.

Carlisle shook his head in regret and said, ''son, you don't know what the favor is other wise you wouldn't be mocking me.''

''Well then tell Me.'' I replied in a pissed voice. Carlisle looked at me cautiously as if to gauge each and every action of mine and said in a low careful voice, '' he wants you to marry her daughter and I can't say no to him.''

''what?!'' I sat up straight; clearly I must have heard him wrong.

'' Son, you heard me. You have to marry her daughter. If I had a choice I would have chosen his daughter for you. I have always liked her even your mom and sister do.'' Carlisle tried to explain, but my mind couldn't register much. Only the words 'you have to marry his daughter' were ringing in my head.

I sat silent there looking at him like he had grown a pair of his head while esme and Alice eyed me cautiously.

The idea of marriage was far from my mind. I know I am twenty five but who the hell will I marry, that problem was pretty much solved because of Carlisle. But when he says his friend, he means all his business friends, and I have fucked each and every daughter of those friends, I haven't even liked any bitch for more than five minutes, hell I have only lusted after them not liked them. And aren't I suppose to love a bitch to marry one??

That thought snapped me out of my thoughts.

'' What the fuck do you mean I have to marry her? Isn't it suppose to be my choice or some shit. You can't just force me to marry a bitch. Hell, aren't I suppose to love a bitch before I marry one.'' I said in a really pissed and furious voice.

''Edward language.'' chided Esme, but I couldn't care less about that shit at the moment.

''do you think we could even hold the marriage together for even a month, because i have met all those bitches, and believe me none of them are marriage material, sure they are fuck material but never marriage.'' I stood up while ranting in a high a voice.

''Edward you have clearly not met the girl I am talking about, because she is none of the things that you have just said'' after a second thought Carlisle added ''except for one of course.''

''I don't give a fuck to what you say because there is no way that I'll be marrying her or any bitch for that matter.'' I screamed.

''You have clearly not met the girl I am talking about or maybe you just don't remember her in your fit of anger.'' Carlisle replied in a calm voice. That angered me even more, how the fuck can he be all calm and shit while uprooting my whole fucking life.

''Don't you want to know who the girl is?'' Alice piped in.

''no I don't wanna know, because like I said I won't be marrying her.''
I turned around and replied in bitter tone, ''I have met every bitch and i know them better than you do dad.'' I stomped up to my room and banged the door lock.

I paced in my room steaming like a boiling kettle. I could not believe that even Alice didn't warn me about this shit. After about an hour or so of my pacing and anger, i heard the door knock softly. ''Get the fuck away'' I howled.

''Edward please open the door. I need to explain some thing. I bet it will clear your mind a bit. And any way if you don't open up the door I already have the key to your room.'' Alice replied from the other side of the door.

I sighed heavily and walked to the door, Alice will always be Alice she has ways to get what she wants. I opened the door, let her in and walked to the bed to sit.

She closed the door behind her and walked to where i was sitting and sat in front of me. Both of our knees facing and touching each other. We both sat there looking at each other, lost in our own thoughts for some fucking time.

''Edward, do you want to know why I didn't interfere or more likely go against dad down there?" Alice began not really expecting an answer. ''I know Edward its going to be alright, in fact its going to be more than alright, its going to be fantastic. I have this feeling that you are going to be very happy.'' I started to interject but she begun before me ''no Edward, you know better than to disagree with me, right? Edward i know its going to be hard to except but not impossible. I also know you don't want to know the name of the girl, but let me just tell you, neither is she happy with the situation that her father has gotten her into, but do you know why she accepted this whole marrying shit because she loves her parents and she is a selfless person like that. I know this because I am a friend of hers and even if she hasn't spoken these words to me herself I'll still know what she is thinking --- she took a deep breath --- its a bigger sacrifice for her than it is for you because she had this totally different ideal situation in that pretty head of hers and it definitely wasn't this, believe me. And the weird part is even she doesn't want to know who her husband is going to be and she has threatened her parents that she will never be happy in her life for obvious reasons'' she finished with sad eyes and a little shake of her head.

''But you said she is a self less person.'' I replied, my attention picked at what she said about the girl.

''Yes she is, but she likes to threaten those she love.'' she answered with a little laugh. ''Just like you.'' she added.

''I'll leave you to your own thoughts.'' she kissed me on my forehead and walked out of the room closing the door behind her.

I started to understand and realize that Carlisle was right; I definitely haven't met this girl. Because every bitch I met was always full of herself and not self less. That girl has already gained my respect, considering she was sacrificing her dreams and marriage was far from my fucking dreams.

And any way, I found a way to repay Carlisle for all his generosity and love.

I will get married.

I went back down stairs and sure enough every one was sitting in their exact same places. Alice looked up at me and smiled, she knew why i was here.

''Dad I'll marry your friend's daughter. But i have a condition which isn't so hard to follow. I don't wanna know her name or anything that will indicate who she is.'' Carlisle looked relieved. Of course I'll always be who i am, added '' and of course I am not happy with this nor will I ever be. If she turns out to be a bitch against all your better judgment, i have no doubt in the fact that she already is one, i will of course, blame you all.'' i turned around and saw that Alice was smiling and shaking her head from side to side, i gave her tight lipped smile and went back in my room.

I looked up and noticed the somber expression on Bella's face. Normally I would have enjoyed her discomfort and sorrow... Hell what am I saying, her sorrow would have bothered me even then, but the difference is I haven't seen her so sad before. Sure I have seen her crying over small things, (believe me this girl is very emotional), she would get all teary eyed if some one told her the ending of the most amazing novel she might be reading, you would expect her to not read the novel after that but nothing in the world could stop her once she had started something. Even then I haven't seen her so... Sad.

Something really life altering must have happened.

I wanted to know what had caused her so much disturbance. I preferred her rude and snide comments over this somber silence and timid looks.

I wanted to fix what was bothering her.

I wanted to just fucking banish it from this earth.

I raked my brain to find a way for her to open up to me.

Twenty fucking one questions! Yup that will definitely do. I won't look too privy nor will I come out as an idiot.

I cleared my throat to gain her attention. I desperately wanted to call her by her name, in fact I have always wanted to call her by her name, but then it would have ruined my 'asshole charade', and suddenly acknowledging her like the way I have always wanted to, or just quarter of the way I have wanted to might trigger her inner 'respectable bitch' out.

She looked up and met my eyes. I asked her if she wanted to play a game with me and she agreed rather enthusiastically, may I add, I didn't expect this kind of reaction.

The idea that I didn't even know her favorite color shocked the hell out of me. In all these years we didn't even have a one word polite conversation so I shouldn't have been so surprised, but need less to say I still was.

"Honestly I don't really know maybe green… or anything that I really like on the particular day." She replied with a shrug and a blush.

Honestly, I found green to a very boring color. But then the way she added the 'depends on my mood' actually screams there might be a history behind that color.

"So you like blue today?" I asked while cocking an eyebrow. I found it a bit of amusing to have a history behind a fucking color.

She huffed a little and crossed her arms over her chest and had that stubborn look on her face.

"No, I am wearing blue for totally different reason. And you just asked me your second question." she replied smiling wickedly. The smile gave her a devilish look.

"So, what's your favorite color? She asked

"Blue." My answer even surprised me. Blue was definitely not my favorite color until a few hours ago. I quickly got distracted and asked "So why are you wearing blue today if it's not your favorite color?"

This led her to ramble about her friend, colleagues and the complements she got in this particular shirt.

My eyes clouded with lust as I gazed down at her shirt and collar bones. Fuck, those collar bones were really fucking taunting me to touch them. Thank fucking lord she didn't catch me eyeing her skin or other wise she would have brought her inner bitch out, and I was enjoying way too fucking much, this new discovered sweet Bella (well, she was always polite and sweet but that politeness and sweetness was just not directed towards me. And I wanted to take full advantage and savor it, till I am on the receiving end.) So much more than it is healthy for me and I fucking hate her for doing this to me.

With out thinking I blurted ''I think they were right about that.''

She seemed confused by my out burst and asked ''About what?''

I realized I couldn't go back on my words. Once I have started a thought might as well finish it. And anyway, she was looking outrageously beautiful; she deserved a compliment for her efforts. Though, from what she described, she didn't put forth much effort at all and that resulted her to look so stunning. Just the thought that if she actually wanted to look really extravagant for some occasion and she actually, kind of, put some effort, she would just look...

Mouth watering? No she already looks that.

Sexy? Yes, maybe in her own innocent way.

Cute? Okay, Cullen doesn't use such words, though when you come to think about it her nose is kind of cute.

Dazzling? Yup, pretty much think so. But the word still isn't satisfying my fucking mind.

Exquisite? Yeah! That's it! She will definitely look fucking exquisite.

I hated her so fucking much for doing this to me. For making me lust after her.

''That it looks good on you.'' and I can't wait to put my mouth on you - I wanted to add.

I hate her!

That made her fucking blush. I just couldn't help myself, I loved the way the blood slowly spreads around her cheeks and colors her skin while gradually grows darker by every minute. So I just sat there staring at the most edible sight in front of me that I couldn't have for any thing in this fucking world.

Yup, she definitely is a forbidden fucking, juicy, fruit.

And I utterly despise her!

I realized she wasn't used to getting compliments.

She looked up and reminded me it was my turn to ask her a question. I asked her what she liked to do when she is free but quickly changed my mind as I already knew the fucking answer to that.

She looked shocked. It shouldn't have been such a big surprise as every fucking guy knew not to flirt with as she would not notice, but that still didn't mean they didn't try. And their attempts were fucking fruitless.

She asked me the same question in return but then quickly asked not to answer it as she already knows the answer.

"Really and what will that be?" I asked in an amused tone. There was no way that she would know what I actually liked to do in my spare time.

"Flirting, seducing, making out and how can I forget fucking bitches." She replied with grimace.

I was highly amused by her reply. "Now why do you say that? Not that it's partly true." I replied chuckling softly.

"Becauuuse, I have always seen you doing one of these things in every party." she grimaced while answering me.

"Now I don't think you would have seen me fucking anyone." I stated getting highly amused by her answers.

"Oh I have seen you doing each of these things." She scoffed.

Fuck… there was nothing more embarrassing than getting caught having sex. I wouldn't have actually minded but this was Bella. I fucking knew she would tease me to no end.

"ummm… now that is… umm… not good… when did you see me doing that?" I stammered uncomfortably and embarrassing myself further I looked down at my empty coke glass to avoid her gaze and ran a hand through my hair.

She started out with a small chuckle which turned into a giggle and that turned into a full laugh.

I glared at her. I was fucking getting embarrassed and she was sitting and laughing her ass off.

"Oh sor-r-ry about tha-that." she replied between chuckles.

"Okay, stop glaring at me. You aren't scarring me; in fact it's even more amusing." she said while giggling.

That was a first. No other girl ever said 'I wasn't scaring her' when my glare was directed at them. I waited for her to control herself and explain.

"Umm, it was only a one time thing I saw you fucking a girl in the washroom. In my defense I will say I had drank a lot of punch and that was the only washroom that I thought was vacant. But then I found out it wasn't, but only because of other reasons."

She grimaced probably recalling the memory.

I fucking remember that. I was so pissed at Bella and was taking my fucking anger out on Tanya.

She was completely ignoring me in that particular party and that pissed me to no end, so I grabbed Tanya by her ass her dragged her up to the washroom

In the middle of her 'orgasm-ing' I heard a door slam, I turned my head towards it but saw no one so carried on doing what was already occupying me.

I ran a hand through my hair and replied said "I thought I heard someone shutting the door."

It turns out I wasn't completely ignored after all.

She chuckled again, and said "You have asked so many questions that I have lost count."

"Okay so how about one more question?" I asked. I might as well ask what was, and probably still is bothering her now before it gets too late

.

"You asked me a question to ask me another question." she stated. "One more question won't hurt." I said.

I chuckled, she seriously did look a lot better when she was all giddy, and that again was probably because she made me damn uncomfortable.

"You looked… sad when I met you today… in front of the shop, and until recently." I said getting serious.

Her smile fell, and I hated myself for doing that, but it still didn't mean I didn't want to know the answer.

She nodded at my observation.

"Why?" I asked.

"You know I can ask you the same question." she said

Looks like I wasn't the only one who was paying attention.

"I guess you can. But I asked you the question first." I said.

"Yes you did." she sighed and shifted her eyes to her and looked really fucking sad.

"lets just say what ever my principles and beliefs of my life were, just exist in some shitty fairy tales not in real life, and even if I have a choice to stop them from getting crushed I cant, because if I do I will not be able to live with my self." she replied in teary voice.

Her words were very cryptic and I fucking wanted to figure out what it all meant.

"And why were you sad?" she asked, a little eager to know my problem.

I sighed and started fidgeting with my fingers, clasping and unclasping them on the table and deciding what to tell her about my problem. I finally decided to follow her and answer as cryptically as possible.

"I have found myself in a very compromising situation." I looked up and met her gaze. I ran a hand through my hair and said, "My explanation is a lot like you except for the fairy tale shit." I said in small voice.

It was kind of weird how we both oddly sounded as if we were in the same situation. And even weirder was we both understood how the other person was feeling.

After some time my cell went off.

I cursed and picked it up.

"What Alice?" I said in a bored and annoyed tone. When the both of us actually, were getting on terms, she had to force her ass into things.

"Did you run away and left Bella. I swear Edward if you did, I will cut you into pieces." Alice screeched.

"No I didn't. I am in the food court with Bella." I replied.

"Ooooooooo…. that's good, I just hope you both haven't pulled each others hair out. Tell Bella, Angela went back and I want to go home so can you get your ass down." She said in a giddy voice.

"Okay come to the parking lot, I will be there." I replied.

I put the cell back and told Bella I had to go because of fucking Alice and asked her if she needed a ride. She said she already had a car and it even surprised me that we have been talking for so late.

Time really passes by when you are having fun.

We both rose up from our seats.

"Bye Edward and tell Alice to call me anytime she wants I am sure she has taken my number from Angela." She said.

"Bye Bella." I replied. Finally, happy that I could call her by what I always wanted to.

I went into the parking lot where Alice was waiting by the car practically bouncing with excitement.

We both sat inside and started the engine of my baby. I reversed the car out of my parking lot and started towards the Cullen mansion.

"Alice what's up with you?" finally asking her. Her smile was very infectious and I was on the verge of smiling myself and I didn't want to do that.

"nuh-thin" she replied shaking her head from side to side while her smile grew even wider.

I didn't question her more, I knew her really well, and she wouldn't tell me any thing in such a mood.

"Alice I know you are up to no good and I'll fucking figure it out soon." I told her.

"Yup, you will." She sang.

Yup, she has lost her mind.

I wanted to meet Bella once more just like this before my life gets complicated, even though its wrong of me to lust after some one else when I am getting fucking married real soon, but I just cant help myself when it comes to Bella.

I just hope the girl I am going to marry isn't fucking bitch.

Authors note: sorry for the late update. I know its a very fucking long chapter but I just couldn't help myself. And I am begging you all again please review even a sweet smiley face would be a lot for me. See that's how much desperate I am, give a girl some break!