Chapter 6: Looking a head

Disclaim: I do not own 7th heaven

Martin walked into his apartment, his empty apartment. Every since Martin found out Aaron wasn't his he been down, really down. Simon wasn't even the father which was the big shocker.

The night that he found out was the night he lost his soul. Aaron died that night. He died from the ammonia. He got really sick one night and he was just gone like that.

The doctor needed the father to sign off on the death certificate but little did anyone know Sandy signed some guy name Malcolm Anderson as the father.

What really shocked Martin was the doctor founding out that Martin he couldn't have kids. Could never have kids and that's why it wasn't possible for Aaron to be his.

" Martin!" Mac said banging on the door " Open up"

"No go away!" Martin yelled back

" Martin open the door please"

Martin got up from the coach and opened the door to see Mac. The friend he known for along time, the friend that helped him get through the past year or so.

" So how are you?"

" Not wanting to be here"

"Okay let's go out then"

"No not wanting to be alive!" Martin said throwing his hands up and took his spot on the coach.

"Martin it's been a year and some months. I'm not telling you to get over him because I know you can't but do you think Aaron would want his dad to live like this"

"Yeah who knows...if I was his dad" Martin said turning the TV to the sports channel

Mac finally gave up and went to the kitchen. He opened the refrigerator to find nothing.

"Martin when are you going to go shopping?"

"When you stop bugging me"

Martin cell rung and it read his dad.

"Hey"

"Hey son. How are you doing?"

"Not good. Not good at all"

"It'll be okay. You'll get through it like you got through it with your mom"

"Yeah"

" Well I love you and be safe"

"I love you to dad. Bye"

They both hung up the phone as Mac stared at Martin. He hated seeing his best friend, who was like a brother going through this.

"If only one girl can come and change his life, if only one" Mac thought to his self

"I know what your thinking" Martin said laying down on the coach

"And what may that be?" Mac asked moving Martin's legs off the coach and sitting next by him

" Your thinking about..." Martin paused " Never mind"

"See you can't even say her name" Mac said smiling " Come on spell it with me R...U...T...H...I...E and what do that spell?"

"Ruthie" Martin said with a smile on his face. That was the first smile he had since Aaron's death a year or so ago.

"So when are you going to call her?" Mac asked

"Never"

"Why"

"Why should I? It's to late anyways"

"It's never to late to find the one who you was meant for"

Martin just sat there without a response, with nothing to say. But after Aaron and him hearing about Ruthie moving to Scotland he knew he would never have a chance to get her back, never.

Ruthie woke up and stretched her arms. She then realized that Melanie was gone. Panicking she ran into the liver room to see Simon feeding her.

"Ruthie what's wrong?" Simon asked looking at Ruthie's face expression

"Nothing"

"Hungry"

"Yeah"

Simon and Ruthie ate their breakfast in silence at the table with nothing to say, not a word just looked at each other. Simon was wondering should he tell Ruthie about Aaron. But he didn't want to because it would just make it more harder on her. He didn't even know how long they could keep this a secret. It's been almost a month and Simon managed to not tell anybody about Melanie. Even though he really wanted to tell Matt, Mary, or Lucy, but he didn't because he promised Ruthie he wouldn't.

"So... when are we going to tell mom and dad?

"Soon I hope"

"How soon?"

" Maybe this weekend at the Family reunion"

"Oh. Shit!" Simon said covering his mouth. He forgot Melanie was there but she just giggled and said "ooh" as she pointed at him

"What?"

"I forgot about the reunion"

Ruthie sat there playing with Melanie as she cleaned her up.

"Ruthie are you sure you want to tell them at the reunion?"

" U mm maybe before like Thursday" Ruthie said thinking about it as she picked Melanie up and let her get down to walk around the apartment.

"Wanna go with me to the mall?" Simon asked knowing nobody they knew lived out here. Here as in the middle of know where.

"Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"Yeah. Why not. Where in the middle of nowhere anyways. Don't nobody we know live out here"

"Okay let me give Melanie a bath. And why did you move out here anyways?"

"That's a whole other story I'll tell you later" Simon said. The only reason he moved out here was because Aaron death and he didn't want to be by Sandy. Even though he knew her whole world came crashing down he couldn't stand her for not saying anything about the possibility of him being the father.

Ruthie took Melanie into Simon's room and took off her close before wrapping her into a towel. Ruthie let the water run a little and put bubbles in it just as Melanie liked it.

Laying Melanie in the water gently and let her play with a doll Simon had. Which was the doll Ruthie played with when she was little.

Ruthie left the door open as she went to pick out Melanie something to wear.

Simon was in the liver room when his cell rung. He looked at the ID and it read Matt.

" Ooh Shit" Simon thought. Matt and him been really getting along for the past 2 years and they promised to tell each other everything and never lie. But now Simon was thinking of a way to keep both promises.

"Hello" Simon answered

"Hey man. What you been up to, I haven't spoken to you in like a month"

"I been busy with a lot lately. So you coming out here for the reunion?"

"Haven't heard. Sarah, the kids, and me are moving back to Glean Oak. We got jobs at the hospital"

"Wow that's great.."

"Simon where are your wash towel?" Ruthie shouted not knowing he was on the phone

"Ruthie...Is that Ruthie I hear Simon?" Matt asked. He knew his sisters voice from anywhere

"Maybe"

"Simon"

"There in the hallway closet" Simon shouted back to Ruthie

" What is Ruthie doing here?" Matt asked

"She just here because of the reunion, that's all" Simon said sweating from the other end of the phone

"Simon your a bad lier. Put her on the phone"

Simon finally gave up and walked into the bathroom to see Ruthie playing with Melanie. He put his hand over the phone for Matt couldn't here the noise from Melanie taking a bath.

"Who's that?" Ruthie asked as Simon handed her the phone

"Matt"

"You didn't tell him?" Ruthie asked punching Simon in the arm

"No but you need to"

"Hi" Ruthie said staring at Simon as she entered the other room while Simon stayed and watched Melanie.

"Hey. If it isn't my little sister I haven't heard from in almost 2 years"

"Yeah...yeah I know. I was going to call you but I been busy"

"What have you been so busy with you couldn't even let me know you were okay"

"Life"

"Life huh" Matt laughed

"What's so funny?"

"Simon and you always been so sneaky. So what brings you out here?"

"The reunion"

"And what else"

" Nothing" Ruthie never could understand how Matt could always tell if Simon and her is lying about something

"Your lying. You know what I'll just see you at the reunion then"

"Okay bye and I love you"

"Love you to Ruthie"

Ruthie hung up the phone and rushed to the bathroom to find it empty then rushed to the bedroom to find Melanie already dressed and Simon was holding her.

"What?" Simon said because Ruthie had the scared face look

"Everybody going to know I'm out here now everybody"

Simon just gave her I told you look and put Melanie down on the bed.

"Simon to tell you the truth. I think I should tell Martin before everybody else" Ruthie said " Yeah I made up my mind I am"

Simon was surprised she said that. But now he had to tell her about Aaron he just had to. He couldn't let his sister to talk to Martin without knowing about the death of his son. And that's right Simon will always call Aaron Martin's son. Martin always been there for him even though in the beginning things was kinda rocky but he maned up and took responsibility for what was his, well what he thought was his.

"Simon are you hiding something from me?" Ruthie knew Simon was since he found out about Martin being the father of Melanie

"Ruthie there's something you need to know. Something that changed Martin's life for ever. Something that effected us all in a big way" Simon said pausing " but I don't know if I should tell you because it's just going to make things harder then they are"

"Simon tell me I can handle it" By now Ruthie was holding Melanie as she was playing in her hair.

Simon finally let it all out. Everything that happened to Aaron and how Martin or him wasn't the father. Ruthie began to cry she couldn't believe Aaron pasted, she couldn't believe that Martin nor Simon was the father, she couldn't believe nobody told her, she couldn't believe a lot. She felt Martin pain but it was harder to tell Martin about Melanie. But when Simon asked her is she sure he's the father that's what shocked her the most

Ruthie went off on how her own brother think she's a hoe and think that she doesn't know who the father of Melanie was. To only find out that he asked because the doctor said Martin will never be able to have kids. This was to much for Ruthie she needed to rest. She let Simon take Melanie to the mall for she could think things through.

So confused and lost Ruthie was forced to look a head to what she think things would play out as.

Authors note: Okay, I love this chapter. Tell me what you think things will play out as in the next chapter...Do you think she will tell Martin first or her parent? Thanks for the reviews by the way and please keep reading the story it's finally getting good.