Disclaimer: I do not own "Twilight", Stephenie Meyer does.

The first few paragraphs, in italics, are from "New Moon". The rest is mine.

Bella's POV

He was gone.

With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest.

The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over.

Love, life, meaning… over.

I walked and walked. Time made no sense as I pushed slowly through the thick undergrowth. Hours were passing, but also only seconds. Maybe it felt like time had frozen because the forest looked the same no matter how far I went. I started to worry that I was traveling in a circle, a very small circle at that, but I kept going. I stumbled often, and as it grew darker and darker, I fell often, too.

Finally, I tripped over something–it was black now, I had no idea what caught my foot–and I stayed down. I rolled onto my side, so that I could breathe, and curled up on the wet bracken.

As I lay there, I had a feeling that more time was passing than I realized. I couldn't remember how long it had been since nightfall. Was it always so dark here at night? Surely, as a rule, some little bit of moonlight would filter down through the clouds, through the chinks in the canopy of trees, and find the ground.

Not tonight. Tonight the sky was utterly black. Perhaps there was no moon tonight–a lunar eclipse, a new moon.

A new moon. I shivered, though I wasn't cold.

It was black for a long time before I heard them calling.

I remembered how someone, most likely a man, took me in his arms and carried me, but it did not feel good. He was warm; however, I needed cold arms around me, arms that had held me countless times before, but never again.

The man kept walking, not saying a word.

I couldn't tell how long it took, but after a while, I heard a familiar voice, calling my name.

"Bella? Thank God! I thought… Oh… Matthew, where did you find her?"

I realised that he was Charlie, my dad. I wanted to tell him it would be okay, I wanted to say that I was fine, but I couldn't, because I knew it was a lie and because I couldn't find my voice.

'Matthew'put me in Charlie's cruiser, in the passenger's seat and spoke with dad. I couldn't hear what they were saying, nor was I trying to, however I heard Charlie crying. I wondered briefly why he was crying and I thought it was because of me, but I couldn't bring myself to care. My life had already ended when he left and nothing mattered anymore.

Remembering his words, the tears started flowing and I passed out.

I woke up several hours later, my whole body aching, though I wasn't sure if I was aching because I had been stiff or because he had left. Probably both.

"Bella? You're awake." Charlie said.

It wasn't a question, just a statement and I slowly opened my eyes, cringing as the light blinded me for a couple of seconds. I was on a hospital bed, with an IV in my arm and all that stuff in there. The beeping from my heart was annoying; everyone could hear it. A memory came in front of my mind, something that seemed from another life. And it was from another life.

A few months ago, a brunette girl was on her boyfriend's lap, in his room, when Alice and Jasper came and told them there would be a storm, so they could play baseball. They went, after some awkward moments with Charlie, but three vampires, red-eyed vampires, heard them and they came, wanting to play. But they smelled Bella, the human and the blond one, James, a hunter, wanted her, so she went with Alice and Jasper in Phoenix. However, he tricked Bella to meet him and she almost died. However, Edward and his family came and saved her. She woke up in a hospital.

It should have been funny how I remembered everything as if it was another girl's life, not mine. But maybe it wasn't me. Who was I? I was nothing without him, but an empty shell. I wanted him to come back and nothing else, but I knew he wouldn't. Or maybe he would, but only because of pity, and I didn't want his pity. His love, yes, but not his pity. I wasn't a charity case.

"Are you hungry? The hospital food tastes bad, so Sue made you something. I can go and get it for you, if you'd like" Charlie said again, interrupting my inner monologue. I looked in the direction of his voice and saw him in a chair. He looked so tired and older than he really was. I could see he had been there, with me, for God knows how long.

I remembered he asked me something. What was it? Oh, food. No, I didn't want food. I was hungry, but I knew that if I ate something, I would have to throw up.

"No, I'm not hungry, I'm…" I trailed off. I couldn't say I was "okay", because "okay" was far from how I felt.

"Bella, did he leave you in the woods?" Charlie asked, standing up. He came closer and he sat on the bed, looking at me as if he was sorry. However, I knew better. He had never approved of him and he must have been happy that they had left.

"Bella, please answer, baby girl…", he pleaded, but I didn't want to talk about that. I just wanted to be left alone; I wanted to die, because I knew I wouldn't be able to live without him.

Fortunately, Charlie understood my silence and didn't push me to speak. He stood and walked to the door, turning around before turning the knob. He looked at me again, but I avoided his gaze. Finally, he left.

As soon as he was out of the door, I couldn't take it. I let all the tears flow freely, like a waterfall; it couldn't be stopped, I was sobbing. I have no idea how long I was crying, but I finally stopped, my eyes red and sore and I knew I'd have a headache. My eyelids felt heavier with every second and I reluctantly closed my eyes. Everything felt wrong. I should have had strong, cold arms wrapped around me, not a thin hospital blanket and I should have been listening to a familiar hum, my lullaby, not the annoying beeping.

I could only hope I would sleep peacefully.

A/N: I'm sorry, so sorry! I know I didn't update any of my stories, but I had a thing. The 'thing' is called "writer's block" and it is very annoying. Anyway, my updates will go slower, because I have school, so please forgive me. I will update "My eternal love" next and then this and so on…please don't be (too) angry with me…:(

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