A/N:omg guys I know I suck I haven't updated in ages I'm on vacation and just have not had the time….but any who you know the usual yada yada sm owns everythin I own the plot©caballeracullen …here we go…
BPOV
I Just had to go there….ugh "What about your wife?". God he must really hate me. I probably ruined his night wth my big fat mouth. I'm really going to have to make up for that shit with a bomb ass has to be the epitome of every five year old dream and then so much more.
I set out to my bookshelf and pulled out one of many sketch pads. I was thinking of a topsy turvy cake, air brushed pink and purple then dused with edible glitter, maybe even a few gumpaste flowers and butterflys.I topped off the sketch by adding her name really big on top.
After setting the sketch aside I stepped in the kitchen and decided on stir-fry for the night. As I sauteed the vegetables I thought about the nights when we would cook together.
"Here marinade the steak jake,not undress me with our eyes, and focus on the food!" I Chastised him
"How many times do I have to tell you not to tell me what to do damn it!" He yelled.
I fell slient,slightly shaken up by his sudden hostility.
"Just kidding bell,jeez lighten up why don't ya!"
He busted into laughter probably due to my shocked expression.
"so not funny jacob" I said mock dissapointment on my face.
"Aww bells don't be that way baby. You know I like to play around."
Oh don't I know it
"Shut it jake"
I didn't realize I was crying until I looked back down to the stir-fry and it was blurry.
I knew better than to let myself escape into my thoughts and memories.
My mind wasn't a safe place anymore and nothing will help me escape the pain I suffered. Theres no exception, and there never will be. I sat on the couch with my stir-fry and chopsticks and watched an old copy of wurthering heights.
I woke up from a nightmare.
He was hovering over me, teling me he was sorry he had to do it and to not screm out because that would make things much more worse.
Glancing the clock on the DVR I saw it was 5:29am close enough to start my day I suppose.
I started walking feeling numb .
Just as I made it to the door of my bedreoom the ratteling sobs broke me . I fell to my knees and bawled my eyes out….
I don't know how long I laid there but by the time the sun started to shine through my windows I decided it was time to pick myself off of the floor and clean myself up.
A run was out of the question so after my shower I made my way to the living room to pick the sketcbook off the coffee table. I grabbed my bag and threw everything I'd need for the day inside . Then I left for the shop to start work on the best cake a baby girl could ever dream of.
A/N: so yeah guys a little more of bellas backstory..next is eddie…things are getting good..comments make me a happy happy lady!