Howdy readers well this has been a busy summer for me, so forgive me for updating so slowly im trying to work a pattern out but any way I just want to give a shout out to some AMAZING people who have been helping me out. Alice fashion cullen is amazing go check her 1901..is one of the coolest people I know love her! And last but not least Frankietown my mentor, my supporter, my friend…shes helped me when I thought I couldn't make it. love all you guys sorry it's a long a/n

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BPOV

Did I hear that correctly? Naw I couldn't have. A mommy, did she just say that the thing she wanted the most was a mommy? Yes I did in fact here that correctly.

What do I say? I feel I just opened something far to deep to discuss over coffee.

That's when I looked over to Edward and froze at what I saw.

His pupils were dilated and his breathing was shallow and getting weaker with every agonizing second. He had a sheen coat of sweat glistening off his skin. He was going to pass out and I was the catalyst for all of this. I had to do something…

"Edward, are you okay? Edward look at me what's going on, how can I help?"

He didn't say anything or even acknowledge that he could hear me it's as if he was no longer connected with his body, as if he had shut down. But what happened next brought him back to me, back to reality.

A piercing cry rang out as Izzy cried for her daddy to snap out of it, to wake up.

He snapped his head to his baby girl, eyes glistening with unshed tears.

"Baby I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, daddy kind of zoned out for a minute. Shh don't cry sweetheart I'm alright , everything's alright."

"Daddy I'm so sorry." She wept "I'll never ask for a mommy again, I'm sorry I don't need one, its okay I got you."

Edward swept her up and tucked her in his arms….he rocked her soothingly and murmured reassurances.

"Its okay don't worry honey maybe you will have a mother someday."

I didn't miss how his eyes slid to me as he said that. What was that look supposed to mean? I don't know, but ill just store it way for further investigation another time.

"But don't you know you have nana Esme for that…honey she will always be there for you and so will I. You are loved by so many people sweetheart never doubt that. I want you to know that you never have to worry about having a mommy to feel like a family, you have all of us."

I was full out crying now…tears endlessly streaming down my face. I've never known somebody to love some one as much as Edward loves her. I never had a dad like Izzy has.

I had a Charlie and that meant it was a lot less affection and a lot more discipline. Renee was all I had to hold on to, to anchor me and now she was gone. I no longer had my anchor.

Edward and Izzy needed to be alone, To be able to talk without some random girl around. So I decided it was time for me to go and get back to work before I could spoil her birthday any more than I already have.

I was sliding on my jacket when Edward popped his head up.

"Bella please stay. I don't want you to leave."

The way he said it made my insides quiver with something unfamiliar, a feeling I couldn't place.

He said it as if he needed me to survive, to live, like I was his anchor. That's the reason I nodded and put my jacket back on the chair.

"I'm sorry , I didn't mean to make everybody cry."

"Oh honey its okay you didn't make me cry I'm just tired..."

Obviously by the look on her face she didn't buy that, but decided to play along any way and nodded then changed the subject.

"So what do you do on your birthday?"

That was the wrong question to ask. My birthdays have been plagued by misfortune ever since my mom left. But I guess I could tell her what I planned to do this year.

"Well I usually will just stay at home and read, maybe order a pizza too."

She looked at me with an expression that clearly said is that it?

I wanted to get of this subject so I decided to turn to Edward, who hasn't said word since insisting I stay.

"Um thank you for allowing me to spend time with you and Izzy, but I should really get back to the shop."

His eyes grew sad again but he relented and nodded his head in acceptance.

"Will you still join us tonight lo- ...um Bella?"

Strange...what was he going to call me?

"Um, yes sure."

I began to get up but Edward beat me to it. Pulling out my chair and assisting me with putting my jacket on, and then he very sweetly placed a chaste kiss on my cheek.

I was blushing deep crimson and breathing was very difficult. I swear my freaking heart was going to beat out of my chest.

The whole time Edward was standing before me watching me try to regain my composure, with that Smirk on his face.

"Uh... Thank you, you're to kind, see you tonight."

That beautiful princess was staring at us like she just saw unicorns flying over our heads or something.

I walked over to her and picked her up in a Tight hug. "Happy birthday sweet thing. I can't wait to see you again. My I come to your party tonight?"

She gave me her daddy's smirk.

"Why do you ask such silly questions Bella? Of course I want you there! You and I are new best friends!"

I giggled and did something my mom use to do to me. I kissed my fingers and then put it to the tip of her nose. I always called it the mommy kiss.

I hope it works for Izzy.

She put her little palm against my cheek and I leaned into it letting her know everything was going to be alright.

I put Princess Izzy back on her feet and turned to leave, but Edward stopped me and told me to hold on.

He turned back to Izzy "Stay right here baby, daddy's going to walk Bella out."

"Okay daddy have fun." She beamed

This girl is too cute for her own good. Edward walked closely to my side not touching me, but still close that I could feel that buzz.

Edward stopped short and turned me around to face him. He placed his hands on either side of my face and stared in to my eyes for what seemed like all eternity then he sighed and hugged me so tight my body was molded to his.

Was I the only one who noticed everyone staring at us? Guess so…

He released me and the told me he would see me tonight, and with that he spun on his heel and was off, back towards Izzy.

As I walked back down the street I couldn't help but think about everything that just happened.

I always wanted to be loved, but I don't deserve that pleasure I was told that I was here for several reasons, and none of those had anything to do with love.

What I had with him was NOT love. I've come to terms with that, so why do I suddenly feel like I high school teenager when I'm around Edward?

Angela almost dropped her spatula when she saw me walk into the shop.

"Bella where have you been you were supposed to step out for a second. Ive been worried sick about you I called you three times and got sent to voice mail I thought you got kidnapped or something!"

She called? I pulled out my phone to check….oh yeah that's right I turned it off on my way to the coffee shop. Peace and quiet and all that you know.

"Sorry ang I forgot I turned off my phone. I went to the coffee shop and ran into a friend."

She looked somewhat relieved "Okay, but don't scare me like that again alright?"

I nodded and headed to the back. I detailed the cake and then packed it up.

On the drive home I decided on what to give Izzy for her birthday, something better than a cake.

Something my anchor gave me.

A/N: so you guys what do you think it's a little longer this time I hope you all are enjoying the story….please review, review, review. they mean the world to IZZY….OK and me 2!