"Can we talk?"
"I don't see what we have to talk about, Olivia," I respond coldly.
It's GS the next day, and as usual, Nikki's off flirting with the boys. Dylan is back in the cabin, claiming to have period cramps. Whatever, I'm glad she's not around. I notice Claire off talking to Cam Fisher and Alicia's out getting us water. It's only me and Olivia.
I switch positions on my fluffy purple towel so that the back of my head is facing her. When I was in the hot tub with Claire, she had pointed out that I was weirdly darker on the front of my body than my back, so I'm making sure my back is facing the sun.
"Massie," she pleads. "Come on."
"Fine," I make the mistake of looking into her large, watering, ice-blue eyes. You can never say no to those. "Talk."
"I want us all to be friends again! But I want to include Nik –you guys would love her!"
"She's 'Nik' now?" I snap. "I don't want to ever be friends with her, Olivia. And I don't want to be friends with you either."
I turn my attention back to my tanning, and turn my head away from her. I can hear her gasping and sniffling, what she always does before she's about to start sobbing. Then she flees the beach, kicking sand on my towel in the process.
Okay, so I feel a little bad. But can you blame me? If she hadn't befriended Nikki in the first place, then I am positive that none of this would have happened.
The next day it starts raining. Alicia's out doing who knows what, and the rest of us are just mulling around the cabin, bored out of our minds. Earlier that day, Dylan had pulled all of my and Claire's clothes out of our lockers, just leaving them on the ground. Well I'm positive it was her –I mean, she was the only one in here this morning!
So I've been considering telling Claire the Dylan-Landon secret. The only bad part would be putting Landon's job in jeopardy –I actually think he's really great. And—
"Massie knew, you know," Dylan's bored voice interrupts my thoughts.
She didn't.
"Knew what?" Olivia's brows crinkled as she glanced at me.
"Knew that Claire slept with Danny. And of course, that Olivia slept with Josh."
Olivia and Claire both whip around so fast to look at me; I'm surprised they didn't break their necks! Olivia's eyes look mad, but Claire's just look really hurt.
"Of course you wouldn't tell me," Olivia sneers. "You always think you're so much better than us and it's like, an honour for you to even talk to us." Then she collapses dramatically on her bed.
Claire looks at me, sadness and confusion in her blue eyes. "You knew? And you didn't tell me?"
"Claire, I couldn't!"
"Yes, you could have!" she cries.
I don't know what to say. Yes, I so could've told her. But I didn't. So instead, I say "Since Dylan's so keen on telling my secret, I'll tell hers. She's dating Landon."
Nikki's mouth drops wide open. Olivia gasps loud enough for even me to hear it and Claire turns to glare at Dylan.
"Landon," Claire repeats, dumbfounded. "Landon as in, our head counsellor Landon?"
"As in the Landon who is totally off-limits?" Olivia chimes in.
Dylan stammers and gasps, not sure what to say. Finally her eyes land on mine. "Why would you do that?"
"Because you just did that to me!" I explode. Honestly I can't believe Dylan right now. Or Claire. Or Olivia. Or Nikki.
Or myself. We're all so...ugh, what happened to us?
"You're such a fake," Olivia sneers at Dylan. "You get soo mad when we don't tell you something, but you keep the biggest secret ever from us."
"I couldn't tell you guys," Dylan snaps.
"But you could tell Massie?"
"She saw us together," Dylan replies. "I had to explain."
"Whatevs," Olivia and Nikki stomp out of the cabin.
"I can't believe you wouldn't share something like that," Claire squints at her. Then she takes off into the bathroom, slamming one of the stall doors behind her.
Dylan opens her mouth to say something to me, but I cut her off. "Don't talk to me. I have absolutely nothing to say to you except that you had no reason whatsoever to tell them I knew." Then I follow Claire into the bathroom. I shut the door so we can't be overheard.
"C?" I call out softly.
I see her familiar pink and silver flip flops under the last stall, her blue-painted toenails chipped slightly. "I know I'm the last person you want to talk to right now," I say even though I know she's probably not going to reply. "But you have to get that I couldn't tell you. I couldn't tell Olivia about you and Danny, either, just like I couldn't tell either of you about Dylan and Landon.
"You all just...bombarded me with your secrets and I don't know, I guess I..." I hesitate, wondering if I'm making any sense at all. "I just figured that if I pretended I didn't know about any of you, then the secrets and the problems would just go away. I was wrong, clearly, but I didn't want our friendship to end! And now even though I didn't tell anything –well except about Dylan and Landon- our friendship is ruined!
"And yeah, I guess it's kinda my fault," by now tears are streaming down my face. It feels good to get this all out. "But you guys should have been honest with each other from the start! And now I feel awful because not only have I lost Olivia and Dylan but I lost you and I really thought this was going to be a good summer, even if it was just the two of us! You're my best friend, Claire! I'm sorry! Please don't be mad!"
She steps out of the stall and glances at me up and down before opening her arms. I squeeze her tightly, and she hugs me hard back. "I'm sorry," I mumble again. "I really should have just told you all from the start."
"No, you shouldn't have," Claire gives me a reassuring grin. "I think...I think maybe we all should have been more mature and told each other ourselves. I mean, they were our stupid secrets."
I hug Claire one last time before shuffling out of the bathroom, holding her elegant hand in mine. And even though I have only one friend at camp right now, I couldn't be happier with her.
