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Chapter 2
God he's has got it bad.
He tried to keep composed, but the tears were never far away the whole time we talked. At least I understand a bit more what happened last night – I think he was stupid but now I understand why Christian did what he did. He had been pushed too far, too often – he couldn't take it anymore. What a manipulative, two-timing coward that Syed is, imagine going ahead and getting married when he knew he was gay! What was he thinking – certainly NOT about his wife?
As for the rest of the family, those parents standing in the Vic claiming the moral high ground, what a cheek! Suggesting that Christian had seduced their precious son, implying that he was responsible for breaking up the marriage, when Zainab knew, before the wedding, he was gay. She would rather stick her head in the ground and pretend, than stand up for her own son. Bigots – all of them!
I know Christian; he could have any man he wanted. If he says Syed made the first move – then that IS what happened. Mind you he is feeling guilty about how it all came out – typical Christian, he can't do things quietly, has to be a big drama, and this one really couldn't have been more dramatic. It's amazing that they managed to keep the whole thing secret for so long – I feel a bit better about him not confiding in me now I know how few people knew, and most of them found out by accident rather than design. What I wouldn't have paid to be a fly on the wall when he slugged it out with Zainab though, I bet he gave as good as he got! That woman may have a vitriolic tongue but Christian is a master of comebacks and where he always wins is that he keeps a cool head, not like me. If there is one thing he has taught me is not to let your emotions rule your actions. He lets his head rule, which is why people don't usually out manoeuvre him.
Which brings me back to Syed – I don't get them, I don't know why – but he really does seem to have got under Christian's skin, made him act on his emotions, that's why he is feeling so bad now, that's why he won't go after him, giving him "space". I am glad Syed has done a runner; it takes the decision out of Christian's hands, and might help Christian see him for what he is.
All I can do right now is be here for him, listen, hold his hand, take him out, and help him get over him. I reckon if Syed was "available" the relationship would just fizzle out anyway, they have nothing in common, not that Christian wants to hear that just now, but he will come round if I can provide him with a distraction. I want Christian to be happy – he has so much to give, he is the best mate ever and he deserves to find someone who will treat him with love and respect.