Set in R&R's where Roxy is serving. Thanks for the reviews – they are much appreciated.
Sorry for the delay in updating - hope you all had a good new year.
Chapter 6
I'm bored. Everything seems to be changing, and I can't help but feel I am being left behind. Don't get me wrong I love Amy, she us the centre of my life and I would do anything for her, but I need to be a bit more than being just a mum.
It's not that we are short of drama round here, what with the fire at the Vic. Phil, young Billy – it's just all too serious to have a laugh about. Ronnie and Jack are so absorbed in their lives; I even miss fighting with Auntie Peg! I like being here in R&R but I miss the Vic. The difference is that with the Vic being a pub, lots of people tend drop in, and they chat, you get all the gossip and have a laugh. R&R is different, as a club people tend to come in groups for a night out, they drink more and when it gets busy and the music is up loud there is little chance of a good laugh.
I miss Christian, I still see him of course but his business is taking off so he his busy and he does want to spend his time with Syed, which I understand. We did have that one night out together, which I thought was great fun, but throwing up was the not best end to a night out I have ever had. I don't think it would have been quite so bad if Syed had been there alone, but the fact that his nerdy brother was with him really didn't help. Their faces were a picture. Syed gave Christian an earful the next morning and he has been feeling guilty ever since, so no chance of a repeat in the near future. I don't think either of the Muslim boys knows how to have fun, except if what Christian says is true, Syed does know to have fun, just not the kind I can join in on! He'd better do if he wants to hang onto Christian with his track record. It's a pity Christian's not bi, then we might all have fun together – oh Roxy Mitchell I don't believe you even thought that!
Besides I think Syed's view of me is pretty much the same as mine of him. I tried to give him one of my death stares and warn him against messing Christian around, but he just gave me one back and told me I should accept that he needed to move on! Cheek – like I would do anything to hurt my best friend. I'll be around to pick up the pieces long after he moves on.
Oh joy – Billy Mitchell, he is like a wet weekend at the best of times, and he seems to have paired up with Carole Jackson – this might be the most depressing night of my life.
Christian! Well he's a sight for sore eyes; hopefully he will cheer me up, even if he does have Syed in tow. Or maybe not – the Slater's and Janine, that's a recipe for disaster!
Why is it with all the people that are in here tonight, I still feel lonely? The only one who is actually sitting up at the bar keeping me company is that odious Janine, and she is pure poison. Look at Christian and Syed sitting staring into each other's eyes – they have all day and all night together, surely he can spare some time for me. Maybe Janine's right, maybe if I can loosen up Muslim boy, he'll slacken off his grip on Christian and we can have some fun.
Yeh – what harm can one little shot of vodka do?