Misery. Of great mental or emotion distress; Extreme unhappiness.

"Truth is more of a stranger
than fiction" - Annonymous

Chapter 6 - Pain VS. Misery

Kelly walked out on to the balcony and stared into the night. She sat down and closed her eyes, beginning to cry. She ran her hands through her hair, trying to erase the memories of what happened that day. Her thoughts invaded every inch of her body, making her quiver with fear.
The balcony door slid open and Andy stepped out, shutting the door behind him, "Hey." He walked around Kelly and sat down next to her.
"Hey," Kelly sniffled.
Andy sighed, "I'm sorry, Kelly. I really am."
"Stop, don't apologize. I shouldn't laid so much on you," Kelly smiled at him somewhat.
"Kelly... I should have told you all about him the second I saw you two go into my room together. I should have stopped him from following you the second I saw him chasing after you. This is all my fault, Kelly," Andy looked away from her, embarassed at himself. Ryan had wanted to meet Kelly, and Andy never even tried to prevent it. He knew the dangers, and now he felt ashamed to even call himself Kelly's friend.
"Andy... What do you know?" Kelly got on her knees and crawled infront of him, staring at his face.
"Everything," Andy replied. Kelly's eyes grew wide.
"Tell me then, tell me it all. I want to know everything. I want to know it all. I want to know everything I don't remember of myself. I know I'm different than everybody else, and I want to know why!" Kelly sounded eager to learn about the side of herself she had not yet discovered on her own. Andy sensed her enthusiasm and couldn't help but smile at her. But he wasn't ready to tell her. He couldn't tell her. It would make her feel awful.
"Kelly, I don't know if I should be the one telling you," Andy said hesitantly.
"He's right," they both looked up and saw Tim standing there. Neither of them had heard the sliding door open.
"Tim... This isn't a conversation I want you to be a part of, please..." Kelly stood up and looked at him with hopeful eyes, hoping he would understand.
"Fine. Jackie's inside. She wants to know if she can come out," Tim looked disapppointed with her, and Kelly sighed to herself. Kelly nodded to Jackie's request and Tim turned around and went outside. Kelly looked down at Andy.
"Andy..."
"I understand why you want to learn about yourself. But I don't want to be the one who.. Who does this... I feel awful that I even know about it. In reality, you should really be talking to Ry-" Kelly cut him off.
"NO! I won't talk to him. Not after all this," Kelly frowned and sat back down infront of Andy. "I want to hear it from someone I trust with my life. Not from someone I've known for nearly a week and basically kidnapped me back to his place without even telling anyone."
"It was because he wanted to tell you. But then it happened," Andy looked away.
"What do you mean, Andy?" Kelly began to grow even more curious about her theories on Ryan.
"Ryan has something inside him... Like... A whole other side to him."
"So he's a schizoid?" Kelly was ready to laugh.
"No. Not even close," Andy began to grow very serious. Kelly took notice, "He's special. There's something that was placed inside him as a way to keep it concealed. And after twelve years of trying to find what he's been looking for, it's trying to get out again. Because he found what he was looking for," Andy started to stand up just as Jackie stepped out on to the balcony.
"Andy... What's inside him?" Neither of the two took notice to the confused Jackie.
"A demon," Andy looked at Kelly with cold eyes, "And I'm the one who locked it inside of him."
"What? A demon?" Kelly repeated. Jackie was bewildered and frozen in her place on the balcony, trying to figure out what they were talking about.
"Yes. A demon. A thing. It's a monster Kelly. Ryan didn't kill your dad. That's where you were mistaken. Ryan was innocent throughout that whole thing. Ryan didn't even know who the hell Raven was. Raven is the thing that killed your father. And I was witness to it all," Andy began to walk into Kelly's apartment, but Kelly grabbed his arm immediately, holding it tightly. "Nothing will change the sins I committed that night. All I was able to do was lock him away inside the body of a young boy. A young boy whom I knew all to well. His mother never forgave me. And she shunned her son the rest of her life. Which wasn't long." Kelly's grip on Andy's arm never faultered. Kelly was trying to make sense of everything Andy was telling her, "And now Kelly wants to know just what all this has to do with her. You want to know where you fit in. You want to know all about yourself. Don't you?"
"More than anything else in the world right now," Kelly felt tears brimming once again in her eyes, "Andy... Please... Tell me."
Andy sighed, ready to continue talking, but began to hesitate again. This was so hard for him to tell her, "I was there Kelly. I saw it all happen with my own two eyes. I watched your father die," Kelly's eyes grew wide in shock. "I saw it all happen. But oh no, he wasn't supposed to die. Only you, Kelly. Because you are just the same as him!"
"What do you me-"
"You know EXACTLY what I mean, Kelly!" Andy frowned somewhat, beginning to grow irritated. The last thing he wanted to do was this, "You two are the same!" Andy ripped his arm from Kelly's grip and stepped inside. Jackie followed Andy inside, leaving Kelly alone with herself and with her thoughts.
"Andy! Wait!" Jackie ran inside and infront of Andy before he got any further, "What the hell are you talking about?! They're the same?!"
"I don't want to discuss this with you, Jackie," Andy glared at her. Jackie smacked Andy on the face dead-on. Andy's face moved on impact. "Jackie..." Andy looked at her with cold eyes, "You don't understand the severity of this."
"No! You don't understand what you've done!"
"I TOLD HER THE TRUTH!" Andy yelled at Jackie, "She wanted it... So I gave it to her."
Jackie frowned, "I can't believe you, Andy. You come over here to console Kelly, and instead you degrade her as something worthless."
"That isn't what I said."
"But it's what you acted like she was!" Jackie stepped out of the way, "Just go." Tim came out from the spare bedroom, watching as Andy left, slamming the door and then returning his attention back to Jackie. Jackie looked at Tim for a moment then ran back out on the balcony to Kelly. Tim looked from door-to-door, unsure of what he should do.
Kelly was sitting cross-legged on the balcony with her hands connected, and her eyes closed, biting her bottom lip. Jackie sat down infront of her and put her hands down overtop of Kelly's. Kelly opened up one of her eyes and stared at Jackie, giving her a faint smile and letting a tear roll down her face.
"Oh hun..." Jackie erased the tear by using her thumb. Kelly sniffled and looked away.
"I guess I asked for that, huh," Kelly smiled again, but this time it was a dreadful smile.
"No. You didn't deserve to be talked to that way, Kelly. No one does. Not anyone," Jackie sighed. Tim stepped out on to the balcony and looked at Kelly. "Tim... I have to do something, can you sit here with her?" Tim nodded and Jackie stood up, going back inside their apartment.
"Tim... I... I messed up," Kelly looked at him. Tim removed his black sweater and put it over, now shivering, Kelly.
"No. You didn't," Tim smiled at her. Kelly smiled back. She turned around and moved backwards into Tim, leaning against his chest and sighed. Tim blushed and wrapped his arms around her. Kelly closed her eyes and began to doze off.

Jackie walked to the apartment door and slipped on her shoes. She opened up the door and left the apartment. As she walked down the hallway she thought of Kelly and her dreams. The cries she made in her sleep. Jackie sighed and stepped into the elevator as the doors finished opening for her. She hit the 'Ground' button and waited as the elevator doors closed and the elevator began to move down.
Many thoughts ran through Jackie's head as she headed down to the ground level. She didn't really know what she was doing, but she knew it was the right thing. It was for Kelly, right? "Right," Jackie reassured herself.
As the elevator reached ground level and she stepped out, she sighed once more. The things she had heard about Kelly, she didn't know what to believe, 'They aren't true. Are they? There's no way they could be true. Not Kelly. Not my Kelly. She...' Jackie stared at the person standing outside the apartment building. He was wearing a black leather jacket and had red hair. He had on blue jeans and was just standing there, leaning against the building. Jackie knew he was, she could tell by the way he looked at her then looked away quickly.
Jackie made her way outside the building and stepped infront of the man, "What the hell are you doing here? You've caused enough trouble as it is, Ryan."
"I want to talk to her. You don't understand, Jackie," Ryan was cut off.
"No! You don't understand, Ryan! Kelly's ashamed of herself. She doesn't want to be anywhere near you!" Jackie cried out.
"Really? Is that why she came to me in my thoughts and told me to come here?" Ryan stared at Jackie and smiled sadly.
"What...?" Jackie blinked, she was officially confused, "What do you mean she came to you in her thoughts? Are you saying Kelly has telepathy?" Jackie sighed. That would explain things that happened between the two in the past.
Ryan sighed, "Look. I'm just here to see what she wanted. All I got was, 'Ryan...' So I came here to see why she was trying to connect with me." Jackie stared at Ryan, still a bit confused with the whole situation. She wasn't sure if she should let him go up to her or not. "I just want to see her.. Even if it's my last time."
"Why do you need to see her so bad?"
"I don't know. I just do," Ryan looked away, somewhat embarassed. Jackie laughed somewhat. "There's a pain in my heart and it makes me feel like shit."
"Ryan..."
"Don't tell me I'm just being silly. She is the reason Raven is inside me. I have this connection to her, and it drives me mad!" Ryan stood up straight and stared at Jackie. Jackie felt Ryan's intense gaze fall upon her. She never looked away. "I've spent so long wondering why someone like me would have something like Raven inside me. But I understand why. I'm strong inside here," Ryan placed his hand over his heart, "And Kelly. She's no different. And you know it, Jackie."
"Ryan... She doesn't know," Jackie finally looked away.
"What?" Ryan stared at Jackie, confused.
"She has no memory of her childhood. She just remembers her dad was murdered."
"She doesn't remember?!" Ryan sounded completely confused.
"No. She has no idea about her past. Her real past. And she can't know Ryan. That's why Andy ran out on us upstairs."
"Andy was here?" Ryan now sounded angry.
"Yeah..."
"Damn it!" Ryan frowned.
"Ryan, I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I'm the one whose been a complete idiot this whole time. I should've come running the second she ran off. Jackie, she has to know," Ryan sighed and began to walk towards the apartment doors, "I need to talk to her."
"Ryan! Wait!" Jackie stepped in the way of the doors, "You can't. Not now."
"What's the point in waiting to tell her?!" Ryan frowned.
"BECAUSE! She can't know!" Jackie yelled.
"SHE CAN'T KNOW THAT THERE'S A DEMON INSIDE HER AS WELL?!"

A/N: Whoa!! Talk about cliffhanger?! Lol. I'm happy to say that this story has really begun to intrigue me. Lol. I'm glad I have a few readers reading the story and reviewing. I have a few friends outside of FanFiction reading this story. I also have this story on FictionPress.

Thanks for Reading though.
- Fal-Chan.