Hello all! Thank you to my two reviewers- jojo and grim lupine! Jolly Ranchers for you! Sorry if this is a little OOC. I try my best... The bold names is the chat conversation. Anything that doesn't have a name before it is what Zack's thinking. This is in Zack's POV so just sit back and relax and you'll find out why...
Warnings- Besides slash, the only ones I can think of are swears.
Disclaimer- I don't own SoR. I only own the website, the song and their weird screen names…..
On with the story…..
spazzymcgee da drummer: Hello?
'Oh, shit', I thought to myself. I knew who it was as soon as the name popped up on my screen. It was Freddy. At least I thought it was, he seemed straight. But I guess I seemed straight, too.
spazzymcgee da drummer: You there?
Counselor #242: Yes, sorry. How can I help you?
spazzymcgee da drummer: Uh, I think I like this guy in my class.
spazzymcgee da drummer: I mean, I think I like-like him.
spazzymcgee da drummer: I think I'm gay.
Counselor #242: Why do you think that?
I silently hoped to myself that I wasn't the person he liked. Maybe it was Billy? He seemed like he was out of the closet. It would just be so awkward with me knowing who he liked with out him never really telling me. But then again he was one of the boys who I thought was cute with his spiky hair and muscular body. He now had a deep voice, not a Mickey Mouse one (A/N- sorry, I stole it out of the commentary) Maybe it wasn't a bad thing if we liked each other. What am I saying? How could he possibly like me? My hair is too long and I'm too short. He's so grown and I'm so... not.
spazzymcgee da drummer: I don't know. I just feel different around him. I get this weird feeling now that I didn't before. Its so weird. We were partners in gym today for square dancing. He just looked, so...so cute and I loved the feeling I got when we touched. It was so...nice.
Counselor #242: I see. Do you think he likes you?
God, what am I saying? He probably thinks I'm a pervert. I don't know what to say...
spazzymcgee da drummer: I don't know. I thought he was staring at me but I don't think so. I probably just imagined it. But he's probably straight. He's dated a few girls in our class. Summer...Marta... I should just forget about him and move on. Thanks for your help!
Counselor #242: Wait!
spazzymcgee da drummer: I'm waiting...
Counselor #242: You shouldn't just assume this person is gay because they have dated girls before. Have you dated girls before?
spazzymcgee da drummer: Yeah.
Counselor #242: So then why should things be any different about this boy?
spazzymcgee da drummer: Your right. I just wish I knew for sure if he liked me.
Counselor #242: Maybe you should ask him to go somewhere with you, like a date, but not a date. Then maybe if you got closer to him you could tell, or he would tell you.
spazzymcgee de drummer: Thanks. I have to go to band practice now.
'Oh shit, again!', I thought. I had to go to band practice too...
spazzymcgee da drummer: ttyl?
Counselor #242: Its almost impossible for you to get in a chat with the same counselor again. If you want we can instant message?
spazzymcgee da drummer: Sure my screen name is spazzydrummer345. What's yours?
I never gave out my screen name to my friends. I just never felt like talking to them like that when I could over the phone. Plus my screen name was personal... But I wouldn't mind talking to Freddy again, even if he didn't know it was me.
Counselor #242: gayguitarplayer2004
spazzymcgee da drummer: kool!
spazzymcgee da drummer: ttyl
Counselor #242: bye
spazzymcgee da drummer has signed off!
I logged off my computer and grabbed my guitar and my note book with a pen. I walked out the door with my Dad, and he drove me to band practice... I curled up in the back seat and began to write a song.
They wont ever know how I feel
They might guess, but they wont know
We're so close, yet so far away
How can I tell them without my insecurities getting in the way?
Save me
Help me
Find a way to tell them
That I love them
When I look into those brown eyes
I know they're the ones
That I want lookin into mine forever
They wont ever know how I feel
They might guess, but they wont know
We're so close, yet so far away
How can I tell them without my insecurities getting in the way?
Save me
Help me
Find a way to tell them
That I love them
I wanna tell them
But I'm afraid, yeah
In case you slow like Kevin Clark in the Kids Commentary, let me recap. The counselor is Zack. He is gay and loves Freddy (I mean, who doesn't? lol!). They are both going to band practice and Zack wrote a song about how he felt about the person he likes. Note that it doesn't say he or she, that's important, kiddies! And incase you are wondering, I just wrote that song all by myself! pats self on back cricket chirps Okay, I know, I have a big ego. I don't think I'll be able to update for a while. I'm busy with school and crap and I have one Holes and one Outsiders fic. But maybe I'll have more free time because school work should be lightening up, yeah right. Its the end of the year... Hope ya liked it.
Love, Julz