Chapter 2: Friends or Lovers

Dear Diary,

I got home and found Damon. He was upset about today and he let himself feel something. He told me what he was feeling and why he felt that way. He was expressing how he felt honestly. For the time I've known him, I think this was the time he was most honest. I don't know what happen. I mean, he bent down to kiss me on the cheek as a thank you and he bent down to kiss me and I didn't even put up a fight. What is wrong with me?

I'm with Stefan and I just cheated on him with his brother! I'm a horrible person. I meant to be stopping the brotherly fury but instead I'm creating it. I didn't mean for this to happen. Why did I kiss him back? Why couldn't I just leave it as he kissed me and that's it? No, I had to lean towards him and kiss him and on top it was French, but the feel off his tongue in my mouth felt wonderful. I didn't want to stop but, if Jenna didn't interrupt us how would I stop. What would that mean? Do I really feel something for Damon? Would it be okay to go there?

Damon's POV

I went to Elena's bedroom and the light was on. I went through the window and she was asleep. I was about to put a blanket over her when I noticed my name in her diary. Should I read it? I had to it had my name. I picked up the diary and skimmed through the diary. She wrote about the kiss 'but the feel off his tongue in my mouth felt wonderful.' She enjoyed the kiss and she admits to kissing me back. 'Do I really feel something for Damon?' Wow, does she feel something. She wrote no more about me. I put the diary down and covered her with the blanket and removed the hair that was on her face and pulled it behind her ear. She looked so fragile yet I wanted to kiss her again. I know its wrong, Stefan's my brother but, he got Katherine before...why can't I get my own Katherine now. I want her. I love her more than Katherine, Elena means everything to me and every time I see her with Stefan I get so angry I don't know how to contain it.

Elena rolled over, which meant that was my queue to leave as I was about to jump out the window something strange happened.

"Damon . . . I love you." She mumbled and then rolled over again. Was she awake? No she couldn't be, she was breathing normally and her eyes were closed. She was asleep, but did she really mean what she said. I jumped out of the window and went to the boarding house.

Elena's POV

It was sunny when I woke up. I had the strangest dream. I was with Damon and we were just hanging out having a fright night and I was cuddled up to him and he bent down and kissed the top of my head, I looked up and kissed him on the lips, he murmured around my lips ' I love you.' I pulled back and looked him in the eyes and I said 'Damon, I love you.' And then we went back to kissing. What was that meant to mean? Did Damon get into my head again or what? Did I truly love Damon for the monster he was? Would he change who he is for me? Did he feel the same way? I had to stop thinking about him, I feel like he's my first and only love like I've never been in love and he is all I'll ever love.

I got up, got dressed and went down stairs, ate a bowl of cereal and did everything and anything to keep my mind off Damon. I went out with Bonnie, I went to the hospital to visit Caroline but, by the end of the day I had nothing else to do but think of Damon. I felt my phone go off in my pocket and had a look at it.

1 message received. I pressed the open button

From: Damon

Reads: Hey, can I come over? I looked at the text and decided to let him. I replied and seconds later he was at my bedroom window. He came in and just stood there.

"What's up?" I asked trying to be nonchalant. He looked at me and then away.

"I know this is probably the last thing you want to do but, we need to talk about what happened last night." I took a deep breath. I didn't want to do this but we had to sooner or later.

"I agree." I said avoiding his eyes. He walked close to me. I didn't look up.

He grabbed my chin and pulled it up but not to hurt me, for him to see my eyes.

"So how do you fell about me?" I didn't know how to tell him so I showed him. I pulled myself up to him and kissed him. He was shocked but willing. He kissed me back and then pulled away. "Answer the question."

"I love Stefan." He face fell when I said these words but I grabbed his chin and made him look at me. "But, I don't think Stefan and I are meant to be lovers, I think me and Stefan are better off as friends but you...I really do love you." He had the biggest smile on his face. He pulled down to me and kissed me he pulled back slightly. "I love you too."

He pushed me onto the bed and started kissing me again. Amidst all the flurry of kissing and touching somehow our shirts came off and he was kissing every nook and cranny off my body he pulled back to me and we fell asleep together in each others embrace.