A/N Another chapter, this is for wanda1969 and PCJanto; thank you so much for the reviews!

Hope you'll like it!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything Torchwood, I just wish I did...

Chapter 21

It was only a few days after Alice's visit, that Ianto had a bad feeling. He had been feeling so good about his relationship with Jack, they were in love, they worked together well and he and Alice got on and liked each other. Ianto didn't really doubt Jack or their relationship, but then Jack seemed to go out more and more during the day, Ianto knew what meetings Jack had and when they were taking place. So why was Jack starting to completely change their habit of having lunch together, he left the office as soon as possible, and returned smelling of perfume, Ianto hadn't realized at first, but then both Tosh and Owen had mentioned this change in behaviour and now he felt sure that something was going on, but what?

And after he got the call from Lisa, he didn't quite know where he stood.

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Jack knew that Ianto started to suspect something, but he couldn't help but want to keep it a secret. He was meeting Gwen in town practically every day at lunch-hour now. Things had progressed so fast in such a short time, but he was in love and he wanted to show the world, especially since he had found out what Alice really felt about Ianto. But this would change so much and what would Ianto say?

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'Ianto, I really need to talk to you, and I'm coming to Cardiff tomorrow, could we see each other, please?' she hadn't said much more, or at least this was what stayed with Ianto. He knew his ex-girlfriend so well that he knew this was serious.

Ianto and Lisa met in one of their favourite cafés at lunch the following day, it wasn't very busy at this time of day, and that was the reason Ianto had suggested it. They met and Ianto kissed Lisa on the cheek before going inside. At least she looked well, he thought. But what was the matter? He soon found out, and then he didn't know if he should jump of joy or cry his eyes out.

'Ianto, I don't quite know how to tell you this…I don't want to destroy anything between you and Jack, and I hope it won't, but you have to know… I think the easiest way is just to come right out with it… Ianto, my last night at the flat, you came home from that office-party…' she took a deep breath as he nodded slightly, not knowing if it was to encourage her or himself, 'well, Ianto, I'm pregnant.'

'Oh my God,' Ianto whispered, 'Leez, I don't quite know what to say… But it's been over four months, why haven't you told me before?' he struggled to keep calm, since he felt that she needed it.

'Ianto, it's complicated… This is your baby, I know that, and I hope you're sure about that too! But there's more… Ianto, I found this out because a few weeks after moving to London, I collapsed, before that I didn't know… And I haven't wanted to keep this from you, but I wanted to be sure that the baby was healthy and I also wanted to meet Jack… Ianto, I collapsed because there's something wrong…' hearing this, Ianto felt a shiver down his spine, and he stiffened involuntarily.

'If you don't wan't to raise this baby, I'll make sure he or she is taken care of, my parents aren't happy with me right now, but I'm sure they'll take responsibility if it's needed, but if you and Jack want to have the baby, I'll sign over all parental rights to you…'

'Lisa, could you just tell me what's going on? What's wrong? Why are you talking like this?' he really struggled now, to remain calm, as he felt cold and really frightened of what he was about to hear.

'Ianto, if I have this baby, I'll die.' Lisa stated quite calmly, as it was something not out of the ordinary, and Ianto gasped, and felt his eyes filling with tears.

'Why I collapsed, is because I have a haemorrhage in my brain… It's actually dormant at the moment, but the strain a birth would put my body through would quite surely make it worse… It would kill me.'

Ianto felt tears running down his cheeks, but remained silent, as he felt that it was what Lisa needed. He took her hand in his, as she continued.

'Ianto, I don't expect an answer straight away, but I know you've always wanted children and now that I've met Jack, and Alice, I know that you could give this baby a great life. My parents have been so mad at me these last few months, but I just feel that, I could die from this haemorrhage even if I terminate the pregnancy… I was lucky to just collapse last time, and I felt that I had to talk to you before deciding anything. Ianto, I'm going to die from this and it will be quite soon, but hopefully I'll be able to carry the baby to term. That way, I'll feel that it's worth something… Ianto, you don't have to answer this now, but this is your baby, and if you want to take care of him or her, he or she is yours. If you don't feel that you can't or won't for some reason, I don't want you to feel guilty. My parents will do it, if you can't or won't, and what I want is just for this baby to grow up and be safe and happy…'

Tears were now flooding down both of their cheeks, and Ianto tried to say something, but no sound came out as he opened his mouth, and instead he just wrapped his arms around her and held her tightly. After quite some time like this, he looked at her and said

'Lisa, I've loved you for so long, and you're so important to me, and I must say, you're more important than this baby… Are you sure there's no way of saving you? I mean, God Leez, this is a baby that hasn't even been born yet, he or she can't be more important to me than you!'

'I know, Ianto, I know that, but it's not about that anymore, I've seen so many doctors and specialists, and unfortunately, there's no choice between me and the baby, I am going to die, and all we can do is to give this baby a good life…'

'Oh God, Lisa! I can't believe this is happening! But, yeah, of course I'll take care of the baby! She or he is mine as well, and despite the shock of this, of course I'm happy! A baby!'

'Thank you Ianto, I'm so glad you feel this way! Thank you…'

He held her tightly again, and they just sat like this for some time. Ianto's problems with Jack felt very small right now, he didn't even know if they had problems, it was just a feeling that Jack was hiding something from him, but it felt so small and insignificant now, compared to this. He would have to talk to Jack about this as soon as possible, and he hoped that they would be able to raise this baby together. He knew that he could to this alone, but Jack was the person he wanted to do it with.

'Ianto, I'm going back to London tonight, I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning, but I'm really glad we could talk and get through this… I have something for you though, if you want it,' she said and reached down in her purse and pulled an envelope out, handing it to Ianto, 'go on, open it! It's a picture from my last sonogram… That's our baby, Ianto, that's your baby!'

'Thank you, Lisa, it's beautiful! Thank you!' Ianto whispered, not sure that his voice wouldn't crack if he spoke normally.

The couple continued to talk in low voices, and Ianto drove Lisa to the station and saw her off. After having put her on the train, with one last kiss on the cheek, he sat in his car for a few minutes, collecting himself before going home to talk to Jack.

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Jack was putting the last touches to dinner, as he heard Ianto come through the front door. He knew that Ianto was going to see Lisa and that he had been worried about her. He had set the table for the two of them and lit the candles before going to greet his boyfriend in the hallway. He was really excited about what he was about to do, and felt happier than in a long time, albeit slightly nervous. But then he saw Ianto, tear-tracks on the beautiful face, and everything he had felt was suddenly unimportant, and he just took his lover in his arms and held him for a few minutes. They were only interrupted by the clock announcing that the shepherd's pie Jack was doing, was done.

They sat down, and in silence started to eat. Jack felt the little box in his trouser pocket, and decided to wait until dessert, as Ianto didn't quite seem in the mood yet.

The silence was instead broken by Ianto, who had gathered himself and built enough courage to tell his partner what Lisa had told him.

'Jack, I need to talk to you… You know how I met with Lisa earlier today, and well she told me something important…' Ianto began, and told his boyfriend everything that he had found out. Jack didn't quite know how to react or how to feel, but just remained silent, his own plans for the evening shrivelled, but just held Ianto's hand and hoped that his lover felt his silent support.