Disclaimer: I do not own KHR.
Given the two-day duration to decide whether to stay or go in Varia, she ended not making up her mind because of the sudden twist of fate. She wanted somebody to ask about that incident that her memories were bringing up. But thinking of it, there were only three people in her mind to ask that – her father, Timoteo and Xanxus. She thought they knew something about the incident.
Honestly, she didn't know what to feel. Will she be angry at them? More to that, she was guilty. She had never taken anyone's life. That was what she thought all her life. She would fight like a delinquent alright but killing was out of it. Besides, if she was to fight it was for a definitely good reason like defending Tsuna from his bullies.
And at a young age, six to be specific, she already took not only a life, but lives. It sounds impossible but those were her memories unless someone can implant false memories inside her mind.
Out of her deep thoughts, Lussuria came calling for her. Lussuria told her that her father, Timoteo and even Xanxus were in the living room, waiting for her. For her, for those three to be at a place at such an unpleasant comeback of her seemingly locked memories, were like a touch of luck and catastrophe at the same time.
She was about to knock into their conversation but she had the sudden urge to wait and listen first to what they were talking about. Seemingly, eavesdropping had become one of her habits.
"Xanxus, only the three of us knows the truth about Tsukiyo. And I'm afraid that one of these days Tsukiyo's memories about that incident years ago will be regained," said Timoteo in his calm tone.
"Let me get this to the point, you want me to do something when something goes wrong with her," Xanxus said.
"Exactly," her father answered. "We don't know how Tsukiyo might react."
"And we don't know how she will react if she found out more about her being unworthy of the Vongola Decimo title," Timoteo added.
Tsukiyo raised an eyebrow at her grandfather's statement. Was it because she was a girl?
"Never did the Vongola Family have someone with a black flame. Our family always had that pure intense orange flame," Timoteo spoke again. "Having a black flame was very rare. And Timoteo, you saw it yourself, those impure flames which had taken a lot of lives."
"But ninth, she is my daughter. She had the blood of Vongola," Iemitsu argued, speaking for his daughter's sake.
"I'm not saying that Tsukiyo was adopted from somewhere. She's different, and we don't know how different we are from her," the silver-haired old man said.
"She had the same flame with Byakuran during the battle ten years in the future," Xanxus mentioned. "And her whereabouts in the future were undetermined."
But of course, they all knew what Tsukiyo did in the future. If those memories granted by the arcobalenos from the future was passed to their past selves were true, then Tsukiyo might really impose a great problem to Vongola. But they were heading to a different future now. That doesn't mean that Tsukiyo won't turn out like what she had been.
"She can't be trusted for now," Timoteo said which Tsukiyo heard her father agreed.
Now Tsukiyo was getting confused. Ten years battle, Byakuran, her whereabouts, black flame, trust. They're all entangled. Connected yet she doesn't understand. Am I supposed to be an enemy?
She entered the room. She was staring disdainfully at them. Her fists were clenched hard, hidden from their sight, as it took its place at her back. She was trying to suppress the anger welling up inside her. She took a deep rough sigh.
"It seems that I remembered something about black flames and killing other people," she started calmly. "And more to that, I learned that I shouldn't be trusted by my own… relatives." She smiled bitterly. She stared frowned at them. "Am I supposed to be your enemy?"
She wasn't given answers. She looked at Xanxus. "I saved your life back then. Aren't you supposed to be thankful I killed your murderers?"
"Until we don't find any evidences, you are to be doubted. You are not to be trusted," it was Xanxus' cold voice that passed his judgment. When she looked at her father and Timoteo, their eyes were apologizing but their stand was on Xanxus.
"Yes, you killed them, but not for me. Remember, you hurt me and Bester, too. You got angry by your actions that you vent them on the men who don't have any advantage over you." Xanxus continued pressing on as if she didn't do him a favor. That she just did it on her own accord.
She was feeling bleak. She killed for an absurd reason. It felt like she was a cruel person.
"For the sake of the Vongola Family, we need to lock you up until further investigations, Tsukiyo," said her father. She couldn't believe it. She looked at him in shocked. Then she shook her head.
She couldn't take it anymore. Finding that your own family doesn't trust you are one of the gravest acts in her life. She hastily got herself out of that suffocating room of mistrust, not even letting them see the tears flowing from her eyes.
For the first time of her life, she loathed her family. She loathed her father. She loathed Timoteo. She loathed Xanxus. She hated Tsunayoshi for being such a weakling and submitted to being the Vongola Tenth. She hated her mom for being so naïve about the mafia work going on their lives. She resented being Tsukiyo Sawada. She resented the Vongola. She resented her black flame. She questioned why the hell does that memory needed to come back.
She stepped out of the Varia Headquarters. She doesn't know where to go. She doesn't feel welcome there anymore. She looked at the forest ahead of her. I wonder if there was some creek out there. Life's seems to be meaningless. "How about having a little tour to the seventh hole of hell, Tsukiyo?" She asked herself sarcastically. Nonetheless, she took her step. And then another. And then another, until she can't take it anymore. She ran – inside the forest. Inside the place where she wished she could just die.
I was never this vulnerable. My family, they just went against me. Think about it, Tsukiyo, if you never had them in the first place, things aren't so hurtful. Family, who are they kidding. Who needs them? She smiled bitterly, tears rolling down her cheeks. She continued to run. She wanted to get away, really far away. How about she dies?
_._._._._._._._.
"Reborn, I've been wondering, where was Tsuki-nee in the future fight with Byakuran?" Tsuna asked. He was doing his homework in math with Reborn's really motivating way of detonating bombs upon a wrong answer given.
"I don't know either. Even the whole Vongola doesn't know it. It seems like she just doesn't exist. There's a possibility that she might have died," the sun arcobaleno replied. But in those words of his, a lie was hidden. He knew where she was.
Tsuna shivered at that thought. Rather, he felt miserable. He doesn't want to lose her sister. Tsukiyo had always been there for him. She would stand against his bullies. He really wondered why won't they let Tsukiyo just be the tenth. She was more worth it compared to a no-good like him. If not the tenth, why didn't they let her be one of his guardians? He'd really appreciate it if Tsukiyo would replace Lambo in his family, now that she knew about the mafia. He sighed.
He saw Reborn talking to someone on his phone. After he was done, he looked to Tsuna with an unfriendly serious look.
"W-who was that, Reborn?" He asked to break the uneasy ambiance inside his room.
"Dino," Reborn replied.
"What did Dino said? You look grim, Reborn."
"It seems like we have some problems regarding Tsukiyo," the sun arcobaleno said.
Tsuna frowned at Reborn. "Something happened to her, right, Reborn?" He asked, getting furious. "Tell me, what they did to her!"
Reborn kicked Tsuna on the head. "Don't be swept by your feelings, Dame-Tsuna."
"But, Reborn, how can I be calm if my sister is in danger?" He shouted again.
"Dino will be arriving here, a few seconds by now," said Reborn. He was right. His mom called out to him, saying that he has visitors.
"Yo, Tsuna," the boss of Cavallone family greeted before entering his room. As usual, the blond-haired guy was accompanied by his never-should-leave-him subordinate Romario. He was smiling at first; however, his expression became serious.
"We've got some information about your sister regarding the future battle," he started right away.
That made Tsuna felt anxious. It seems that there was really a big trouble concerning his sister.
"What about Tsuki-nee?" He asked though he got the feeling that it wasn't pleasant. A disaster was seemingly rising up from somewhere and Tsukiyo was its root.
"She was believed to be one of Byakuran's accomplices. She had severed ties with Vongola in the future. She went against us… though the reason remains uncovered," the blonde man said, his tone unwavering, showing that he was sure of the information he spilled out.
Tsuna glowered. He knew better than them, Dino wasn't lying.
"But what if, she was part of the plan devised by my future self. What if she was like Irie Shoichie and Hibari? They knew what my future self was thinking," Tsuna defended his sister's case, still in doubt.
"I know it's hard to believe it, Tsuna, and that is impossible. If she were, Irie and Hibari should have told you that," Dino said, giving more details that pushed Tsukiyo to her fault.
"If she was a traitor, someone should have told me already," Tsuna argued, his voice rising, his being fueled up by anger. He looked at Reborn. He knew he must knew that himself. The arcobaleno pulled down his fedora to cover his eyes. Tsuna could not take it as a confirmation.
How could they doubt his sister who had protected him ever since they were kids? "What if she was being controlled by Byakuran like what happened to Uni." He looked up to them, tenderness reflecting on his eyes.
They understood him. It was unacceptable. A girl like Tsukiyo was never the type of person to betray someone. But that was the truth, she had sided with Byakuran.
"That's one of our propositions but your friend Irie cleared it. Tsukiyo was the one to approach Byakuran, and at the peace meeting, she was the one who initiated the shooting – your death."
Tsuna was confused. "No way." Tsukiyo will never do that, especially to him. Tsukiyo love his family. She loved them more than her life, more than everything. But knowing that she killed him in the future was disheartening. He wanted to get angry at someone but he doesn't know to whom. He held his head as if experiencing an intense headache.
"The arcobaleno had successfully sealed Byakuran's memories at the present. Now, there is a small possibility that incidents in the future will never occur… but Tsukiyo's case might be different," said Reborn. "Tsukiyo's memories weren't strongly secured. Though, the arcobalenos had tried to prevent future contact from her, they can't do it. Her memory was locked once, when she was a kid. The arcobalenos, somewhat, unlocked those memories causing the delay of her memories from the future. One of these days, her memories from the future might visit her and we don't know what might happen since… we don't even know why she went against the Vongola, to begin with. We might have stopped Byakuran, but we don't know about Tsukiyo."
Tsuna just stared at them looking helpless when Dino's phone rang.
He looked worriedly at them, after he put his phone down. "Tsuna, Reborn, it seems like Tsukiyo ran away."