She's missing. She's missing. Those two words kept repeating themselves over and over in my head. The room was getting smaller and the walls felt like they were collapsing on me. There was a shooting. Meredith was missing. Putting the two together the answer was simple…she got shot. But I didn't let myself believe that, I couldn't let myself believe that. I felt the bile creep up my throat. I had to get to that house. I quickly ran down the stairs, scribbled a small note for my parents, then jumped in my car.

Turing the ignition, I saw my knuckles go white. I sped down the highway and didn't even bother wearing my seat belt. I couldn't believe it. A few hours ago, we were kissing. And now…could she be dead? I quickly erased that image out of my head then wiped the beads of sweat seeping through my skin. In a small section of my brain I couldn't help but wonder…would I have been this worried if Addison was the one missing?

The sirens were blaring in my ears. The lights flashed in my face. People were screaming and crying everywhere around me, I couldn't believe it. I had to be dreaming. I saw a police man cross in front of me and my hand immediately latched onto his arm.

"Excuse me officer?" I croaked.

He turned towards me, "Yeah?"

"Did you find Meredith Grey yet?"

He looked down at his papers then asked me, "Are you her boyfriend?"

Am I her boyfriend? No, I couldn't be. I was still with Addison! I wasn't considered her boyfriend…was I? "Uhm, no."

"I'm sorry. This information can only be discussed with family or her boyfriend."

My temper immediately flared up. "WHAT!? What about all the people that care about her! She has people who care about her! YOU HAVE TO TELL ME! SHE WOULD WANT ME TO KNOW!"

"SIR, calm down…I cannot disclose this information to you." The officer stated.

I ran my fingers through my hair. I felt as though the people around me were traveling at warp speed and I was stuck, unable to move. I had to know if she was alright. "GOD, SHOW ME THE PAPER YOU SON OF A BITCH, I NEED TO KNOW IF SHE'S ALRIGHT!"

"IF YOU DO NOT CALM DOWN I WILL HAVE YOU ARRESTED!"

I was about to yell right back when I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Sorry officer, he won't blow up like that again."

My eyes closed as I realized the voice came from Mark. I slowly turned around, unable to look him in the eye.

"Derek, you alright man? You look flushed."

I looked up and probably had tears in my eyes considering Mark's facial expressions. "Oh Derek…"

I tried my best to hold them in, but I couldn't. They flew down my cheeks and dripped off my chin, landing like bullets on the solid ground. Bullets. Without thinking I did the only thing I knew how to do, I hugged Mark and he squeezed my shoulders right back. "It's going to be okay Derek; she is going to be okay."

"What if she's not?" I choked, drowning in my own tears.

"What if she is?"

I sat on the cold concrete covering my eyes with my hands. The one thing I wanted was Meredith. The one thing I needed was Meredith. Yet, she could be dead.

"Derek?"

I looked up, surprised to see Izzie standing over me. But, she looked nothing like 'school Izzie'. She had no make up on and her hair was thrown in a messy bun on top of her head. Square glasses covered her eyes and pink bunny slippers wrapped around her feet.

"Can I sit down?" she asked.

I hazily nodded, and as she came into clearer view, I could tell she had been crying.

"Do you know anything about Meredith?"

I shook my head. "No, they won't tell me anything." My voice was barely above a whisper and I felt the bags under my eyes grow deeper.

"The last time I saw her was when I found her crying in her car."

I looked up. "She was crying?"

She nodded. "Yeah, something about falling in love with a guy who didn't really love her back." She looked at me, "You."

I shook my head. "That's not true."

"Oh come on Derek what else was she supposed to think? You kiss her, then your super girlfriend walks in and you don't even say anything! If you really loved her, you would break up with Addison."

"I WAS CONFUSED!"

"Yeah well so was she."

I dug my nails deeper into my scalp. "What did she say?"

She sighed then put a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "She didn't say much of anything. But, I could tell it was all about you. Meredith…she doesn't talk much."

"Didn't," I whispered, "She didn't talk much."

She quickly shook her head, her fists clenched. "NO!" she yelled, "DON'T SAY THAT!"

"Say what?"

I turned around and saw Addison standing over me, a long red coat covering her curvy body.

I hesitantly stood up from the cool concrete then looked her straight in the eye. "I'm sorry," I whispered before trudging off into the darkness, determined to find Meredith.

"Meredith?! MEREDITH!" I yelled. I had been wandering around the dark highway for an hour and there was still no sign of her. "DAMN'T," I screamed to myself. I couldn't believe this. How could I have been so stupid? Maybe if I had told Addison in the first place none of this would be happening. Maybe if I had been honest with my feelings, Meredith would be by my side right now. I looked around me and stopped dead in my tracks. I had no idea where I was. The highway was being swallowed by the darkness, and there was no sign of light anywhere. I was in the middle of nowhere.

Suddenly, I heard a small moan a few feet ahead of me. My heart flipped. "Meredith?!" I ran as fast as I could towards the side of the road and found her curled up in a ball, clenching her stomach, blood seeping through her pale hands.

I quickly crouched down and lifted her limp body slightly off the ground. Her body was as cold as ice and her skin had no color to it. "Meredith?! Meredith, talk to me. Breathe…keep breathing." Fear filled my voice, and my hands frantically shook.

"I, I…" she moaned before completely collapsing in my arms.

My fingers immediately flew to her neck. No pulse. Shit. "I NEED SOME HELP!" I screamed. But, I knew it didn't make any difference. No one was near me, no one was listening, no one was going to help me.

A/N: UGH! I cannot believe Derek did that (if you saw Crash Into Me Part 2, you'll know what I mean.) UGH! GOD! But anyways, I have a few spoilers for you for the next chapter…

- Someone helps Derek with Meredith

- Addison reveals a HUGE secret which makes everything a lot more complicated.