Chapter 15: The Talk
(BPOV)
"Edward, we need to talk." I told him as I climbed into his car. Jake and I had a long talk and now it was time. Time for me to lay it all out on the line, what did I have to lose?
"Sure love, what's on your mind?"
"First thing Edward, please let me finish before you stop me, or say anything, okay? Because if I stop, I might lose all nerve and not be able to finish alright?"
Edward just smiled at me. I was glad for once that it wasn't his crooked smiled that reached all the way to his beautiful golden eyes.
I grabbed his hand and asked if that was alright. He smiled again but didn't say a word. I smiled back at him, knowing that he would let me finish before he said anything.
"Edward, Jacob and I were on the beach, I told him that I loved him but that I wasn't in love with him. Can we please pull over for a minute? I want to look you in the eye when I tell you the rest."
He did as I asked, we were at the side of the road and he was at my door before I could blink. He opened it and helped me out.
"What's wrong? " I asked, hoping that he wasn't mad and was going to leave me here at the side of the road alone. I would never make it back to their house without his help.
He said only a few words to me, "Bella, I want to be looking at you too, please go on."
So he isn't leaving me, I took a deep breath and smiled at him. Then I went on.
"Edward, I want to tell you all about tonight. Everything, some you may or may not like, but you need to know it all."
"After Seth and I had gotten to First Beach, we talked for awhile and then Jake showed up with his tail between his legs like a bad little puppy dog. Well, anyways, at first Jake told me that he loved me. Then he said that he wanted to show me just how much, so he started to kiss me, it grew deeper and deeper till he was pulling on my dress. I was kissing him back at first but then I knew it wasn't right. I do love Jacob, he's my best friend and I hope he always will be, but I didn't feel right kissing him anymore. You see, him kissing me made me see that what I wanted wasn't him at all. Edward, all I want is you."
I stood there, holding my heart in my hand as our fingers interlocked. I was putting it all out here, hoping I didn't fall flat on my face. It took forever for Edward to say or do anything.
I started to look at the ground and I could feel a lump rising in my throat. My heart was breaking into a million pieces as the seconds ticked by. I felt a tear in my eye form, I tried to hold them back, but I couldn't anymore.
I was in love with Edward and he must not feel the same way. I just wanted to run away from him, from this mess-up that I had just caused.
"Maybe, I should stay at my house tonight," I said at a whisper. I knew he could hear because of his vampire skills. Now the tears were falling down my face and I had to go. I pulled my hand away from Edward and turned to walk to home.
"Stop, Bella, where do you think you're going?"
"Just leave me alone, Edward. I'm going to home to where I can bury my head under my pillow and hide from the world."
He reached for me but I moved a little to the right and tripped over a big stone at the side of the road.
"Silly Bella, you would never make it home alive." Edward said with a slight smile to his voice. Great, now he's laughing at me. I just wish that I could have loved Jacob back the way he loves me. Then my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.
"Bella, stop! I need you to listen to me now."
"Please, don't feel like you have to say anything out of pity. I'm sorry I put all this on you. I promise that I will not bother you again."
(EPOV)
Bella was on the ground so fast I didn't see it coming. I tried to help her but she wouldn't let me touch her. I watched as she got up and brushed the dirt off; she looked so cute doing it. I have to tell her, for me, for her, and if not, for Alice.
Alice would kill me if I let Bella walk away from us. She's seen Bella and me together, even before I knew I wanted to be with Bella.
I grabbed her arm and turned her so she was looking at me. I lifted her chin and looked into her eyes. I wiped the tears from her beautiful face and pulled her closer to me.
I softly put my lips to hers and kissed her as sweetly as I could. I needed her to know, without a doubt, that I felt the same way she did. I was in love with her. Every part of me ached to be near her all the time.
I have never loved anyone before her, besides my family and this was different. I could see Alice now jumping up and down at home. (Okay, not really, but we all know Alice.)
"Bella, love, I think that you misunderstand. I didn't mean to make you wait for my answer. I also didn't ever mean for it to hurt you. Bella, I love you."
She stopped and looked at me, "Breathe Bella." I said to her. Then I took her face once more into my hands and kissed her again. This one was a deep kiss so she wouldn't have a doubt.
"Bella, I love you more than anything. I love you more then I need animal's blood to live. Without you, there wouldn't be a reason for me to be. The past hundred plus years I have not lived till you walked into my world."
Bella just stood and looked at me with wonder in her eyes. Right now I didn't care how different our world are, we're all the other one needs. Time could move on without us and it would be alright.
I kissed Bella one last time before I walked her back to the car and helped her in. "Love, your place or mine? " I asked smiling my crooked smile hoping it would work and she would want to come to my place.
"Well, I guess Alice would be really mad if I went home, so maybe it would be better if I stayed at your house tonight?" It sounded more like a question, like Bella ever needed to ask to stay with me or us. She was always welcome.
"That's about right, Bella; Alice would kill me if you went home. She has tomorrow all planned out for you and her. She knew that it was going to be late when we returned tonight. Alice also wanted us to have tonight to ourselves," I told Bella.
"Did she see our conversation? Did she see my conversation?"
"No, Alice can't see anything when it comes to the wolves. Not even you when you're with them. That's why I worry so much when you are in La Push."
We pulled up to my house and Bella and I went straight up to my room. The house was quiet. Even though I knew everyone was home and was listening to see if Bella and I were together or just together.
I whispered, "I'll never tell, but remember, don't ever bet against Alice." Bella went to shower and I filled the room with flowers and candles for my love.
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Thanks for reading. Sorry for the delay. I had to just push this jerk that told me to stop writing out of my head. So I did, and the block was gone and here lays chapter 16.I don't care if I have more chapters then reviews. Sure I like them (reviews), but I also write because, I like to and it is an outlet for me. Someone liking what I write is just a bonus. On a happier note, Thanks to my Beta for all the work she does for me, Thanks Strawberry9212.
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