Memories Part 2
Another day passed seeming like another minute. Draco never noticed much difference anymore, he hardly ever remembered what the date was. All he knew were the memories that kept plaguing his mind. It was as if he was reliving his life with Harry, only this time without him.
Draco laid next to the sleeping Harry with one arm being used as a pillow and the other was stroking the dark hair and brushing it from his closed eyes. A small smile touched Draco's face and he leaned forward to place his lips against Harry's temple.
He tugged the sheets up closer to them before resting his arm on Harry's waist, pulling him closer to his chest. Harry mumbled a little in his sleep causing another grin on Draco's face. Breathing in Harry's scent, Draco finally closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep, his dreams full of the person in his arms.
Draco headed down the stairs to the kitchen. He opened the refrigerator and pulled out what he could find to make a sandwich. After taking a few slices of bread from the box on the counter, he slapped a few pieces of sliced ham. A couple leaves of lettuce and a slice of cheese were added before the second piece of bread was put on top.
Right as he was about to take a bite, a knock from the front door interrupted him. Draco cursed the charm he put on the door that made knocks loud enough to hear from anywhere in the house. He didn't even set the sandwich back on the cutting board before heading to answer the door.
"Draco!" A certain person practically jumped on him and hugged him too tightly than was comfortable.
"Get off, Pansy."
"You don't see or hear from me in five years and you're not the least bit happy? That is so like you," said the brunette.
"I was in the middle of lunch."
"Well, eat your lunch while I tell you some great news!" Draco reluctantly did as he was told and took that awaited first bite. He was careful to steer clear of the overly energetic girl whose mouth can run faster than lightning can strike.
"It had better not be anything about your latest boyfriend." She snorted at what he said before pushing past him into the foyer, almost knocking the sandwich from his hand.
"No! You wouldn't believe who I just saw today, in a mood matching your own cheerful one." Her voice was dripping sarcasm when she said the last two words and Draco almost cared about what she said.
"Who?" Draco said, uninterested.
"Come on, be a little more enthusiastic! I know you wanna know!" she said as if dangling bait in front of a fish. Too bad for her, Draco was a fish without an appetite.
"Just tell me already."
"Oh, you're no fun," she pouted. "Ok I'll tell you anyways because it is such juicy news! I was out minding my own business walking down Diagon alley. You see, I was going to hit the sale that was going on at-"
"Pansy, get to the point," said an irritated Draco. He was tired enough without her company, and with it was worse than having a needle continuously poking him in the same place.
"All right, all right! Potter and Weasley were there and Potter just seemed to be the most bitter man! Could you believe it? Potter who always seemed so happy and cheerful and a total goody-goody and probably a little bit of a poser if you ask me." Draco glared at her, urging her to continue which she complied with. "Anyways, he was being a total tosser to everyone! And I pulled Weasley over to have a nice chat and to ask what was wrong with Potter and Weasley said he'd been like that for five years, after of course his usual threats and rantings."
"Harry? Being a tosser?" Draco had never been more confused. Harry had only been a tosser to him (and all the death eaters and Voldemort but that was beside the point) and that was before they got together, never had he been even slightly rude to someone who didn't deserve it. Five years ago? That probably started when that night happened. not just probably, Draco thought, it did start that night. He was sure of it.
Draco suddenly felt gravity pulling harder on him and he sat down on the small table that was close by. His hands came up to cradle his head, not caring that Pansy was still in the room and probably staring at him. His chest constricted and the pain in his heart was killing him. The first real strong emotion he felt in five years and it was pain, concern mixed with and certain longing that he didn't quite understand. He couldn't take the fact that he caused Harry this much pain and suffering. Draco felt compelled to do something, anything for Harry to be happy again, but what?
"So Draco? What did happen between you and Harry?" asked Pansy, interrupting his thoughts.
"... Out."
"What?"
"Get out!" he shouted making her flinch. Pansy nodded and raced out of the manor.
That one memory tried to force its way into his mind and he struggled against himself to keep it pinned in the depths of his mind. That was one memory he never wanted to relive. Slowly it faded and once again Draco was left with a clear mind and pained heart.
Draco knew what he could do. He walked into the study and sat at the desk. He pulled out a quill and a new piece of parchment before starting the letter with a simple 'Harry.'
It took a few hours and plenty of clean pieces of paper before there was a draft that was usable. He put the quill back into the ink before taking a moment to read the letter again.
Harry,
I'm sending this to you via owl with a searching charm. In other words, if this letter finds you, I still will not know your location so don't worry.
There are a few things I want to say. I sincerely apologize for what I did to you. I wish that you are happy living life without me and that you found someone to love you like I never could. If you haven't then I hope the day will come when you meet him. I am sorry for hurting you so much and causing so much suffering.
Draco
After folding it into thirds and placing it in the envelope, Draco wrote down the name of his ex-lover and gave it to the charmed owl to carry.
"Give this to Harry," he commanded and the bird jumped into the air and through the open window. Draco watched as the birds image slowly disappeared from view before standing up and heading to the library. He pulled a new book from the shelf and sat down in his usual chair to read.
It was another few days before there was an interruption to his usual pattern.
A scraping noise on the window made Draco look towards it to find the owl he sent. He flicked his wand and once the owl was free of any barriers, it came in to land on the armrest of the chair Draco was currently in. The large bird dropped a letter and then flew to the top of one of the shelves in the room. The letter was addressed to him. He opened the envelope and read the short sentence that was on the note. Expect a visit from me soon. Harry.
That one sentence, short as it may be had the worst impact on him. The memory he had tried to keep under lock and key finally found a crack in the wall to escape from and suddenly, Draco was reliving the worst time in his life.
Authors Note: The next chapter will answer most of the questions you guys may have about "that night" as it's commonly referred to by Draco. Not a happy thing... Sorry if my writing sounds a little dry... To say I don't like writing in third person is an understatement but I love challenges so that's why I even bother with it. I know I'm not doing the story justice but I'm seriously trying! Reviews are awesome and PMs are amazing, either will make my miserable life worth living, at least for the moment. Also as I think I said in my warning, I am only doing this story for fun so flames mean nothing, also reviews telling how I can improve are super appreciated!
1-17-11 Hey guys sorry but I won't be able to upload the next chapter for a little while longer! I'm so sorry! I decided that I didn't like how I wrote it at all so now I'm completely rewriting chapter 3 and possibly later chapters too. On top of that, I've been remodeling my house and all the holidays and my birthday and a ton of my friends birthdays and so everything piles on top of everything and I have found little to no time to write. I am so sorry for being so completely unreliable but I will try to change! Geez... I'm starting to sound like my ex. Anyways, I am so sorry and I'll post the next chapter within this week!