It was supposed to be a one night. One night of break up sex. A meaningless sex. Then it happened again, and again.. until it wasn't meaningless anymore. At least in Izzie's book anyways. She let out a deep sigh as she remembered that when it comes to Alex, nothing is meaningless. Everything is special. Everything she shared with Alex is special.. It just feels that way.

Walking her way inside the familiar Emerald City bar, she quickly recalled how the supposedly "meaningless break-up sex" happened. Meredith had a great idea for them to hang out like old times. Meredith had talked her into it for months and she apologetically declined it countless times for two reasons. One, she was sure that Alex would turn the idea down. Alex hated her. It was too painful to admit it, but that's the truth. And second, she was certain that seeing Alex would hurt her already beaten up heart. Drinking in a bar with her ex-husband, who she is still very much in love with, is not a fun night Izzie had in mind. She wasn't sure she could handle seeing Alex flirting with some slut in the bar. Then one day, she received a call from Meredith, who seemed unusually perky, and told her that Alex agreed with her plan to have some drinks at Joe and catch up on each other's life. It was on the tip of her tongue to tell Meredith she couldn't come but she didn't. She already let her friends down so many times; she doesn't have the heart to let them down again. Not when Cristina and Meredith are trying so hard to make things right.

It was a fun night. Alex and her managed to be casual throughout the night- talking to each other when necessary and laughing when the other made a funny remark. She was about to call a cab to head home when Meredith stopped her and talked Alex into dropping her home to make sure she'll go home safe. It didn't surprise her that Meredith would pull something like that, but what surprised her was hearing Alex agree on Meredith's sneaky request. And then it happened, the oh so hot night that led to more scorching hot nights with Alex on her bed. Naked Alex on her bed. The thought of it alone made her body shiver. It confused her as well. Was all the sex they're doing break up sex or were they actually make up sex? Izzie hoped it was the latter. Yeah, it was confusing, but she didn't regret that it happened. Alex coming back in her bed was like having him say she had a chance. They had a chance. And God help her, she needed that chance.

Scanning the bar to find her ex-husband, she saw him sitting on a bar stool... talking to Joe's. Thank God, he was not flirting with some skanks because if he was, she doesn't know what to do. She mentally ordered herself to calm down as she walked over to Alex. She needed some answers, answers only Alex could give her.

"Two shots of tequila please, Joe. No, make it three. " Joe gave her a confused look before preparing her drink. She could feel Alex's gaze on her but she ignored it. She would deal with him later, but first, she needs the additional boost of confidence that the three shots of tequila can give her.

Downing her tequila shots straight, she cleared her throat and turned to Alex, who is looking at her with a bemused expression.

"What are you doing? Are you getting yourself drunk? "

She rolled her eyes. "Shut up Alex! I'm here to talk! Yes, talk. And you're not allowed to interrupt me! Once and for all, I need you to tell me what's going on because seriously, I have no idea! You would sleep on my bed; you would show up outside my apartment, outside the hospital. I thought it was supposed to be a break up sex and then-"

"So all you really wanted was a break up sex? Okay Fine. Don't worry I won't show up-"

"Shut up! Didn't I tell you not to interrupt? I prepared a speech and you're ruining it! Where was I?" Damn it, the alcohol is kicking in. "Oh right. You would sleep on my bed; you would show up outside my apartment, you would wait for me outside the hospital. It was supposed to be a break up sex and then you showed up again and again.. And now, I'm so confused because I want you to not leave my bed. I want you to show up outside my apartment and wait for me outside the hospital until my shift is over… I want you in my life, permanently." She inhaled and exhaled deeply, fighting the tears that are begging to escape from her eyes. Here comes the hardest part. "But I get that you hate me. I left you and I know that it seemed like I was the one who gave up on our marriage but I didn't. I came back. For you. I thought I lost everything that mattered to me at that time-George, my job, myself- I lost it all. But I came back because I realized I didn't lose everything, I still have you. The most important person in my life. And that is something I should be thankful for. Too bad it took me a long shot to realize it because when I came back, I already lost you… So I'm asking you what is this we're doing. If you're only with me for sex, then I'm not up to it. I want it to be more because I..I still love you. I never stopped loving you. "

She waited for him to say something. Nothing came. Oh God, she just poured her heart out and she didn't even get a response.

"Will you say something already!" , she shrieked. She was pissed off. No, not just pissed off. She was mad.

"Oh, so now I'm allowed to talk? I thought I wasn't allowed." , he finally said with a smirk.

"You're an ass! I can't believe that I love you!-"

She wasn't expecting it. The kiss. It was like their first kiss at the bar. Passionate. Urgent. Full of emotion. As if he was putting into the kiss all the emotion he was feeling at that very moment.

"Iz, with you, it was never just sex okay? It was you who said about break up sex, not me. I didn't come to your apartment every night for sex, not that I was complaining for getting any. I was there to show you much I am still so into you. Every time that I'm with you, I wanted to tell you how much I love you. But it scared the shit out of me." He looked her in the eye and brushed his lips against hers. "I love you. And I want to be in your life permanently, too."

She cupped his face and kissed him passionately. It feels so good to hear him say those three words again.

"Alex..What do you feel about make up sex?", she then asked with a grin.

"I'm so up to it.", he chuckled, kissing her again.