Chapter 2: Love and Dreams Can Be the Same
Playlist:
Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown~ No Air
Lifehouse~ Broken
Secondhand Serenade~ Awake
Coldplay~ Fix You
JoJo~ Doorway to My Dreams
A/N: Thank everyone for your reviews you all made me so happy. Also I would like to thank Sejohnson for your constructive criticism it was much appreciated I went back and made a few changes. to all the new readers enjoy and give me your thoughts at the end.
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Epov:
3 years later…
"Hi, I'm Vicki. You want to dance?" Some red headed woman asked me. I have to admit she was attractive.
"I'm sorry, I don't dance but Emmett does. Why don't you ask him?" She looked disappointed but she asked him anyway. Knowing him he jumped at the chance.
"You keep turning down every woman you see. And they are all up on you too. What's up? Are you on the down low or something?" Felix asked me when they left.
"No, it's nothing like that. I'm just not interested." I answered then took a drink of my beer.
"You always say that."
"It's true."
"Come on man. We have put up with that excuse long enough. Something's up. Either you're gay, you have someone or you had someone. Now which is it?" I rolled my eyes and took another drink.
I met Emmett and Felix at med school. They're around my age and they like to got to clubs and parties. Somehow I always get dragged out of the house and forced to go with them on the weekends. Every time we go I always get hit on by some attractive women that only wants to be fucked. Today we were at a club called Awake. So far three women have offered themselves to me.
"Just know I'm not gay and it's none of your fucking business." I was tired of them trying to pry into my business. I let go of the past three years ago and I didn't want to think about it.
"Okay it's like that? I got you. I got you." Felix squinted his eyes "Nah, it's cool though. Even if you were gay there isn't anything wrong with it."
"You're gay?" Emmett boomed.
"No." I answered.
"There's nothing wrong with that. I mean I did suspect…"
"I'm not. I'm just not interested in the sluts that hit on me." They looked to each other and started laughing.
"Something's wrong with you, man. Anyway, I just came back to tell you that you missed out. She can move in ways I've never seen before. I'm going to go hit that. Thanks again. I'm out." He laughed and walked away.
"Yeah, It's getting late I have a shift in the morning. I'll see you later, Felix."
"Aw, you're no fun, Ed."
"Don't you have a shift, too?"
"Yeah, so?"
I laughed. "Bye."
"Yeah, yeah."
~0~0~0~
I'm currently in my first year residency of emergency medicine at John Hopkins Medical Center. Life is good. Work has been a success so far. Everything is copacetic in that department.
As for my family, they called me constantly but I was too busy with forgetting the past and work to talk to them. I was too focused on my studies and the last time I saw them was at my graduation.
Now, I was in the cafeteria eating lunch with Emmett on our break. I was pretending to listen to his recap of him and Vicki last night. He was too descriptive and there are some things that I don't need to or want to hear I my lifetime. No matter how many times I tell him I don't give a fuck he still goes on.
"Then she lifted her leg-"
"Edward, Emmett, come with me, we have an arrival coming in." Dr. Johnson our mentor said and walked off. I wanted to thank him for the intrusion.
"Yes, Dr." We both got up from our seats, threw away our trash jogged to catch up to him and the others.
I walked through the E.R with Emmett, Dr. Johnson and a few more residents to go assist him with the arrival that was coming in shortly.
"We'll finish our talk later." He whispered to me.
"Yeah, sure." I whispered back.
"Ahem. We have two victims coming in. They were in a horrible car crash. That's all we know for now." He told us while we were walking outside.
Two ambulance trucks came and stopped in front of us soon after. There were also five trucks full of paparazzi trying to get in and take pictures. You would think they would have some sympathy and let the patients get care. We had to have security escort them out. It was chaos out there.
"Oh, the victims are famous so don't tell anyone any information unless they are family. Understood?" He told us when the paramedics were getting out of the truck.
"Yes, Dr." We all answered.
"Famous, man I wonder who it is. We're going to see stars. You think I can get their autographs?" He whispered to me.
"I don't think they'll be able to, being in need of medical condition and all." I answered back.
"Aw. Damn."
The paramedics rushed the victims out of the vehicle. Dr. Cheney rushed to them, we all followed.
"What do we have?" He asked Mike, one of the paramedics. Sooner or later you get on a name to name basis with the paramedic staff.
"We have two female victims they were on their way to a hotel when a truck crashed into the passenger side of their car. The driver has a have a few scars, a broken leg and arm. The passenger got the most damage, she has a collapsed lung, has a few broken ribs, and she's unconscious." He answered while the other paramedics pulled the victim out.
"Oh, shit! It's Rosalie Hale." Emmett boomed. Ignorant of the fact of that she was a patient in need of assistance. He's always thinking of himself.
"Damn." I muttered. I've never seen anything like this before. So far all the victims that had come in had a broken leg or some type of pain.
One woman had long blonde hair that came down to her waist. I recognized her as the famous model Rosalie Hale. The other had curly brown hair that stopped passed her shoulders. Her face was unrecognizable. Rosalie was awake and there were only scratches on her face. What made me freeze was the brunette. Her face and clothes were bloody, she was unconscious and she was wearing an oxygen mask. I had no idea who she was. Yet I felt like I did. There was something familiar about her. I just couldn't put my finger on it.
"You have to save, B!" Rosalie gripped Steve's arm.
"Ma'am, someone else is taking care of her. You have to worry about yourself." He told her calmly.
"Fuck, that! I only have a few scratches! She's unconscious! Forget about me!" Who would have thought a model wouldn't care about her looks. I decided to intervene.
"Don't worry. We'll take good care of your friend." I told her. She cocked her head at me and gave me a bewildered look.
"We have to go." A doctor told her.
"You better take care of my friend!" She told me before they wheeled her away.
"She curses too! My kind of woman." Emmett commented.
"Edward." Dr. Johnson called. I went to assist him with the other woman. Emmett left with Rosalie. "We're getting her prepped for surgery. You're coming to observe." He ordered.
I nodded then followed him and the others while they wheeled her into the doors.
~0~0~0~
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep…
"Dr. we're losing her." Nurse Denali said when the woman's heart stopped.
They were performing CPR and it was unsuccessful.
"Give me the defibrillator. 50 cc's stat." He told the nurse.
"Defib 50 cc's." She said when she handed the paddles to him.
"Clear." He said when he placed them on her chest.
"No change. Give me 100."
"Changing to 100."
"Clear."
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep…
"Changing to 150."
"Clear."
This was my first time watching a patient's heart stop. In school, I had to take classes to desensitize me. But, I still couldn't help but feel hurt and sympathy for this patient and her family. I didn't want her to die. I watched her arm fall to the side of the bed.
That's when I saw it.
I would recognize it anywhere. I walked over and grabbed her hand softly. My heart sped. It was a simple promise ring I had custom made for her when we were in high school. There were two hearts entwined together. One heart had a sapphire in the middle and the other had an emerald. Her birthstone and the color she always compared my eyes to. And the side was engraved with our initials.
This could only mean one thing.
My eyes widened at the realization. I now know why I felt a strange pull towards this woman. Everything came crashing down on me. All the memories that I tried to hold back and all the emotions I tried to forget for three years returned to me in full force. My best friend. The love of my life. The woman I had planed to marry and have my children with. The only woman that has ever owned my heart. Only, she wasn't recognizable. Her face was pale, her lips were blue, dry blood was caked onto her face. They were lifeless. She was lifeless.
"Bella?" I choked out breathlessly.
I didn't recognize her. I didn't even know she was in the same room as me. I thought.
"Do you want to call it?" I heard someone say.
What? I dropped her wrist softly.
"Yes, she was so young. Time of death 1:25 p.m." He said dejectedly.
They're saying she's dead. Bella. The woman lying in this bed is Bella. Bella's dead. NO! NO! NO! I refuse to believe that.
"NO!" I roared.
"Edward?" He asked me confusingly.
"YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING!" I yelled, panicked.
"I'm sorry. There isn't anything we can do." He shook his head sadly.
Lies, all lies!
"YES, YOU CAN CUT THE MACHINES BACK ON!"
"Edward, you have to understand we've done all we can. She's gone. If you're going to be a doctor you have to understand that." He told me calmly and rationally.
I'll never believe it!
"FUCK THAT! START THE DEFIB!" I didn't give a fuck at the way they were all staring at me. Bella was lying there and they weren't doing anything. "NOW!" I shouted when no one moved. If they weren't going to save her, I was. I took the paddles from him and started it up myself.
"What is he doing? Stop him! Edward-" Someone tried to grab me and I pushed them away. I heard a crash.
"She's not dead." I said confidently. "Clear." I tried to resuscitate her. Her body arched off the table.
No change.
I turned the machine up higher.
"Stop him!" I heard someone yell. No one did this time.
"I think he knows her." Someone else said.
"Clear."
Still no change.
"I don't care if he does he needs to be stopped! What he's doing is unethical. He isn't a doctor!" I ignored them. They meant nothing.
"Damn it, Bella! You're not leaving me again! Do you hear me?"
"I'm not stopping him. Did you see what he did to John? Call security. We need to get him out of here!"
"Clear." I said once again.
"It's time to let go. She's gone." Someone told me when they put their hand on my arm. I shrugged it off.
"No. Don't fucking touch me! You don't know her!" I yelled when I made the machine go even higher. They all wanted me to give up on her. I wasn't.
"Clear."
No change.
"Bella, please don't leave me. I can't loose you twice. I'm sorry I tried to forget you. I'm sorry I pushed you away. Please come back to me. I can't live in a world without you in it." I continued to plead with her. Tears made their way down my face silently. I hadn't cried like that since I was in high school. My emotions were finally being released.
"Clear." I closed my eyes.
Nothing but the sound of her lifeless heart.
"I'm so sorry, Love." I held my head down. Someone put their hand on my shoulder. I was too weak to shove them off this time. I threw the paddles. I got on my knees, grasped her wrist and kissed it.
"Edward, you did all you could. I'm sorry."
"No, stop saying that! I won't give up on her. I need her." There were so many tears I couldn't' even see. I looked up at the ceiling. "Please God. I know I don't talk to you as often as I should. But don't take her away from me. Bring her back to me. I need her I can't breathe without her. Take me instead. Just let her live." I didn't care that she was bloody. I laid my head down onto her heart. "I love you. Bella forever and always." I whispered then I kissed her heart.
"Someone get him out of here!" Dr. Cheney yelled out.
"He's gone crazy."
"Can't you see he loves her? Don't you have any sympathy for him?"
No one touched me. Everyone was quiet. It could have been seconds, minutes or hours that passed by. That was until the most beautiful sound I ever heard filled the room.
Beep… beep… beep… beep…
"Well I'll be damned." A nurse gasped.
I lifted my head up from her heart. "Thank you, God." I whispered.
"Dr. Cullen?" Someone exclaimed in horror.
I looked at my hands and noticed that they were trembling, my whole body was. There was a sharp stabbing pain in my chest. I clutched it. I felt my airway constrict. I couldn't breathe. I started gasping for air. I heard her voice singing "Breathe." I really meant it when I said I couldn't breathe without her.
And I can't
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
I knew exactly what was happening to me. I tried to calm myself down but I was too late. My head was light then I fell to the floor smiling through my pain because I still heard the beautiful sound of Bella's heart beating until I lost consciousness.
~0~0~0~
"Dr. Cullen? Can you hear me?" I heard a female voice ask.
I fluttered my eyes opened and saw a nurse leaning over me. I looked, recognized the white walls, and realized I was in a bed. I was in one of the hospital rooms.
"Nurse Denali?" I asked dazed.
"Welcome back." She smiled.
"What happened?"
"You had a panic attack and passed out. You gave us quite a scare."
"Why?" I asked in a stupor.
"You don't remember?" She asked me sweetly.
I looked at her disconcertingly until it all came rushing back to me. The woman who was unconscious. Her heart stopped before we could perform the surgery. The woman was Bella. She died…
"Bella!" I tried to sit up and my head spun.
"Calm down, Edward." She said when she pushed me back down.
"Where is she?" I asked her worriedly.
"You saved her. I've never seen anything like that before…" Her eyes widened in shock.
"Where is she?"
Nurse Tanya Denali was often misunderstood. She was attractive but I wasn't interested. I'd talk to her every once and a while during breaks.
"You had all of the women here confused, including myself. Now we know. I never knew love like that existed. She's a lucky girl to have you." She smiled sadly.
"What happened?" I asked her anxiously.
"She's alive." She tried to stall.
"Tanya." I warned. I was starting to get impatient.
"After you saved her they were able to fix her lung…" She trailed off once again.
"And?" I asked her irritated.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this… She's in an induced coma."
"She's going to wake up though, right?" I asked her.
"Only time will tell. Her heart stopped for a few minutes. She could have suffered some brain damage, she needs time to heal."
"What room is she in?"
"Edward, you need to rest."
"Please tell me. I haven't seen her in three years. I need to see her."
"Three years?" She whispered incredulously. "You know I can't tell you." She set the chart down on my bed. "You have one minute. Don't make me regret it." She left the room.
"Thank you." I retrieved the chart and read that Bella was in room 23A. I ripped the I.V. out of my arm and left to see Bella. Luckily, I still had my clothes on and not a hospital gown.
"Whoa, Edward, I just heard. What happened?" I bumped into Emmett on my way to Bella's room.
"I had a panic attack as you can see, I'm okay now. "I answered in a hurry.
"Where are you going in such a rush? Shouldn't you be in bed?"
"I'll explain everything later. Right now I have somewhere to be." I said then I ran off.
I could hear him following me but I didn't care. Her room was easy to find. There wasn't anyone else with her. She looked better than she did in the operating room. It still hurt seeing all of those tubes stuck to her. Being a resident I did go to school to be desensitized from feeling emotionally attached. But they could never desensitize me from Bella. I walked in and sat on the chair next to her bed. I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"I didn't get why you turned down all those girls until now. She must be something." I stayed silent he understood and kept quiet as well. I didn't notice her TV was on until heard it.
"Hi, I'm Caitlyn Hartley and this is E news. I'm sorry to say we have recently discovered that Victoria's Secret model, Rosalie Hale and the new award winning singer Isabella Swan were just in a car accident some hours ago. They were currently in Baltimore driving to one of Rosalie's photo shoots when the accident happened. We don't have any news on their conditions quite yet. We do know that they were both taken to John Hopkins Medical Center and are being cared for. We'll keep you updated with their conditions. Stay tuned for more E news." Commercials started to play. They had pictures of the hospital and everything already.
"She's Isabella Swan? The singer? You're with her and you kept this from us? I can understand Felix but me. I thought we were cool." I sighed.
"We met in our sophomore year of high school and started to date our senior year. We were together for six years but I broke up with her three years ago. She wanted to be a singer and I wanted to come here. I still love her. I just didn't want to be in her way. It was her life long dream to become a singer. Now, look at her, in a coma."
"I wish could say something besides I'm sorry." He said sympathetic.
"Thanks."
"I'll leave you alone with her then." He clapped his hand on my shoulder and left.
"Where do I start? I'm not even sure if you want me here. Here we are three years later. You're already on the news and a day hasn't even passed yet." I let out a humorless laugh. Sometimes I think about what could have been. I know we would have been married by now. We could have had nine years. No point in thinking about the past is there?" I shook my head thoughtfully. "Why did it have to happen to you? I would give anything for the tables to be reversed. You're going to make it though. I know you are. You have too much to live for. I'm so sorry Bella. I know there's nothing else that I can say." I laid my head on the bed by her arm and stayed quiet.
"What do you think you're doing?" A woman ask. I lifted and turned my head to face her.
"Oh, its you." She said surprisingly. "You know when I said take care of my friend, I didn't mean it so literally." She scrutinized my face and murmured. "I thought you looked familiar when I saw you earlier."
"You know me?" I asked her curiously. She scoffed and walked closer to me.
"Yeah, I know you. Cullen, right?" She crossed her arms. "I know all about you, Edward. You fucked up big time. You're the dumbass that broke up with Bella. Huh." She shook her head. "Wow. I can't believe this. I have wanted to meet you for a long time. I'm sure you already know who I am so there's no need for introductions."
"Uh, yeah. Rosalie, right?"
She had me there. I knew exactly who she was. So, the rumors were true. Her name was Rosalie Hale aka the Victoria Secret Model aka Bella's new best friend. The same woman that told me to take care of her friend earlier. It was obvious Bella told her about me. The question is what did she say. This woman was pissed at me.
"Uh, huh. You still didn't answer my question. Why are you here?"
"Because I want to be."
"Because you want to be. No, you gave up your right to be here when you ended it. You haven't seen or spoken to her in three years. Now, you see her in a hospital and you think you can just lay up on her? What? Do you feel guilty now? Is that it? You want to make it up to her? No, no, no. It doesn't work like that. You gave up your rights. You threw away eight years. You need to leave." Her voice wasn't loud, but it was scary.
"I don't have the right? I feel guilty? You're assuming all of the wrong things about me. You think you know me but you don't. I have known her for eight years. Yes, I did break up with her. But it doesn't mean I didn't love her. I did it, because I love her. We might not be together now. It doesn't mean I don't care. I don't know you and you don't know me. Don't act like you do." This was Bella's best friend I was talking to. I was trying to be civil but she was making it very difficult.
She scoffed again. "Oh, but I do. That's a new one though. I never heard that excuse before."
"You really think you have me all figured out, don't you. I don't know what Bella told you but you have it all wrong. I love her. I ended it so she could pursue her dream as a singer. We were going to two different states. She didn't need any distractions. I didn't want us to be the 'long distance couple.' Do I regret it? Yes and no. Do I still want her? Yes, I do. But I would do it again in a heartbeat for her. I would do anything for her."
"Yeah, yeah. I've hear all that already. It's a load of crap. You took the easy way out. You are a coward. 'Oh, I don't want to be in a long distance relationship. It's too hard.'" She mocked. I stood up and walked towards her.
I lost it. The day was already bad enough.
"The easy way out? Yeah, that's what I did! It was easy for me to watch tears fall down her face! It was easy living without her for the past three years! It was real easy finding out she made it by hearing her song on the radio! It was easy hearing her sing "Breathe" while knowing she was singing about me! It was easy for me when I discovered that she was the woman I was wheeling on a gurney some hours ago! It was easy looking at her bloody face and body! It was easy for me to hear her heart stop! It was easy for me to watch as the doctors worked on her and called her time of death!"
She gasped and covered her mouth with her hand. "She died?" I kept going.
"I really enjoyed staring into her lifeless eyes! I loved it when I realized that Bella, my Bella was on the bed dead! Is that what you wanted to hear?" I couldn't yell anymore. "I had to save her. I had to see her that way. Me not you. You can stand there and think you're better than me and that you know everything. But I will not sit here and let you disrespect my love for Bella. You say you know. You don't know shit." I turned away from her and retrieved my seat next to Bella.
She walked over to Bella's bed and sat down into the chair next to mine. You could only hear Bella's heart monitor until Rosalie broke the silence.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have went off on you like that. Bella, told me everything. She was so… so sad, broken and her songs…" She stopped to take a deep breath. "When I met her. I tried to set her up on dates but she refused. I knew you were the cause of her pain and I hated it. I mean here is this great woman with so much talent crying over some guy that broke her heart. I hated you. I wanted to make you suffer as much as I saw her do. I don't admit this often but I was wrong about you. Now, that I've met you, I can see that you have suffered just as much as she has or even more. And in my opinion neither of you have to anymore. If you want to be with each other you shouldn't let anything get in your way." Tears were streaming down her face. I nodded and handed her a tissue from the table next to Bella.
"I wish it were that simple." I commented.
"Thank you. And it is. You have to compromise." She proceeded to wipe her face.
"Although, you assumed things about me. I can tell Bella has nothing to worry about when it comes to you. I want to thank you for being there for her." She nodded as well.
"So you're a doctor do you think she'll make it?"
"I'm a resident and she's going to wake up. They induced her coma to help her body heal."
"Mmm." She nodded thoughtfully. "Are you going to try and get back together with B, when she wakes up?"
"I don't know. It's all up to her."
"I knew you would be in here. You had better have a good explanation for that stunt you pulled some hours ago in the operation room. You have to come with me to the board." I heard Dr. Cheney said when he came through the door.
What is it interrupt Edward day? Can this day get any worse?
"I'm not leaving."
"Edward, what you did was uncalled for. You know you aren't supposed to do any of the things you did. You violated too many regulations to count. A stunt like that could prevent you from becoming a doctor." Rosalie raised an eyebrow at me.
"I don't care about the rules and regulations or about what you think." I replied.
"Edward, have you gone crazy? I have never seen you this way before, You were a respectful resident. I had faith in you. But what you did back there was not acceptable and neither is your tone with me."
"Look Dr. Cheney and I mean this with all do respect. I saved the woman that I love! I was not going to let her die. I don't care about the consequences. Would you let your love one die? Are you that heartless? Do what you have to do but just know that I'm not leaving her."
"Okay, just know that I'm writing you up and you have to go to the head of the hospital and explain your case."
"Yes, sir."
"Ms. Hale, you need to go back to your room. You need to rest. Come on I'll escort you back."
"If I must, I must." She turned around to face me after she got up and said, "You take care of B, okay, she needs you. Oh and you can call me Rose." They both left me alone with Bella.
I woke up to the sun glaring in my face. I looked to Bella and saw that she was still unconscious. The day was too much for me to handle. I sat down in the chair next to Bella and fell asleep in seconds.
"Good morning, Edward, did you sleep well?" Nurse Denali asked. I stretched, my neck was hurting.
"I slept all the way until the morning?"
"I guess so. I just got here so I couldn't tell you."
"Is there any change?"
"I'm sorry. No, there isn't." I sighed and placed my head in my hands. "Don't worry her vitals are fine. She'll wake up. The worst is over. Edward, you should go home and freshen up."
"I don't have a home. My home is with Bella."
"Fine, I give up. You're too stubborn." She waved me off and left.
Nature was calling so I went to the bathroom. When I came I saw Rose sitting in my spot. She looked me up and down.
"Let me guess, you stayed the night didn't you?"
"Of course." I rubbed my neck, it was really sore.
"You really think Bella wants to wake up to you all stinky and shit?" She stated.
"Someone already tried to get me to leave. It didn't work. Give it up. But you do have a point there…They do have a lot of scrubs here. I'll go to the locker room and take a shower."
"Okay… T.M.I. Didn't need to know all that."
"Sorry, I'll be back."
When I was walking back to Bella's room I heard Rose and Emmett. They didn't notice me. I decided to eavesdrop.
"You again? How did you know I was here? Are you stalking me?" I heard Rose ask.
"No. How did you know I was here? Are you stalking me?" He replied.
"I don't have time for this. Can you leave me alone? I'm trying to visit my friend."
"What makes you think I'm not trying to do the same?"
She sighed. "Fine, if I give you my autograph, will you go away?"
"Did I ask for your autograph?"
"You did yesterday."
"Did I ask today?"
"No." She hesitated.
"You know you shouldn't assume things. You tend to make an ass out of yourself. Just because you're a famous model it doesn't mean I'm going to follow you around."
Huh, from a woman like Rose I thought she would have torn him a new one. I guess I was wrong. Instead I saw her smile. This was weird, I've never seen Emmett act this way before. He was serious not playful.
"Okay, why are you here then?"
"Why do you think I'm here?"
"Can you please stop answering my questions with a question?"
"It isn't nice, is it? Look, just because you're famous it doesn't mean you can sit here and interrogate me. You ask me questions I'm asking you questions. I have as much right to be here as you do. Yeah, you're beautiful and everything but the way you're acting towards me isn't. Maybe, if you take that stick out of your ass I'll talk to you."
Rose and I stood there with our mouths agape. Her face turned red and you could her breathing accelerate. All I thought was Emmett, clear the room. Once again she proved me wrong and smiled.
"Um… n-no one has ever…" Rose was blushing.
"I'm not no one." He smiled his full smile showing his dimples. He said it made girls swoon. I had to admit, it did.
"Ahem," I cleared my throat to make myself known.
"Oh, Edward you're back." Rose said surprised. " I'm going to go get something to… um, eat." She left the room in a hurry.
"What was that about?" I asked while I walked over and took a seat.
"Oh, you heard? She was being a bitch so I had to set her straight. That is my kind of woman, though."
"So you like woman that are mean to you?" I questioned.
"Yeah. They're usually tigers in the bedroom." He wiggled his eyebrows.
"I see…"
"I came to see how things were going."
"Thanks, there still isn't any change." I replied
"Hang in there. I'm sure she'll wake up soon."
Rose came back awhile later and we all stayed in Bella's room waiting for her to wake up. Emmett had to leave every once and a while though. Even Felix dropped by; I guessed that he heard about everything from around the hospital and I was right. When it was too late everyone left but I stayed again.
"I missed out on so much of your life. Please don't make me miss more. Bella, you have to wake up. Not just for me, but for everyone who loves you. For our family." I spoke aloud to her.
Oh shit! Our family. I haven't told them yet. How could I not remember them until now?
~0~0~0~
"Why can't I wake him? I want to kill him. First, he doesn't come to visit us for almost two years. Now, he didn't even tell us Bella was in the hospital. In a coma, no less!"
"Alice, darlin, I'm sure he has his reasons." I heard Jasper say.
"Fu- forget his reasons! I had to find out from the TV! The TV instead of my own cousin!"
I felt bad. When I tried to call them yesterday no one answered. The reason why I didn't tell them about Bella was because I didn't think about them. I was too absorbed in my own thoughts and problems that I neglected my family. My family has always been there for me.
I opened my eyes and saw that everyone was there. My mom and dad were sitting in two chairs. Charlie and Renee were sitting as well. Then there was Alice and Jasper who were standing. All of their eyes were on me.
"You better wake up!" Alice yelled at me when I stood up. I knew I was in for it.
"Edward." My dad greeted. Charlie gave me the evil eye but I could tell Alice was furious at me.
"Alice." Jasper cautioned behind her.
"No! I had to find out Bella was in a coma from the TV and internet!" She screeched.
"I know. I uh…heard you a minute ago now. I'm sor-"
"Don't! I don't want to hear your apologies! It's too late for that and it's worthless! We're here for Bella, not you! You neglected us for almost two years! It's obvious that you don't care about us, only about yourself!" What she said hit me hard because she was right.
Are they only here for Bella? Did I really push them away?
"Alice, now is not the time for this. You need to stop yelling." My dad scolded.
"I'm sorry, Carlisle but this is the perfect time. Look at how you have to hold Esme! It's his fault and you know it!" She retorted back. He sighed and pulled my mom tighter to him. That's when I noticed her red eyes and wet cheeks. Renee also had a few and I assumed they were for her daughter.
"Now, you see what you've done! I can't believe that you were that self absorbed not to tell Charlie and Renee! Her parents! You left us all in the dark! What would have happened if she would have took a turn for the worst!" I decided to keep that part to myself for now.
"Look at you, not saying a word. Ooo, I want to hit you so hard so you could feel all of the pain you caused to the people you claimed to love, especially Bella! You better thank Jasper because he's the only one stopping me!"
"Darlin, I think that's-"
"Don't darlin me! Let! Me! Go!" She continuously tried to pry his hands away from her waist. The scene would have been ridiculous if she wasn't so serious.
"Alice, you need to calm down. I'm not goin to let you attack Edward." He replied then she huffed.
"You're right, Alice. There isn't any excuse for the way that I have behaved. I made mistakes and I'm owning up to them now. I didn't visit and I barely answered your calls. Charlie and Renee I really am sorry for not calling. All I can do is apologize for my actions. I don't expect anything from any of you in return."
"I forgive you, Edward." Renee spoke she looked to Charlie and I knew he didn't feel the same it was understandable I mean I did hurt his daughter and forgot to tell them she was in a coma.
"Thank you." I replied and she got up from her seat to give me a hug. "You're a good man." She whispered to me. She released me and told me to go to my mom. "She needs you. Go." I nodded and walked over to my mom. I knelt in front of her and he let her go.
"Dad?"
"I know son. I'm proud of you." He patted my back and left his seat to talk to Charlie.
"Mom, I love you and I don't want you to cry because of me."
"Edward, you're my only son. I understand you're an adult now. But that doesn't mean you can avoid us the way you have. We're your family and we all love you. It breaks my heart to see us this way. Too see Bella this way." She told me in a broken voice. I sighed. I never thought I would be missed this much. I felt like a jerk.
"After I ended things with Bella, I was lost and hurt without her. All I felt was a type of pain in my chest. I didn't want to feel it anymore so I forced myself to forget about the past. When I went to visit, all you talked about Bella and her accomplishments. Don't get me wrong, I was happy for her because I knew she would make it. It just about killed me to hear things about her. Not being with her myself. My studies became my main focus and nothing else. That was until I saw Bella here a few days ago." I closed my eyes at the terrifying memory. "I'm sorry for everything I put you through mom." She pulled me into a hug and ran her hands through my hair lovingly.
"Edward, baby you shouldn't have gone through that alone. We're your family, we're here to listen, we want to be there for you. Don't shut us out. I didn't loose one child I lost two. I missed you so much." She cried.
"I missed you too, mom." I hugged her just as tight.
"That's it? All of you are just going to forgive him just like that?" I turned my head to look at Alice.
"Alice, sweetie what do you want us to do? Hold a grudge? There is no point in holding a grudge against him for his mistakes. We're much better than that. We're all family and I understand why he did what he did. The best thing to do is to move on. Everyone makes mistakes. What's important is that we are all together."
"I don't care what he says! He's not getting off that easy! He still had no right to ignore us the way he did! He put Bella through hell! This is his fault! All of it!"
"Alice!" Everyone yelled.
"Fuck that! You all may have forgiven him that easily but I'm not going to!" Jasper let her go and she stormed out of the room.
" I got it." Jasper said.
"I'll go it's me she's mad at."
"No, she's my wife. I'll go." He left after her.
"Why are you yelling? You're giving me a migraine." I thought I heard Bella's voice. We all turned to face her. She was staring at her mom with questioning eyes. She was awake. I wanted to go to her but her mom beat me to her. My mom and I released each other.
"Bella?" Her mom gasped and ran over to Bella's beside. "Honey, you're awake." She smiled.
"It's about time." Charlie commented.
"Mom? Dad? What are you doing here?" She asked her curiously.
"I'll go tell Alice and get the doctor." My dad walked out.
"Bella, sweetie you had us so worried." She cried as she hugged her.
"Us? Worried?" She cocked her head.
I watched as she took in her surroundings then froze when her eyes met mine. The heart monitor started to beat rapidly. I smiled fully for the first time. It was nice to hear her heart race for me. It's good to know that didn't change.
"Edward." She gasped and placed her hand over her mouth. "It really was you…" She muttered to herself but we all heard. I stood up and walked a little close to her.
"What are you talking about?" I asked in a stupor.
"I saw you sleeping and then everything went black and here I am in front of all of you."
"You mean you were sleeping just now?" I asked.
"I don't know…Where am I? Why are you all here?" She shifted her eyes between all of us.
"Edward, you should tell her, you know everything." Alice remarked as her and Jasper walked back in.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Bella looked to me.
"I think we should wait for the doctor to come in first." I replied.
"Huh? What happened? What are you all talking about?" Her heart rate rose as her eyes wandered around he room. She looked to me again. "Edward? Tell me." I ran my hand over my face.
"You were in a car accident almost three days ago." I started.
"Car accident? Three days ago? I was in a coma? No, no, no, this can't be real. Please, tell me you're lying to me." She pleaded.
"I wish I was." I shook my head then took a deep breath. I was going to tell her and our family everything. She wanted to know and they all deserved to know. I wasn't going to be selfish anymore.
"Hello everyone, I'm Dr. Cheney. Ah Ms. Swan. I see that you are finally awake. How are you feeling? Any pain?" Dr. Cheney came in and asked, my dad behind him. He examined her chart and her heart monitor.
"No… I just have a migraine." She answered in slight confusion. She turned her eyes to me and I knew by the look of her face that she believed me.
"Good, good. Your heart rate is a little to fast for my liking… Can you tell me what you remember?"
"Uh, I remember waking up and seeing Edward, my family and…" She paused then gasped. "Rose, she was driving… a car drove into the side of… what happened next? Where is she? Is she okay? Is she in a coma?" She quickly spat out in short breaths. She started to cough and her breathing was shallow. It sounded like she was trying to throw up her lung. Dr. Cheney and a nurse gave her an oxygen mask.
"Calm down, Ms. Swan and take deep breaths."
"Bella, please calm down. She's fine, she only had a few scratches and was released yesterday. She should be by later okay. She was here with me yesterday too." Her breathing slowed and she started to relax.
"I'm sorry everyone but you're going to have to step outside while we do a few test on Bella." He told us.
"Okay we'll be right outside, okay Bella." Her mom said and both of her parents kissed her on the cheek. Alice walked over and hugged her gently as well. As did Jasper and my parents. I wasn't sure of what to do but I walked over to her anyway.
"Bella, I'll be right outside with them." She grabbed my arm when I moved to leave after the others. She removed her mask.
"Stay." She pleaded in a whisper.
She wanted me to stay with her? Me not her mom or Alice? That was a good sign right?
"Okay." I would do anything for her. I mean anything.
"Edward, when I said everyone I meant you as well."
"I asked him to stay with me. He is a resident here isn't he? Then there shouldn't be a problem. You might be my doctor but you're a stranger to me. I know him." That's why I love her. Here she is still taking up for me after she had just woken up from a coma.
"Yes but-"
"Then he stays." I smirked at him.
"Fine."
He and the nurses did all of the necessary tests on Bella. When they had to draw her blood she squeezed my hand. She hated needles. All in all it took about thirty minutes. He finished and our family came back in, Emmett and Rose were with them. Bella and Rose had a tearful hug.
"Edward, you never finished telling us what happened while we were gone." Alice commented. Rose and Emmett both gave me sympathetic eyes. This meant I was going to have to relive it and watch everyone else's faces as well. My eyes met Bella's and she nodded.
I told them everything. I told Bella how she was unconscious when I saw her. How unrecognizable she was to me. The women cried and a tear left my cheek when I told them her heart stopped. I told her how I didn't realize it was her until I saw her ring. Bella felt her ring finger and discovered that it was no longer there.
"I d-d died?" Bella asked in shock and horror.
"My baby died?"
"Yes, everyone in the room gave up on you and called your time of death except for me. I refused to give up on you. I-" I paused at the memories. They were forever burned into my skull. Never-ending, I would never forget that horrible day. When she died I died with her.
"Edward, what happened then?" She asked.
"I tried to save you."
"Tried?" She asked confused.
"Yeah, you still wouldn't come back and I prayed and well… here you are." I smiled remembering the sound of her heart.
"You saved me?" She asked.
"You saved her?" Alice asked as the same time as Bella. Charlie and everyone else thanked me. Bella stayed silent taking everything in.
"Aren't you going to tell them the rest?" Emmett inquired.
"No, it's not important, Emmett." I gritted through my teeth.
"I think it is." He replied.
"What is he talking about? Are you leaving something out?" Alice asked.
"Nothing really. I had a little panic attack afterwards."
"Edward! That isn't little. I can't believe you weren't going to tell us." My mom admonished.
After that we all got reacquainted. Eventually it got too late and we all had to leave. Once again Bella asked me to stay with her and I had no problem with it. We talked about our lives during the last three years until she was tired. Though we both avoided our feelings for each other.
~0~0~0~
1 week later…
Everything went good after Bella woke up. Alice and I had a talk the next day. Bella's tests came back negative for brain damage. She was progressing well. Surprisingly, Emmett and Rose got closer to each other. They had their arguments or foreplay as he liked to call it. But it worked for them. Days passed by quickly and Bella was soon released from the hospital. The only problem was that even though we talked. We still didn't progress anywhere, relationship wise. I didn't know what to expect she was hot and cold with her actions.
Our family had to leave on the day she was released. They threw her a mini party at the hospital. It was decided that I take her to my place for the day. My plan was for us to finally talk about everything once and for all.
"Wow!" She exclaimed when we walked into my house.
"Don't act so surprised. I'm positive that your place is much more luxurious than this. Ms. Bella Swan, award winning singer." I teased.
"You've been keeping tabs on me, Cullen?"
"No." I retorted.
"Mmhmm. Yeah, being a singer does have it's perks. But my place is missing something." She looked a little sad. I asked her if she was okay. She smiled and nodded her head. I could tell something was wrong but I placated her.
"What is it missing?" I asked curiously.
"Stop stalling. Are you going to give me a tour or not? Come on." Dodging my question and changing the subject.
"The Dr. said you needed to rest when you left the hospital."
"Oh, Edward you worry to much. All I did was sleep. I was in a coma for two days, remember? And I stayed in the hospital for a week. I need the exercise."
"Okay, but you're sitting on the couch afterwards. Deal?"
"Deal."
After the tour I cooked us some lunch. We told each other about the last three years of our lives and played around. None of us mentioned what we wanted from each other. We talked and now we were sitting on the couch trying to find something on TV. I just didn't know what all of this meant. Is she single? Are we going to get back together? Does she still love me? I know she has to leave again sometime soon.
"Oh, no please turn it. I hate watching myself on TV." She exclaimed as she tried to take the remote from me.
"Why? What is-"
My eyes were glued to the screen. It was a music video. I saw a plane fly past the screen while a beautiful, familiar voice sang…
Gotta fly away
The screen suddenly switched to a little brunette girl telling her dad she wanted to be a singer. Soon after, she grew up and was singing in a choir, then in a restaurant as a woman. All the while a woman in a flowing, white dress looking like an angel was on the side. Barely visible, singing…
Since I was a little girl
I knew what I wanted
One day I would see the world
And make my mark on it
Put in time, sacrificed
Never thought of thinking twice
Since I was a little girl I dreamed
The Brunette was now in an airport with a bronze haired man.
"I don't want to leave you." She said to him.
"I know, Love. But, you have to this is your dream." He coaxed her.
"Attention passengers gate 23 is now open." An announcer said. The angel sang…
Now I'm standing with you in this terminal
With a ticket so far from your love.
"I love you. Forever." She said lovingly.
"And always. You have to let go."
"I don't want to." She pouted while he held her.
"You have to." He replied. She looked so dejected.
She walked away to her catch her flight. He stood there and watched her leave. Suddenly she turned around and ran back into his arms when the angel sang...
Can I have?
One more kiss?
One more touch?
He smiled, cupped her cheek and leaned down to kiss her. I was starting to feel déjà vu. All of it just seemed so familiar. I felt as if I was watching apart of my life. They pulled away and the angel continued to sing…
I just can't get enough of you
But, I'm in a rush
I gotta fly away
Plane's waiting up for me
Right at gate twenty-three
There's a doorway to my dreams
I can go or I can stay
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
She looked back between him and her flight repeatedly. Then the scene changed from the airport to a bedroom. Her alarm clock went off and she got up out of bed. The angel was there also and she sung…
My alarm clock in the morning
Said you got to go now
Breakfast you were calling
And my heart just broke down
She was in a kitchen with the bronze-haired man. They were eating breakfast together when girl broke down. The man comforted her while the beautiful woman on the side sung…
Cause tomorrow we will be
Waking up separately
Wish I never heard that clock ring
See I don't want to win
If my heart's got to lose
So how in the world do I choose
It flashed back to the couple in the airport. The woman was still torn between the man and her flight. She looked at him then she looked the other way repeatedly.
I just need
One more kiss
One more touch
I just can't get enough of you
But, I'm in a rush
I gotta fly away
Plane's waiting up for me
Right at gate twenty-three
There's a doorway to my dreams
I can go or I can stay.
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
Unexpectedly, everyone slowed their movements to a stop until they disappeared leaving the angel in the airport alone and conflicted. Her facial expression was heartbreaking as she sang and moved around.
How can you measure the promise of love
When it's weighing against
A chance that comes once
How can I leave when I know he's the one
When the dusts settles he might not be here
Now I'm standing with you on this terminal
Crying my eyes out with tears
Tears were falling down the angel's face. She looked so frail and broken. Her performance was stunning yet it broke my heart.
I just need
One more kiss
One more touch.
I just can't get enough of you
But, I'm in a rush
I gotta fly away
Plane's waiting up for me
Right at gate twenty-three
There's a doorway to my dreams
I can go or I can stay.
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
What do I do?
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
Gotta fly away
Only the couple reappeared. "Be safe." He said as they let go of each other. She walked away from him again this time without returning back.
Mmm, Mmm
The angel harmonized and shook her head lovingly, sadly.
I gotta fly away
The plane flew away and the crying angel slowly disappeared.
Bella was the beautiful, heartbroken, singing angel. The video was about the last time we saw each other. Watching the video put me right back to the airport. The couple looked liked us. They said the same things we did. However, the angel she was radiant yet the most hurt of all.
"Bella?" I asked her in a stupor. I turned around to face her and noticed her eyes were glossy. She blushed and shifted her eyes away from mine.
"I wrote that song on that same day. But I didn't release it until a few months ago. I forgot that today was the premiere. They wanted me to play as myself. I refused because it was too hard. I didn't want to go back there again. Singing about it was hard enough. Now, I have to see and hear about it all the time. I hate that day because it was the day that we said goodbye. It was the day that I play in my head over and over again. When I saw you in the hospital I knew nothing had changed. I was trying to sit here and be your friend. To just pretend the past didn't exist. But I can't. Even after three years of being apart. I still love you more than ever." To say I was shocked would put it lightly. She told me she stills loves me after all this time. I got off of the couch and knelt down in front of her.
"Bella, the last three years have been hell for me without you. I should have never ended us. I love you too. I've never stopped. There's no one else for me, Bella. I only want you. You own my heart, it beats for you." I wrapped her in my arms and held her as tight as I could. She reciprocated then she pulled back staring into my eyes.
"You mean you're not with anyone else?"
"Ha ha… Omg, Lol, K.I.T, Smiley faces, X&O's, Lmfao
My girl went through my cell phone."
My phone rang before I could answer. Bella pulled away from me and gave me an incredulous look. "Sexting by Ludicrous is your ring tone? Seriously?" She laughed.
"Let me just turn it off."
"My girl went through my cell phone."
"No, it's okay. I want you to answer it, it could be important." She was still laughing.
"Nothing is more important than us. It can wait until later." I already knew who the call was from I only set the ring tone to two people.
"It's okay, I need to go to the bathroom anyway." She rushed off and left. I wanted to call her back. I could already see the wheels spinning in her head. She was answering her own question. I reluctantly retrieved my phone out of my pocket.
"Hello." I said angrily.
"Well hello to you too. Do you always answer your phone like that?" A booming voice asked.
"What do you want? I'm busy."
"Why did I see you on TV a moment ago? Why didn't you tell me you're an actor?"
"It wasn't me."
"It sure did look like you." I rolled my eyes.
"That was the point. He was an actor that portrayed me."
"Huh? Why would someone? Ohh." He boomed. "I forgot you were with Bella. It's still too hard to believe that my little Ed is with a famous singer."
"Was that all?"
"Why are you trying to get off the phone so fast? What could you be doing? Oh, my bad. I interrupted you and B going at it? You go, Ed!" I pinched the bridge of my nose.
"Bye, Emmett."
"Felix, won't believe-" I hung up.
"Everything okay?" Bella asked after she came out of the bathroom. She sat down next to me on the couch. I noticed that her face wasn't red anymore.
"No one important just Emmett. He called to tell me he just saw me on TV."
"Oh. I like him he's funny."
"Ha ha… Omg, Lol, K.I.T, Smiley faces, X&O's, Lmfao
My girl went through my cell phone."
"That has to go." She stated.
"Hello." I said laughing.
"Oooh, what's funny? I wanna laugh."
"What do you want Felix?" Although I had a feeling I already knew.
"You didn't tell me you were famous? What else are you keeping from me?"
"Talk to Emmett he'll tell you everything." I didn't want to get into everything with him at that moment.
"What is that suppose to mean?"
"Bye, Felix."
"Aw, come on, Ed, you can't leave me hanging like that." I hung up on him too then I turned my phone off.
"The world comes to life and everything's right
from beginning to end when you have a friend by your side.
"Shut up. It has a beautiful meaning. It's better than yours." Bella said before I could comment on her ring tone.
"I didn't say anything." I replied with my hands in the air.
"But you were. I saw the look."
"That helps you to find the beauty you are when you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend."
"Please, answer it. I can't take it anymore." I covered my ears.
"Hello." Bella sighed. I heard Alice screaming through the phone.
"Yes, Alice, we just saw it." She was so loud I could hear her on the other side.
"Oh, you're with Edward right now?"
"Yes, we were kind of in the middle of something… Can I call you back?"
"Sure and Bella, You're going to tell me everything."
"Ok, love you bye."
"Bye."
"Sorry, about that." She said to me.
"Seems like we're popular tonight." I commented.
"Some don't have the patience.
Some call me high maintenance.
But you pay the bill cause that's the deal.
If you want a ride just name your price.
Don't play cheap with your heart.
Don't make a bet if you can't write the check from me, from me.
Cause I can be bought but you pay the cost.
If you can afford me."
"What is happening today?" Bella sighed.
"If you want me I'm not a piece of ass, a one night stand-"
"Hello. Rose, can I call you later." I should have known who that ring tone was for. There was silence for a minute.
"Okay, thanks. Bye"
"I haven't dated anyone else. I only want you, Bella." I blurted out. I had to say something before we were interjected again. She stood up from the couch and I got up to face her.
"What? You haven't done anything with anyone in three years? I mean it has been three years. I understand you have needs. We are broken up and I can't hold it against you or anything. that's too hard to believe. When we were together we slept together almost everyday." Her eyes widened and her face turned red. I couldn't help but laugh.
"Have you?" I was scared of her answer.
"No." She looked down and shook her head.
"You? Three years? I can't believe it. I understand you have needs. I mean three years. We slept together almost everyday. Why that's impossible." I had to tease her.
She stuck her tongue out at me.
You never know what the future will bring. Three years ago we were in two different states and didn't know where the other was. An hour ago we were acting awkward around each other, not knowing each other's feelings. Now, we're confessing our love and teasing each other.
"You better put that thing back in your mouth." I told her playfully.
"Or what?" She teased before she stuck it back out again. I leaned down and sucked it into my mouth. She moaned and wrapped her arms around my neck. Our tongues caressed each other in the best way. She pushed forward until I fell back on the couch. Her arms released me and she placed them on my chest.
"Mmmm, I missed you so much." She moaned when I nibbled on her collarbone.
And lightning don't strike the same place twice.
When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry.
True love's a gift.
But we let it drift in the storm.
Every night, I feel the angels cry.
"Don't answer it." I mumbled into her skin.
"It's just my agent. Mmm… he can wait." She whimpered when I paused and sat up.
"Now, that could be important. I can wait." I pushed her hair between her ear.
"No. When I said my place was missing something. I meant you. You're my home. Edward, you are my dream. All the fame, money, the dream it doesn't mean anything. This time I'm choosing you and I'm not taking no for an answer." She hopped up into my arms. Now don't you want to take me to bed? We have three years to make up for." She blushed and smiled a devious smile.
"Anything for you, Bella." I smirked.
FIN
THE END
A/N: My first completed story :)
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