Title: You Never Forget Your First Time Part 3
Synopsis: Stories describing the angel Castiel first sexual experiences with a virgin girl named Nancy that first appeared in Jus in Bello and upcoming new angel character named Rachiel.
Author: lovepass77
Rating: M for pervasive sexuality, nudity and some violence.
Genre: Supernatural Romance
Based On: Supernatural the television series created by Eric Kripke
Main Characters: Castiel, Nancy and Rachiel, Meg, Raphael, Camael
Pairings: Castiel, Nancy and Rachiel
Songs: I like to incorporated songs and lyrics into my stories because music is such a wonderful inspiration for me, but especially because of Supernatural and the songs I choose help me to tell the story and it helps if you listen to theses songs as you read along to better understand my stories and the vibe I'm trying to create.
Disclaimer: I have absolutely no rights to Supernatural, it belongs to Eric Kripke aka T-Bear. I just like to write stories about this great show.
Author's note: Warning this story contains possible spoilers about upcoming episodes with new characters that will be coming to the show in these upcoming episodes.
Location: Birmingham, Alabama
Time: February 4, 2011
Scene: The Cedar Church basement
Introduction:
Castiel stands alone in the basement gazing up at a somber looking crucifix hanging on the wall with Jesus Christ figure still attached to the cross.
Castiel just finished having a rather heated discussion with his good friend Dean Winchester before arriving at the church. He doesn't understand why human beings allow their emotions for one another to cloud their good judgment.
He thinks to himself, Dean should have listened to me! I told him nothing good can come from putting Sam's mutilated soul back inside his body. Now Sam is in a coma and he may never wake up. It makes no sense to me! Dean claims to care so much for his brother than why did he practically sign Sam's death sentence.
Sadly and nervously Castiel begins to speak out loud to the Lord praying that his heavenly father will listen to his words.
Castiel: "Oh Lord please help them. I don't want Sam to die. Dean is barely able to function properly anymore. Whenever something is wrong with his little brother he acts like the whole world is coming to an end. I hate seeing him like that. Seeing Sam without a soul was awful, but if does ever he wake up with that skinned soul poisoning his system he'll be even worse off."
He closes his eyes as he continues to pray for the Winchesters and ask God for guidance. He has never heard the true voice of God before. Very few angels or human have heard God's true voice, but Castiel still believes and hopes he is out there somewhere.
Castiel can't help, but sense his Lord's presence every time he is with the Winchester brothers. He knows God is watching out for them and that they were chosen special to do many great things. But, chosen for what he still wonders what life has in store for them and for him. Every time he is with them Castiel feels emotions that he doesn't fully understand.
Castiel: "All I want for myself Lord is to be able to stop this civil war with my brothers so I can spend more time learning about these strange human feelings I've been having. Feelings that I shouldn't have. I'm an Angel of the Lord not a man. I am meant to be a Warrior of God, not just a sidekick for two arrogant humans. They may be my friends, but they are entirely too selfish and confusing to me. Half the time I don't understand what they are talking about at all. They want me to come whenever they call as if I haven't got an entire world of people to look out for. If Raphael is left unchecked he'll destroy everyone on your planet if I don't stop him Lord. Why can't you just please, please tell me what you want me to do?"
He sighs sadly and shakes his head when he hears no answer from God then Castiel looks back up at the crucifix on the wall.
Castiel: "At least help the Winchesters to see what is really going on here. Don't they get that I'm not like them. I didn't grow up on this planet watching picture boxes filled with human jokes and emotions and porn. They expect me to help them then the least they should do is explain to me how their human world works. Why is it funny that a priest and a rabbi both walk into the bar at the same time? Why does it make Dean cry that a young boy shoots an old dog with rabies in a movie? It can't be healthy to be so attached to anything or anyone that isn't even real or won't even last very long like a dog. Only you and Death will last forever Lord yet many people don't even believe in you. They think you and I are just a myth nothing, but fictional characters in some old books written by some shy isolated lone writer. Where is Chuck any way, Lord? Is he dead or in hell? Is he with you up in heaven? I haven't been able to find him anywhere on earth. I really need to talk to someone who actually understands me."
Castiel continues to ponder on all of these thoughts until he looks up at the window and sees a flash of light fall from the sky like a shooting star.
He frowns in disbelief and annoyance over it.
He thinks to himself it can't be! Did I just see another angel fall from grace? How tragic! If only humans knew that whenever they saw what they foolishly interpret as a shooting star or a meteor rock hitting the earth it is really an angel's grace falling from heaven.
A new angel has just fallen and will be reborn as a human soon or even worse. Some angels don't get reborn. They instead choose a human vessel like I chose Jimmy and they masquerade as human beings, but they are not. An angel without grace is even more dangerous than a human without his soul. I wonder who it is that has come here. Well whoever is coming they just better not get in my way. I have enough problems as it is right now.
These thoughts make Castiel frown more as he reminisces about his dearly departed old boss Anna who he served with for many millennia, but who tragically turned against him and the Winchesters. He wishes now that he could have been nicer to her or helped her before it was too late, but now that she is gone he wonders if any other angels from his former garrison are still alive on earth. He doubts it most of them were killed by Lucifer when he was on earth.
Castiel recalls that at one time long ago they were all very close to one another, closer to each other than Thursday is to a Friday even. Castiel feels like his new found friendship with the Winchesters brings some of those old feelings of being part of a team back to him even though it's not the same kind of connection as he had with his angelic garrison.
He decides that since God is not answering his prayers he will leave for Africa for a few days to do some more angel hunting. He is aware that Raphael is searching for some kind of weapon there, something to destroy all the angels and humans that don't follow his orders.
I don't know what kind of weapon he is after, but I must stop him before it's too late. He is so stubborn and he foolishly just won't let go of the past. Lucifer is gone and the world is still going on. Raphael can't be God no more than I can be human. This vessel doesn't make me human it just makes me look like one. I don't even like it much. Sometimes, it itches.
Castiel scratches his nose with his finger annoyed by the feeling.
He never had such physical sensations like that in his true angel form so it bothers him and confuses him even now after wearing Jimmy's skin for a few years now it still feels odd to be inside this human body.
Castiel begins to tune into angel radio in his head to listen for any important chatter that may be going on anywhere around the world amongst other angels. Only a few very powerful angels are able to block out other angels from hearing their conversations. When that happens it's usually because of a spell that forces the other angels to hear human music instead of angelic voices in order to distract them.
Castiel frowns again when he hears the sound of a song he has never heard before playing on the angel radio causing interference. The song playing is A.N.G.E.L by Natasha Bedingfield.
"Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
I'm there to guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I wanna be your zone
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
With every promise given
Making vows to please her man
If I could be your angel (your angel, your angel)
Protect you from the pain (from the pain, oh)
I'll keep you safe from danger (from danger, from danger)
You'll never hurt again (no more)
I'll be your
A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'm gonna be your A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'll be your angel
Just like the moon
I'll step beside
And let your sun shine
While I follow behind
Cause baby what ya got
It deserves all the props
You're everything I'm not
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
With every promise given
Making vows to please her man
If I could be your angel (your angel, your angel)
Protect you from the pain (from the pain, oh)
I'll keep you safe from danger (from danger, from danger)
You'll never hurt again (no more)
I'll be your
A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'm gonna be your A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'll be your angel"
Castiel finds himself slowly starting to bop his head to the beat of the song as a feeling of comfort sweeps over his vessel which he likes very much. But, he knows this sorcery is more than likely Raphael's doing.
After listening to the song play in his head Castiel disappears from the basement and heads to Egypt. There is a lot of social unrest amongst the people there right now as protesters against the Egyptian government gather in the streets, but Castiel has no time to help out. He is there for one reason and one reason only to find out what Raphael is searching for before Raphael finds it then uses it against him.
Castiel isn't completely sure if what he is looking for is even hidden in Egypt, but he figures it's a good place to start looking based on Egypt's rich biblical history and the many hidden tombs filled with supernatural artifacts located in the country.
As he searches in Egypt back in Alabama at Cedar Church the entire building begins to rumble cracking the foundation of the church and causing the crucifix in the basement to split in half as it crashes to the floor.
Scene: In an open grassy field right behind Cedar Church near a cemetery
Nancy Fitzgerald opens her eyes up slowly as soft cold raindrops dot her forehead.
She sits up immediately and gasps loudly trying to catch her breath as if she just woke up from a dream. All around her the thick grass that once stood tall is now smashed to the ground in the shape of a cross with her lying directly in the center of it.
Nancy stands up to her feet feeling wobbly at first, but soon she gains enough strength to walk. She heads directly for the church to find some help. She has no idea how she got there or how it is even possible that she is alive again. Nancy remembers her own agonizing death well and the horrible pain of Lilith filleting her tender skin off inside the police station where she use to work. The poor girl winces at the painful memory as she bangs on the back door of the church praying someone will answer her.
The door opens up and she quickly runs inside to get out of the rain.
Nancy: "Hello! Is anybody here? Hello!"
No one answers so Nancy frowns and heads for a church office room to find a phone.
As she walks through the main sanctuary of the church a loud shrill sound overtakes her senses.
The church's beautiful stained glass windows decorated with images of apostles and angels start to shatter into tiny fragments blanketing Nancy as she races to hide under a church pew.
The large oak French doors at the front of the church burst open as lightening crashes outside illuminating the figure that walks towards her.
Nancy wants to cry she is so terrified that its Lilith again that somehow that horrible bitch brought her back from the dead only to kill her or torture her once more.
Nancy keeps her head down and her eyes shut until she feels the soft brush of a hand on her dark wet hair.
She shakes in fear and grasps her rosary bead necklace in her hands almost ready to scream.
Rachiel: "Do not fear me human."
Nancy opens her eyes and sees a pretty white woman much older than the little Lilith girl she remembers.
Nancy: "Are you a demon?"
Racheil: "No, I am the angel of Friday."
Nancy blinks her eyes in shock.
Nancy: "You're an angel?"
Rachiel stares at her intensely and tries to smile though she feels awkward doing so in her new vessel.
Rachiel: "Yes, you may call me Rachiel."
Nancy: "Wait its Friday?"
Rachiel fights back the urge to roll her eyes at that ridiculously obvious question.
Racheil: "Of course, why else would I have come today? Now stand up and let me look at you."
Nancy frowns at her as she quietly stands back to her feet.
Rachiel walks around checking Nancy out from each possible angle.
Nancy looks at her very confused and still scared.
Rachiel: "You'll do just fine."
Nancy: "Do fine for what?"
Rachiel: "I am on an important mission from God and I need your help."
Nancy glares at Rachiel and begins to get angry.
Nancy: "I was in heaven. I just woke up here I'm the one who needs help! You say you're an angel then where the hell have you been? Why didn't you help me when that monster killed me? Why didn't you come then huh?"
Rachiel: "That is in the past, now is the present lets stayed focused Nancy."
Nancy: "How do you even know my name? "
Rachiel: "It says so on your shirt."
Rachiel points at Nancy's chest.
Nancy looks down and realizes she is still wearing her name tag from the police station and the same clothes she had on when she died.
She slumps down onto a pew not sure how to handle all of this yet.
Nancy: "Why is this happening to me?"
Rachiel: "Unfortunately, there is a civil war going on right now amongst my fellow seraphs. It is going to be complete chaos and it is already not safe on earth anymore."
Nancy sneers at that last remark.
Nancy: "It was never safe here. I want to go back to heaven!"
Rachiel sighs
Rachiel: "I'm afraid that is just not possible Nancy. I brought you back to earth because I need you to be my vessel.
Nancy: "You're what!"
Rachiel: "My vessel. I need a permanent human body to house my true form. I need it to be someone pure and good like you. Please, you must say yes so that I can complete my mission."
Nancy: "And what mission are you on anyway?"
Rachiel: "To reunite with my guardian and fulfill God's plan to stop this war."
Nancy: "God's plan? What is his plan?"
Rachiel: "I don't know all the details. He didn't exactly give me step by step instructions. He rarely does that."
Nancy frowns still not buying this nonsense one bit.
Nancy: "Look lady, I don't know what you've been taking, but I am not a vessel okay. I am just well I don't know what I am anymore, but I know I just want to go home."
Rachiel sighs in annoyance
Rachiel: "Fine, I'll take you home."
Nancy looks at the angel with hope in her eyes thinking she'll finally be returning to heaven.
Nancy: "Really?"
Rachiel nods and then puts a hand on Nancy's shoulder.
Nancy winces as Rachiel touches her because she can now feel the painful red hand print that Rachiel left seared on her shoulder when she woke Nancy up from the dead. She feels her stomach quiver and her butthole pucker up as she lands back down in a brand new location.
Scene: Biggerson's Restaurant parking lot
Rachiel stands staring into the windows of the restaurant at the families sitting inside eating their meals and chatting.
Nancy is facing the cars in the parking lot. She closes her mouth and gulps to keep from vomiting.
She frowns then turns her head to look at Rachiel.
Nancy: "What the hell just happened? What did you do to me?"
Rachiel: "I flew you back home like you asked."
Nancy: "That was awful! I feel sick."
Rachiel: "You'll get use to it. I love to fly it is much faster than walking."
Nancy is about to start yelling at this angel again to take her back to heaven, but Nancy pauses when she sees her family sitting inside the restaurant together. Her mother, father and two siblings all eating happily chatting with one another about their lives.
She walks up closer to the glass windows of the restaurant totally surprised and elated to see them all again.
Rachiel: "These people, they are your family correct?"
Nancy nods as she steps onto the sidewalk in front of the restaurant.
Rachiel: "Well they are in danger now."
Nancy stares at Rachiel with a horrified expression on her face.
Nancy: "What do you mean danger?"
Rachiel: "There are many angels and demon out there that will want to kill them because of you.
Nancy: "Me? I haven't done anything!"
Rachiel: "They don't care all that matters to them is that you are meant to be my vessel. They will want to kill you and your family to keep us apart or just to hurt them to get rid of me."
Nancy begins to cry
Nancy: "But, why?"
Rachiel: "Because I told you there is a civil war going on. I can't protect you unless you work with me."
Nancy: "That isn't fair! I have nothing to do with this mess!"
Rachiel: "Nancy, whoever told you life was fair?"
Nancy cries and sits down on the sidewalk.
Rachiel doesn't understand this crying very much. She feels connect to Nancy and doesn't like seeing her in pain because she is her vessel, but why cry when there is work to be done. It makes no sense to her as an angel it just seems like Nancy is being irrational about all of this.
Rachiel sits down beside Nancy and tries to comfort her the best way she can.
Rachiel: "You humans are very fragile creatures, but you can be very strong too. My father made you that way. He wants us to be brave Nancy. Can you be brave?"
Nancy: "Why is everything about what God wants? What about what I want?"
Rachiel frowns at that as if its blasphemy to disobey the Lord.
Nancy: "I didn't deserve to die like that! Those hunters they brought this down on me. Lilith was after them not me. It isn't fair! I hate God and I hate this world too! My family must have been so devastated. How long have I been gone anyway?
Rachiel: "Over three years."
Nancy buries her head in her knees and continues to cry.
Rachiel has had enough of her whining.
Rachiel: "You don't get it human! This is not about just you or your family it's about the greater good. Don't think for one moment that if you disobey God you won't be punished for it. You were in heaven before and you enjoyed it right?"
Nancy nods quietly still sobbing into her knees. She remembers how happy she was in heaven. She had finally met a wonderful funny young man up there named Andrew Gallagher. Nancy recalls spending so much time hanging out in the back of his van making love to him.
Rachiel: "Well you won't be able to ever go back if you disobey now. You don't want to become like Lilith do you?"
Nancy sits up again with a horrified look on her face at such an awful thought.
Rachiel: "That is what you will become if you disobey and get sent to hell for it. You're soul will burn away and you will become a demon just like Lilith was."
Nancy: "No! God no! I hate Lilith!"
Rachiel: "So do I, in fact I hate all demons. They are wicked, filthy creatures. But, I don't hate you Nancy. I just want you to understand what is happening here. I will do all I can to protect your family if you agree to this. I also can promise that you will get to return to heaven before I complete my mission and make love with my guardian once he agrees to it."
Nancy: "What make love? Who is your guardian?"
Rachiel: "His name is Castiel."
Nancy: "Is he an angel like you?"
Rachiel nods at her and smiles at the thought of seeing him again.
Nancy: "Why do you need my body though? What is wrong with the one you have?"
Rachiel frowns as she looks down at her temporary vessel. A young actress named Sonya Salomaa that she had to promise to turn into a Hollywood star once Rachiel was able to get into her true vessel. But, Rachiel isn't really sure what a Hollywood star even is.
Rachiel: "This vessel is not strong enough to hold my true form like yours is meant to. I'm not saying it will be easy. You will still be trapped inside your body for sometime and it will feel like you just felt flying here with me.
Nancy frowns at that and starts to feel sick again.
Rachiel: "But, I can tell you it is much better than letting the world be destroyed by my brethren.
Nancy sighs and wipes the tears from her eyes.
Nancy: "I guess so. I don't want the world to end because of me. But, I want my family protected!"
Rachiel nods again.
Nancy: "I just don't get why you have to sleep with another angel to fulfill this mission from God or whatever?"
Rachiel sighs at her.
Rachiel: "Let me put it to you this way. God works in mysterious ways. It is best not to ask why just ask how can I be of service."
Nancy: "So you plan to service this Castiel in the name of God?"
Rachiel: "If he'll have me yes I will do my best to."
Nancy: "But, I am still a virgin here on earth."
Rachiel: "As am I and so is he at least I hope he still is. He should be if he has followed God's orders."
Nancy: "So you're saying he doesn't have any diseases then?"
Rachiel: "Heavens no, we angels don't carry human diseases."
Nancy: "But, what if he gets my body pregnant or hurts me."
Rachiel: "That is not part of the mission for you to get pregnant. I love my Lord and I want to help him stop Raphael so we can put an end to this war. I will not have Castiel's child and neither will you. Our union is for an entirely different purpose I can assure you."
Nancy: "Yeah, you said its part of God's plan. But, you don't even know what the full plan is. I am supposed to just trust your word that God's word is right and you don't even know what he is planning or why he wants you to do this? Don't you think that is odd?"
Rachiel stares at Nancy puzzled by her disobedient attitude.
Rachiel: "No. I think it's wonderful. Obeying the Lord is what we were all made to do. Disobedience is just weakness and it hurts everyone."
Nancy stares at Rachiel's eyes and she sees a reflection of Castiel inside of them. The reflection quickly disappears, but it is enough to convince Nancy that Rachiel must be in love with this angel and its not just about serving the Lord.
Nancy sighs as she thinks to herself I don't want to stand in the way of true love or God.
Nancy: "Alright, fine I guess. I can give it a try."
Rachiel: "Are you sure? Once you said yes to me then you can't escape or change your mind later not until I'm ready to complete my mission. Castiel must agree to lay with me in order for you to return to heaven. If he refuses me then you will be trapped here forever and so will I until he changes his mind. I can't return until my mission is done."
Nancy stands up to look at her family eating in Biggersons once more.
Nancy: "I just want my family safe. They must be protected from all of this."
Rachiel: "God will protect them I promise and I will kill any creature who tries to harm them."
Nancy: "Would you even kill Castiel?
Rachiel frowns in horror at the thought of doing such a thing. But, she quickly realizes Nancy is simply testing her resolve so she sighs.
Rachiel: "If Castiel ever tried to hurt your family though I seriously doubt he would, then yes I would kill him too or at least stop him."
Nancy decides that was a good enough answer so she holds out her hand to shake Rachiel's hand. Rachiel stares at Nancy's open palm confused as to what she is doing.
Rachiel hugs tightly her instead.
Nancy looks very surprised by the intimacy of a hug over a handshake.
Rachiel smiles assuming she did the right thing.
Rachiel: "I learned that from a cherub."
Nancy looks confused at first not sure what that even means then she bites back a laugh and just shakes her head at this strange angelic creature in front of her.
Nancy: "Okay, there is just one more thing I want from you before I say yes."
Rachiel: "What else?"
Nancy: "The two hunters the ones responsible for Lilith killing me and my friends."
Rachiel: "Yes, what about them?"
Nancy: "I want you to kill them."
Rachiel stares puzzled by this request, but not entirely oppose to it.
Rachiel: "Why, but that is not part of the mission?"
Nancy: "I don't care! It's all their fault what happened and I think now maybe they were even in on it with her. I want them to suffer like we did. Like my family must be suffering from my death. Promise me that you will do this or my answer is no and I'm going inside to eat with my family instead."
Rachiel: "Very well if they are even still alive then I will find these hunters and I will torture them for one they've done to you. Then I will kill them so they will go to hell, but first I must look for Castiel. I don't know how I'm going to convince him to follow this plan, but somehow I will. He must make love to me to stop this war and I will do whatever it takes to make that happen."
Nancy: "Fine. Just remember their names are Sam and uh Dean Winchester. They are brothers I believe. One is really tall and the shorter one is very bossy."
Rachiel: "Okay, I'll remember I promise."
Nancy smiles at her.
Nancy: "Then my answer is yes!"
Rachiel grins at Nancy happy that she has finally agreed to this. All the street lights begin to flicker and Nancy takes one final look at her loved ones as she holds onto her rosary beads once again.
Rachiel touches her and they both disappear as Rachiel the angel unites with Nancy the vessel.