Chapter 5.

At the hotel, Ashlie was getting her things from her hotel room, and there was a knock at her door.

"Come in" she said and zipped up her bags.

John walked in with a single red rose and looked at her and smiled.

"For you, my baby. I figured I had to get you something, just to make everything exactly right." He pulled her close and looked at her in her eyes.

Ashlie looked at him, and hugged him.

"I have to talk to you; just don't get me wrong… Don't kill me either; I just need time for myself. I truly care about you, a lot. Don't get me wrong, I just got out of a relationship, I just need to be alone."

John looked at her and nodded his head.

"I understand, I know you're hurt, and you need time to think about where you're going, because you are honestly a truly motivated female, and you know what you want. I just really want you to know, that I will be waiting forever, just to be with you." He hugged her, and walked out of the room.

She sat on the edge of the bed, and just had her head in her hands and just sat there thinking about what she just ended up ruining, and she knew she'd never get it back. She liked him, a lot, and she hurt him. She knew that she did, and she knows that he wouldn't want her again. She fell down on the bed and just lied there.

She grabbed her IPod and turned it on and Victims of Love by Good Charlotte and just lied there listening to it, over and over again.

Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been hurt by somebody before
You can change but you will always come back for more
It's a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love.
You can't decide it, victims of love, victims of love.

That's exactly what she was, is a victim of love. She fell in love with the wrong person, and she knows that now, and she had no idea what she was going to do.

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At the same time, John was lying on his bed in a room down the hall from her, thinking if it really was his fault that he was moving things way too fast, but he honestly didn't want to lose her, and everything. He needed her, and he didn't want to admit it to anybody other than himself.

"Why didn't I just wait for her to get her emotions back in the whirl as she says all the time? Why didn't I just wait?" He said to himself.

He can run down a whole laundry list of why didn't he just wait, and he figured she'd be already onto the next one. He picked up his phone and called Beth to meet him in the lobby in 10. She simply agreed.

He went down into the lobby with a beer in hand, and just sat down on one of the couches, and waited for Beth to get downstairs, and talk some sense into him.

"What's up John? Why did you want to speak to me, I was in the shower." Beth said, and giggled just a little bit.

John took a swig of his beer, and looked at her. "You're the only one I know that is connected to Ashlie, and I need your advice, because I can't seem to give my own self some advice. I think I completely fucked up everything between me and her." He looked at Beth and took another swig of his beer.

"What happened?"

"I jumped into a relationship with her, and I know I shouldn't have, because of what Paul did to her, and everything like that. I knew I shouldn't have done it, yet, I love her, that's the weird thing. I always have." He paused and took a breath and let out a sigh, and continued. "Since the first day I seen her, I knew she was gonna be something absolutely special. It's weird, ya know?"

"You shouldn't have. I know for a fact she loves you. She'll wait for you, and you should wait for her. Let her get through her little spurt right now. She'll let you in, what you should do, is go back to her room, and let her talk to you about this. I'm not very good. I hope it helped some."

"It did, thanks Beth. I'll go see her soon."

He hung up the phone, and got ready to go see her again.

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Ashlie was still lying in her bed listening to her IPod. …And she told me to leave by Lostprophets came on through her headphones.

Is it so hard

Everytime I say

Won't you come and fight with me
Because if I thought I were you
Every word I say
Would come out wrong and make you look the other way
You know, if I thought I were you
time and time again
and if I did, we won't be friends.

There was a knock at the door, and she looked up and laid back down as if she just seen who it was. She closed her eyes, and just laid there. John came in, and looked at her lying on her bed. He walked in and shut the door, and walked over to her and lay next to her, and he wrapped his arms around her.

She smiled as he did so and he took out one of her earplugs and whispered in her ear.

"I love you Ash, and I'll wait forever for you." He whispered, and she smiled.

She turned to face him and she kissed him.

"I love you too, and I want you to wait for me. I don't think anybody else would end up waiting for me, like you would. You mean absolutely everything to me, and I would like, die if I ever lost you." A tear welled up in her eye, and she buried her head in his chest.

He kept her in his arms and just held her throughout the night.