Ok, So I'm so sorry this update took so long. I actually had given up on this story but then one day I got some motivation and decided to write. It's a little shaky but I guess at least its something. Please Review. It really does help motivate me. And I promise that the next update will be up in a couple days. Well hopefully, but I'll do my best. Thanks so much.

"Listen, Nathan, I'm telling you, this would be in your best interest to attend this charity banquet for Cancer Research. You would score major points with all of your sponsors and fans if you went to it and gave them your check in person." Paul Chevy, Nathan's agent spoke with obvious irritation in his voice. He had been trying to convince Nathan to attend this banquet for the last 30 minutes and he was making no progress. When Nathan said his mind was made up...his mind was made up.

"Listen….Paul," Nathan said trying to maintain whatever calm composure he had left. "As I have said for the last twenty eight times…I'm really not in the mood to attend some banquet with people and their…families. I understand that this is a really good cause, I really do, but I just….I just can't. I'm sorry, but right now I'm just not ready to attend one of those things again. I'll mail them the check, and then they can benefit from it that way. I don't physically have to hand it to them." Nathan spoke, obviously sorry that he couldn't make himself go, but he just couldn't go to one of things…not with the state of mind he's in now. Nathan had been to these charity banquets before, and he always came home with the same feelings….Sadness, anger, frustration, regret. Seeing all the men with their wives that they were happily married to….all the young children sitting in their parent's laps…the crying newborns….the pregnant woman who would give birth soon to their babies…and all of the happy men who had everything that Nathan wanted. Everything he should have now.

"Nathan, I do understand..." Paul tried…he knew how hard Nathan's life was…all the daily reminders that probably went through his mind of what could his life could be like. But he also knew that he needed to try to move forward with is his life. Instead of focusing on what could have been and all the what ifs. That's why he was being so persistent with having Nathan attend this banquet. It would be a step in the right direction.

"No, Paul, you don't. You have a wife who is healthy and alive. You don't have to live with the thought that if you would have been home, one hour sooner…just one damn hour sooner, that you could have been able to protect your pregnant wife from some bastard." Nathan's blood boiled at the thought, as it always did when he let his mind wander about the day Haley had been abducted…God if he would have been home when he had planned to be home and just ignored his dad's call that he "needed" him to help him at the dealership for an hour. Looking back, he has no idea why he even agreed to it. He should have just gone straight home. Nathan had called Haley to get her opinion, which would end up being their last conversation.

"Hello." Haley's perky voice greeted the person on the other end of the line

"Hey Hales, how are you feeling?"

"Just fine, my sweet husband." She laughed. "I've been going through all the baby stuff from the shower and writing thank you cards to everyone. But I'll be honest; I'm still not too sure about the crib that your dad bought for Allie… I mean I know he's been a little better lately but I still can't get the idea out of my head that its like sabotaged or something and is going to end up sending our child like 4 feet in the air because of a crib malfunction or something."

Nathan laughed. "Great, now that you filled my head with that idea…"

Haley giggled "What, it could happen, I'm not being irrational. I'm just thinking about your daughter's safety."

"Well, how about we take the crib back and buy a new one just so we know that there's no malfunctioning springs. I don't trust anything past Dan anyways. But on the topic of him and the reason I called."

"What you didn't call about the possibility that Allie could be sprung 4 feet in the air?" Haley asked faking shock.

"Can't say I did," Nathan laughed. "But now that I'm going to the store tonight for a new crib, Dan called and asked if I would work at the dealership for an hour. I mean I know we could use the money, but I wasn't sure if you needed help at home with any baby stuff or moving things around…"

"And the fact that you don't want to spend another second alone with your dad?" Haley interrupted reading Nathan's mind.

"Well, yeah, and that. It's just that my dad will bitch about how my life was wasted and how I need to focus on basketball and all that crap."

"This time could be different." Nathan laughed. "Ok, not the response I was looking for, but maybe Dan really is trying to be a bigger part of your life."

"Coming from the person who has been worrying if Dan's crib could launch a baby."

"Hey, I never said I trusted him, and besides I'm just looking out for Ally. But I think you should work for the hour, nothing too big is going to happen in one measly hour. I'll be fine. I think Brooke might be coming over anyways. Plus the extra money is always nice."

"Ok, well then I'll see you after working with the Devil. If you get too tired to do all those thank you notes, then stop, ok?"

Haley laughed. "Yes, Nathan, don't worry. I'll be fine. The baby will be fine."

"Ok, well that's all that matters. Well I'll let you go, Love you both."

"And we love you too. Bye!"

Nathan smiled slightly at the memory; he had been so happy and so in love at that point of his life. Everything was right, for the first time in his life. He was going to be a father and was married to his soul mate. God, why did someone have to take that from him? What happened after he hung up with Haley and after Brooke left is still a little shaky. The guy who had confessed to murdering Haley never answered many questions about it but the detectives guessed that about 20 minutes or so after Brooke left, the son of a bitch went to the door and had rung it. Haley opened the door and then they assumed the guy just grabbed her. It was obvious that there was a struggle. That part tore Nathan up. He cringed every time he thought about some man grabbing Haley with no care at all and thrusting her and telling her come with him. He could only imagine how scared she was, probably screaming for him. Why couldn't he of been home one fucking hour sooner. He would of beat the shit out of that guy and made sure Haley and Ally were safe. God, he remembered coming home to his apartment that night, assuming everything would be normal. That she would be there, they would have share a kiss and she would tell them how much Allie had been kicking and what new parenting tip she had learned. But no, he came home to an unlocked door, slightly open and an apartment with a mess on the ground, indicating some sort of struggle. He remembered going into panic and screaming for Haley. Then it turned into a blur, he remembered some neighbors coming over and calling the police for him. Brooke crying and saying how she had just been talking to Haley. Peyton cussing and asking a million questions about what was going on. Jake trying to comfort everyone. Lucas demanding the police to go find her. Nathan had just sat, trying to take in everything. He remembered people asking him questions…some even asked him if he had anything to do with her disappearance. He couldn't believe that they would accuse him of that? He wouldn't do any harm to Haley or his child, ever. He didn't know why they were wasting time asking such questions when they should be going out and trying to find her.

"Nathan, Nathan. Are you listening to me?" Paul said, breaking into Nathan's thoughts.

"What, oh, sorry I guess I just let my mind wander," He said trying to shake off his previous thoughts.

"Ok, fine. I'll make up some excuse as to why you had to miss the banquet and I'll give them the check myself." Paul said finally relenting.

"Thanks, man. Appreciate it." Nathan said, glad that Paul finally dropped the idea of him going.

"But, Nathan. I know you want to bury yourself alone with all your thoughts or alone with your work…but you have to live your life at some point. I never met Haley. But with all the good things people have said about her, I'm thinking she would want you to go out and be happy. There's nothing wrong with having a good time. Nate, she's in a better place, so is your daughter."

"Don't. I can't hear that." Nathan said looking intently into Paul's eyes. "That's too hard. You don't know that they're dead… They could come back. There's always a chance."

"Nathan, are you listening to yourself. Didn't the detectives say they caught the man who did it? He admitted that he murdered them…Nathan I'm not trying to be cruel or hurt you. But Haley and Ally are dead. You need to remember every second you had with Haley and appreciate it. I'm not saying to forget about them, because you shouldn't and I know that you never could. Just you need to move on…" Paul tried, he knew of Nathan's denial that Haley was dead. But they had the guy who confessed. He took the lie detector test. It was proved that he really did murder them.

"They never found the bodies…That means that the man could be a fucking liar."

"Nathan, he said he dumped them into the ocean. The ocean is a huge place. It's almost impossible to find a body in that big of an area. Some are never found. Ok, look, I can already tell you are being stubborn and considering everything I'm saying as bullshit. So I'm going to go. Just please consider what I said earlier. You need to rethink some things or else you are going to be in the same mind frame that you've been in for the past 5 years forever. And Haley alive or dead would want you happy. And you my friend are anything but." Paul then got up. "I'll give you a call later." With saying that he opened the door and left.

Nathan remained seated. God, a part of him knew that Paul was probably right, but another part of him, his heart, just couldn't give up on Haley's return home. As far fetched as it sounded, part of him truly thought Haley would come home soon. And that's what kept him going everyday.