Love That Shouldn't Have Happened Didn't You Know How Much I Love You?, an one tree hill fanfic

I remember the way you made love to me
Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn't change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don't even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart

The weather isn't too great. The rain is coming down hard and it really is hard to see anything. Brooke has no clue how her boyfriend is even able to see a thing. They just got out of a movie and of course the movie ran late so though she was supposed to be home 30 minutes ago she isn't. That is one rule her mom has, be home on time. On curfew and she doesn't want Brooke in the driveway, doesn't want her coming up the street or on the doorstep, she wants her in the house at 1 during weekdays and 2 on the weekends. Well it's Thursday and when she looks seeing that it's approaching 2 she knows she is so screwed.

"Just tell her the movie ran late." Lucas said as they changed lanes. He knew how her mom was about curfew and it didn't help that Cam was still not exactly happy for them.

"Luke you know how she is and it doesn't help that Cam is still being a small ass about it all. God only knows what he will say when I show up almost an hour late." She groans slamming back into her seat.

"The truth. Brooke we weren't even doing anything, we went to a movie. Why don't you try calling her again?" he suggested not really getting why she will get in trouble, she called her mom didn't pick up. What more could she do.

"Damn it!" Brooke cursed as her phone started beeping almost dead. Could this night get worse, everything that could go wrong has and this was her first date out with Lucas since they got back together, she wanted to do this right. Wanted her mom to trust them out and not worry and showing up late will make her worry and a little pissed, "My phone is dead do you have yours?" she asked.

"Yeah." He nodded pulling his eyes away from the road for what seemed a millisecond to get his phone from his pocket.

"Lucas!" Brooke screamed as a bright light flashed into the dark car with loud screeching of tires. The whole moment was silent. There was no screaming, there was no loud noises. It was almost as if everything that was happening was on mute. The car spun on the wet road spinning in circles before skidding of the road flipping. Two flips that all it was just two and as soon as the window crashed next to her she felt a gust of wind take over. The once warm car filled with wet cold air as the car finally came to a stop slamming into a tree bring it all to a halt.

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

Brooke eyes shot open to the dim light coming in from her window. She felt her heart racing and tear filled eyes and shook her head trying to forget it all, trying to forget the haunting of something she should for the life of her regret but still didn't. She should tell herself loving him was wrong, being with him was wrong but she just never seemed to convince herself of it fully. Every time she would think she did something would happen, a song would come on, or a saying someone said that made her mind race back to him. Of thoughts of him.

He is a part of her for reason then she would like to admit but he is. He was her first everything, first love, first person she gave her whole body too, her whole heart too, he was her first heartbreak, first tear she cried over a boy and she hated him for all those things. She hates him for making her feel so terrible that night she found out and she hates the fact he has been here a day and her mind has been completely consumed of thoughts of him. She has a boyfriend, she loves that boyfriend but for some reason she just can't get the brooding blonde out of her head.

"Please get out of my head." she mumbled to herself throwing her sheets off her. All she wanted was a night that didn't make her think of him, a night where she just slept normal and if she must dream it be about her current boyfriend, not her former.

Rolling over she noticed Jason snuggled against a pillow asleep. He really is a big teddy bear, a super cute teddy bear that she loves just as much as her own brother. Leaning over kissing his cheek he smiles a little mumbling something and then drifting back to sleep.

Crawling out of her bed Brooke stumbles into the kitchen to make some coffee figuring she would just go out for breakfast since she didn't feel like cooking when Quinn wasn't there mainly because Lucas was right yesterday, she still did suck.

Putting on 8 cups, she walked over to her purse digging through it until she found exactly what she was looking for. She should throw it out, give it away but she can't, no matter how much she wants too the small chain will always be in her purse. It's a tiny piece of metal, melted down into a ridge shape of a heart with a small engraving in the back,

'One Last Time'

Three words, three tiny words with suck an amazing strong meaning to her. The metal was from his old mustang. He loved that car, he loved it more than anything and she still remembered that night like it was yesterday, it was probably one of the scariest nights of her life.

I can't get you out of my head
I still feel you in this bed
Left me all alone
You couldn't be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I've felt it all
I've been to the wall

Brooke felt her head pound with pain. She heard nothing but the rain outside soaking into the car. Her eyes flickered open slowly before shutting again. Her whole body was hurting and when she opened her eyes once more she felt the dash board tight against her legs.

"Oww…" Brooke winced in pain as she pushed her chair back having the dash board dig into her leg the whole time moving, "God…" she growled placing her hand to her head pulling back to see a small steady stream of blood flow down, "Luke?" she called looking over not to see him next to her, "Lucas!" she called again sliding of her seat trying to open up her jammed door, "Damn it!" she cursed slamming her body over and over into it before pulling herself out of the broken window.

Standing up out of the car she felt all the glass fall from her body and her wrist getting a shot of pain."Lucas!" she called again looking through the dark rainy night.

"Miss are you all ok?" she heard someone call and turned to look up at a man standing on the road.

"I...I don't know…I can't find him, why can't I find him?" she begged the man at the top of the hill to tell her.

"The ambulance is on its way. My wife called; are you hurt?"

"I can't find him…" she mumbled to herself as she walked around the car, "Lucas!" she called as tears burned in her eyes.

"Sweetie why don't you come up the hill!" she heard what she guessed was the wife called but they didn't get it. She couldn't come up the hill she needed him, she needed to find him.

"I can't..." she again mumbled to herself not even sure the people heard her.

"I will come down and get you." the man called as he started to slowly make his way down the muddy incline. "Are you ok?" he asked again reaching her.

"No my head…my head and wrist hurts…" she tells him as her eyes move through the dark night, "Where is he? Is he up there with you?" she asked the man with wide eyes begging for him to tell her he was up there.

"Who? Who are you looking for?"

"It's his car. I mean I was in his car. He wouldn't leave me there. He wouldn't leave me." she kept repeating as he helped her up the hill.

"Oh my god!" she heard the woman yell and Brooke's head jerked up to see a figure in the road laying completely still.

"Lucas!!" she screamed taking off towards him ignoring the calls of the man and woman calling her back. Telling her she needed to not see whatever she was about to see. Yet she ignored it, she ignored all of it as her body fell down next to him, "Lucas wake up!" she cried running her hand over his cut up face, "please wake up…baby please wake up!" she begged not sure if the water dripping from her face was tears or the rain, "Come on wake up! I need you please don't leave me I need you!" she cried trying desperately to stop the blood from his head to stop, "Broody wake up please. I love you…god I love you so much please don't leave me!" she whispered cradling his body against hers.

She heard a faint sound escape his mouth and she swears it was the best noise she has ever heard, "Luke…" she smiled some when his eye flickered open to look at her.

"Hey Pretty Girl." His voice cracked and she saw the pain as he moved some.

"God baby your ok…you're going to be ok I promise." She kept telling him running her hand over his face, "You're going to be ok..."

"You think…" he spoke swallowing hard for a second, "You think this gets you out of trouble for missing curfew." He chuckles a little then wincing in pain.

"Yeah Broody I think this definitely gets me out of trouble." She laughs a little leaning in kissing the top of his head as she heard the ambulance sirens.

"I love you." he whispers slowly reaching his shaking hand up to touch her cheek.

"I love you too." She cried out a little, "and I'm sure I will love you forever."

One day justice will come and find you
And I'll be right there in your memory to remind you

The 5 minutes of him not talking to her was probably the scariest moments of her life. Still to this day nothing has compared to the feeling she got that night on that hard wet ground. Yet even as scary as that was one thing that came from that scary night was Cam turned around. He got better, he freaked at the thought of losing his best friend and something changed. He was ok with them together; he was happy for them and soon turned into their biggest cheerleader you might say.

The necklace came a few weeks after she moved here. At first she had the small piece of metal on a silk black ribbon that she wore all the time. Lucas gave it to her at first just something saying how it was the two things he loved most. His car, and her and when she had this necklace she would always have his whole heart. She gave it back to him after she left. Then a few weeks after she got here came a package with not letter, no card no nothing just the small heart necklace and with the new engraving on the back.

'One Last Time.'

Why she still had it she didn't know, maybe it was because it was a piece of him she would always have, or may it was because she liked feeling she still had his whole heart or maybe it's just because at the end of the day she did have Lucas Scott's heart and as much as she can give it to Adam Lucas will always have a piece of hers. A piece she could never get back no matter how much she tried, not matter how much she begged for it back he would always have it and truth is even if she would never admit it to herself she doesn't

SO this chapter has taken forever to update and not only that but is so crappy and short. It is totally a filler and I just need it for an upcoming chapter which will be up so soon I promise!! I so totally promise!!

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