I wanna lay in your bed
Stare in your eyes
Feel your heart beating with mine
One Last Time...
One Last Time...

She didn't know what she was doing, nor what she was thinking, but here she was walking up the steps to the one thing she has been avoiding all week. She is leaving in the morning, she could have easily just gone back to her house crawl into her bed and wake up in the morning and be gone. She should be doing that but it's like she isn't in control of her body anymore. That even with her head yelling this is the biggest mistake coming here, her feet won't listen, her heart won't listen and with a shake hand she reach up tapping on the door to the place she never really wanted to come to again.

She hears the shuffle of feet and she knows it's him. It's late real late and he was probably asleep. He was probably lost in some dream world that for the last few months has been so much better than the reality hell they have both been in.

"What?!" he growled opening the door but just like every other time he sees her that growl and hard face softens. Those blue eyes seem to lighten up even if it's only for a second before dimming again. He does look tired and that makes her feel more then guilty again. Her brother told her he wasn't sleeping well, just wondered the apartment all night and that was clearly written all over his face. His eyes are heavy; his face is almost dead looking with two very dark circles under his eyes. His hair she loved to run her hands through was now going every way and his body that still seemed to burn for her touch was weighed down, like the whole world had crashed around him and the piece laid heavy on every part of him.

He just stood there staring at her clearly not expecting her to be on his doorstep when he heard the knock, yet at the same time more than happy to see her. He wanted to reach out and touch her, just to make sure she was there, was really in his doorstep but he held back the urge for fear she might not be there and wake up from another dream he wished was real.

So now he stood there studying her, studying her face, her body, everything just so when he woke up and she was gone, out of his life he would still be able to close his eyes and see her. She did look gorgeous, but then again when did she not. Her chocolate locks hung down, her eyes though seemed sad seemed to still have the sparkle in them they always do and when he saw her move shifting from one foot to the other he questioned his sanity on the fact she seemed more then real, she seemed more than just a dream.

Then it all became a reality that she was there when her perfect lips, her perfect lips he hadn't felt against his in what seemed like a lifetime just said one word, one simple word, "Hi…"

"Brooke…" Rachel said for about the millionth time since they have been sitting here, "Seriously when Adam is around you may not want to stare at your ex so much." She tells her and see's her best friend head jerk to look at her.

"What? I wasn't looking at him." Brooke protest but seeing both her friend shake their heads at her.

"Lie 1." Quinn said grabbing some sun tan lotion rubbing it on her arms and stomach.

"Guys really I wasn't I was just staring out into space and Lucas just happened to be in that line of viewing." She shrugged.

"Lie 2." Quinn says again handing the lotion to Rachel, "So instead of striking out with a third lie tell us what you are thinking? How you are feeling."

Brooke sits for a second staring out at the beach trying to not look at him but couldn't help it when her eyes locked onto him. "You know that awkward moment when you have a one night stand thinking you will never see them again and then all of a sudden you do?" she asked but keeping her eyes on Lucas as he laughed throwing the football with his friends and Clay.

"Umm…well we know that awkward moment…" Quinn says waving her hand between her and Rachel, "But how do you?"

"Oh my god Brooke did you sleep with Matt or Jason?!" Rachel freaked looking down at the boys then back at her best friend.

"What? No!" Brooke said quickly rolling her eyes. God her friends are dumb thinking she would ever sleep with one of the guys. Dating one of her brother's best friends was enough.

"Then what are you talking about?" Rachel asked really confused.

"Ok so for months I knew I was moving. And for month Lucas would show up at my house begging to fix us. Begging for me to give him a second chance and god I wanted too. Some days I honestly almost did because though I hate it I loved that boy so damn much." She frowns a little.

"We know you did Brookie." Rachel said in a soothing tone rubbing her friends back.

"It's just…it's just every time I would think about it I would just see him and her. Just see him in bed with her and touching her and god it made my skin crawl. I honestly got where I couldn't stand him touching me because it made me think of them." She says the last part with anger once again just thinking about it.

There won't be any tears
That's not why I'm here.
Baby, turn out the lights and lets disappear.
One Last Time...
One Last Time...

"So since you have a past relationship its weird?" Quinn questions.

"That and…" she trailed off looking back up at Lucas who just happens to look at her the same time. They hold each other gaze longer then both should until Cam throws the football. Lucas catches it then looks back at her but when he does she has turned back away.

"And what?"

"And maybe the fact we slept together the night before I left…" she cringes knowing both her friends were about to freak out on her.

"Brooke!!!" they both yell together and see she knew it.

"Hi…" he smiles a little not sure if he was supposed to let her in, or stand here, not sure if she came to see Cam or him. He knew she was leaving in the morning; of course he wanted to see her before she left but figured he was the last person she would ever want to see. "Cam isn't here. I mean I don't know if you are looking for him…" he kind of trailed off then all of a sudden realizing it was past one in the morning, "Wait its really late are you ok? Did your car break down or something because I know you may want Cam but I could look at it." he offered.

"Can I…can I just come in?" she asked.

"Yeah of course." He nodded moving to the side so she could walk in before shutting the door. She just stood there for a moment, not moving not speaking just standing there and as she stood there, there was only one thing she wanted to do so she did it.

As wrong as it was, as truly wrong she walked up pushing her lips against his. She felt the shock in his kiss but quickly joined placing both his hands on her cheeks stumbling back against the wall. His tongue darted into her mouth missing her taste more than he ever thought. She tasted just she always did, her lips felt just as they always felt but in the same it was the most amazing feeling he felt. Pulling away still holding on to her cheeks leaning his forehead against hers they both stood still, hearts racing, breathing heavy.

"This is goodbye." Brooke whispers to him and sees his eyes clench tight at her words, "One last time."

"Brooke I…" he starts but she just places her finger to his lips silencing him.

"One last time." she repeats and after a long pause him slowly nodding yes whispering back, "One last time."

"Look I don't know what happened ok. I don't know why I went over I know I shouldn't have but I don't know I couldn't leave not seeing him. So I went over and I didn't plan it, I mean going over there it wasn't to sleep with him. It was like closure I thought or something. Like I don't know all ya'll talk about break up sex I guess that was ours."

"Brooke you and Lucas can never and I repeat never have break up sex!" Rachel yells.

"Why? You have told me about the guys you have dated and had break up sex why can't me and Lucas?"

"Because you are Brooke and Lucas!" Rachel said like it was so obvious, "Brooke the guys I had break up sex with or whatever you want to call it I never loved. I never missed them or wanted them back. Do you honestly think for a second if me and Cam broke up I would ever do that with him?"

"I don't know." Brooke shrugged shaking her head.

"No I wouldn't because I love him so much. I could see myself being with him forever and I know you saw that with you and Lucas. Say it was young love that it was nothing but it was. It was full of passion and need and want. It was all fighting for each other, fighting with each other and just being in love."

"Rachel I thought you hated Lucas?"

"I hated cheating Lucas." she told her because there was a major difference, "I loved the honest one. The one you changed from drinking all the time to going months without touching anything. I loved the person you made him become because you did change him for the better Brooke."

"We both changed for each other." She shrugged, "Do ya'll want to know the truth?" she asked and they both nod, "It wasn't break up sex, it wasn't closure. It was the fact I went months without him and I missed him. I missed him so much and I just needed to feel him. I need to feel the feeling I got by being with him just one more time."

I'm not here to fight
About who's wrong or right
I just want your kiss
I wanna feel just like this
One Last Time...
One Last Time...

"Brooke I…" Lucas paused as he laid on top of her. This was wrong, this wasn't right. Did he want to be with her? More than anything but he wasn't sure he could handle having her again after all this time just to lose her again.

"Please Lucas...don't say anything." She begged, "I don't want to fight about anything anymore. I just want…" she trails off cursing herself for feeling her eyes burn. She wasn't going to cry. It was pointless to cry over this.

"Just want what?" he asked brushing her hair out of her face, "Pretty Girl just tell me what you want. You know I will do anything you want." he promises her.

"Why can't this just be it?" she asks sniffing a little and pulling back in her tears, "Why can't we just be together one more time and it be over? I just want all this to be over Luke." Her voice cracks.

She sees the hurt spread across his face but he doesn't say anything about it. He buries his head above her shoulder and in his pillow kissing down on her shoulder gently before slowly sliding into her.

"Uhh…" she gasp almost forgetting this feeling of him, almost forgetting how his naked body felt against hers, and closed her eyes tight as they rocked together and him whispering, "I'll do whatever you want."

Your breath on my neck
I don't wanna forget the smell of your skin.
Touch me again.
One Last Time...

"Brooke I feel like that would just break you more. Even if you wanted it all, I feel like that night just crushed you a little more." Quinn told her honestly and Brooke nodded agreeing.

"I umm…" she paused taking in a deep breath and blinking a few times, "I thought that maybe it would happen but so much time had passed I wouldn't feel anything anymore. That I wouldn't feel hate, love, pain. That it would just be nothing, I would feel nothing."

"Did it work?" Rachel asked but knew it was a pointless question since her look told her all.

"Not even a little." Brooke told her as a single tear slipped down her cheek, "I should have known better. I mean its Lucas. I could never just have no strings attached sex with him and feel nothing. Plus he didn't do it right. He didn't play it right. He was supposed to just let me do it all and him be quiet and him not say anything. Not call me his Pretty Girl, or his baby or his anything. He wasn't supposed to kiss me like he was trying to convince me to stay and he wasn't supposed to…" her voice breaks and she shakes her head trying to get the memory out of her head, get the words out of her head.

"He wasn't supposed to what?" Quinn asked rubbing her back but Brooke kept shaking her head no not wanting to hear the words again.

Yet Rachel knew what was said. It was Lucas and Brooke so she knew he was going to say everything to keep her so he told her the one thing he knew would make her question everything, "He said he loved you."

Cause I'm not here to fight
About who's wrong or right
I just want your kiss
I want to feel just like this.
One Last Time...
One Last Time...

The whole apartment was silent. Unless you were in the room down the hall you wouldn't know that anyone was there. Yet even that room was quiet. There were small gasp but nothing like it normally was. Brooke never said his name, she never made a noise that she knew he loved hearing. She couldn't, if she felt the feeling build up in her throat she swallowed it, she bit down on his shoulder she did anything just not to release the sound.

She knew he knew she was doing it, she knew that he knew every time her nails racked down his back it was an inner moan of want for him, but she also knew he was trying anything he could to get it to escape her lips. His speed would increase as if he was about to hit his point but he would just slow down after sometime like he was begging his body to continue on forever. That his mind and heart knew this would be the last time he got to hold her, touch her, feel her and that those two things were trying to get his body to understand that.

He pulled back to look at her and gave her the look she was not wanting to see. She hated that look, well actually she loved that look but she didn't want to see it now, she didn't want to see it ever again. She turned her head away from him to avoid the look but he of course being him cupped her cheek turning her to look back at him before leaning back down and capturing her lips with his.

He kissed down her cheek stopping at her ear and she heard him swallow hard, she felt his hand shaking as it ran up her body and whispering, "I love you so much Pretty Girl" she felt her heart spend up as his movements went quicker and she knew it was almost over. He wasn't able to stop himself anymore and she felt his heart break when he hit his point.

A tear escaped her eyes as it slipped down her cheek both still staying still. She felt his nose graze over her ear and she swears she felt a small tear on his part drop on her shoulder, "Please…Please baby don't ever forget that."

"Lucas doesn't say I love you." Brooke tells them all, "He never says it to anyone. I was the first person he ever said it too and still he never over used it. I use to get this feeling…" she tells them swallowing hard again and giving up all hope of trying to stop her tears, "When he would say it I would feel this amazing feeling inside because I knew he meant it. I knew he would never say it unless he meant it and when Lucas stops feeling something he doesn't continue saying things because well he just doesn't." she shrugs, "So it just sucked that I knew he meant it. That after all that time he still felt it."

"Did you still feel it?" Quinn asked.

Brooke sat there no really having to think about the question and her answer because she knew the answer. She just had to figure out the way to get it out of her mouth without completely breaking and having her voice crack. Yet that part was way harder so she just bit her bottom trembling lip and nodded her head yes as she looked up at the boy in question.

"I'm going to ask you something Brooke." Rachel said knowing Brooke will hate her but having to ask, "You are going to hate me completely for asking. I know you are going to give me that look you give and I know that you will try to convince me otherwise but I need you to be honest. I need you to look inside yourself and just be honest."

"Alright I will be."

"You really love Adam right?" She questioned and wasn't really surprised that Brooke didn't even have to think about it.

"I love him Rachel. I love that boy so much." Brooke tells her honestly because that is true. She loves Adam so much. He is great to her, treats her right and really when she sees him her whole day is better. She kind of wishes he was here now since that would make the stupid tears stop.

"Ok I kind of guessed but the next thing I am going to ask will piss you off but I am going to ask anyway." Rachel tells her and Brooke sits there bracing herself for the question, "I know your biggest fear of getting back with Lucas all that time back was to get hurt again. That you couldn't trust him again and that he would cheat again. But I guess my question is if you could see the future and see that if you got back with him he would never hurt you again. He would never cheat again and he would seriously spend the rest of his life making things right for you just because you gave him that second chance, who would you be with then?"

Brooke was a little taken back from the question; she opened her mouth to say something but then closed it to think more. She really wasn't expecting that one. How could anyone really expect their best friend to throw that question at them. So she just choose to answer the best way she could, "I love Adam." She settled on.

"Yeah I know you do." Rachel nods knowing her best friend was avoiding her question completely but she knew Brooke had to be honest with it, "But what I don't know is if you love Lucas more."

Brooke laid next to him and felt his arms tight around her. She knew he fought most the night not wanting to go to sleep and she also knew that when she fell asleep first he probably just stared down at her. Watched her sleep. It was still early morning and she needed to get home because her plane would be leaving soon. She rolled back over in his arms and thanked everything her Lucas slept like a dead person.

Unless she woke him up unless she liked kicked him or on something he would stay out like I light. And for the first time she was thankful for that. Climbing out of his arms she pulled on her jeans and just because it was warmer and she loved it put in his old zip up black fleece jacket. It was always so warm, she never got why he never wore the thing and it was probably because it was a little too small for him or something. But for her it fit perfectly. It was really big on her but that's why she loved it.

She felt the tear slip out of her eye and down her cheek as she took her necklace from her jean pocket and flipping it in her hand rubbing the small piece of metal with her thumb and laying it on the night stand next to his phone.

Leaning over kissing softly on his cheek she gave a small broken hearted smile whispering, "Bye Broody." And then she left.

And then when you fall asleep
I'll kiss your cheek
Whisper goodnight
I'll just leave
One Last Time

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