So when I first heard this song I thought about writing this story. I don't know I thought it fit perfect and thought for a little while naming the story Breakeven but clearly I didn't hehe. But here is my new chapter and I hope my loves love it!
Also if you want to see the hotness which is Adam visit this link
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That is Brooke's boyfriend and personally I am so more for him then CMM well Lucas haha
So damn hot!
If it doesn't show up go to my profile and I'll put him up along with Cam, Jason and Matt
:D
Own nothing!
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
The smile that spread across Brooke's face when she woke up was inevitable. She was so happy, beyond happy and couldn't wait for the day to start. Today they were going to Adam's game, well she was she really didn't care what everyone else did. She missed her boyfriend even though it had only been a day since she saw him but still that was a long day not seeing the boy she loved.
Jumping out of her bed she skipped into the kitchen already finding the entire apartment up.
"Hello people I love." She smiled big as she started making herself a cup of coffee, "Isn't today perfect? I mean really this weather is gorgeous." She grinned looking out her window at the beach.
"Yeah Brookie it's nice." Matt agreed tossing a glance at Cam who just shrugged not getting his sister's skipping mood. Brooke maybe chipper 99% of the time but she normally isn't skipping, goofy smile, loving the weather chipper.
"You ok B?" Cam asked raising his eyebrow at his sister who spun around too look at him yet still with a giddy smile.
"Of course big brother why wouldn't I be?" She smiled more leaning up against this counter behind her sipping on her coffee.
"Well you are just extremely…" Cam trailed off trying to find the right word.
"Cheery." Lucas commented finishing his best friend's thought as he ate some of his breakfast.
"Well that's because it's a great day." Brooke shrugged not even noticing the nickname her ex gave her, not even gave her he has been calling her that since they met; "I mean why wouldn't I be happy on a great day like this. Did I mention the weather?"
"Yeah Brooke you mentioned the weather." Rachel shook her head as she stirred her spoon around her cereal, "So Brooke what you going to take us to do today?"
"Well my very best friend I am going to a certain baseball game today since my amazingly gorgeous boyfriend is playing." She informed them all missing the falling of a certain blondes face, "Now I would like you all to come but if you don't Cam has a key so go and come as your please." She shrugged finishing the last of her coffee.
"If you want us to go Brookie we will go." Jason smiled and Brooke gave a happy wink over at him glad he agreed.
"Well good. I have to leave in an hour so if you would like to all come please be ready." Brooke said placing her coffee cup in the sink reaching over the counter and grabbing a piece of bacon from Lucas's hand, "Thank you Broody." She popped it in her mouth as she skipped out again missing the look on his face.
'Broody' he thought, he hadn't heard that in awhile and it made him smile she called him that. Maybe they were making progress.
Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.
Brooke hummed along to the music as she drove down the road to Adam's game. She was going to text him earlier but knew their coach had this rule where the night before games they had to have their phones off to be ready and focused. Now of course Adam broke the rule some nights and text her or called to tell her goodnight but last night she didn't get to talk to him. She really hadn't seen him since everyone got here and she hated it.
His school had made him busier then she liked and his ball practice wasn't helping but today was going to be perfect. She was going to watch him play, then he was going to come to the pool with her and everyone and then just the two of them were going out to dinner.
Today she didn't care what anyone else wanted to do because today was their day.
"Hello?" Brooke sung happily into her phone, "Hey Quinn!" She smiled even more talking to her roommate.
"You think she is going to be this overly excited the whole time we are here?" Cam whispered to his best friends as they sat in the back.
"I don't mind. I think it's cute." Lucas smiled as he glanced back up at the driver's seat hearing Brooke laugh at something Quinn was telling her.
"Luke she could be cussing out orphans and you would still think it's cute." Jason rolled his eyes since everyone knew no matter what Brooke did; Lucas would smile at. He would agree with anything she did just for the hope of getting her back, well at least her friendship.
"Dude shut up." Lucas said punching him in the arm getting a laugh from the back of the car.
"God Luke this trip is either going to be the best thing for you or the worst." Matt shook his head falling back in his seat as Lucas looked back up at the front of the car not letting him know he agreed completely.
"Yes sweetie I will be there soon. I am actually pulling into the parking lot now." Brooke said hitting her left blinker so she could turn.
"Good because they are warming up and I am bored. Plus you will not guess who is here?" Quinn said.
"Do I want to know?"
"Probably not. It's a short blonde with a new bob hair cut and just happened to call a certain Adam Hamilton at one point boyfriend." Quinn told her rolling her eyes at the skank trying to talk to the clearly not caring Adam.
"That slut!" Brooke yelled getting everyone to turn and look at her, "Sorry not talking about any of ya'll." She apologized waving her head and everyone just slowly nodded an ok, "What is she doing there? Doesn't she know today is mine and his day!?"
'Mine and his day' Lucas mouthed to Matt who shrugged not knowing either what that meant.
"I think she does hence why she is here. God Brooke please hurry she is walking over to me, love you bye." Quinn said quickly into the phone as the skank walked over, "Hi Kender." She miss spoke her name.
Brooke hung up with a laugh as she heard her correct Quinn saying Kimber. Quinn actually hated her almost more than Brooke because after she and Adam got together Kimber threw herself at Clay, while he was dating Quinn.
"Brooke you ok?" Lucas asked as she slammed her phone in the cup holder.
"What is wrong with blonde skanks!? I mean really I do not see the appeal at all for a skinny short skank with twig legs and stupid haircuts." She growled not getting why Kimber was at her boyfriend's game. She wasn't dating anyone on the team so she shouldn't be there.
"I don't know. Luke what is the appeal of blonde skanks?" Rachel smirked looking at him burn holes in her from the back seat.
"Rachel…" Cam warned but all were surprised when Brooke jumped in.
"Ok Rachel I love you but I don't want past being brought up. The past is the past and we all have moved on." Brooke said wanting to lay the cards out on the table now before she was around Adam because she didn't want her past with Lucas being brought up around him, she didn't want to remind him of the little fact her ex was staying with her.
Lucas wasn't sure if he should smile at that comment or frown. Now of course the fact he didn't have to hear about Rachel's little comment made him want to smile big but then the fact Brooke said they had moved on, now that one sucked.
"But again back to my point!" Brooke freaked again changing her mood quick again, "She is not his anymore! He is mine and here she goes just showing up in his face again."
"Brooke none of us have a clue what you're talking about." Matt laughed a little.
"Adam's ex!" She snapped like they should know that, "I mean she is his ex meaning she doesn't need to be around. She just needs to disappear because once you break up that's what happens. You don't loom around while the person he loves isn't around! Why would he let her come?"
"Brooke I'm not trying to overstep because I don't really know Adam at all but don't you think maybe he didn't invite her?" Cam tried to reason knowing his sister jumped to her boyfriend cheating right away now since Lucas. He honestly still hated his best friend a little for doing that to his sister. Yeah they fixed their relationship but it wasn't easy. Especially when Cam first found out.
Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
"Lucas!" Cam slammed the front door of his apartment as he threw his stuff down looking for said roommate and supposed to be best friend. He searched his entire apartment for the blonde finding him laying face down on his bed beer bottles scattered along the floor, "You bastard!" he yelled yanking him from his bed not letting him speak as he reared back punching him in the face.
Cam has never been violent in his whole 23 years. He has only struck two people his whole life. One being a guy in high school and two being his best friend, both of the times were because of his sister. He beat some kid up in high school for grabbing his little sister's butt and then the time he found out about his best friend and little sister and again now.
"How could you do that to her!?" he screamed punching his friend again, "She is my little sister! She is my little sister and she loves you sorry ass!" he reminded him as his fist connected with him again, "You crushed her; you cheated on my baby sister! You son of a bitch!" he yelled pulling back to hit him again yet when he did he stopped, "Why aren't you fighting back?" he asked knowing his best friend, knowing his temper and knowing even when he is wrong he doesn't let people hit him.
"Get off me." Was all he growled shoving his friend back as he got off his bed face swollen, blood coming from his lip and dragging his feet into his kitchen.
"What is wrong with you!?" Cam demanded to know as he followed him seeing his friend open the fridge pulling out another beer, "Don't you think alcohol has screwed things up enough?"
"Doesn't matter now does it!?" Lucas threw his hands in the air stumbling back as he did, "Doesn't matter what I drink. Doesn't matter anything because she is gone!" he yelled looking at the beer in his hand before taking it throwing it at the wall smashing just above his best friend's head, "I tried calling her!" he slurred, "I called over and over and over and she wouldn't answer!"
"So that makes it ok to cheat on her!?"
"No!" Lucas yelled, "I left message after message but did she call me back? Nope." He shook his head, "So I went out. I went out got drunk and it happened. Do I wish it didn't?! Every second of every fucking day but I can't change it!" he screamed walking over to his roommate, "So hit me." He asked standing in front of him, "Hit me!" he yelled and Cam did as he asked pulling back punching him again, "Doesn't even hurt." Lucas shrugged pushing past him towards his bedroom.
"Did you even love her?" Cam yelled and saw Lucas freeze at his bedroom door before turning to look at him, "Because even if you were drunk I don't see how if you loved her you would ever cheat!"
Cam was more than sure he had never seen the pure hate he saw in his friend's eyes as he made his way towards him and before he could stop him punching him, "I maybe a piece of shit and I may have never deserved her but don't you ever tell me I didn't love her!!"
"Well cheating is a clear sign." Cam challenged and stepped towards his friend again.
"Stop." They both heard a broken voice call turning to see a very emotional looking Brooke. Her hair was in a pony tail, eyes still red and puffy; she had on long gym pants with a plain white t-shirt on. She looked like a mess to Cam as he saw a mixture of pissed off and hurt in her eyes, yet to Lucas she looked beautiful.
"Brooke…" Lucas's lips pulled into a small smile as he took a step towards her yet she just stepped back waving her hand at him to stop.
"Cameron I told you not to do that!" she hissed looking at her ex's face, "I told you to leave it alone!" She knew as soon as her brother found out it would be bad, she knew it was going to end like this. That is why she came by when Rachel's told her but clearly she got here a little late.
"Brooke he deserved it! He-"
"I know what he did Cam." She growled not needing to hear it again, "Trust me I know. I saw it." She whispered the last part to herself closing her eyes cursing when she saw it all over again.
"Pretty Girl.." Lucas whispered reaching for her hating she was in pain. Hating he hurt her.
"Don't…don't call me that." She growled a little not wanting to hear it, not wanting to hear anything he really had to say, "Let's just…let's get you cleaned up. Cam get some stuff and go home."
"No! This is my place too and just because he was a drunken ass doesn't mean I have to leave!"
"Cameron!" Brooke growled not in the mood to argue with anyone, "He has nowhere else to go ok! And I know you two can't be stuck in this place alone together so get some damn stuff and go!" She snapped, "Please."
"Fine." Cam agreed seeing in his sister's face arguing with him was the last thing she wanted to be doing, hell cleaning up Lucas was probably the last thing she wanted to doing right along with being here. He knew she only came here to stop him from doing something stupid, so he also knew being here was not what she wanted to be doing.
"Lucas come on." Brooke shook her head at him exhausted as she grabbed his wrist and started to his bathroom hating when he slide his hand up and laced his fingers through hers.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
"I don't know." Brooke shrugged as she put the car in park and everyone got out and started to head towards the fields.
"Brooke." Lucas called reaching for her hand to look at him and it scared him when she jumped from him, "Sorry…"
"No I'm sorry." She apologized running her hand through her hair shaking her head at herself for being so dumb, "I didn't mean to jump; I just…"
"Brooke…" He stopped her, "The last person you ever have to explain that to is me. I understand."
"Yeah…" She whispered laying her hand on his as he laced his fingers through hers, "I did miss you Luke." She confessed without even thinking after a small silence fell between them.
"I missed you too Pretty Girl." He gave a small smile brushing her hair behind her ear, her closing her eyes and holding her breath as he did, "Trust him Brooke." He whispered and she slowly nodded knowing he was right, "I mean if he can handle the person he loves under the same roof as her ex you should be ok at a crowded ballpark."
"I know but you haven't seen this girl Luke. She-"
"Doesn't hold a candle to you." He again interrupted her loving when she smiled, "Brooke I don't need to see this girl to know she doesn't for a second compare to you. Adam seems like a good guy," he said hating admitting it but knowing all he wanted was for her to be happy and it killed him it was not with him but he could tell Adam made her happy, "He isn't going to hurt you."
"Yeah but I have had a really great guy hurt me before." She told him again cursing herself for being so honest with him, for always just telling him what she was feeling, what she was thinking.
"Nothing about me was great Brooke."
"There is plenty great Luke. I just wasn't the one to make you see that." She offered a small smile leaning up on her tip toes kissing the side of his cheek letting her face rest against his for a second remembering what it felt like. Remembering what it felt to have his hand placed on her hip and his breathing against her cheek, the way he smelled, the way it felt to be in his arms yet again, "Don't be afraid to open your heart up again Lucas." She whispered and felt him nod.
"You don't be either Brooke." He whispered back placing a gentle kiss to her temple taking in the sweet smell of strawberries. He felt her nod against his face and he just prayed she would open up. He hated to think he was the cause for someone as perfect and amazing as Brooke to never find love again, to never open her heart to it.
Brooke hesitated a second from pulling away from him. She didn't know why she did but she just wanted to remember what it felt like a little longer until she heard her best friend calling her.
"Brooke come on!" Rachel called not knowing what was happening between the two ex lovers but knowing when it came to Lucas Brooke had way too much of a soft spot.
"I'll umm…" Brooke pulled away from Lucas and he nodded knowing what she was thinking.
"Yeah go ahead." He offered a smile releasing his hands from her hips and it bothered Brooke how her body seemed to miss his touch.
"Yeah." Brooke nodded walking away knowing his eyes were on her the whole way she walked.
"Ok what the hell was that?" Rachel asked as soon as the brunette got next to her.
"What was what?" Brooke played dumb as Rachel looped her arm through Brooke's.
"What was that with Lucas, Brooke?" She asked a little annoyed Brooke was trying to act like it was nothing.
"Rachel I was just talking to him it was nothing I swear." Brooke rolled her eyes not sure she was trying to convince herself of that little fact or her best friend. But even not knowing the answer for real still tossing a glance behind her at her ex who was walking behind her, "I need to find my boyfriend."
"Luke what was that?" Matt questioned as they all waited for their friend who took a little too long to say something to a certain ex.
"Nothing man." He shrugged and they all gave him a look that gave him a cold chill, "We were just talking. Do you honestly expect me to be down here for the summer and never talk to her?"
"Just depends on what you were talking about." Cam shrugged not wanting Lucas to hurt his sister yet again.
"Nothing you need to worry about ok." Lucas told them somewhat annoyed they were being so dumb. He wasn't going to hurt her again, he wasn't going to do anything to hurt her and if he wanted to talk to her he would, well if she allowed it. Yet then he smiled a little, ok a lot when he saw her walking a few steps ahead of them and tossing a glance over her shoulder at him. He wanted to say it was but he couldn't and he knew she couldn't either because they both knew there was definitely something still there, they were definitely not over fully yet.
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
"Please kill me." Quinn begged her boyfriend, "Please just real quick shoot me in the head because if she talks to me one more time I will shoot her."
"Baby she isn't that bad." Clay laughed shaking his head at his girlfriend's dramatics.
"She isn't that bad?" Quinn asked almost in disbelief, "Clay she threw herself at you when I wasn't around and then when she found out Adam moved on with Brooke he came home to her on his bed in pretty much nothing! That girl is a skank!"
"That I all agree with but she isn't that bad to me because I am not worried about it. Adam and I both know we are not going to do anything with her because we have you and Brooke. You and her are the ones who get so bothered about it."
"Adam stop!" Quinn heard Kimber giggle the most annoying noise she has ever heard looking up to see her talking to Adam. Adam was of course looking all around for who Quinn was sure his girlfriend and Kimber was clearly not getting the hint.
"There she is." Quinn smiled looking up to see her best friend along with the rest of the crew making their way over to them, "Adam!" She yelled as he looked up at her giving her a help me look that made her laugh, "Your girlfriend is here." She called nodding her head towards the brunette who was skipping over to them.
"Thank you." He smiled not even saying anything to Kimber as he started towards her.
"That boy looks amazingly fine in a uniform." Rachel whispered to Brooke not wanting her boyfriend to hear.
"I know it's like that body was made for a uniform." Brooke agreed, "Boyfriend!" She squealed when he got close enough jumping up in his arms wrapping her legs tight around him and kissing hard on the mouth.
"One step forward ten steps back." Jason slapped Lucas on the back who mumbled a 'yeah' agreeing. Yet not admitting the pain that shot through his chest. Seeing Brooke with someone else was definitely going to take a lot to get use too.
"I missed you." Brooke breathed out between kisses truly missing her boyfriend the last days.
"It was only a day." Adam laughed pulling away from their kisses her still in his arms.
"Do you know how long a day is in Brooke time?" She told him tilting her head to the side with a smile.
"I can't say I do but I am guess forever." He said exaggerating the word forever.
"Exactly." She nodded kissing him again completely getting lost in their kiss until she heard someone clear their throat. Turning to see her brother who got a smack from his girlfriend and a death glare, "Sorry." Brooke mumbled slipping down her boyfriend's body to stand on her own.
"Hey everyone." Adam gave a small wave and they all offered a hi.
"Ok you said hi to them but do you know what today is?" Brooke asked pulling him back to her attention.
"Umm…Tuesday." Adam said playing dumb.
"No!" Brooke rolled her eyes.
"Oh is it not Tuesday? I was pretty sure it was." he teased get a laugh from everyone and actually even a small smile from Lucas.
"Adam." Brooke pouted crossing her arms over her chest.
"Here she goes." Lucas mumbled to his best friend knowing that look all too well. It's the pouting, I want to get my way, please let me get my way and please don't tease me look. She use to give him that look all the time.
"Oh Tuesday." Adam said like he just got I smacking his hand to his head, "Like I don't know maybe my anniversary to my gorgeous girlfriend Tuesday." He smiled reaching into his back pocket.
"It is that Tuesday." Brooke smiled like a child twisting her body side to side.
Lucas was pretty sure he just broke a little more. He wasn't even sure why he came on this damn trip because this was all slowly killing him. He wanted her happy he did, but was it selfish he wanted her happy with him? That hearing her going all giggly over her anniversary to her new boyfriend literally made him ill feeling. Was all he feeling wrong?
"Well I got you something but since I didn't wrap it I don't think I can give it to you." Adam shrugged keeping his hand closed behind his back.
"No!" Brooke freaked not caring if it was wrapped or not, "Please give it now please please please!" she begged.
"Only if you can pick the right hand." He teased with both hands behind his back.
"Hmm…" she pondered her choice tapping her chin, "Well I would say your right hand since you are right handed, but…I know you keep your stuff in your left pocket so you can sit so I say that one." She decided pointing at his left hand and eyes grew big when he pulled out the most gorgeous piece of jewelry her eyes have ever lead eyes on.
"Right answer." He smiled loving the look on her face.
"Adam…" Brooke said looking at the ring that was lying in the palm of his hand. It was a pear shaped faint pink diamond with a silver band and two small diamonds on either side of the pink one.
"Holy shit is that a-" Rachel stopped looking over her friends shoulder at the gift in his hand; then tossing a glance at Lucas who had his hand in his pocket and looking down away from them. She was pretty much positive she just heard a heart completely shatter.
"It's a promise ring." Adam said quickly seeing his girlfriend relax at that, "My grandfather gave it to my grandmother on their one year anniversary. Now I know this is only our ten months but he promised that no matter what he was going to take care of her. That she would be his forever and he would never cause her any pain." He said the last part tossing a glance over at the guy behind his girlfriend then back to said girlfriend, "So I thought I would promise the same. Do you like it?"
"Yes!" Brooke agreed quickly grabbing it and putting it on her finger, "Oh my god its perfect!" she grinned a mile long hugging him tight, "I love you so much." She whispered kissing the side of his head then along his face until she reached his lips.
"I love you too." Adam smiled in their kiss, "Who would have thought when you first turned me down we would have been together 10 months." He teased pulling out of their hug.
"Shut up." She laughed pushing him some but still looking at her finger, "Come on I have to show Quinn!" she told him grabbing his hand and taking off.
'10 months,' Lucas shook his head. They had been together longer than that. They had been together a year, well they would have been together a year.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
"Damn it." Brooke cursed as she tried to open some rubbing alcohol to clean up Lucas's face. Cam really did a number to it.
"Do you know what today is?" Lucas asked knowing it was dumb since he knew she knew.
"Thursday." She mumbled lifting her shirt up some to twist the lid, "I swear they make these things so people can't open them." She growled more to herself then him.
"Brooke…" he took her hand in his and pulled her close to him as he sat on his bed.
"Lucas stop." She begged but it was almost like she was begging him not to. Like she was saying it because it was what she was supposed to say not what she really wanted.
"It's a year today Brooke." He whispered placing her hand on his chest.
"No…" she shook her head pulling her hand away, "It would have been. We aren't together it's not anymore."
"Please don't leave me." he begged like a child grabbing the side of her shirt pulling her towards him, "Please Brooke, please don't leave me." he clung to her, to her shirt resting his head against her stomach.
"Luke…" her voice cracked as once again her vision blurred with tears wrapping her hands around his head.
"I don't work without you. I don't know to do anything without you." He cried into her stomach and it even shocked Brooke when she felt her shirt become wet with his tears. She has never in her life seen him cry, she didn't even know if he knew how to cry.
"Lucas…" her heart broke a little more as he pulled his face from buried in her stomach and started to kiss up her body, over her clothes until reaching her lips and before she could stop him, he kissed her. She knew she should be fighting him of but it's like when her hands pushed against his chest he just grabbed her wrists yanking her body into him.
"I love you." he mumbled against her lips pulling her down on the bed with him, "I love you so much and I know you love me." he told her but not removing his lips from hers almost scared what would happen if he did.
"Lucas…" She whimpered as tears slipped out of the corner of her eye onto his bed.
"Please tell me you love me." He begged running his hand up her side and under her shirt grabbing onto her side, "Please say it."
"Don't make me." she cried not wanting to admit it. Not wanting to tell him she still loves him. She shouldn't love him, he cheated on her. He broke her. Yet then it hit her where she was. She was on his bed. The bed not a few days ago he was with someone else in, "No." She pushed him off her and got up fixing her shirt.
"Pretty Girl." He reached for her hand but when he did she just spun back around slapping him right across the face.
"Don't…" she choked on her words not believing she just hit him, "Don't call me that." she whispered placing her hand over her mouth as he sat still on his bed looking away from her, "This isn't my fault!" she yelled at him, "I didn't do any of this! I didn't want any of this to happen and I didn't want to see it! God damn it!" she cried wiping her nose with the back of her hand, " Why couldn't you have just passed out or something?" she asked giving a small shrug shaking her head.
"I don't know." He whispered knowing nothing he said mattered anymore.
"I loved you Lucas! God damn it I loved you so much and gave everything I had to you! I gave you everything that is me too you!" she screamed shoving him some, "I picked you over my own brother! Someone who has been there for me my whole entire life!"
"I know." he nodded reaching for her again yet when he did she once again slapped him making him again look away from her.
"And look what I got out of it. I gave you everything and you cheated on me! You claim you loved me but you cheated on me! Do you even know how to love someone?!"
"Don't!" he yelled back jumping off the bed grabbing onto her wrist so she couldn't hit him again.
"Let go of me!" she wiggled in his grasp but he didn't listen.
"Don't you ever tell me I didn't love you! I still love you!" he yelled in her face making her flinch at his tone "I messed up ok! I will tell you I will tell everyone this is my fault! I am losing everything here!" he screamed and she slowly stopped trying to get away from him, "I lost my best friend! He would prefer kicking my ass then talk to me. Matt hasn't talked to me all week and Jason talks to me but the whole time just talks about how I messed up! Then to add to all that, add to the loss of all my friends and possible even the place I live I am loosing you! You don't get what it's like. You have your family, your friends, and your brother. You have everyone! I have no one!"
"That's not true." She whispered and he looks at her confused, "You have the bar slut." She hissed coldly at him yanking her hands away, "Don't try to make me feel guilty. Don't try to make me regret ending this. The only thing I really regret is ever giving myself to you." she growled through a tight jaw as she grabbed her purse to leave.
"You don't mean that." he said as she started out of his room pausing at the door trying to swallow any guilt that might be creeping up before talking to him again.
"Get yourself together Lucas. I'm only saying this for the people who have to deal with you. Get up, go to class; take a shower." She told him shaking her head at how almost pathetic he looked sitting there, "And for the love of god stop drinking."
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
"I am so hoping this guy completely sucks." Lucas mumbled over to Matt who let out a laugh shoving him some as they sat on the bleachers.
"What happened to the whole trying to be her friend, trying to make sure she gets what makes her happy?" Matt asked raising his eyebrow at his best friend who scuffed at him.
"I may want her happy but I am still me." Lucas reminded him and Matt shook his head at his best friend.
"You want her back don't you?" Matt questioned already knowing the answer just wanting his best friend to confirm it. To admit it.
"Yes." Lucas admitted in a low whisper looking down almost as if he was ashamed.
"Luke man." Matt threw his head back.
"I'm not going to do anything about it." He told him quickly, "I can't help if I still love her ok."
"No you can't but you can help what you do about it. She is happy Luke. I mean look at her." He threw his hand out to where Brooke was standing with everyone else going all stupid over her little gift from Adam, "She is happy don't ruin that for her. Don't come here and complicate her life."
"I'm not doing any of that ok!" Lucas snapped annoyed, "I said I wasn't going to act on my feelings. God why don't you believe that? Why doesn't anyone believe that?"
"Because you are still you." He repeated the words Luca just used a few minutes ago, "She is over it Luke. She is over ya'll and I'm sorry if it hurts you-"
"She isn't over it." Lucas interrupted and Matt gave him a confused look.
"Lucas tell me you didn't already try something?"
"No I didn't ok. I didn't but we have moments alright. And I know how lame and dumb that sounds but we do have them and it proves we aren't done. She isn't completely over me. I know Brooke, I know her better than anyone and I know the look she gives me ok."
"Luke you have to let her go." Matt sighed feeling so bad for hurting his friend but knowing he needed to hear it, "Yes ok maybe there is a part of her that will always love you maybe not even love but feel something but it may just be all the things ya'll went through. You are the first guy she ever loved, the first guy she ever slept with and for girls that shit is just always there. They take that as a big deal. You are always going to be there for her Lucas but you can't use that against her."
"I'm not! I wouldn't!"
"Good because I haven't seen Brooke smile this much in a long time and I don't want her hurt again."
"Well then you should give that speech to Adam because I am never going to hurt her again." he told him letting him know and prepared to let anyone else know that is questioning him that he isn't going to do it again. If Brooke gave him the chance, even if it was just as a friendship but if she did he was never going to hurt her. He was never going to ruin things for her, "Matt she was the best thing that has ever happened to me."
"I know she was." Matt nodded since he was pretty much positive he never saw his best friend as happy as he was when Brooke was around. Even before he knew about them he saw something on his face that lite up when she walked into the room. He actually felt stupid he didn't realize it sooner.
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
"Luke man why are you so fidgety?" Jason questioned noticing since they got to the café he has not stopped moving. Every time the bell above the door went off his head jerked to see who entered. Plus he was smiling like an idiot and texting like crazy on his phone.
"Fidgety? What? I'm not fidgety." Lucas shook his head at them. Ok so maybe he was looking like an idiot, smiling like an idiot but he couldn't help it. Brooke was going to be here soon and he wanted to see her. He hadn't seen her all weekend and it made him nervous a little. He wasn't sure why but he just didn't want her to feel like he slept with her and wasn't going to be there anymore.
"Well I mean you're a little fidgety." Matt teased and Lucas rolled his eyes but then like an idiot smiles when the door jingles and in walks the person he had wanted to see.
"Sorry we are late Cam was once again fighting with Rachel." Brooke rolled her eyes not getting why he brother didn't just admit he was wrong because he was wrong, "Hey guys." She said to each and biting her bottom lip as her eyes wandered over to her boyfriend.
"Hey Brooke." They all greeted with a wave.
"Hey." Lucas smiled pulling out the chair next to him everyone missing the smile etched on his face as she slid into the offered chair.
"Hey Luke." She smiled at him, starring a little too long before turning back to the table of friends.
"So what were ya 'll fighting about?" Matt asked but looked away from his friend long enough to see a certain brunette at the table giving a smile to a certain friend of his who just gave her a shrug making her roll her eyes. He turned to look back at his best friend who was explaining his fight with his girlfriend but couldn't help but still cut his eyes ever so often at the other two.
Brooke almost slapped her boyfriend when his hand rubbed up her thigh tracing circles on the inside. However when she cut her eyes over at him he shrugged. He shrugged! Did he not know how serious this was, he brother was right there. Her brother could catch them and the fact his hand would creep up so high under her skirt so she felt his finger graze between her legs making her whole body shudder was not helping.
"I need to go to the bathroom." Brooke jumped up making his hand fall and him let out a laugh, "I will be right back." she said glaring at her boyfriend before walking away.
"So…" Lucas picked up his drink taking a sip, "Now what was it about that fight?"
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryin' make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.
"Its just hard that's all." Lucas sighed running his hand through his hair.
"I know it's hard but you have to figure it out. I mean at least do it for Brooke. If you love her still like you say you do just try and let her go." Matt said patting his friend on the back as he got up walking over to his friends.
Lucas sat looking out away from everyone. This was what he chose. How could he be upset with Brooke being happy and just acting like a girlfriend would with her boyfriend when he lost her. It was his fault he lost her and it was his fault she was with Adam but a part wondered if that was how they were. If he and her were so over the love touchy top like her and Adam or if she was just doing it as almost punishment to him.
"Luke…" He heard a familiar voice say almost sounding like it felt bad as he turned to see her sit down next to him.
"Hey…" He offered a smile before turning back to look at the field.
"You ok? I mean with the whole gift thing."
"I'm fine Rach." He lied and knew she knew it was a lie he was far from fine.
"Lucas I know you're not fine and I know it hurt. I mean…" Rachel trailed off not wanting to bring it all up. Of course she gave him a hard time and of course she hated him for hurting her best friend but she also saw his face. She saw how he looked like someone punched him right in the chest. She was almost positive when that ring came out the wind got knocked out of Lucas.
"It doesn't matter. That's over with." Lucas shook his head not wanting to think about it, "I thought you would love this." he gave a dry laugh.
"Well you know." Rachel teased brushing her hair over her shoulder, "You know I hate you for hurting her right?" She question and he just nodded, "But I did know you before I met Brooke. We were friends before and hell we were friends before I met Cam and being so you know I love you."
"Yeah I love you too Rach." He nodded. Rachel and him have known each other for years. They met in high school and then when to the same college where he introduced her to Cam. One spring break Cam and Rachel went with Matt and Jason and someone he just knew as 'Cam's little sister' to California however he had to stay home with his mom. Next thing he knew Rachel came home not just tan but with a brand new best friend. It was about another 2 months before he met a taken Brooke and it was about 7 months before he actually got to date her. He and Rachel had been though a lot since high school and it almost hurt as much losing her friendship as it did Cam's.
"I'm sorry." She apologized placing her hand on his leg, "As much as I want to hate you for hurting her I also know that in the last 3 years I have had an amazing boyfriend but we have had our share of break ups."
"I know all about your break ups." Lucas laughed since the night he finally confessed his feelings to Brooke was one of their break ups. Cam drank so much that night Lucas was pretty much sure he didn't remember any of that night.
"Yeah well in one of our break ups he started seeing someone else. It was just one date and he brought her to eat at a place he knew I always went to and I don't know when I saw them together it killed me. Hell all they were doing was eating and I felt like someone had seriously killed me. And honestly I don't know what I would have felt like if they were doing other things." She told him looking over and literally seeing all the pain in his eyes, "I don't know how I would feel seeing him kissing someone else, hugging someone else telling someone else they love them. I really don't know how I would handle walking in on what you walked in on the other day."
"I deserve it all." He shrugged, "It may hurt like hell and trust me it does. Just the thought of him touching her and…" he trailed off not really wanting to think about what they were doing the other night, not wanting to picture it, "But I deserve it. I want to think this is just how she is. That this is just how they are and she isn't doing it to like hurt me or something."
"Yeah I know." Rachel nodded not really sure if she though Brooke was exaggerating her relationship with Adam or not. Yeah her and Lucas were like this, hell in her opinion she thought they were a little worse but she really wasn't sure what Brooke was doing, "It will get better I promise."
"I'm holding you too it." Lucas finally cracked a smile bumping his shoulder into hers.
"Yeah." Rachel laughed standing up, "I need to pee I'll be back in a few." She climbed off the bleachers, "I will return."
"Alright." Lucas laughed as she walked off.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.
"And it's just the prettiest thing ever!" Brooke once again squealed about her ring as she stood with her boyfriend and all her friends.
"It is the prettiest thing ever." Cam teased mocking his sister's squeal and getting a laugh from everyone but a slap from his sister.
"Shut up I just love it." She pouted looking at it as it sparkled in the sun.
"Well I am glad I did good." Adam smiled wrapping his arms around his girlfriend's waist from behind. He was not only happy he made Brooke happy but he was happy that he was getting along with everyone. They all seemed cool and though Lucas wasn't his favorite person he hated to admit the guy was cool with him. He was just happy that he got to know this part of her life.
"You did very good." She smiled spinning in his arms kissing him then pulling him into a hug. She was happy really happy and it slightly pissed her off when she was hugging her boyfriend she saw Lucas. They locked eyes like they always do when they are around each other she saw the pain across his face. He offered her a small smile that she tried to return but she knew it was forced. It was completely fake, "I'm going to run to the bathroom real quick and be back in just a few." She told them giving her boyfriend a peck as she walked off.
"Brooke." She heard behind her growling when she turned to see the last person she wanted to see.
"Kimber hi." She once again forced a smile. She really hated this girl.
"Hey girl how are you?" she asked pulling Brooke into an awkward hug.
"Great. Today is mine and Adam's anniversary. Look what he got me." Brooke smiled proudly shoving her hand in Kimber's face. Brooke didn't want to be mean, she really didn't but she hated that this girl was all over her boyfriend all the time. It was ridiculous that when Brooke wasn't around, hell even when she was Kimber would do what she could to get Adam's attention and it annoyed her.
"Very pretty." Kimber obvious lied. Not that Brooke didn't think she thought it was pretty more of the fact she was completely jealous and pissed.
"I know."
"Well I am happy for you two. But you know I was thinking we should all go out to dinner. You know the whole group. You and Adam, Clay and Quinn and me, we all haven't hung out in forever." She whined a little and Brooke just looked at her really wondering if she thought of them as 'a group'.
"Well actually I have some friends in town." Brooke fake frowned really wanting to get away from this girl
"Well bring them too. I would love to meet you other friends." Kimber smiled excitedly and it really made Brooke feel sick. The fakeness of this girl was ridiculous.
"You know I will let you know about that." Brooke nodded and thanked God above when she saw her best friend round the corner, "Rachel, let's go to the bathroom."
"I just ca-"
"You just have to pee oh me too." Brooke cut her eyes over at a dumb smiling Kimber.
"Umm yeah really bad." Rachel lied not really getting it but shrugging it off anyway.
"Ok great." Brooke said grabbing her friend's arm, "Kimber I really have to go but you know I will let you know about that whole hanging out thing. Alright, great, bye." She turned around quickly rolling her eyes when she heard Kimber mumble a 'Bitch' under her breath.
"There a reason I am once again going into this god awful smelling and dirty bathroom?" Rachel scrunched her nose when they walked into the bathroom.
"Because that girl is annoying as hell and Adam's ex. I can't stand talking to her." Brooke told her as she walked in the cleanest looking stall and shutting the door.
"Oh ex's." Rachel shook her head wanting to laugh that Brooke is all ok with her ex living with her for the summer but not with Adam's being in the same ballpark with him.
"What?" Brooke called not hearing her favorite red head.
"Nothing." Rachel lied as she looked into the mirror fixing her hair.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
Lucas sat there a few minutes thinking before getting up himself just so he didn't have to sit there anymore. He figured he could just walk to the car or get something to eat just until all his friends broke away from his ex and Adam and came and sat with him.
"God sorry." He apologized when he was too busy looking down to what was in front of him smashing right into someone.
"Oh it's ok I wasn't watching where I was going." She waved her hand at him as she shook her hand off from where she spilled her drink a little.
"Damn I spilled your drink I'm really sorry." Lucas again apologized grabbing some napkins off the table next to him and drying off her hand, "Let me get you another one." he offered as she looked up at him and smiled. She was really cute. She was no Brooke but it wasn't going to be fair to compare every girl he met to Brooke because he knew for a fact none would ever compare. But everyone told him to move on and he had to start somewhere, "Hi I'm Lucas." he extended his hand as she smiled a little more.
"Kimber."
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no
Ok so truth is I know I have dropped some Peyton being the annoying old roommate at one point and I was going to make Kimber Peyton but after I thought about it I couldn't. I'm sorry I really love Peyton, well as long as she isn't going stupid over Lucas, breaking up Brucas and is happy with Jake, so I changed it.
I may even have a little Jeyton appearance at some point I don't know yet.
Also I was thinking about doing a Love That Shouldn't Happen "Beginning" I'm not sure yet but thinking maybe at some point if enough people would like to see one have just the whole what happened before this story. The relationship going from their friendship to their dating to their break up and everything in between.
It would have the flashbacks that are in this story in it so that kind gives you the preview so just let me know in a review or PM all ya'lls thoughts on it!
Review please :D