If anyone asks,
Ill tell them we've both just moved on.
When people all stare,
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
"Lucas!" Anna squealed throwing her arms around the blonde's neck, "I haven't seen you in what seems like a lifetime. How have you been?"
"I have been pretty great." Lucas said over the loud music to the girl he has known for years. They actually use to date back in high school and when she said they haven't seen each other in a lifetime it was no joke. Other than a few texts back and forth over the last few years he hasn't seen her for almost 5 years, "How have you been?"
"I have been pretty good. Definitely have missed you." A slightly drunken Anna smirked stepping closer missing the look on the brunette's face that was sitting at the table arms crossed tight over her chest and glaring at her.
"I've uhh…I've missed you too." Lucas took a step back his legs hitting the table his girlfriend and best friends were sitting at. Yeah he wasn't doing anything wrong but he still felt Brooke's eye burning through his back. He wanted to be able to say something about it but knew he couldn't because his girlfriend wasn't really his girlfriend.
"We should dance. Come on let's dance for old times' sake." She said grabbing onto his hand.
"I have to use the bathroom." Brooke stood up pushing herself between the tiny space between the dark headed girl and boyfriend making sure to pass by with a glare.
"You know Anna I would love to but I can't right now." He said letting his eyes wonder towards where Brooke had moved off to cursing he lost her in the crowd.
"Aww…" Anna whined running her finger up his chest, "Well come find me when you want to catch up." She winked before walking off.
"Dude what is wrong with you?" Jason slapped his friend on the back of the head, "That girl was totally hot."
"Yeah I know she is my ex girlfriend." He mumbled eyes still looking around the club.
"No way a girl actually got Lucas Scott to calm down and be her boyfriend?" Matt teased placing his hand to his chest, "I personally am shocked." He said getting a laugh from Cam.
"Well he did say ex girlfriend." Cam joked yet Lucas just ignored them all, "I think it will take an extremely special chick to get Lucas to actually stay longer than a month."
"Yeah it did." Lucas mumbled not catching the confused looks of his friends, "I'm going to get a drink ya'll want anything? No alright be right back." He walked off quickly.
"Well I mean I didn't say no." Jason mumbled getting a laugh from his friends.
Lucas searched the dark club for the fiery brunette he loved. She couldn't be mad at him; he didn't do anything wrong so she couldn't be mad. Yet then again this was Brooke, the girl he loved and the girl he has grown to know so well and her being her if she wasn't mad she wouldn't be the girl he fell in love with.
"Brooke!" He grabbed her arm as she walked out of the bathroom but she jerked away from him as she moved down the dark hall, "God what did I do?" He followed behind her as she ignored him, "God damn it Brooke." He growled grabbing onto her arm and yanking her into the guys' bathroom, "Out!" He ordered the skinny kid at the urinal nervously trying to get his zipper up, "Out!"
"Don't yell at him!" Brooke yelled, "He is in the guys bathroom trying to take a piss and you dragged me in here interrupting it so stop yelling!" She screamed slamming her finger into his chest.
"What is wrong with you?" He asked annoyed, "I didn't even do anything and you are once again pissed at me!"
"Excuse me sorry." The kid apologized sliding between them and out the door back into the club.
"God I can blink wrong and you get pissed." He snapped spinning the lock on the door.
"Don't yell at me!" She screamed right in his face.
"I am not yelling!" He screamed back.
"I don't have to put up with you Lucas! I don't have to stay here if I don't want!" She yelled shoving her hand into his chest pushing him backwards.
"Don't push me Brooke." He warned but she just pulled back shoving him again, "Brooke stop!"
"No Lucas! No I won't stop! I do not have to put up with you! I don't have to and I don't want to anymore! It's not fair to me!"
"Then don't! If you clearly hate me so much don't be with me anymore!" He yelled back and as soon as the words came out he wished them back. He didn't mean for them to and the look on her face she wasn't expecting it either.
"Would it be that easy for you?" Her heart broke as she looked up at him, "You would be able to just end it just like that?"
"You said it first Brooke. You said…" He trailed off not really knowing what he was going to say.
"I didn't mean that. I just meant theses girls. I just meant I didn't want to or have to put up with these girls. I never…I didn't think you would break up with me." Her voice cracked as she took a step back from him walking over placing her hands on the sink closing her eyes, "You want to break up with me." She whispered more to herself as her eyes welled up with tears.
"No…no…no I don't." He said walking over wrapping his arms around her waist as she let out a shake breath that turned into a small sob, "I don't want to break up. I don't want that."
"But you said it." She let out a dry laugh.
"Cause I thought you were going to say it." He buried his face in her neck holding her close, "I thought you were about to leave me."
"I don't want to leave you Lucas." She shook her head, "But…but if you want to just do it now." She choked out moving away from him, "If it's just easier to end it now, if you are looking for a reason I just gave you one."
"I'm not." He moved towards her quickly grabbing onto her face giving her a gentle kiss, "God baby I swear I don't want that." he promised leaning his forehead against hers.
"I just hate those girls." She confessed holding her hands onto his wrist as he held her face, "They are always around and I can't do anything about it. I'm…I'm jealous of them."
"What? Why would you ever be jealous of them? Brooke they don't compare to you, they don't even come close."
"But they do get to be near you. Touch you and laugh with you. They can do whatever they want with you in public, behind closed doors or anywhere and I can't."
"Pretty Girl don't worry about them." He shook his head hating she felt like that, "They mean nothing to me. They will never mean a thing to me because I love you. You know I love you; your it for me Brooke Davis."
"You don't know that." Brooke shook her head knowing there was no way he could know that she was it for him, life is so unpredictable.
"Look at me…" He pulled her face up to look at him giving her a look she has never gotten from him, a look that made her heart race and almost every fear within her erase, "I love you Brooke, and you are it for me."
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
"That's really cool." Lucas's voice rang back into her ears pulling her out of her dream world to find him still talking to Kimber. What was he doing? That girl was such a bitch, so stuck up and so fake it was ridiculous. Nothing about her was Lucas's type, nothing about her was what he liked yet here they still sat laughing and joking and talking and it was driving Brooke nuts.
"You ok B?" Cam asked taking a seat next to his little sister as they all hung out at the pool. The game ended about an hour ago and Adam's team won which was cool but now they are all out by the pool and Cam sees the unhappy look on his sister's face about a certain blonde's new friend.
"Why wouldn't I be?" Brooke asked pulling her eyes away from her ex landing them on her big brother.
"Brooke…" Cam tilt his head to the side giving her a look she knows all too well, "It's me. You can lie to everyone, you can lie to Rach and Lucas and even Adam but you cannot lie to me. We share the same blood." He smiled grabbing her knee giving it a squeeze, "So talk to me Sis."
"I'm not jealous." She stated first and though Cam knew that was complete bullshit he let it slide and just nodded for her to continue, "It's just I hate that girl Cam. She tried so many times to take Adam away from me and I don't like her being around him."
"Lucas or Adam?" He asked not really sure which him his sister was talking about.
"Adam Cam, why would I care about Lucas and her?"
"I don't know because the last hour we have gotten to the pool you have been sending daggers in both their backs or the fact the entire game you had no idea what was happening because you were too busy trying to hear them talk." He shrugged making his sister scoff at him, "Brooke seriously don't get mad at me for stating what happened."
"I'm not jealous." She mumbled crossing her arms tight over her chest cringing when she heard Kimber let out an annoying laugh.
"For someone who isn't jealous you sure seem to state it a lot. What's that saying oh yeah 'the lady doth protest too much, methinks?" He smirked making Brooke growl at him.
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away
"Bite me Cam." She hissed not at all agreeing with her brother.
"That's Adam's job or maybe Lucas's I can't keep up anymore." He teased making his sister crack a small annoyed smile, "Oh no I saw it. Don't try to hide it; it's too late the dimples were shown."
"Shut up." She shoved his hand out of her face when he pointed at her smile, "Don't you have a girlfriend to annoy?"
"But you're so much more fun Sissy." He joked but not missing how she still stared straight at his best friend, "Can I tell you something and not get my head bit off?"
"You can try?" She finally turned her head to look at him.
"You're my sister. At the end of the day I am with you on everything and have your back no matter what but it doesn't change the fact that Luke over there is still my best friend. Other than about you we have never fought."
"I know that Cam." Brooke sighed hating them fighting for something that never even worked out.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
"Yet in the last year he hasn't had a girl around. He hasn't dated, really even fooled around with anyone and Kimber even if you hate it is the first girl since you to make him actually laugh, make him actually not mope over…well you."
"What are you trying to say Cam?"
"I'm saying that unless you are going to be the person to put that smile she is putting on his face again don't mess with it. All he hears is move on, get over her because she has and now he finally is and it's not fair to him for you to mess it up when you know full well you are not going to give him a second chance." Cam said not wanting to hurt his sister but not wanting his friend to get hurt again either. Even if Kimber was just for fun, which Cam was more than positive on was the case least it gave him a distraction from Brooke and Adam.
"You think he deserves a second chance after what he did to me?" Brooke snapped almost annoyed her brother even suggested it.
"Don't bit my head off Brooke." He said making her roll her eyes, "And honestly I think whether you want to admit it or not you still love him. I know it, you know it and hell I'm sure Adam even knows it and I think also that you sometimes want to give him a second chance but are scared to so you hide behind Adam."
"I love Adam Cameron. Don't you say I don't." She hissed at him and he knew she was serious if she used his full name.
"Yeah well I think you love Lucas too." He stood up down with this conversation as he made his way over to his girlfriend.
"You and Rachel belong together." She growled since she already heard that line. She wasn't jealous, she wasn't jealous at all. She had a great boyfriend who she loved and she was just sitting her because he had to go to work for a few hours and that is the only reason she seemed to be in a bad mood. It had nothing to do with Kimber and Lucas what so ever.
If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
"Hey." She heard turning to see Lucas fall down in the longue chair next to her.
"Hi." She barely muttered back as she looked at her friends playing in the pool; mainly just so she didn't have to look at the boy next to her.
"You going to get in?" Lucas nodded his head towards the pool.
"Does it look like I'm getting in the pool?" She asked turning her head to look at him like he was the stupidest person ever.
"I guess not." He mumbled not getting why they seemed to be getting along earlier at the ball game and now she was pissed. Yet it wasn't a shock being as Brooke loved to get pissed at him for the littlest things. He could have shut her car door wrong and she would be pissed saying he slammed it too hard.
"Adam is going to be back soon." She randomly stated making him turn to look at her, "We are going out to dinner tonight and he just had to work a few hours but he will be back."
"I'm sure he will." Lucas mumbled really not wanting to talk about Adam.
"What is that supposed to mean?" She snapped her head to look at him.
"It means I am sure he will." He repeated again as he turned his head to look at her.
"You know Lucas some people keep their promises and Adam is one of them." She glared at him.
"Well Brooke I didn't say he wasn't. I said I'm sure he will be here soon." He said once again not getting what was happening.
"Well it sounded like you were questioning him." She growled crossing her arms tight over her chest.
"Are you trying to pick a fight with me? Because if you are then you're really doing a hell of a good job."
"And why would I be trying to pick a fight with you?" Brooke changed her tone to a sweet innocent one with a smile, "To pick a fight I would have to care and trust me I don't."
"Fine Brooke." He stood up not wanting to listen to her anymore, "Don't care because I don't care anymore. I don't care if you care and I don't care about anything!" He yelled making all her friends turn to look at them, "If your little goal was to hurt me will good job, you accomplished it." He walked off leaving her almost dumb found but his little outburst. Yeah of course she was trying to get a rise out of him but he never yelled at her like that before. Normally he just sat and took it.
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
"Lucas!" She yelled chasing after him to the parking lot where his car was, "What the hell is your problem?"
"My problem? Seriously you're asking me what my problem is? I wasn't even doing anything to you Brooke! I was trying to be nice and your just take jab after jab at me!" He yelled not getting at all what had just happened in the last ten minutes. Why she just got so pissy.
"I wasn't taking a jab at you! I was just stating what I was thinking about!" She yelled back not thinking anything she did was wrong.
"Well don't! Because god I can't hear you talk about you and Adam! If you want to talk about him talk to Rachel or Cam or Quinn hell anyone but me! I am the last person you should mention him too."
"Why? You said you wanted to be friends' that is what friends talk about." She shrugged crossing her arms over her chest, "I was talking to you like a friend."
"No you were trying to make me jealous! You were trying to play some little game to see how I would react and you got the reaction you wanted."
"What to get yelled at? No Lucas that is not the reaction I wanted."
"Then what did you want?"
"I don't know!" She yelled running her hands over her face, "I don't know ok. I don't know why I said it or why I pushed you I just did ok." She sighed lowering her tone to almost a guilty one. She didn't know why she did it, she doesn't know what happened it just happened and once she started it she somewhat liked the feeling and didn't stop pushing his buttons. Almost wanting to see how far she could push him.
"Brooke I don't want to fight with you. I want to be able to get along even...even if it's just because we have too." Lucas sighed leaning up his car.
"Lucas I don't want to get along just because we have too. I want to get along because I want to be friends again I do I just…you know how I get sometimes." She frowned taking a step closer to him, probably a step to close, "You of all people know how I get."
"Yeah I know." He nodded hesitantly placing his hand on her hip pulling her a little closer.
"I didn't mean to hurt you." She whispered running her finger over his scar across his chest.
"I didn't mean to hurt you either." He whispered back but meaning something completely different.
"It's ok." She shrugged.
"No, not really." He said with a dry laugh and she looked up at him and when she did she wish she didn't. She saw the look in his eyes, it was like the one he had so many times before since she has known him. It was the look he had at the club when he said she meant everything to him, she was his forever and it scared her. She wasn't sure what she felt about that look still being there and honestly with him living under the same roof she wasn't sure how she was going to handle seeing it there either.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry
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