Chapter Six – Feelings

NPOV

(One Week Later)

Jake and I hadn't spoken much lately. I didn't visit La Push and when he came up to Forks, I didn't come out of my room very often. He was my best friend, more like a brother, and I liked him.

Today I was alone, everyone else had to go to work of hunting. I stayed in Rosalie's room all day, reading. I didn't realize that anyone had come in the house until there was a knock on the door. I jumped and opened it.

"Hi Jake." I looked to the side, avoiding his face. "Everyone is gone today, sorry you made the trip." He put a finger under my chin and turned my head so that I was looking into his eyes. I closed mine quickly.

"I didn't come to talk to anyone else; I came to talk to you." He said. "Please open your eyes." I blinked really fast, but not fast enough to miss his beautiful body, and then mentally kicking my self for thinking like that.

"J…. Jacob, I can't talk to you right now. I'm busy." I lied. He sighed.

"When are you going to be able to? Nessie, you haven't came down to La Push in over a week. You never come out to see me anymore when I come over, I need to know what's wrong." He said.

"Nothing is wrong Jacob, I've just been really busy lately."

"Doing what?" He asked, obviously knowing that I was lying.

"Jake, just please leave." I said. His hand dropped from my chin. I opened my eyes to see him gone, and then I collapsed on the floor, finding enough strength to get up and watch him leave. He looked up at me once and then disappeared into the woods.

I sobbed for the rest of the day. Carlisle got home first, but by that time I had stopped the tear flow and I was curled up on the couch with a blanked.

"Hello Rene…. Nessie, are you okay?" He put his coat and bag down and walked over to me, feeling my forehead. "You don't have a fever, what's wrong?"

"I'm fine, just…. Tired." I lied. The tears were still obvious in my voice.

"Renesmee, I'm a doctor." He said.

"It's not important."

"I haven't seen you this down since…. Ever. I can tell you've been crying, so what happened?" I pulled the blanket tighter around me and buried myself deeper into the couch.

"I promise, there's nothing you could do. It's not really a physical problem."

"Nessie, I want to help you…" I cut him off, jumping off of the couch.

"Please don't! I want to handle MY own problems by MY self. When are you guys going to realize that I'm not exactly the little child I used to be and that I can handle things on my own." I stormed out of the house and then began to run, letting my feet take me.

By the time I realized where I was headed, it was too late. He already saw me.

I stare into his eyes and suddenly he was the person he used to be for me. My brother, my best friend.

"Jake." I sighed too quite for him to hear. And then I blinked and he turned back into the hot person of my nightmares. I started sobbing. Jake hugged me.

"Shh. It'll be okay." He whispered to me. He lifted me and carried me inside.

JPOV

Nessie cried for hours. After three, I really started to worry.

"Do you want me to call someone and have them come pick you up?" I asked her. She shook her head.

"I'll walk." She choked. By the time she got to the door, she had tripped over the coffee table and the recliner. I caught her before she went outside.

"Nessie, you can't walk to the door, I'm not going to let you walk home. I'll drive you."

"Let me go." She tried to wiggle out of my grasp.

"Promise not to run?" I could catch her, but not before she ran into a tree.

"No."

"Then I won't let you go."

"Jacob Black! Let. Me. Go!" She screamed. I dropped her wrist and she bolted out the door. I caught her in ten seconds.

"Let's go." I said, pulling her to my car. About halfway to the Cullen's, she sighed. I took that as a start to a conversation.

NPOV

"Did I do something?" Jake asked.

"No." I said blankly. He slowed the car and then parked on the side of the road.

"Okay, then what happened? Last time we really talked was early last week on the beach."

"Jacob, I hate this. But we can't be around each other for a while. Things aren't right with my head right now and I don't know why. I can't be around you a lot. I didn't choose this though, Jake. I hate it, because it's so wrong! I don't know what to do."

"How about you start by telling me what the problem is?" He suggested.

"I can't. You'll hate me. Forever." I jumped out of the car and ran as fast as I could. Once I was in the main Cullen house I locked the door and spun around.

"Where the heck have you been?" Alice hissed.

"La Push, where else?"

"Well, the way you've been acting lately, that was the last place we expected to find you."

"I was only gone for three hours, sheesh." I rolled my eyes. The tears that threatened to overcome me were pushed back.

"Whatever, are you hungry? Everyone else is still hunting up in Canada, I came back so that Carlisle could go."

"Um, yeah, I'll make something." I said as I walked over to the kitchen.

"There's hardly any food left. I'll order a pizza." She said.

"Okay, I'm going to go to the bathroom and change clothes." Mine were soaked. Once the bathroom door was closed and locked I stripped down and took a shower. I needed to shave anyway. I don't know who bought the razor, but I was supposed to use it apparently.

Half way through my right leg, Alice knocked on the door and my hand slipped, leaving a nice cut down my leg.

"What's taking so long?" She called.

"Crap. Ow!" I hissed.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I'm fine." I said. Blood flowed lightly down my leg. There wasn't a lot, but enough that I could smell it.

"Yeah, I can smell the blood, so I know that something is wrong." Her voice was anxious.

"I just cut my self a little. You startled me."

"Sorry! Are you okay?"

"It's not bad. I'm fine." I said. It was bleeding quite a bit now and it hurt.

"Okay, are you almost done?"

"Yeah." I turned the water off and got a towel. My leg stung now. I got a box of Band-Aids and some Neosporin, completely covering the cut. Once I was fully dressed, I walked out of the bathroom.

"Let me see your leg, I can smell a lot blood." Alice said.

"Alice, it's fine trust me." I walked down the stairs and opened the door for the pizza man. Once he was gone, I ate the entire thing. I wasn't usually this hungry, but I guess that being sad all day used a lot of energy; or it could be the fact that I hadn't eaten or hunted in two days?

That night when I fell asleep on the couch, I dreamed that everything was normal. Jake was my best friend, and there was nothing to worry about.

Sorry that it took so long to get this done. I really wanted to finish the chapter, but never found the time, what with Eclipse coming out Wednesday! I loved the movie as much as the book, it was the best one yet.

Give me any ideas that you have if you get the time please. When should Jake tell Nessie about the Imprinting thing? HELP!