Disclaimer: I still don't own Grey's Anatomy…because if I did, then there would be alot more MerDer

So here is the next chapter. But I have a problem…I don't know where to take this story :( so while you're reading, please think of what you would like to see happen in future chapters. Please let me know, I'm open to any ideas xD

Meredith woke at 6:30, a little late for their normal 5:15 wakeup call. But that didn't matter much since they both had the day off. She looked around, but didn't move…something was wrong…but what? They had the day off, Derek was asleep next to her, his arm was around her…wait…his arm…it's there, but it's not as tight as it usually was.

Then it all came back to her, all of last night happenings made her breath catch in her throat. A chill went through her, causing Derek to wake up. When he looked over at Meredith, she looked like she saw a ghost. She was wide eyed, staring straight ahead.

"Meredith" Derek whispered

"Don't, Der, just don't" Meredith answered, obviously fighting back the tears.

"Mer…I'm…I…" Derek rambled as he searched for the right words to win the love of his life back, something he never though he would have to do…well more like do again.

"Der, please" Meredith whimpered

"Just. Let. Go." She pleaded. Derek let go of her waist and sat up. He looked over at Meredith, who was crying properly now. Words could not describe how guilty and regretful he felt.

"Meredith" Derek said as he tried to wipe the tears that streamed down her face, but she pushed him away.

"I don't know what came over me, Mer, I really don't" He continued

"Well whatever the hell did, it came over u pretty damn well" Meredith cried as she got off the bed and sank into the chair by their big bedroom window.

"You know how I feel about my family. You've known for so long, from when we first met, and you yelled at me for it." She sobbed as she started to yell herself.

"And better yet, you asked me if I still love you? What was that, Derek, what was that…" She cringed as she said her last sentence to him.

"Meredith, I don't know, it's killing me to see you like this, and worse, to know that I cause it. I'm so beyond sorry, Meredith, and I love you more then you can ever imagine. You have every right to be mad at me, and I know that this will be around for a long time, but I hope that you can eventually forgive me, and let me back in."

At this point, Derek was on the verge of crying himself. Meredith went speechless, she stopped her crying and just looked at him. The way he spoke, and the fact that he was about to cry, told her that he really was truly sorry.

"Derek, I know you're sorry, but get that this is really hard for me, and to have you, of all people, yell at me for something you knew" Meredith sobbed, repeating her current memories to herself as she swayed back and forth, like a twisted person.

Derek couldn't take it anymore, he had to hold her, even if she was to push him away. Derek gets up and slowly makes his way over to Meredith's side. As if he called it, she put her hands in front of her, and literally pushed him away. But Derek didn't seem care.

He managed to get her arms out of the way and was able to grab her. Meredith resisted the whole time. Derek picked her up and placed her on his hip, and carried her to the bed, yet she fought him like a kid being carried, well more like dragged, out of a toy store. He sat down on the bed and moved her so she was sitting on his lap, with her legs around his waist, facing him.

He held onto her to the best of her ability, but eventually Meredith gave in and sunk into his embrace. She wrapped her arms around his upper waist, nuzzled her face into his neck, and let it all go.

It hurt Derek to see her cry, and to feel her shake, but he was helping her get rid of the pain he caused her, pain that could have been avoided if he just kept quiet.

Derek and Meredith sat in that embrace for a long time. Meredith was still crying into his neck, but didn't seem to want to let go, even though she was still mad at him. She will never stop loving him, no matter what he does.

"Derek" Meredith eventually whispered

"Yes Mer" Derek answered

"I love you" she said, almost inaudibly. Soon Derek noticed that she had fallen asleep in his arms.

"I love you too, Meredith" he whispered into her ear. He felt her tighten her grip on him, and that's how he knew she heard him.

What did you think? What should I do? I want to make Derek prove to her that he really is sorry…any ideas? So please leave a few reviews with any ideas you may have. Reviews are love :) Thanks