Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I had the worst writer's block! Here's the next chapter. Hope you like it.
I broke up with Fiona. I just couldn't handle the guilt. She deserves way better. She wants a relationship and right now I just couldn't give her one. I feel bad for leading her on in the first place. Me and my stupid conflicting emotions. What makes it worse is that everyone now knows I'm a transgender and I don't feel any better. I thought once Eli knew I would feel better and everything would be fine. Everything's the same. I'm not complaining, but it just seems… I don't know how to explain it. It's probably all in my head.
"Hey," Clare's greeting brought me back to reality.
"Hey, Clare." I said back.
"I need your help," she sounds nervous, "do you think if I asked Eli out, do you think he would say yes?"
"Uh," yes, he would. Do I need to tell her that? No. "No, Clare, I'm sorry. He only thinks of you as a friend." What am I doing? Eli would kill me if he ever found out I was saying this.
"Oh," the disappointment on her face and in her voice was almost enough to make me tell the truth. Almost. I like Clare, but I'm in love with Eli. All's fair in love and war. Right?
"Like I said, I'm so sorry. I thought he liked you too." I better lay it on thick. Just to be safe.
"Really? I thought he did too, but I guess not." She sounds heartbroken! Man, she is not making this easy.
"Yea, it was just pointless flirting. He told me he was interested in someone else." I lied.
"Who?" Oh man, I've done it now.
"Just some random girl. He told me not to tell you cause he kinda knows that you like him."
"Oh, well, I gotta go. Bye Adam." There's the disappointment again.
I am a horrible person. I just ruined what could be one of the greatest couples ever. Over my feelings. Should I go and tell her the truth? Not if I want Eli. Damn, this is going to be way harder than I ever thought.
I'm sorry it's short. Like I said, I had writers block, but I felt bad for not updating. So I took what little creativity I had at the moment and put it in this chapter. Read and review!