A/N So this is the first chapter that has rape. It also has Emily getting beaten up. I have put a warning before the rape happens in the story, but after Aaron's section the story gets darker. We start with Emily getting beaten and then raped. If you don't want to read that you can skip down to the end and I will put a summary of some key moments in Emily character in my A/N at the end. So on with the story.
Emily was not going to show fear. She was terrified. But she wasn't going to let him see it. She was going to push the fear into a little box and rationally figure a way out of this nightmare. He was talking about something, but she wasn't really listening. Ok think Emily, how are you going to get out of this? I am not tied up so I could fight him. She looked at her kidnapper, he was big at least 6' 1". Well let's call that plan B. The chloroform wasn't out of her system, she was still tired and dizzy. He loves me. I can play on that. She thought of that home invasion case in Nashville the team went on after Foyet killed Haley. As much as I detest this, I think I'm going to have to play along. It'll buy me time, until I can figure a way out, or until Aaron and the team find me. Although it's unlikely the team is going to find this guy soon. I don't even remember his name. Wait what did he say? "What did you say, your face was turned away I couldn't hear you?"
"I knew you would remember me. I knew that you felt our connection. Even after all of these years, a love like ours would stand up to anything. But I had to prove my love to you. Show you what you are worth." His voice turned darker and angrier. "And I wanted to punish your family. They didn't deserve you. …" His voice got soft and he stepped forward and tenderly touched Emily's cheek. She had to fight down the vomit, and her instinct to flinch or run. "They hurt you. But I promise you they can't hurt you anymore. It's just going to be you and me from now on. … You are so amazing. I love you."
Don't throw up. Don't throw up. Don't throw up. Don't throw up. Oh god. Aaron I need you and I need you now. Ok breathe. What did Aaron say was the trick to acting, "Commit to the role. If you believe it the audience will believe it." I better get the fucking oscar after this. She softened her face and smiled. Think of Aaron. She put her hand on his faceand stroked his cheek with her thumb. "Thank you. You will never know how happy what you did made me." Cause it didn't make me happy you worthless sack of shit. No. Stop thinking like that, commit.
"I knew it. I'm sorry I had to drug you. I knew that the BAU was holding something over you. I had to get you away from those people, especially your boss Aaron Hotchner."
Fucking A, does he know about me and Aaron. What am I going to say now? How do I sell this?
"It's ok. I know he was forcing you."
Whew, don't have to explain that.
He didn't notice her momentary flicker of relief across her face. "But you don't have to worry. He can't ever get to you again."
You're wrong Aaron's coming for me. The team is going find me. And when he gets he's going to kick your ass. That or hold you down so I can kick your ass. Not that I'm going to need any help kicking your ass. Just as soon as this drug gets out of my system, I am so kicking your ass.
"I'm going to protect you from them. I promise." He pulled her into a hug. They stood there for a few moments in silence.
Finally I get to touch her. It is so much better than I thought it would be. She is so beautiful. I can't wait any longer. It's time.
His hands started to roam down her body. Crap. I'm so not going to play along with that. Well it's now or never.
She kneed him in the groin. He let out a pained groan and slumped down to the ground. Emily whirled and ran out of the room. She ran quickly through the large house. She headed for the front door and threw it open. Crap I'm in the middle of nowhere. There doesn't appear to be any neighbors. I need to find a car. C'mon if I was a car where would I be? … Barn. She ran at full speed. She knew she only had a couple of moments before he recovered and she needed to be far away before that happened. She opened the barn door. It was heavy and it took her a moment.
Time she didn't have.
She ran to the van parked there and opened the door. She frantically searched for the keys.
There were none.
"You bitch. I did everything for you. And this I how you repay me? You're just like the rest of them. You're going to pay for this."
She could hear his voice outside of the barn. She knew he was coming in. There was going to be no time to hide. No time to ambush him.
This is it. The moment of truth.
/
Hotch was losing his mind. I am standing here on my own two feet and losing my mind. I have to stay strong. I have to keep sane. I can't go crazy. I have to find to find Emily. I can't fail her. Not her. I have to find this guy. And then I'm going to kill him. That or let Emily kill him. He chuckled darkly. He allowed himself a moment to enjoy the thought of Emily killing this bastard. Ok I have to find her. I can't think about anything else but finding her. "Do we have anything yet?"
"Hotch we got this. We're going to find her." Morgan's voice was calm and soothing. Or at least that's what he was going for. I can't believe Hotch is having to go through this again. Should I tell him to go home? Can I tell him to go home? I wouldn't want to go home. But he's way too emotionally invested in this case. He might not be able to work it objectively.
"Don't tell me we got this Morgan, she's been kidnapped by an UnSub who has just killed her entire family. She's been missing for 8 hours. We have to find her now."
Dave walked over and gently grabbed Hotch's arm and softly tried to pull Hotch away.
Hotch tried to pull his arm away. But Dave had a solid grip on his arm.
"Let go of me Dave." His words came out in a snarl. He was looking for a fight. He needed a release. He needed to hit something.
Dave didn't let go and spoke in a soft voice. He had to calm the younger Agent down or this was going to go really badly. "Aaron … Aaron come with me. Let's get some air."
"Dave-"
Dave didn't raise his voice. He couldn't afford that. He couldn't afford to escalate this. "Aaron … come with me."
Aaron grinded his teeth and stared at Dave. I don't want to fight Dave. He couldn't keep the frustration out of his voice. He growled, "Fine Dave, let's go." He shook Dave's grip from his arm. I'm not getting led out of here like a child.
They walked away from the team. They walked out of the bullpen. When they had gotten far enough away from everyone Dave went into an empty office, Hotch followed. Hotch let his control slip just a little he hit the wall with the bottom of his fist. He couldn't scream, that would attract attention. He didn't need any extra attention.
"Aaron you got to get a grip."
"Dave she's been kidnapped. She's in the hands of someone who murdered her family. She could …"
"I know Aaron. And we are all hurting. But you have got to focus. We can't afford for you to running around half-cocked. Emily can't afford it."
Hotch leaned his head against the wall and exhaled forcefully. "Dave I can't lose her."
"We are not going to lose her. We are doing everything we can, Garcia is running checks on everyone that crossed their family's lives."
"She's been doing that for days. We've been looking for this guy since he killed her … the Ambassador. We got nothing."
Dave walked over and put his hands on Aaron's shoulders, and looked him in the eyes. "Aaron I need you to listen to me very carefully." His words slowed, they were calm and deliberate. "We are going to find her. I promise you."
"We never make promises in this line of work."
"I'm making one now."
Aaron said nothing just looked away.
I should have told her I loved her.
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She stepped out of the van. She quickly ran to the other side of the van and looked around for anything that could be used as a weapon. She couldn't see anything.
He walked into the barn without any hurry. He was confident. There was no way he was going to beat by a girl. He looked around the empty barn. He knew she was here. You want to play I can play. He called out in an annoyingly playful voice. "Are we playing hide-and-go-seek now? Come out come out wherever you are. I'm going to find you. And when I do, I am going to rip of all of your clothes and then we are going to have a lot of fun. Just you and me. We are going to have a lot of fun for the rest of our lives."
Don't throw up. Just keep it together. Quick strikes, incapacitate him, and then call for help. You can do this Emily. He calmly strode past where she was hiding. She stealthily moved behind him. She tightened her fist into as tight a ball as she could and kidney punched him with as much force as she could muster.
He gave out a pained grunt and swung backwards in surprise and pain with his left arm. She ducked under it, and kicked him in the knee forcing the kneecap away from his body. He stumbled back, and clutched his knee. She started dancing lightly on the balls of her feet.
His features screwed up in pain and anger. "You bitch. I'm going to make you pay." He shrugged off the pain and advanced on her.
Crap I'm in trouble.
He threw a heavy left, she ducked under it and delivered another kidney shot. The rage and adrenaline allowed him to shake it off. He swung backwards with her right and got a glancing blow to her head. She stumbled. She managed to get her feet under her and get back into a fighting stance.
He smiled ferally. "You got some fight in you, I like that. I'm going to wear you out." He advanced slowly on her, he didn't want her to use his momentum against him. She gave ground, she needed another move, she couldn't afford to get into a clinch with him.
Her body collided with the hard wooden wall. There was nowhere to run. She was trapped. He smiled. He had won. Now it was time to collect his prize.
She threw a right at him, he caught her wrist and punched her in the gut. She doubled over. The pain made her see stars. He jerked her head and viciously punched her in the face. He punched her again and again. She slumped against the wall and slid down. She was in and out of consciousness.
He roughly grabbed her and threw her over his shoulder. He carried her back into the house. He took her to another room. She wasn't the girl he had fallen for. She didn't deserve anything special.
(A/N so this is the section with the rape.)
He ripped her shirt off, her creamy skin exposed to his lecherous gaze. He pawed at her boobs. He struggled momentarily with her bra before ultimately ripping it off of her. He mouth latched onto on her breasts.
Feeling his slimy mouth on her nipple brought Emily's focus back. She tried to get out from under him. She tried to get away. "Get off of me you sick fuck. Leave me alone."
He punched her in the side. She could feel two of her ribs give way, and it hurt to breathe. She gasped trying to replenish the oxygen that had just vacated her body. She was trapped. She couldn't was in too much pain to stop him, not that she could fight him if she wasn't in pain. There was nothing she could do. This was going to happen. She could feel her mind starting to take her somewhere else. Some place safe. Far away she could feel cold air hitting her now exposed legs. A few seconds later she was naked and there was nothing to protect her.
She felt him enter her. And that was the last thought she had. Her mind flew away and she went somewhere safe. Somewhere he couldn't go. Somewhere he could never touch her.
Her mind went to her time with Aaron.
And for a brief moment she was safe. And the world was wonderful.
Aaron I love you.
Save me.
A/N So for those of you who skipped Emily's mind went to a safe place, and her safe place is Aaron. I'm going to do this summary every time Emily gets raped or tortured, so you don't have to worry. Let me know what you thought, it's my first time writing something like this, I'm curious how I did.