Emmett placed me in bed when we got home. I told him I wanted to be alone and he respected my wishes.
He was so different then Edward in almost every way. Edward was always so careful and secretive. He would keep things from me that I had every right to know. He acted more like a parent then anything else. With Emmett we could let go of all the bad stuff and have fun together. We laughed and played and were just... In love. And Emmett knew how to "control himself". I was never worried about him hurting me. Of course the risk would always be there as long as I was human, but he was confident and knowledgeable enough to allow us to be together.
But there was something that pained me about being with Emmett and I hated it more then anything; I was still in love with Edward. Even the thought almost brought me to tears. Emmett was everything to me and so much more, but Edward got there first. He messed up my insides. I absolutely despised that part of myself, the part that still yearned for him after he screwed me over. His eyes were always stuck in my head. His kiss was so intoxicating. In his presence, I was high. He was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen and he loved me.
Then something that Victoria said earlier that day echoed in my head: "He was trying to protect you from me. He left you to try and trick me. If you weren't connected to him, you would be useless to me. I would leave you alone." I wondered if it was true. Did he really leave to try and protect me? I knew that Victoria would do anything to get revenge for James' death, but I couldn't help but hope. Maybe he did still love me. He would keep things from me constantly to keep me safe. Why would this be any different?
I couldn't help but hold onto that possibility. I felt sick all over.
I also remembered Victoria say, "He cries at night too."
AN: Here is a short and not so sweet chapter 16! Review, review, review!(:
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