After a long awkward silence Jacob and I walked back to his house about five feet away from each other. I wanted to say something, anything but I couldn't think. My brain just shut down. I couldn't believe that my best friend was in love with me.

When we got to the yard I stopped to say goodbye but he kept walking towards his house.

"Jake," He turned around. "Can I have a hug goodbye?" He started at me for a moment, then turned and kept walking. I exhaled in pain.

I walked back to the truck and tried to keep my tears of frustration back. I heard quick footsteps following me. I hoped maybe it was just someone going back to their car but then a hoarse voice call out to me. When I turned I saw a bare chested Embry jogging towards me.

"Bella, Jake doesn't-"

"No, I get it. He's pissed."

"That's not it." I waited for him to continue. "Bella, you're not happy. He knows it, you know it, everyone knows it. Jake can change that. He's just upset that you won't even give him a chance."

"It's not that I won't, I just... Can't. I don't have enough space in my head for all this stuff. I feel like I'm about to burst." I told him.

"I don't feel sorry for you."

"What?" I was surprised. Embry had never been anything but generous and kind to me. His harsh voice shocked me.

"Jake would die for you. Your blood suckers, they would die for you, and how do you repay them? You keep them on these strings, Bella. You keep them all wrapped around you little finger. They're always near when you need them. They drop everything. But Billy has been sick all week. We thought he was gunna die tonight and you only showed up for your own selfish reasons."

"That's not fair, no one told me Billy was sick." I said in my defense.

"Does that even matter?"

"I guess not." I felt a drop of rain fall lightly on my bottom lip. I bit it and let the sweet pure water roll over my tongue and down my throat.

"You need to make a choice and soon; before everyone gets hurt." I nodded my head. "And I'm not here to defend Jake. I've always liked you, Bella. You're a cool chick. I would hate it if you settled. Just do what's right for you and everyone else will find their place, eventually." He smiled.

"Thanks."

"And since Jacob didn't give you a goodbye hug, I guess now the pleasure is mine." He opened up his arms and I walked right into them. He was warm, like Jacob.

"Thank you, Embry."

"Anytime. Werewolf hugs are the best." He said as I left his arms. I got in my truck, gave him a quick wave and started driving back home.

For the first time in a long time I had a mild understanding of what I had to do. There was a choice that had to be made. Then I did something else that I hadn't done in a while; I turned on the radio. A very fitting tune filled the car. Funeral by Band of Horses.

This applied to my life exactly. Things may be good, things may be bad, I could be sick or healthy, rich or poor, happy or depressed, loved are alone but at any second I could die. So I must even enjoy misery because it may be the last time I ever feel it. Spend every moment I can with Charlie because I may never see him again. Just take advantage of life because in an instant I could be gone. And with the company I kept, it was more likely.

The song carried me home. I pulled in the drive way and saw the light was on in my room. I distinctly remember shutting it off so a sudden panic devoured me. I was preparing to face the wrath of Charlie, but when I opened the door I heard him snoring. I smiled in part knowing that I wasn't in trouble and the other half knew that Emmett would be there to greet me.

I raced up the stairs and opened my bedroom door. When it swung open it wasn't Emmett's large stature sitting on the edge of my bed. Another set of topaz eyes were staring back at me. I froze in the doorway and I could feel my heart stop beating.

AN: So, which Cullen will it be? Or will it be a Cullen at all? Ah, cliffhangers. :p Thanks to EVERYONE reading my story, but especially ted. Your review made me smile like crazy(: I am starting the next chapter soon, so be expecting that in an hour or so. Love ya!(: