A/N I hit 50 reviews, thank you all so much. As ever I own nothing including "My Immortal" by Evanesance.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

Hotch slowly opened his eyes. He didn't want to be awake. He'd had the dream again. Once again he had saved Emily. Once again she was in his arms. And now he was awake. And she was gone. He stood and walked to the closet. He opened the door and the first thing he saw was her work clothes. He looked around the closet and saw it filled with her clothes, her shoes. When did my closet become hers? He pulled down his favorite shirt of hers. It was red, his favorite color, he loved the way she looked in this shirt. He brought it to his face and breathed in her scent.

He remembered. He remembered the first time she wore this shirt. It was around the time he had stopped looking at her like a subordinate and more like a woman. This shirt banished all thoughts of her as only a subordinate forever. He remembered the pleasure he had taking it off of her one night. As he kept smelling her clothes more and memories came. Until finally the emotion was to great and he broken down crying.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

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You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

Hotch stepped off of the elevator. He noticed the empty desk. Someone, probably JJ, had cleaned off her desk. He stopped and stared at the empty desk. He remembered her attempt to hide her high school picture. Her attempt to hide after Reid's physics magic trick. The numerous times he had looked down from his office to see her smiling having fun with Morgan and Reid. He blinked back tears. He wouldn't break down not here. Not where everyone could see.

He rushed to his office. He closed the door. He turned on the desk lamp. It created only a small amount of light in the dark office. The closed blinds allowed in no other light. He pulled out a bottle of scotch. Normally he he only had a glass after a bad case, sometimes Emily and on occasion Dave would join him. Now he had a drink or two just it make it through the day.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

/

Dave opened the door. "Aaron why do you keep coming in? You need time."

"It doesn't seem real Dave. I keep thinking she's going to come through that door and tell me this was all a horrible dream.

...

"She haunts my dreams Dave. Every night she calls and we get there in time. Every night I save her. Every time. ... Except the time it mattered most."

"Aaron there was no way we would have been able to save her. The farm was an hour away. Sometimes ..." He looked at Hotch and could see that a cliche or a platitude would only piss him off. "What the fuck do I know? ... ... Sometimes the bad guys win."

"Life needs to be more like the movies. The bad gys wear black, the good guys white. The bad guy loses and the good guy gets the girl, and they ride off into the sunset."

"I don't know about the good guys wearing white. It doesn't really look good on me."

Hotch chuckled and shook his head.

"It's good to see you smile Aaron."

JJ knocked on the door before opening it. She looked really apologetic.

"We have a case JJ?"

"Yeah, Hotch do you want to sit this one out?"

"No. Maybe this is what I need. Somewhere where she doesn't haunt everything I see."

"We'll meet you in the conference room JJ."

JJ nodded and walked away.

"Are you sure about this Aaron?"

Hotch looked at him long and hard. "I have to be."

Dave nodded. "All right, let's not keep the team waiting."

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

/

This was defintely the most surreal moment of Emily Prentiss's life. She stood about fifty yards away from where her funeral was taking place. She and Jared were standing n front of a some random grave pretending to be visiting a lost loved one. The real reason they were there was so Emily could see Aaron, and how he was taking her "death".

Don't cry. Whatever you do, don't cry. It was all she wanted to do. One look at her love and she knew he would never recover from this. If she couldn't find a way to let him know she was alive, her death would break him. After everything else, it would just be too much. What would become of Jack? She could see him clutching his dad's hand his sad face staring at her coffin.

She wanted to run and tell them that it was ok. That she was alive, and it was all going to be all right. But Jared had a gun trained on her. And he swore that if she did anytrhing the second bullet would find Jack. The third would help Jared commit suicide. Leaving Aaron all alone. She couldn't do that to the man she loved. So she stood silently, and watched as the two men she loved most in the world buried the woman they loved.

She shot a glance at Jared. I am going to kill you son of a bitch. And I'm going to do it slow, and when you gasp your last breath. I'm going to lean down and laugh in your face.

/

It had been several days since the funeral. Several days of worry and fear about Aaron and Jack. The only positive had been that Jared had left her alone during this time. She needed to see him though if her plan was going to work though. She couldn't run away, but she could get a message to Aaron.

Luck it appeared was with her today. Jared opened the door. Emily sauntered towards him.

"There you are." She cooed. "I've missed you. I thought you were never going to visit me again." She pouted as she got close to him. She put her hand on his face.

He smiled, and Emily got closer. Suddenly she struck her kneee into his groin. With a groan he crumpled. She dug through his pants looking for his cell phone. She found it. She knew she had only seconds to send a message. Jared was already recovering. He lunged forward and grabbed the cellphone out of her hand. She was smiling though.

"What did you do?"

"I told Aaron I was alive, and now he's going to come for you, and when he finds you he's going to kill you."

He backhanded her. "He's never going to find you." He started raining blows on her, her last thought before she lost consciousness was 'Aaron's coming'.

A/N Let's keep the reviews coming people.