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Kk, so the next chapter is pretty grim and I was mean to you all who love our poor Bella so dearly, so I'll apologise in advance. Sorry guys.
This chapter is dedicated to
Luv ya, now remember that as you read it. I will take harsh and suggestive comments at the end (that means whatever you'd like me to write into the story at this point might be done, i.e. your wish is my command!!!)
See ya at the end…
Chapter 19
'Kay so death after a while is quite boring, I mean you just kinda float around looking pretty. I was getting used to it; it had only been about five minutes but guess what I was bored. How was I going to survive eternity like this? I had gone to watch the remainder of the bloodbath of my hospital room, down these sorts of telescope things. Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle, Alice, Esme and Rose all lay unconscious but not bleeding. Only Victoria and James were bleeding, half way to hell already I'd been told. I floated around aimlessly.
The other ghostly-beings avoided new comers and I wasn't in the mood to talk. Heaven was waiting for those who deserved it. I was waiting for my chance before the great Lord in the sky. I was currently in Purgatory, just flipping fantastic!! There was no one I recognised, luckily I suppose. I wanted to feel again, being a ghostly thing makes you immune to feeling, wind, rain, fire or earth.
I gritted my teeth but as much as I was dead, I was slowly beginning to feel again. My glide became more robotic and walking like. My emptiness ebbed slowly away from my fingertips and pain etched away at my heart. I was either going to heaven or hell.
I decided. I sat on the floor; well it wasn't as much floor as it was clouds really. They are actually quite rough and wet, not cushion like at all. No human being could stand on them. I'm a ghost, I can. I folded my arms getting angry.
I felt heat on over my heart. I looked down and saw a slight trickle of blood coming out of my silvery shadowy being. It was the only coloured thing about me. Slowly I felt more human until I started to sink through the clouds.
My heart began to pound in my chest. I saw another silvery person as I drifted through the scratchy clouds.
'Don't come back soon!' he shouted as I spiralled into a dark tunnel towards the earth waiting far below. I started laughing, understanding his shout. My laugh typhooned upwards back to him. He smiled as I left Purgatory. Then I found myself drifting gently on the breeze, the clouds had disappeared.
Pain rocketed through me, I screamed, it was every pain I had had except a hundred times worst. I screamed and screamed as my legs re-broke my stomach un-healed the gunshot wound, my leg bone shattered, my head got thrown about numerous times, my chest burned strongly and hot blood, sweat and tears flowed freely out of me. I felt my consciousness slowly slip away as I was dragged through a window back into my hospital room.
I could vaguely see horrifies nurses and doctors trying to jumpstart my heart. I felt the last shock before my body clenched up and I forgot everything. Like that, my mind went blank and then pictures flew past my closed eyes. Every memory I'd had right up to the present moment, it was like my mind was re-booting.
I opened my eye a crack; no one was there this time. Then I remembered the image I'd seen while in Purgatory, they were all unconscious maybe dead, a mass of tangled, bloodied limbs. A tear drizzled its way down my cheek flowed by others until it was all a river of tears. I whimpered a single name as that horrific image re-entered my head:
'Edward.'
Yeah, that's my favourite chapter so far… I think.
I don't know why.
I have now started a new thing within my stories: There will be a song for every chapter. It will either show what one of the characters (Bella!) was feeling or describe the situation pretty well.
This chapter's song is: Your Star - by Evanescence
I chose it because it described how Bella's feeling at the end of the chapter. It's a pretty good song, so listen to it.
Luv ya,
Beth 'Just Kill Me Now' Cullen
xx