Disclaimer: The same as the last two chapters

A/N: Thank you everyone for reviewing chapter 2! I hope you like this chapter. And sorry it's so short. I didn't realize how short it was until now but I've been at work all day and I'm too tired to add more but chapter four will be a lot longer promise.

Chapter 3: Feel

Tohma banged on Noriko's door loudly as he struggled to catch his breath. Things were getting out of control and he didn't know of any way to manage them. First he was going out of his way to soften Ryuichi up so he could convince him to join. Then he allowed the man to sleep over his house which ultimately led up to the unfortunate incident that happened nearly an hour ago. The more he thought about what went on between the two, the more he began to question himself. He'd never felt that way when he had kissed previous girls, how could a guy make him feel like that? He had tried to convince himself that he didn't like it but the more he tried to tell himself other wise, the more he wish he wouldn't have ran off. What if Ryuichi left and never showed up to the bar again? Not only would that be a downfall for Nittle Grasper, but he could feel himself feeling a bit down at the thought.

He could hear Noriko fumbling inside of her apartment as she struggled to get to the door. If anyone could calm her down it would ultimately be her. But how could he explain to her his reason for sudden appearance but he needed some advice on the situation.

"Whoever this is you better be dying or I'm going to kill you," she shouted angrily as she opened the door to find Tohma standing there.

"Toh-ma?" she asked as she opened up the door slowly and stared at him inquisitively. "Why didn't you just use your spare?" She asked as she moved aside to let him walk in the door.

"Because…I left it at home, I was in a hurry to leave." He responded as he walked into the apartment quickly. Forgetting that Noriko was never the neat type, he found himself tripping over a few items on her floor along his way to her couch. Along the while, Noriko stared at him strangely, as she shut the door and leaned back against it.

"What's going on? You're acting a bit off tonight." She asked as she folded her arms across her chest.

Tohma just sat there as he calmed himself down. Why had he run over here in a panic? Things weren't as bad as he thought they were. He knew that he was over-reacting a bit but the last thing he thought he would be doing is making out with a guy he met in the karaoke bar. He let out a frustrated sigh as he ruffled his hair as if it would help his thoughts sort out better. "Noriko, remember that singer I told you about?" he asked while staring at the floor.

Noriko raised her brow skeptically at the question, as she unfolded her arms. She walked over to the couch and sat down next to Tohma. "Yea I remember you telling me about him, why?"

"Well…" Tohma began as he took a deep breath. He wanted to ask for advice so that he would feel better about everything. "He's over at my place right now."

Noriko moved away slightly as she let out a fake gasp. "Tohma you dirty slut, you've already slept with him?"

The blonde's eyes opened widely as he looked up at his friend. She was smiling at him obviously amused by her own humor. While he knew she was kidding, she was closer to the facts than she knew. "No…well…"

"Well?" she responded, trying to coax him into finishing his sentence.

"Well, you weren't…that far off." He finished.

"Are you serious?" she asked as she moved closer to Tohma and observed his face.

"Well he climbed into my bed and I didn't think too much of it because you do that sometimes." He started as he sat back on the couch and leaned his head back. He closed his eyes as he saw everything clearly, like it was happening right before his eyes. "At first he just laid his head on my chest and wrapped his arm around my waist. It was nothing special, but then…"

"He kissed you?" Noriko wheedled.

"Yes, and I began to kiss him back. The next thing I knew he was straddling me and grinding against me and I was moaning." Tohma said as she sat up and stared at Noriko. "That's when I realized what I was doing and with a guy no less."

"Oh Tohma," Noriko replied as she pulled him into a gentle hug.

"But that's not all," he continued while taking a deep breath. "Nori, I liked every moment of it." He said as he looked up at her. She looked down at him and kissed his forehead sweetly.

"Then why are you in a panic over it?"

"Well because, it was the first time that has ever happened to me and I felt something other than the usual. And besides, he's our future lead vocalist; I can't monopolize that for some physical pleasure."

Noriko nodded as she chuckled a bit. She let Tohma go as she looked at him with a small smile. "Well then, go over and make up with him before he runs away. He's probably freaking out and has even most likely left by now."

Tohma nodded as he stood up slowly. He had to go back and make up with Ryu for Nittle Grasper and himself. He was really starting to think of him as a friend even though they'd only had very few encounters. He seemed like he could be someone that Tohma could depend on almost as much as he depended on Noriko.

"Okay, I'm going to head back. Sorry for waking you up at this hour."

"No problem kid, just get back there and make up with him." Noriko said as she stood up and walked him to the door. She opened it and watched him walk out calmly, the most she could do and wish him good luck. While the turn of events was a bit shocking, it was nice that Tohma had found him someone whether he realized it or not. She shut the door calmly as she leaned back against it.

"I guess I can tell Kyoko that he's off the market now." She said as she let out a heavy sigh and went back to bed.

Tohma arrived home about an hour later and he still hadn't come up with a way to apologize to the singer. He didn't want it to sound too rehearsed but then again he wasn't use to apologizing to people very often. It was a lot he wasn't use to doing and that made him hate his upbringing more and more. Interacting with 'normal' people was a challenge for him. Since he'd always been presented everything on a silver platter by his parents, he didn't have to learn how to act a certain way because people liked him regardless. But with these people around him currently, he knew he had to be considerate of their feelings. Maybe that's why he acted the way he did towards Taku. He wasn't use to people opposing him and Taku was doing just that. But not only that, he was trying to take things for his own while Tohma had worked so hard to establish the group's foundation. And since he'd never worked in his life, him putting his all into this and then having someone try and steal the credit really pissed him off.

Tohma took a deep breath as he decided he was going to go in and say whatever came to mind. Ryuichi was a nice person and Tohma was positive he would be fine with just a sincere apology. Pulling his keys out of the ignition and stepping out of the car, he made his way up to his door and unlocked it quietly. He opened the door slowly as he noticed all the lights were turned off. A sudden wave of panic overcame him as he realized Ryuichi must have felt bad about what had happened and left. Walking in and shutting the door, Tohma took off his shoes in a hurry and ran into the living room. What he saw made his heart rate slow down instantly. Ryuichi was lying on the couch sleeping as if nothing had happened. The blonde could feel himself smiling warmly as he watched the figure.

He walked over to the couch slowly and kneeled down beside it. He could hear Ryuichi snoring lightly, which made it obvious he had been out for a while. Tohma studied his face as he made himself more comfortable beside him. He looked so angelic sleeping like he didn't have a care in the world. He slept with his lips pouted which made things a bit awkward. Tohma kept thinking about the kiss that they'd shared early and wondered what it would have felt like if he'd continued.

His fingers caressed Ryu's cheek as he leaned in and kissed his forehead. He had no idea what he was feeling, but he knew that he didn't want to leave his side. Why had these two come together the way that they did? And why did Tohma feel like without him he would feel a void? They hadn't known each other for very long and this very feeling scared the blonde. All he knew is that he sincerely cared for the sleeping man. But then again it was hard not to care about him since he was kind, playful; naïve and completely open to other people. He wore his emotions out on his sleeve and that was something he always wanted himself. In a way Ryuichi possessed some qualities that Tohma himself wish he had.

He sighed softly as he leaned in and kissed his friend's lips gently. It was now clear to him on why he wanted Ryuichi in the band, and his hidden motive had suddenly gained another agenda.

End Chapter

A/N: Do I make Tohma sound like a love sick teenager? Sorry but I thought the last part was sweet lol.