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I forgot to put this in the first chapter. :D
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Dayspring usually is the sign of another day but to our protagonists of this story, it's just another portent of the shadow of their day.
Actually, they never bothered to know if the time they are having really can be considered as a day.. because unaccomplished tasks usually rule their day.
" Minna! Tomorrow is the Alice Ball, this is just a rare occasion, so why don't we go out and prepare?" Mikan suggested blatantly. She is always like this, right? She's the kind of girl who's always animated when parties are being talked about.
" Waste of money," Hotaru replied lethargically after sipping her tea. Oh yes,.. for her it would be a squander of money again even though this only occurs once a year. And they're not even extravagant in buying things. Oh.. .. her world revolves around money so there's nothing we can do.
" Oh yes.. I would love that!" Anna and Nanoko, considered as the twins, answered in unison. Their brains really have the same gyration of wheels.
" Oh..yeah.. I need to be fabulous enough for Natsume and Ruka to notice me! Ah!ah!ah!" Sumire squealed as she coiled her fingers in her tresses like flirting. Until now, she's still the President of the Natsume and Ruka's fans club .. even if she knows she doesn't have even a tinge of chance to win the hearts of her icons.
" How about you, Misaki-senpai?" asked Mikan when she noticed that Misaki was kinda silent that time, staring blankly to nowhere, you know.. like a living dead.
Misaki and her company or her kouhais were talking and planning for the Alice Ball tomorrow night. Misaki didn't come here as dictated by her mind and as wished by her heart, it was not her will.. she was just forced. Before, she was really excited going to balls like this, because that time everything was fine, now.. nothing.
Result.. she couldn't ride on the ongoing hilarity. She was there dwelling lamely in the world now enigmatic to her.
Alarmed by the voice of Mikan,
" Ah, I think… I still have plenty of things to do, so I might not be able to go out and besides.. I don't want to go to the party tomorrow," she tried to beam.. knowing that not attending the party tomorrow is something that shouldn't be grinned about. Still she added it to her expression to mask her almost palpable misery.
And yeah.. she did have plenty of things to do. Like Tsubasa, all she wanted to do that time was to think and to sleep.
" Souka.. are you alright, senpai?" now Mikan was cautious of Misaki's actions, something is definitely off beam.
" Uhm..yeah.. you better get going now..girls.. I'll just head back to my room and sleep, I'm not feeling well," she couldn't hide it anymore.. so she divulged the fact. She's not feeling well and she's afraid that she will never ever be feeling well again.
" I can say you're a bad liar, senpai..," Hotaru remarked unexpectedly.
" I thought you have plenty of things to do," Anna added as she pondered on what Misaki said a while ago.
" But you also said you're not feeling well.. and that you need to sleep," Nanoko agreed with her twin of course.
" Now, what's wrong, senpai?" Sumire asked agitatedly.
Now, Misaki was cornered by none other than words. Words are really powerful, aren't they?
" Ah.. now..now. don't you worry kouhais.. I'm fine.. I just need some rest then after that I'll finish my tasks.. and I've been exhausted for days.. so..-," at least she managed to trip over her tongue than being able to say nothing.. which simply means.. it's all true.. she's a liar… a bad liar.
Good thing, Mikan cut her off because she had no more idea what words were next to come out of her mouth.
" Ok,, see you then, senpai! And take care, ok?" she ordered Misaki like a big sister.
Then, she finished drinking her tea and there she stood.. putting back her chair in good place under the table.
Her friends also did the same and bade goodbye to Misaki.. with the *take care* tag.
Soon, Mikan with her company was already nowhere in sight. Misaki was now left alone there sitting on that particular chair and at that particular place where there was no sign of people except herself. She decided to proceed to her room leaving her tea.. cold….no trace of appreciation from Misaki.
Inside her room, she threw herself on her bed. She used to open her windows and let the air come in for her to breathe.. while doing something enjoyable. But now.. windows were closed… curtains were closed.. the door were closed.. her eyes were closed.. everything was closed except her heart and consciousness. Reason? She was not sure what she did want to do that time: to lie down, to sleep, or to cry.
She hates this. She hates everything that is currently happening. It's not right. Herself is now a complete stranger to her. Whenever she looks at the mirror, she can no longer identify if that is her. Yes, she is a doppelganger.. yet her alter ego is someone who's the opposite of the real her.
She used to think positively. Yeah, she used to have a cheerful disposition but now, everything was completely the opposite of the way things were.. before that day. She wants to rewind the time but she is not sure if she could alter the fact that she loves Tsubasa.. as her best friend.. or as someone more than that or maybe she never did, like she is just feeling pity for him.
She had never got out of that confusion. That was why until now.. no move.. no solution.
Time was really rushing. The ball was very fast-approaching, just like after opening your eyes, you were now in the middle of a complete peculiar atmosphere, the iridescent bulbs, the tittering of students, the shadows dancing and the "imaginary" sight of someone you've longed for almost one and a half year.
" Oh,, senpai.. you're really pretty in that dress, Kawaii!!" Mikan complimented Misaki while hovering.
Even if Misaki didn't come with them to the Central Town, she luckily found a dress in her cabinet, and she opted to go to the ball because if not, the dress would be useless. And she didn't want that. So, that's the only reason,. huh? Maybe not.
" Aw,, thank you Mikan-chan, you're also pretty cool in that suite," she said blushing.
(a/n: By the way.. my apology, I can't describe their dresses because I'm not really fond of fashion. Just imagine of something suitable to balls like that.)
" So, where are the others?" she then asked.
" Oh, well.. on the dance floor, they left me.." she answered with a sullen tone.
Misaki was very glad to know that at least her friends were enjoying the night, with their special someone. But she.. she was just alone, there was no one to enjoy the night with. She began remembering the previous years wherein she would go to the ball excitedly with her best friend, then she would make him her gofer (without giving him salary), asking him to get her drinks and food and then they would dance just like the others, casual dance- simple, no special affection.
" Oh,.. too bad, why aren't you dancing? Don't you have a partner?" she asked Mikan after reminiscing the phantom of her yesterdays.
" Uhm.. well, yeah.. I've been asking Hotaru but she didn't want.. instead she's just.." she left her words hanging as she pointed towards Hotaru…eating crab jam surrounded by her suitors. Misaki then sweat dropped as she scanned the whole area. There she saw Mikan's company. They were dancing, a girl-to-girl dance. She managed to smile with that sight. She thought they had their own partners but she was really amazed that they could still have the pleasure to have that night..even if..
Her musing was interrupted by Mikan.
" Senpai, how about you, where is Tsubasa- senpai? You two should be dancing ri-" she stopped in a sudden when she noticed that the smile Misaki had been trying to paint was now crumbling down…vanishing like it will no longer be visible..as long as.. they were swimming against that zone.
"Ah..ah..senpai..did I say something wrong? I'm sorry senpai.. I didn't mean to.." Mikan panicked. She was not used to Misaki being like this.. being crestfallen.
"Oh..it's ok.. Mikan-chan.. maybe he's just somewhere out there. Anyway, would you want to dance? I'll be your partner!" she grinned. Again, she was trying to simulate happiness.
Mikan heaved out a sigh. She thought something was wrong with her senpai. She put aside her thoughts.. and for a while kept it at the back of her mind. It was not the time to think topics like that.
" Really, senpai? Ok, yehey!! C'mon let's join them!" she started dragging Misaki to the dance floor.
And they started dancing unmindful of the tick tock of the clock, forgetting all the worries, having the time of their lives. For once, Misaki was able to laugh, laugh as in her genuine laugh not just a charade. And she was very happy, happy to feel her own happiness overflowing but she was scared that in any moment it might spill..be wasted.
The most awaited moment for that ball arrived in few minutes.
Ok..!! sorry.. actually there is still a continuation but I just feel like cutting it.. don't worry I'll update as fast as I could.. and sorry no TsubaSaki scenes for this chapter..just the POV of Misaki..but for the next chapter.. there will be..mark my word!!
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