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3. Hidden Love
BPOV
I jerked awake at the creak I had heard. I turned and saw Edward in my room, technically my temporary room; he was in shorts and a T-shirt. My jaw dropped as he lifted my covers and slipped in next to me.
"Edward? What are you doing?" I asked him shocked. He chuckled.
"What do you think, love?" he asked planting a kiss below my ear. I blushed at the word love. He continued kissing me on my neck. I giggled.
"Edward you do know that if my Aunt burst in now, we are dead?" I said looking at his bronze hair. He made a low growling noise. I slowly put my hand in his hair and allowed him to continue.
"I was wondering if I could sleep with you?" he asked looking up. I blushed a little but I knew what he meant. I nodded.
He settled himself comfortably on my right.
"I love you Bella." He said softly kissing my temple.
"Love you too Edward." I said feeling happy that I had found someone like him.
He smiled.
…..
Almost two hours had passed and I still haven't fallen asleep. Edward had fallen asleep almost immediately. His arm was currently around my waist and his head was inches from mine. As I watched him sleep
I felt my eyes brimming with tears. His pale face was calm and a small smile graced his lips.
In my heart I knew that I loved him too much to live without him. His caring, loving, playful and sweet nature was too much for a person like me. A tear slid down my cheek and fell on the pillow.
My dad was one of the nicest dads one could find. He was sweet and loving and all that a father is supposed to be. But my dad wanted me to marry a man of his choice. My brother Emmett had it lucky, him being a boy and all, but I got the most wonderful sister in law.
I had just kidded with Edward that day. Emmett wouldn't hurt a fly. He was very gentle that way. My dad on the other hand was unbelievably silly. He had sent me here so that I would be under the watchful eye of his sister. I hated her. She was just like him in every way possible.
I hated my father because he was the reason I had never had a date in my whole life and he was the reason no guy in Forks ever came within ten feet of me.
Once, a guy in my grade told me he liked me a lot and I knew I liked him too. He asked me out and we did go, without telling my dad. My dad being the snoopy person he is found out and the guy and I had just begun a kiss.
The poor guy's face was disfigured so badly. At times I am terrified of my dad. He looks like he would do anything to keep me away from the opposite sex. If my father ever saw Edward and me kissing, Edward would probably never be able to walk again.
I shut my eyes and took a deep breath. I love Edward. I shooed away the sad thoughts to the best of my ability.
…
I felt hot. Why the hell did I feel so hot? I opened my eyes and saw Edward's head on my chest. I blushed a little.
Only then did I notice that my shirt had ridden up almost completely (thank god for the bra). I tried to pull it down but my position made it really difficult. I shifted a little.
I finally gave up. I settled down again making sure that the door was locked. I ran my fingers through his hair. I loved the color. It was rare.
I closed my eyes and hummed a small tune to myself.
"Oh my god!"
I opened my eyes in shock.
Edward was sitting upright and staring right at my chest. As much as I knew that it wasn't like him to do it. I also knew that he was a guy. I pulled down my shirt. He still stared. I punched him lightly on the arm and he looked up.
"So sorry Bella! I didn't mean to. I just didn't …." He said looking really ashamed.
I laughed.
"Its okay." I said getting off the bed slowly. His eyes followed me.
He jumped off the bed and pulled me tightly against him. I was surprised but pleased. He peppered my face with kisses.
"Edward, you're acting like you haven't seen me in ages." I said laughing lightly as he pulled me tightly against his chest.
"I love you Bella." He said into my ear.
"I love you too, now I really need to use the bathroom." I said pulling myself out of his grasp.
….
Breakfast and lunch had been boring but since Edward and I made out behind the cottage and then down the beach, everything was fine.
We were currently sprawled on the sand and he was holding me.
"Edward?" I called to him.
"Hmm?"
"I was wondering if…" I began but I lost the courage to ask him.
He lifted my chin up with a long, pale finger and smiled at me. "Ask me love."
"I was wondering if you had any serious relationships in the past." I asked blushing again.
"Well I did have a few girlfriends. I never did love them like I do you. You surpass them all Bella. You are beautiful and yet you are self conscious, you never lather yourself in make-up, you didn't drop your pants at seeing me the first time, and well I think you are special anyway." He said kissing my collarbone.
I shivered. He was teasing me now. I pushed him over and I was sitting on his stomach, technically called straddling but I don't wanna use that word. He looked surprised.
"What about you Bella?" he asked reaching out and pulling me gently down so that I was lying on his chest.
I felt the fear bubbling up in me. What if he left me? What if he doesn't love me anymore?
"Bella? Is anything wrong?" he asked me his eyes widening in concern.
I took a deep breath.
Flashback:
AGE 15
"Dad, a guy in my class asked me to go to the dance with him this Saturday." I said happily.
"What! And what did you say?" he asked me looking angry.
"I said yes"
My dad was fuming at the ears. "You are going to spoil the family name. He will get you pregnant! You will not go Isabella! Do you hear me?" he said getting up. I stood frozen.
"But dad I want to go." I said whining just a little.
I hadn't expected him to slap me. I would have taken a no better. I didn't speak to him for a week.
AGE 19
"Isabella!" he called . His voice thundering. I slowly came out of my room.
"You are a disgrace to our family. I heard that you have been going to see a young man called Michael. I have no doubts as to what you have done at his house. If you get pregnant don't blame me." He said slapping me on my cheek. I cried the whole night. The next day, on the news there was a young boy who had been brutally beaten up.
I felt terrified. I tried to run away that night.
"Well well well, are you going somewhere Isabella?" he asked me as I made to open the door. I knew that I would never be able to have a life. He would probably never let me get married.
End flashback
Edward slowly wiped the tears off my face. "I am so sorry for you, love" he said crushing me to his chest. I froze.
"You aren't going to leave me?" I asked him in surprise. His eyes widened.
"I will never leave you. Not even in my dreams." He promised kissing me roughly.
"Bella, the only thing that I …well….wonder about is…..well …..whether you….you know, are a ….are a virgin?" he said becoming mildly pink. I smiled at his nervousness.
"Yes. What about you?" I asked still smiling.
"Yeah"
"I wanted the person to be special, you know, someone I could trust and love. You seem to fit the description very well" I said boldly hoping that he understood what I meant.
He blushed a little again.
"Oh"
"Edward? Are you okay?" I asked him. He was still a mild red.
EPOV
Oh my god! She wanted to do it with me. I blushed, because I had imagined her like that, many times even though it wasn't very gentlemanly of me to do so. With Bella things were always different. She was spontaneous, sometimes she was so shy and other times she was bold.
"I'm fine" I said clearing my throat. Bella laughed lightly. And then again she surprised me by straddling my lap. I froze trying not to feel her warmth. She was really heating up. I could see that her neck was red.
"Edward please tell me what you are thinking." She said wrapping her arms around my neck. I shivered a little.
"I was thinking about what you just said."
She looked at me with an innocent expression on her face. "What do you mean Edward?"
"Ugh. Bella please don't do this to me." I said looking at her with a frustrated expression. She giggled. I stared at her. I wished that I could spend everyday with her like this. Making out, talking, and making out. That was the general idea.
"Edward you do want that too don't you?" she asked me looking a little hurt. I felt bad that I had made her misunderstand my nervousness.
"Bella of course I do. I want you too. But I just got off guard you know. I've always wanted to make love to you since the day I met you." I said kissing her lightly.
"Really?" she asked twirling the bit of hair that had come out from behind her ear. I groaned.
"What?" she asked looking at me frowning.
"Don't do that" I said pulling the hair out of her grasp.
"Why?" she asked looking bewildered. I closed my eyes wondering what the best way to explain to her was.
"You look sexy when you do that." I said watching her eyes for a reaction.
Her eyes popped wide open. "You mean you want to…"
"Okay enough with that. You will make me lose all my self control and that would be it. Your aunt will come find us in the morning and we will have no clothes…." I said talking quickly to get myself distracted.
"Okay I get the idea. I won't talk about that now. Happy?" she asked me getting of my lap.
I shook my head. She giggled.
Then she ran. I only realized about five seconds later that she had started running towards the sea.
"Bella!" I called and took off after her.
…
We were in the middle of a heated kiss. Bella's clothes were transparent since they were wet. My hand was on her back and the other behind her neck. As much as I wanted my hands to move I didn't want to give her the impression that I was feeling her up.
"Edward we'd better get going now." She said pulling back panting. I tried my best not to stare at her chest through her transparent top (even though she had a bra on underneath). She was completely oblivious of her ability to make guys swoon just by looking at them. I was currently battling with my inner man, who was trying to pull her out of those clothes. The moment i realized that my urge was going too far I closed my eyes. I tried to concentrate on what she had said.
"Yeah." I said turning and pulling her along with me.
"What will we tell them?" she asked gesturing to our wet clothes.
"You fell in and I saved you" I said grinning at her.
She snorted, that was so unlike Bella, but I liked it.
"Fine then."
I took her hand and we started walking back to our cottage.
….
"Edward…please…don't" she said tears slipping down her cheeks in torrents. I shook her.
"Bella. Bella. Bella…..wake up…come on." I said shaking her a little more.
She jerked awake and stared at me. "Bella, its okay, you only had a nightmare. Everything will be fine." I said pulling her into my arms and rocking her gently.
I hummed the new tune that had come to me the day she had said she loved me. Even though Bella had come to my house a lot during our friendship phase she didn't know that I had a piano, or that I played it. She also didn't know that I composed. The song that I was currently humming was inspired by her and was for her. I called it 'Bella's Lullaby'.
I felt Bella calm down.
"I am so sorry Edward. You really shouldn't have seen that. Now you probably think that I am a loon who cries in her sleep." She said pulling back and looking red faced.
"What are you talking about? Now tell me what happened in your dream?"
"I don't know. One moment you were there next to me and then the next you told me you hated me and you kissed some girl." She said shaking a little.
"It's okay. That does happen. I love you no mater what happens." I said pulling her back to me.
"I love you too." She said before settling back under her covers.
I placed a small kiss on her forehead before heading to my room. I was going to sleep there today. Bella should have her rest.
I slowly pulled back the covers and lay down. It was a cool night.
I slowly closed my eyes and dreamed about Bella. My love. My forever.
A/N: I am glad that there are people who actually read this. I would have deleted it if i hadn't known. Hope you like this chapter. Please review and please point out my mistakes. I read the chapters over twice or thrice but my eyes just correct the mistakes of their own accord and hence I don't see them.
By the way Edward is a nice guy. He just reacts like any other man would. I have read many fics on how Edward is super controlled and all. I just wanted him to be like any other normal guy we see in real life.
Charlie is Bella's dad. I don't think I mentioned that. Charlie loves Bella, a lot. He just doesn't like her to be with boys. He is in a way overprotective of her. He is a nice guy and all that. He just loses his temper when Bella doesn't understand his intentions.
Please review. Reviews mean a lot to me. Thanks for reading this anyway. :)